OFF-SCREEN | JJK

OFF-SCREEN | JJK

Pairing: Pro Streamer!Jungkook x Faceless Female!Reader

Genre: Streamer Au, Gamer Au, Social Media Au, Strangers to Lovers Au, Fluff, Smut, Angst

Word count: 18k

Synopsis:

Being a woman in the gaming industry is challenging, especially when all eyes are on you. What happens, though, when your biggest rival finds out that the well-known streamer who consistently wins games is not who people believe they are?

Or

You've spent your entire life pretending to be a guy online, so when one of the biggest steamers finds out, things get even more tricky.

A/n: This was a lot of fun to write! However, it is unmistakably very different and out of my comfort zone, I hope I did a good job. Feedback is much welcomed. Any words that are in bold are the start of new scenes!

Undercover

You can't recall the last time you signed in as a female character to play a video game. Just by slightly altering your voice, using a decent voice filter, your voice changed from your female one, to a guys one in seconds.

This has been your life for the past two years.

From 8 am to 5 pm, you were Y/n, a 19-year-old dropout who had a full-time job serving customers and selling snacks at a convenience shop down the road, living in a tiny studio apartment in the middle of Seoul. But at night, you changed into Borahae7, a well-known streamer who was a ace at every game she (he) played.

Without even being able to identify the exceptional gamer by face, people idolized you.

Borahae7

Yes, it wasn't exactly the most original of names. You came up with it when you were fifteen years old creating your first minecraft character. It had no meaningful meaning, no interesting narrative. You liked the colour purple, and 7 was your lucky number. That's it.

But let's get back to the crucial part: this brand-new game, Cypher, had just recently been released 3 months ago and was only now going viral. And you just so happened to be in the top tier of players right now due to your early discovery of the game.

You were the only streamer that people couldn't place a face to out of the other 4—one of whom was Koo97, a streamer who was well-known internationally for his crazy gaming skills and lets be honest, he was pretty handsome as well.

You were never a fan of the idea of a face cam. Its not like you lacked confidence, but more so that people would not be too pleased by the fact that a woman was able to play games this good.

Although you weren't personally affected, you saw that women always received a lot of hate simply for being just that, a woman. You were perplexed as to why women were unable to perform the same tasks as males. Because of this, youd decided to go undercover, as a guy.

Kook97

"Move left! Taehyung, to the fucking left!" Jungkook screamed into his mic the chat going wild at the highly tense match taking place in front of them.

In a game of Overwatch—Jungkooks speciality— it was him and Taehyung competing against two other less well-known streamers. It would be an understatement to say that Jungkook was the best Overwatch player; he became well-known for his incredible abilities in the game after all.

Jungkook, aka 'Kook97', was the biggest streamer on the platform to this day, having amassed a sizable viewership over the previous four years, he occupied the top spot on Twitch with more than 25 million subscribers. You, 'borahae7', followed him close behind, with just one million followers less than he did.

Taehyung shouted, flinging his controller into the wall, creating a small dent in it, "I'm trying damn-, but my controller- FUCK."

"Are you serious?!" Jungkook groaned, now engaged in a 1 against 2 match while focusing on one of the four screens that graced his gaming setup.

As Jungkook eventually managed to kill one of his opponents with a headshot, the chat was spewing consoling phrases. Eventually, he succeeded in killing the other, who was a little trickier to take out, and won the match.

"Fuck," Jungkook moaned, slumping back into his seat while feeling fatigued and even a little sweaty but after calming down a little, reading comments and thanking donations, Taehyung speaks up again after his brief outburst of rage earlier, "Well you did it again."

"Yeah"

Hashtags

"I don't know, I really just enjoy sitting home and-"

Hobi, your best friend of ten years, interrupts you, saying, "And playing your little shooting games."

You lower your head, he was right after all, so you couldn't disagree with him. Hobi was one of just two friends you had, and the only other person you lived with. Jennie was currently enrolled in a course of study in New Zealand. Despite the short flight time, she was still several hours away from you.

Hobi pours you another cup of tea as you sit in your room, enjoying the afternoon to its fullest, "You have to start going out and having fun girl."

With it being a Sunday, today was the only day of the week that you had a stream-free day. You wouldn't say you looked forward to the day, Sundays got boring when you had nothing to do besides sit and scroll on your phone or reading a book. Hobi usually went out, and although he always welcomed you along, you preferred to stay in and watch TV rather than go out and drink.

