Acoustov - Acoustov

going back to my previous rb, i usually want to be supportive of my friends, and help them in any way i can. but it's killing me this time around. it's rare that i act purely out of self interest, or even admit stuff like this to other people. it's not that i have a hard time opening up to people necessarily, it's just that admitting to someone about my feelings isn't something i like to do.

and at the same time, it seems easier to just let the two get together. it's hard, and i really don't want to just sit by, but i really cannot tell if he'd be into me at all as anything more than just friends. i also really do not want to ruin the friendship that we have, but the crush is very, very strong.

obviously, considering how much i'm writing on about this it's quite clear that the feelings have been happening again.

so i guess i'm in a love triangle? gonna kms, will probably rb with elaboration later

wish i could throw rocks at people that'd be dope

I rewatched hbomberguys anti vaxx video recently and it’s insane how closely parent hysteria over autism mirrors hysteria over “rapid onset gender dysphoria.” in both contexts the emphasis is on the parents watching their children for signs of deviation from normative expectations - the assumption is that children have no interiority of their own, no ability to assert their own identities, and any evidence of their individual personhood (such as being neurodivergent or transgender) is only “real” once parents take notice. the concept of “rapid onset gender dysphoria” assumes this position - it’s only “rapid” to the parents, who either uncover evidence of their kid being trans without the child’s consent (such as scrolling through their phone or going through their things) or when their child discloses their identity to the parents (which generally means they’ve been thinking about it for a while and have been keeping it secret until they felt it appropriate to tell their parents). By the same token, “evidence of autism” is assumed to be sudden, a singular event where children progress from not autistic -> suddenly autistic, only becoming real once the parents finally notice. it’s like all children exist in a quantum state where their only “real” identities are the ones observed and reported by parents - the traits of children are only ever legitimate if a parent says so. In both cases there is an intense fixation on rooting out “aberrant” qualities, and in both cases these qualities are highly pathologised, conferring onto parents the authority of medical institutions to further restrict and control the behaviour of their children. Such conceptions of neurodivergence and gender are predicated on kids being the full property of their parents, who simply monitor and manage their various “conditions,” always vigilant for signs that their child is degenerate, mentally ill, or dysfunctional in some way

i am edging out a psychotic break. too many things happened. i must scream.

man i hate this shit i get so paranoid so easily. why can't i just be normal abt this one specific name

Writing Tips

Punctuating Dialogue

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➸ “This is a sentence.”

➸ “This is a sentence with a dialogue tag at the end,” she said.

➸ “This,” he said, “is a sentence split by a dialogue tag.”

➸ “This is a sentence,” she said. “This is a new sentence. New sentences are capitalized.”

➸ “This is a sentence followed by an action.” He stood. “They are separate sentences because he did not speak by standing.”

➸ She said, “Use a comma to introduce dialogue. The quote is capitalized when the dialogue tag is at the beginning.”

➸ “Use a comma when a dialogue tag follows a quote,” he said.

“Unless there is a question mark?” she asked.

“Or an exclamation point!” he answered. “The dialogue tag still remains uncapitalized because it’s not truly the end of the sentence.”

➸ “Periods and commas should be inside closing quotations.”

➸ “Hey!” she shouted, “Sometimes exclamation points are inside quotations.”

However, if it’s not dialogue exclamation points can also be “outside”!

➸ “Does this apply to question marks too?” he asked.

If it’s not dialogue, can question marks be “outside”? (Yes, they can.)

➸ “This applies to dashes too. Inside quotations dashes typically express—“

“Interruption” — but there are situations dashes may be outside.

➸ “You’ll notice that exclamation marks, question marks, and dashes do not have a comma after them. Ellipses don’t have a comma after them either…” she said.

➸ “My teacher said, ‘Use single quotation marks when quoting within dialogue.’”

➸ “Use paragraph breaks to indicate a new speaker,” he said.

“The readers will know it’s someone else speaking.”

➸ “If it’s the same speaker but different paragraph, keep the closing quotation off.

“This shows it’s the same character continuing to speak.”

god i hope this becomes more standard i want to feel like a detective in a cyberpunk dystopia walking home absolutely wankered at 3 am

perhaps some will disagree, but i think the world got worse when we changed the colour of the night

loving how people are creating bot palestinian accounts and spamming the ask trying to phish for money.

jokes on you my wallet was stolen.

im tired boss.