Five Things That Made Me Fall In Love With You. Or Maybe Even More...
five things that made me fall in love with you. or maybe even more...
this awkward joke, my favorite first awkward joke. it was so strange, but it was the first time you made me feel special, even in this strange and sarcastic way
our friendship. it was so warm, so familiar, so close. just like rainy summer day when something is not supposed to be happening, but still happens, yet feels really really good, our friendship was the most interesting interaction with anyone in this world
trust. it is not even the fact that i can tell you anything as much as the fact that i really want to. Or maybe it is a mixture of both that makes me feel so secure with you
mutuality that never in my life i felt so much, before you. those meaningless fights on who loves more are fun, but honestly i feel like we both give out full 100% into this relationships which makes me extremely grateful.
it feels like it was yesterday. first time i realized that i’m falling for you, first kiss, first i love you, first time that i saw you in my future. It is just doesn’t feel like burden, and i don’t feel like it ever will. It is so easy to be with you, because it just feels right. there are challenges and struggles, but i don’t feel like they matter at all. nothing ever makes me feel like giving up, because whatever it is, just having you in my life is so god damn worth it.
you are not like other people. you look at things in this different but also interesting way that always made me wonder and made me want to explore them. I can’t get tired talking to you, because even though we are same, yet manage to be so different. I know everything i need to know about you, while actually i don’t know anything at all, because you are too much to explore, and i’m willing to test my luck until our last talk.
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"I'm having suicidal thoughts again and I want to tell someone. I want to open up and ask for help but I'm scared that they'll see me different so I just face it alone until the thoughts eventually win."
— my thoughts are killing me slowly
10/8/20
Jeez, long time no see! I hope to start making some more original content again over the next few months seeing as the uni grind is beginning once again. I’m currently starting some research towards my dissertation on gender in early modern england (can’t believe i’m going into the last year of this degree…)
It’s been a whirlwind couple of months, for me and like,, everyone else on the planet- got my second year feedback and averaged a high 2:1- relieved to say in the least! Whilst I’m back on the grind now, here are a couple of productive things I’ve found great for filling up my free time:
1) Learning a new skill- I’ve always wanted to try out yoga and meditation, seeing as I’m neither peaceful nor flexible. I try to practice 3x a week, and I’ve already noticed improvements in my breathing and flexibility, and I’m just feeling a whole lot calmer! Think of A Thing you’ve always wanted to try, but put off because you thought you’d be no good at it, and give it a good stab while you’ve got the free time.
2) Reading. All. The. Books. I set myself a challenge to read thirty books before results day, to keep my mind off of it all- proud that I’ve succeeded! Reading is such a peaceful, productive passivity and I will never cease to shut up about it.
3) If you can, getting outside for a good long walk. In this heat, a good 2 hour walk around my area with my boyfriend, or a podcast, has been a really nice substitute for more high intensity cardio. It’s also a good idea if you’re looking for ways to get outside without putting yourself in a high risk environment- changing up your regular route can be the greatest little adventure! I somehow ended up by the Thames a couple of days back, which was so cool.
4) Pick up some extra qualifications to boost your CV! I work part time in childcare, and am interested in teaching, so I got a little online certification in developmental psych to stick on my CV.
5) NETFLIX. So much netflix. Good binge- able shows I’ve been loving include The Umbrella Academy, The Sinner, Nightflyers, and Another Life. Also, I rewatch brooklyn nine nine every. damn. day.
Hope you guys are safe, and well!
Chakras & Crystals
Crown - Selenite, Crystal Quartz, Moonstone, Fluorite, Amethyst
Third Eye - Lapis Lazuli, Iolite, Sapphire, Sodalite
Throat - Agate, Angelite, Turquoise, Amazonite, Hawk Eye
Heart - Rose Quartz, Aventurine, Malachite, Unakite
Solar Plexus - Citrine, Tiger’s Eye, Amber, Yellow Calcite, Topaz
Sacral - Carnelian, Peach Moonstone, Orange Aventurine, Orange Calcite
Root - Red Jasper, Obsidian, Red Tiger’s Eye, Tourmaline
When Emily Brönte said "You said I killed you. Haunt me then."
and when M.L Rio said "Here's the thing about lust: you don't have to like each other. Ever heard of hate sex?"
and when Achilles said “There are no bargains between lion and men. I will kill you and eat you raw.”
and when Oscar Wilde said "Everything in the world is about sex except sex. Sex is about power."
and when Donna Tartt said "There was a horrible, erratic thumping in my chest, as if a large bird was trapped inside my ribcage and beating itself to death."
?????????
Those are purely raw emotions.
Passion, love, panic, power and death are an insane combination.