You sigh, sipping from your cup and giving your best friend puppy eyes as you say, "I have fun," adding, "Besides, I work an early shift on Mondays, you know I can't stay up late."

Hoseok sighs, wanting to say that you should quit your job cause you make enough money with your streams at this point anyway, but he gives in, letting you do what you think was best.

Shortly after your best friend turns to look at his phone, opening the bird app out of boredom, being met with a bunch of hashtags immediately.

#koo97xborahae7

#koohaecollab

"Uh, y/n, you might want to see this," Hobi mumbles, pointing the phone in your direction.

Animal Crossing

"Gamer123, I appreciate your $5 donation." Jungkook thanks the viewer, lately, a lot of his viewers have asked him to do a stream just playing Animal Crossing and create his own island, this provided Jungkook the chance to unwind a little and engage with his followers more. "Guys, I have to admit," Jungkook begins as he reclines in his chair and observes the chat spam of pointless emotes. "This game is more fun than I thought, it reminds me of The Sims or something," He says, gulping in his last bit of the energy drink, before folding his toned arms over his head.

"What did that say?" He quickly approaches the chat screen and scrolls up until he locates the comment he had earlier seen. "Borahae7's playing Animal Crossing too right now? Thats cool" He mumbles. Watching his chat freak out at the mention of you, he muses aloud, "I've never really talked to him." It's the first time he has ever acknowledged you.

"Wait, is there a way we can go to his island?" When he returns to the screen where the game was open, he looks for the Visit option and, when he does, he asks his chat for the name of your island.

He enthusiastically clicked on it when he finally located it, astounded by the effort you had gone into creating your island. While you appeared to have been playing for at least a few months by this point, he had only started playing today.

"Damn, Borahae has been rocking it. Let's try to make our island shine like this, too."

@ kookieee97 donated $2; you should stream with Borahae7 sometime. BTW, I love your streams. <3

As he puts the finishing touches on his garden, Jungkook grinned. "Thank you, kookie. You think I should?" He murmurs, turning to his right to the chat that was going crazy when your name was mentioned once more. He begins, "I feel like it's a good idea, actually. We don't hate one other, despite what many people have said on Twitter. The guy's incredible."

With his mind focused on getting your number, Jungkook asks around some of his streamer or youtuber friends, none of which have ever talked to you and if they have, it's only been for a couple for minutes. Turns out you're more of a lone streamer. Much to Jungkooks disgrace since he was looking forward to play with someone as good as him, sure Taehyung was above average in most games, but once Jungkook got used to his tactics it got boring. The last thing Jungkook thought about doing was hop into your chat and ask you himself.

"What's up?"

"Good game," you mutter, rolling your eyes at the stupid player who'd just spamm shot at you instead of actually playing the game right. "Okay, guys, I think that's it from me tonight. Sorry, this stream wasn't as long as usual, but I think I'm coming down with something. Anyway-"

"Huh?" You're surprised to see your chat go faster than usual, and looking for a while longer, you find the reason as to why; Kook97 was commenting in your chat.

🔷️Kook97: what's up

Iloveborahae: omgggg

Gamelover123: @ kook97 I love you!!😭

🔷️Kook97: our chats want us to stream together sometime

Goldenplayer: holy shitttt

Whalien: can you play minecraft?

🔷️Kook97: LMK when you're free?

Your eyes grow wide, and even though your chat can't see you, they sense hat you're as surprised as they are.

"Yes, sure, absolutely." You manage to speak while swallowing a massive lump of air. You glare at the chat again, but Jungkook had likely already left.

"Okay, guys, I guess we'll do something different next stream then- I-uh again, thank you for watching, and have a great weekend!"

Turning off the stream and voice filter you stare at your wall, "Oh my god" you let out a long breath, getting your phone out and opening twitter.

Grinning internally, you like some of the tweets from your primary account. This was amazing; Jungkook had been streaming for a lot longer than you had, and the fact that it was him who had reached out to invite you to collaborate was revolutionary in your eyes.

"Y/n did you-"

"Yes." You interrupt Hoseok, not looking up from your phone and clicking on Jungkooks profile. Deciding to quote message him over Twitter, your hands are shaking.

"What should I text him? 'Hey dude?'" You giggle shaking your head before deleting it again.

"Hobi you're a guy, what should I say?" Pouting you shove your phone into his hold.

