You're Distracted Again. Close The Tab Or The App And Get Back To Work.

It's ok to not finish books.

It's ok to be a quarter way, half way, most way through a book and go "you know what, this is not working".

DNFs are nothing to be ashamed of.

I'd had to suffer through to the end a few too many pieces of literature that I abhorred with every ounce of my being during my school years, I'm not one to judge anyone for not wanting to do that.

Yes it is, I´m not going to wake up at 4:30 a.m to be at work at 5:45 am(my house and my work are quite far away) be there like ten/twelve hours, have to be there so early because I need to discharge trucks full of gasoline and clean the gasoline tanks, clean public bathrooms, the staff bathroom, do the money counting, attend clients, and not have anybreaks because i´m the only one at the gas station, for 400 hundred euros a month, like I work only twelve hours a week, but it´s a lot of responsability going from being a butcher, well not specifically, it was the charcutery section, but only doing half of that for six hours a day, and divided in sunday, saturday and when it was a week day with festivities i would work but if i did more hours i would either get the extra hours paid or in vacation days. Like no thanks.

Day 8/30

Okay so I have to do a herbal of different types of plants, they could be real or fantastic, so I decided to do it of genshin impact bosses that look a lot like plants, a part of the whoopflowers I have also done the regesvide, but I love of this one's are looking so far. I'm regretting my life decisions but because I need to give it in two days and I'm halfway through it, I need to finish the final details and give it either colour or shades.

Wish me luck!

I've really been struggling to study because I haven't been doing well mentally. I barely sleep so I can't concentrate and I don't have any motivation to do anything.

I really don't want to fail my exams, so tomorrow I'm going to the library in the morning. I also need structure and routine in my life. I graduated from high school 4 years ago (during the pandemic) and I feel like I haven't had a proper routine since.

I know this is going to be hard because I literally haven't studied at all. I do uni online, they give us study materials and that's it. No lectures. You study on your own, you take an exam and that's it.

So I have to study the whole semester in 2 weeks. I might not pass, but at least I'll feel better knowing I tried.

I'm going to try and study a little before bed, I'm also going to prepare some topics I would like to write about on my blog :)

me this semester

Okay, so I just finished my studies, like today was the last assignment we had to give to the teacher, and I'm both, horribly anxious( I don't really know if I'll have to go to June or not) and so relaxed that is weird af, but I'm just going to enjoy the summer vacation, work a lot and travel across my country with my friends.

I'll leave some of the drawings I did for today's assignment.

I know that Harley is super horrible, but se is my favourite antihero mixed with my least favourite technique to use, the pastel.

So I need to do a final assignment in any topic I want for my art history class, I decided to do it about the military propaganda in movies (needs to be related to art) like top gun and others, (disclaimer, I haven't watched any one of this films, yet, 'cause I don't enjoy cine about war but military propaganda is super funny, end of disclaimer), and holy shit, this is super wild, like the Americans have a lot of propaganda films? My country, Spain, comes from a military dictatorship but we couldn't talk about the hardships of war and things like that, it was a very taboo topic, now a day's not so much, except with elderly people, but like I had to go to films from Franco's time to find a film that didn't mock them, this doesn't mean we don't have, lately we've been having more, but I don't know, I just find it interesting.

Proof of my work, is in Spanish and not the final title.

if you're learning how to cook or branching out or feel like you just are not a very good cook or can't cook at all it is so important to know that when experienced cooks say they're measuring with their heart they are lying to you. They are measuring with their intuition, instinct, and experience, all of which are built by following recipes (written or taught by family), experimenting a lot, or some combination of the two: no matter how they learned, they learned it through cooking way more than you have. If you're trying to cook based on instinct or the assumption that you should just be able to figure it out and you don't like how your food comes out or you don't know where to start, find recipes and follow them to the letter. There is nothing wrong with looking up how to scramble eggs or make a stir fry. It will make your cooking better and easier, I promise.

Changing my degree has been a huge step in the right direction. I’m watching more films, meeting new people, and even thought the workload is a lot harder, I’m enjoying the process and excited for the results 💕