It’s Not Over
I think of you at night, and when hearses drive by Their trembling vibrato cracking over the uneven pavement Like the wavering voice of a gloomy love song I see you in those mournful processions People marching with memories round their necks A hanging noose dragging like an unheld leash Oh I think of you Your absence filling my head Like the lungs of the drowned fill with water
Don’t tell me I’m too young to get it Like the words I’m speaking are just braids of sounds Devoid of meaning Of course, they’ll never be enough to make you stay Nothing I could try would keep the feeling from going sour The loss from setting in But even if you walk, it’s not over Listen, won’t you It’s not over till I say it is And my mouth is stitched closed As in those grinding dreams where I lose all my teeth I can’t say I won’t say I choke on these same words It’s not over
Oh love, oh lover It was good once, it was pure Till I asked for too much Till I went and ruined it all with my monstrous hunger You’re right that I’m too young Just a kid who demands and takes but never gives Only pitiful tokens Noodle necklaces and cardboard flowers Finger paintings, where my touch still clings to your skin My heart on a platter Those poor childish offerings
I’m orphaned without you Orphaned and unhinged But even if you’re gone, it’s not over Listen, I beg of you It’s not over even as I’m on my knees Even as I’m half a person Small enough to fit in your shadow Perhaps you’re right Perhaps I’m too young I could cry and embrace your legs Cry like children do, When they still believe that tears Can turn on the light and make people come back
But perhaps I’m too old Perhaps I’m too tired And I can no longer rest my head on you In the curve of your shoulder Oh love, you should have come over
Inspired by Lover You Should’ve Come Over by Jeff Buckley, as requested by @samaya11
October 2020 Tarot Challenge
Hello everyone, this challenge was made with the 2020 October calendar in mind but you could apply this to any month. Allow this challenge to guide you through your October up to the Samhain full moon.
What will I get out of this challenge?
What can I expect from this month?
What should my efforts be focused on?
How can I prepare myself for the upcoming week?
What is my current mental state?
What is my current physical state?
What is my current spiritual state?
What is the interaction between my mind, body, and spirit?
How can I reap the benefits of my efforts?
How can I rest my spirit and find peace?
How can I take on this week with an open mind and spirit?
What in my life is draining my energy?
How can I energize my mind, body, and spirit to take on the day?
What am I missing in my life?
How can I prepare for a new start?
What goals are most important to me?
What is the first step to pursuing my goals?
What is the root of my suffering?
How can I let go of pain?
What am I holding onto?
What relationships should I focus on?
What is holding me back?
How can I push past my doubts and keep moving forward?
What can I expect from the sun in Scorpio?
How can I honor my ancestors?
What are my spirit guides trying to tell me?
How can I heal my wounds from this month?
How can I connect with my higher self?
What do I need to do to prepare for the full moon?
What did I accomplish this month?
What do my ancestors want to communicate to me on this day when the veil is most thin?
bindrunes!!
Stare. Dead stare. It didn’t have an ending nor did he remember when it all began. Flames were reflecting in those dark iris of Anthony’s eyes, didn’t represent what he felt at all. Colors were dancing all across the room, while some gray bag of blood didn’t even move for the celebration of once again rising sun. His legs were shaking, so he finally stood up to close the window, just to realize it wasn’t cold that made him freeze. Ironic isn’t it,he thought, everything in this room reminded him of warmth of happiness that he might never feel again. In flame he saw escape, in flame he found ease. Desire to run didn’t leave him for a second, but he couldn’t even breathe properly, or maybe it was just а dirt on long-time abandoned carpet. Dust was flying all across the room just like Anthony’s memories did. Both turned his eyes red. It wasn’t the end of everything, maybe. But one thing was for sure ending, and it was his freedom, once and for all.
this is going to be my check list :)
Hello do you know any dark academia movies or TV shows that I can find on Netflix?
* DISCLAIMER: this is based off of my personal loose definition of DA. Some of you may disagree with me on these qualifying but I believe they mostly fit. Also, the movies listed are horror movies. If you have any sensitivity to horror, google the movie before watching it. I know there are more DA shows and movies out there, this post contains Netflix DA content only.
DA Shows on Netflix:
The Magicians- magical university with dark themes! Takes awhile to get over the writing but the gist is pretty good
The End of the F*cking World- School setting and a shit ton of misfortune. Also funny and captivating
Dear White People - university with secret societies! Bonus points for diversity plus this is funny af 10/10
A Series of Unfortunate events - you prob know this from your childhood, one of the OG examples of DA I think. Dark shit and (sometimes) a school setting
Derry Girls- Irish school in the 90’s! Deals with the Irish conflict so semi- dark themes, this one is also hilarious and one of my favorite shows ever
Skins- (kind of DA) dark themes + teens. Earliest seasons are best
The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina- Satan worshipping witches! A witch school! Murder! Corruption! Can be very dark, writing also takes a while to get over, but if you watch long enough you’ll love it
How to Get Away with Murder- the title says it all. (This show also helped get me into DA)
DA Movies on Netflix:
A Nightmare on Elm Street- ik this is barely dark academia but it has a school setting and dark themes BC murder, also vintage v cool
The Scream franchise - teens in school + a murderer. Also vintage and great
Silence of the Lambs- (I know this is barely, again I have a loose definition of DA) main character is in the FBI academy + a murderer. Also vintage
it just bottles up and up until you can’t hold it, and once you spill it, you don’t feel anything anymore