"Maybe try this?" He says, typing away on your phone before handing it back to you.

"People are loving this," you smile, scrolling to read a few of the replies on your—hobis—tweet. "I also think that they'd love you regardless if they knew that you're actually a woman, but I'm not about to have this conversation with you again." Hoseok crosses his arms, and you just shrug. "I've been pretending for 2 years now, I can't just come out and say 'oh by the way, guys, I'm actually a girl!'"

"Actually, you could-" "shhh!" You place your finger in front of your mouth motioning for your best friend to shut up. "He just messaged me!!" You speak, completely fangirling over the fact that the Kook97 had messaged you.

f

Hello, again.

When you leave the house at 7:30 in the morning, the weather isn't exactly pleasant. As a result of last night's rain, it is cold and wet. You have until eight to get to the convenience store, which allows you time to refill some items and perhaps even see if Jungkook has replied to you on Discord. You'd asked him about details for tonights stream last night, sure that was the main reason, the other being that you wanted to talk to him...

There was no point in denying that Jungkook was a very attractive man. Anyone would fall for his charms, even you, who was a bit on the shy side.

You never played with any other streamers or friends, so you had to download Discord just to talk with Jungkook. You had to watch a 30-minute YouTube lesson to understand the basics of the app because there were so many options and things you could choose from.

While shivering, you move the jacket closer to your body and walk a little more quickly toward the store. You didn't listen to much dubstep or rb&b like the usual gamers you saw, instead the music in your ears was soothing and just the way you loved it.

After fumbling with the keys, you manage to open the door to the space you'll be spending the next eight hours in. "Damn this place smells," you mutter, opening a window and allowing the fresh—and bitterly cold—air to enter for a few minutes.

Though you were still stacking some goodies in the corner, there was a ding, signalling that a customer had entered the shop.

You didn't bother to look up.

"Is this place open yet?" The question was asked in a voice that you thought sounded familiar, but you ignored it and continued working on your task.

"Technically, yes, but please give me a moment to finish this-" As you turn to look up, it feels as though your breath has been sucked out of you as you come face to face with... Jungkook?

"W-what- I mean, how can I help you?" You stutter out in utter disbelief. To Jungkook, it just seemed like a normal encounter with someone who knew him, making him roll his eyes.

Sometimes, he wishes he'd never shown his face so he could go anywhere he wanted without being recognised and crowded immediately.

If only he knew what was really the reason behind your reaction.

You scan a couple of energy drinks and some chips are as you move behind the register; yes, these were obviously for his stream later on.

Watching him smile back at you, you say, "Have a good day," growing more eager to speak with him tonight.

"You found one that was open, right?" Jin, Jungkook's roommate, calls and asks. "Yes, they had even those weird avocado chips you like."

"They're not weird, they're healthy."

"whatever Hyung, I have to hang up now, have to drive, ." Jungkook hangs up the phone without giving it another thought. His expensive black Audi immediately turns on its neon lights, and you can hear lofi music playing in the background.

Given that Jungkook's work was primarily at night, he typically got to sleep in, so this wasn't exactly how he had anticipated spending his morning. It wasn't all that horrible, though, because the cashier at the store—you—was cute.

"How much do I owe you?" As Jungkook approaches their kitchen, Jin asks, the younger simply shaking his head and saying, "It's nothing, Hyung, just take them." As he walks to the fridge to store his drinks, Jungkook speaks.

"Sooo.." Jin starts, brows raised as he looks at his roommate. "Purple boy?"

“Purple boy?”

"You mean Borahae?", Kook asks the elder man with a bewildered gaze. Laughing, he exudes. More than that, Jin wasn't a gamer or streamer. So other than knowing you were famous, he'd no idea what kind of games you even played or were good at.

'방탄' (Bulletproof), One of Seoul's five-star restaurants employed Jin as their chef two years ago. Jungkook and him may be seen as being in affluence. However, they have been living together for five years and have known each other for fifteen. It would seem strange for one of them to suddenly move out

"Were streaming tonight; how did you know about it?" Jungkook asks "I thought you didn't give a damn about those kind of things." Jungkook tells Jin while sipping on some coffee he had before leaving. "You're once again kind of going viral, I read about it on Twitter."

"People are happy, but I'm a little worried that we won't get along", Jungkook chuckles.

"From what I've seen on twitter, you guys are getting along just fine," Jin scoffs as he makes his way back halfway to his room.

"Jungkook came to the store today." You casually mention to your roommate as you both eat dinner,

"Who?" correcting yourself, Hoseok looks at you with a curious brow up. You recite, "Kook97 visited the shop today," drawing a gasp from your best friend.

"The world is a small place, after all, huh?" Playing with your food, you say.

"Did he.. did he recognize you?"

"No he didnt" you roll your eyes "how would he? He just came to get some snacks for tonight I guess-"

For a second, there's a small silence between the both of you.

"I don't know, meeting him soon after the entire Twitter announcement stuff," Your heart beats quickly as you shrug. "Maybe I've watched too many rom-coms, but it feels like fate.-"

Hoseok interrupts, "Okay, hold up there, young lady, as much as I'd like that for you, he probably was just looking for a place to get his snacks," shattering your delusion. "You're probably right, I mean-."

"Since we both live in Seoul, the likelihood that we cross paths is fairly high."

"Exactly, maybe if you eventually exposed who you really are though." Hobi wiggles his brows, making you groan, "He would have fell for you right away, I mean, just look at you." He gestures for your body. "You're stunning,". You chuckle while shaking your head. "I love you,"

Game 1

"Okay, 2 coke zeros and a 1L bottle of water.." you hum, looking down at your set up for tonight, aka in 1 hour. "Oh snacks!" You almost forget. running to the kitchen, you grab a few grapes as well as some crackers you'd taken from the convenience store this morning. Oh, how you loved the employee discount.

"Alrighty, That's it" you speak to yourself, plopping down on your seat and sending Jungkook a quick "all set" message.

Since you've been streaming for two years, talking and commenting on games as you play them has probably become second nature to you. As a result, you weren't as nervous as you had been a few hours earlier. You even watched a few of Jungkook's stream redistributions to observe how he behaved towards other people. You wondered how his behaviour would betoward you. Would he also be shy? Would he talk most of the time and let you just play? You wanted to leave a positive impression without coming across as cocky or nosy. What on earth were you thinking? He would treat you like every other guy he has ever played with; it's not as if he knew you were a girl anyway.

Maybe you weren't so ready for tonight after all.

"Jin, you're the best, have I told you that before?" Jungkook grins, hands full of leftovers from Jins restaurant that he'd brought home. "You tell me every once in a while, sure I'd appreciate it if you said it more often, but -"

Jungkook rolls his eyes, walking into his gaming room and setting his food down on the table. He was all set now, and just as he sat down he got a text that you were too. Jungkook wondered how you'd act with him, would you be more talkative? Would you make fun of him for being an absolute noob at Cypher?

He was aware that you didn't talk much during your streams and that they were mostly for gamethrough interested viewers who didn't want to hear all the commentary. But every now and then, you'd switch to a more calming game, such as Sims 4 or Minecraft, where you would talk more openly with your chat about your life.

"What's up dude, glad it worked out" Jungkook speaks through his mic, his viewier number higher than ever due to your collab today. Even if he couldn't see, you nodded. "Yeah, dude, I'm glad too," you reply. You Internally cringe at yourself; perhaps you should have watched some "how to talk like a guy" videos or something because this was already going horribly. However, Jungkook shrugs it off and begins the game while chatting. Again speaking up, he says, "You're going to have to show me how to play first since I have no idea," gazing into the camera and grinning at the audience. "Sure, maybe we can go to easy mode and begin there?" It was embarrassing how much you were blushing. Calm the fuck down Y/n

Looking back for a second You glare at Hobi who was also In the room for—in his words—, moral support. He just gives you a thumbs up and waits for you to continue streaming as usual. This was your thing, you were good at streaming, why did it feel so strange today.

Its been around an hour now since you've been playing, and Jungkook seemed to have gotten a hold of it pretty quickly, but you were expecting that anyway, the guy was good at everything he did.

"All right, should we start some pvp right now?" You ask him while keeping a slight side-eye on your chat, where bets were already being placed on who will win. You smiled, being literally ready for a fight.

"Fuck fuck fuck" Jungkook was heard swearing as you beat him for the 4th time that night, he wasn't bad at all, having won against other players in the game already, but against you; he had no chance at all. "That was wild, dude," Jungkook compliments. "How much hp did you still have?" Jungkook sighs as he runs a hand through his untidy hair while guzzling an energy drink and relaxing in his seat. You speak up, shrugging your shoulders as if he could see anyway, and also get yourself a drink. "Uh, I think around 40%, so you definitely almost got me," you say. "It was fun playing with you, I think I'll leave it at that and turn the stream off. Good game, brother."

"Yeah you too, keep practicing and maybe you'll actually become a challenge for me" you cockily reply without any malicious intent but more to rile him up some before hanging up the discord call. "Well guys, this was very fun, I guess we'll see each other tomorrow, have a great night's sleep and-" you stop to look down at your phone, having gotten a text from Jungkook.

"-and don't stay up too late"

Opening the message you read—

Kook97; nice game again, we should do this more often, maybe invite Taehyung too sometime

You; Taehyung?

Kook97; oh sorry, I meant Vante

You; oh! Yes, sure, I'm down

"Yeah you too, keep practicing and maybe you'll actually become a challenge for me" Jungkook hears you say before hanging up, a small chuckle leaving his lips. "Well you heard it yourselves guys, this definitely wasn't the last time we played against Borahae, let's work hard!" And With a click of a button he was offline.

"Fuck" Jungkook laughs again, taking out his phone and texting you.

We meet again

Once again, Jungkook finds himself at the convenience store you worked at. He'd been here on Tuesday as well, but it turns out you don't work on Tuesdays cause he didn't spot you. So he tried his luck on Wednesday— today.

Again, it was around 8:30 when he walked into the small but pretty—thanks to you— organised store.

Spotting you at the snack isle, he smiled under his face mask before approaching you.

Jungkook has never been a shy person. He knew he looked good, and he also knew that people were attracted to him, so it wasn't hard for him to just plainly ask people out. As he stood a few inches away from you, he cleared his throat.

"Hey so- I don't know if you remember me from Monday morning but I thought you were really cute and I wanted to ask if I could give you my number" planting a smirk on his face Jungkook waited for your answer—one that never came. Quirking a brow, he taps your shoulder, making you jump up in shock. "Oh my fucking g- what the hell" you yell, turning around to look up at an equally scared looking Jungkook. "I'm sorry uh-" he scratches the back of his head "I - if I knew you were wearing headphones, I wouldn't have done that," he apologised, giving you a small smile. You shake your head "No im actually - I shouldn't be wearing these anyway," you point at your headphones, "but usually there aren't many people around, so I play some music while I work." You explain.

"So, what is it that you wanted" you ask him, turning to face him completely now. Jungkook shakes his head smiling again "I wanna give you my number, I think you're pretty cute and you know, maybe we could go on a date sometime-" he starts "if you want to of course!" He corrects himself leaning against the wall and waiting for an answer.

There's no way

No way in fucking he'll, oh my god

"You wanna give me your number?" You repeat his question, a small blush forming on your cheeks as you look down shyly. "Yeah," Jungkooks smirk grows wider and wider by every second that passes. "You don't have to -" "No, wait, here, type it in." You hush him and hold your phone out for him to start typing.

..Hi?

You're not necessarily avoiding Jungkook, but you're not about to text him either. He'd given you his number for a reason; he wanted you to make the first step when you were comfortable. He was a gentleman. You had to give him that. The more you thought about texting him, the worse your anxiety got. What should you even say?

"Hey its Y/n from the convenience store?" Or "whats up?" God, everything sounded so wrong. The last time you had seriously dated someone, it ended horribly.

But considering that Jungkook was totally different from your ex, you decide to open the empty chat and type out a text.

Given that you had already spoken with Jungkook before, it surprised you to learn how simple it was to talk to him, but of course, he didn't know that the two of you had spoken before.

In addition to his passion for video games, he also mentioned that he shared an apartment with a friend hed known for more than 15 years.

Though you presume it was because he had unpleasant interactions with girls who were just after his popularity and money, he never revealed to you that he was a well-known streamer. You felt hurt by his likely explanation for the situation and by the fact that he appeared to be somewhat deceiving you. However, weren't you lying to him too? Not telling him something very important? You sigh and put your phone away without waiting for him to respond to your most recent message, which only provided a response to his earlier question.

In addition to being worn out by the day you had, you were also worn out from the lie that had once kept you safe but was now steadily ruining your life.

Deal

There's still lingering tension between you and Hobi when you enter your home. The small disagreement you two had this morning was still not talked out.

It's about the same topic as always, your Internet persona and how—in hobis words—It will ultimately sabotage your friendships and any success you may have. Of course, he was right, but you just didn't want to confess that you were wrong for following your heart and being hidden from the outside world.

You don't want to make things more complicated than they already are, you're far too deep into the lie that you call your job.

It's just not something worth ruining your career for.

Friendships come and go but this job is your life, without gaming, without streaming, you're... nothing.

You'll eventually find the right time to confess your truth to your fans, but the right time just wasn't right now, you barely talked in your streams anyway, you didn't even show your face goddammit. It just wasn't the right time. Yet...

The tougher part, though, was eventually confessing to Jungkook. You didn't know what would become of you and maybe you were just looking too deep into it, but somewhere in your heart, head and body you felt like it was destiny that your Internet persona and your real life persona met Jungkook at the same time.

Your thoughts are interrupted by Hoseok walking in and setting the grocery bags down.

You're not blind. You could tell he was still bitter about this morning, so you decided to take it upon yourself and apologise.

"You know.." you start hesitantly,

"I've thought about our conversation earlier, and i think,-"

"I think once I've figured things out for myself, once I'm confident about what is right and wrong. Then I'll tell everyone, I'll show my face and-"

Hoseok laughs lightly, but his voice remains soft, showing he means no harm. "You don't have to do all that Y/n."

"Worry is a human emotion. Don't let me come in the way of your career, be yourself and do what you think is right. I'll support you regardless."

"Are you serious?" You whisper, walking towards him. "Dead serious, but-" he pauses, making you look up at him. "Promise me that if you end up dating him, you'll at least tell him about your little lie"

You squeak, hugging him tightly "deal"

A date?

"Fuck man this game is fucking rigged how is it that I get killed by the same guy for the third fucking time" Jungkook screams at the screen which was showing "game over" for the umpteenth this stream. "Maybe you're just ass at this game" Taehyung laughs at the other end of the call, making Jungkook even more angry "fuck off Taehyung, at least I got over lvl 10."

The chat spamms useless emotes at his loss, and Jungkook groans in frustration. "I'm ending the stream guys, today's not my day" and with that Kook97 was offline.

"Man" you mumble, having been watching—totally not stalking— Jungkooks stream.

Humming a random tune, you turn off your ipad and roll on your back grabbing your phone and clicking on Instagram when you suddenly get a message, by who would have thought, Jungkook.

Kook🐰: It can be whatever you want it to be ;)

You stop to think for a second, Hoseok was out on a date, so what was stopping you from doing the same?

Lying flat against your bed, your mind spins into a thousand different directions. You should probably get dressed, put on some makeup and perfume, as well as clean your room.

But you just lay there and think.

Maybe Jungkook, knowing who you really were was better, you could bond over different video games and laugh at weird hints you've read in your chat. Maybe even stream together again, or just play games by yourselves without people watching. It all sounded so.. Nice.

Your thoughts go back to hobis words, he was right, it was better for you to speak your truth before it was too late.

Before someone got hurt

The ringing of your doorbell snaps you out of your thoughts, and like second nature, you walk up and open the door for Jungkook.

Fuck

He looked amazing, even more than he did on stream earlier. His long locks fell all around his face, and his glasses made his eyes pop out even more. He was wearing a black sweater with some loose navy blue slacks that ended just where his boots hugged around his ankles.

It was 11pm, and the randomness of the date made it even more exciting.

"Hey"

"Hi" you whisper, clearing your throat and letting him walk in. Your heart was beating so fast you feared he could hear how nervous you were.

"I- um- the foods supposed to come any minute now." You start the conversation, hoping the night was not gonna end up in awkwardness, destroying your illusion of a perfect relationship with him.

.

"Fuck off oh my god that was so uncalled for!" You yell, falling on your back laughing. Jungkook does the same moments after, trying to catch his breath as the music of Mario cart still plays in the background. Nearly two hours have passed since Jungkook arrived, and those were the nicest two hours you've ever spent with a man.

He kept smiling turning to face you as you lay next to him on the floor in the living room "I told you I was good at Mario cart."

You pause to giggle, "Yeah but—I thought you were just being cocky!" After hitting his arm, you turn to face him from next to him. Your eyes briefly lock, but the moment was quickly ruined by Hoseok returning from his date.

"Y/n did you leave the lights in the livingroom on again-" Hoseok stops in his tracks as he catches a glimpse of the scene in front of him—you and Jungkook laying closely next to each other while the Mario cart theme song played on the TV.

"Sorry, nevermind." He turns on his heels about to leave when you call after him. "No, hold on, um, this is Jungkook," you point at Jungkook smiling.

"Jungkook, this is Hobi, my roommate." Hoseok gives the younger male a wave before glancing at you with a gaze that said, 'Are you serious?'. You laugh it off awkwardly and stand up to your feet, pizza cardboards spread around the floor, but you'd take care of those later.

"Alright, you two have fun, I'm taking a shower and then going to bed, don't be too loud"

You nod and watch your roommate enter his room before meeting Jungkook's eyes. You chuckle, settling back down on the couch, "I guess his date didn't go so well."

"One more round? Winner gets-" You pause for a moment,

"a kiss?" You flush as Jungkook interrupts. "Okay..."

The minute Jungkook passed the finish line with his Mario character, he grinned at you. Your cheeks flushed as you leaned back slightly, hesitant to initiate what you knew would likely be the best kiss ever. Turns out the two of you were closer than you'd thought, sending shivers down your spine. "We don't have to do this if you're uncomfortable," he says, gently reaching for your cheek. You sigh, releasing his hand from your cheek without looking up at him. "I don't know what I want, to be honest," you say. Waiting for you to meet his eyes, "That's alright, we don't have to do anything you don't want to." He says, softly smiling at you. "You don't understand, I really want to kiss you right now but-"

"But it's too soon, I get it, don't worry." He finished for you.

The subsequent stillness wasn't quite comfortable, and as you sigh and think, "It's late, maybe we should," you start, standing up and readjusting your shirt.

"Yeah, I'll go now. I have to wake up early in the morning so I won't miss your shift." He winks.

"My shift?" You teasingly inquire while beaming up at him. "Yeah, I want to see you again as soon as possible."

And that's exactly how it continued for two weeks. Even though he receives sponsorships from numerous energy drink and snack brands, Jungkook would stop by between 8 and 9 and buy unnecessary stuff. If it weren't for you, he wouldn't even bother to spend money.

"I'm getting concerned about how much energy drinks you're drinking Kook" you smile as you scan the drink and give it back to him. "That would be 1.80$"

"Here you go young lady" he winks teasingly, enjoying the way your cheeks blushed at this early hour. "I would also like to invite you to a date at, say, my place tonight?" He quirks a brow, smile already forming on his lips when you nod. "I'd like that."

Oh, Hoseok wasn't gonna be happy. You and him both knew that you liked Jungkook a little bit more than you'd like to admit. The time of telling him the truth was coming closer and closer.

You would have been having your fourth mental breakdown of the day today if your best friend hadn't been there to calm you down. Your stream tonight had been canceled due to the date, and you were currently trying to determine what to wear as your clothes piled up on your bed.

"This one's too outgoing, it's giving 5 star restaurant" Hobi commented as he analized the dress in your hands.

"Well this is the last one I've got, there are no more dresses left to try on" you point at your dresser that was, indeed, very empty now.

"Did he tell you what he was planning on doing? Are you guys having dinner? Or... doing something else?" He says the last sentence with a raised brow, making you blush. The thought of sleeping with Jungkook hadn't really occurred to you much. Sure, you've thought about it, but it's not like you were eager to jump on his dick.

"We haven't done that kind of stuff yet.." you confess, dropping down on the bed next to your best friend and sighing. "Doesn't he want to?" Hobi asks, placing a hand on your back. Shaking your head, you say "no".

"I'm sure he wants to, but we're sort of taking it slow" Looking up at Hobi you crack a smile. "Who knows maybe tonight's the night"

"Oh, but then you need to wear something sexy, let me see." He stands up and moves over to your underwear cabinet. Him seeing your underwear or not didn't really matter to you because you had been friends for far too long.

"I vote for this," he adds while pointing to a two-piece baby pink lace set you had purchased while on vacation in Italy. "I've never actually worn it, so I don't know..." You say fumbling with your hands.

"Well, today's perfect then, regardless if you end up doing something or not -" "You will feel sexy and confident."

.

"Thanks for driving me Hobi, I owe you big time!" You tell your best friend as you get out the car, wearing a nice black dress that was rather simple than formal. It was comfortable to wear and didn't really scream 'I'm here to get fucked'.

"Hey, come in," Jungkook greets you, his hands not wandering lower than your lower back as he hugs you. "Hi! Nice place." You compliment his rather large apartment. He hadn't confessed to you what he actually did for a living. He'd just told you he works in the media industry, which sure was true but very unspecific.

"You can leave your shoes here and -" he takes your jacket from you. "I'll just put this here."

Looking around the place, there isn't much you wouldn't expect from a guy like Jungkook. Everything was kept mostly black white or grey, and even the sofa was a nice designer piece.

As you walk into his kitchen, which is filled with pots, dishes, and even some herbs you've never heard of, you gasp in astonishment, "Wow."

"Oh, this is my roommate's utopia." Jungkook chuckles. "I don't ever get to cook in this place." Despite appearing irritated, Jungkook smiles while brushing his hair back and poking his cheek with his tongue. "I had to bribe Jin to let me use it for dinner tonight."

"Oh you cooked?" You ask turning to him.

"Tried to but-"

"But Jin ended up helping me a lot"

"You know I would've been happy if you'd just made some pasta or something" you mumble, still in awe at the huge selection of self-made snacks that was presented in front of you. "Yeah well, I wanted to go all out for you and.." he gives you a quick wink, grabbing your waist and pulling you towards a closed room. "I wanted to show you my work space" he mumbled into your neck from behind, making goosebumps rise on your neck.

"You wanna talk about work on a date?" You tease him looking back into his black eyes. Chuckling he tells you to "open the door". You know where this was going, you'd seen parts of his room in his gaming room tour on YouTube that he posted last year. And somehow you even felt as if you were lying to him for not telling I'm you knew who he was.

Swallowing you open the door and find exactly what you'd expected. A large computer adorned his desk as well as 4 other screens, each having their own job while he streamed.

While your setup was just half of this, you were sor of jealous.

"Wow" you let out, setting yourself free from his hold you walk in, now standing in front of his desk. "This is-"

"Nerdy?" He scratches the back of his head, but you shake yours.

"This is amazing, wow, what-"

"I stream, when I said I worked In media I sort of lied- and I feel bad but-"

You turn to face him once more as he sat down on the room's small couch. But he added, hoping you would share his sentiments, "I feel like I genuinely like you and I want to be more than just friends."

"only if you..."

Of course you did too. You liked him so much.

"I do"

Jungkook then gets to his feet and walks over to you, taking hold of your hips once more, but this time tighter holding on for dear life. He gulps, "So you-"

"You want to be with me?. You're not upset with me for lying, are you?" He wanted to be sure you were okay with this, so he asked again.

All you had to do was nod for Jungkook to put his lips on yours. Your first kiss felt like a swarm of butterflies had gathered around the two of you to celebrate your love.

"I really like you too, you know," you whisper against his lips as you peck them one last time. "You do?," he squeezes your hips. "Say it one more time."

"I like you"

The ringing of your phone interrups your moment, and when you look at the caller, Id it's Hobi. "Wait a second." You smile as you brush his cheek before leaving the room to accept your roommate's call.

"Hobi, what is it?" you whine, hearing Hoseok sigh from the other end of the phone.

"Have you not checked Twitter?" He asks panic written all over his voice as he brings you back to reality.

"No?" You say, eyebrows furrowing as you tell him to wait a second. As you click on the bird app, the first thing you see are the hashtags # Borahaeisoverparty # Borahae7leaked

It's like your heart stopped beating for a second when you read the headlines. Quickly clicking on the link, you turn to see if Jungkook was eavesdropping. When you made sure the coast was clear, you read the most liked post that said;

And suddenly, a lot of emotions overcame you, your head spinning as you run and lock yourself in the next best room, which happened to be the bathroom.

"Y/n?!" From outside the door, Jungkook asked, his voice frantic but not angry. You try to maintain your composure and say, "I'm sorry, I just need a minute, please." It only worked briefly.

"Are you still there, Y/n?" A worried-sounding Hoseok questioned at the other end of the call. You murmur, "I'm here, yeah," as you continue to scrutinize the dreadful message. "I can pick you up if you want. Does Jungkook know? Did he find out?" Not currently helpful is Hoseok's frightened voice. The tears spoil your flawless makeup as you sob, "No, no, he didn't, but please come pick me up."

This was meant to be your night, a day you would never forget.

Instead, everything was going downhill, your life was suddenly... falling apart.

Your closest friend had warned you that this deception might make you miserable, but you didn't want to take his advice. You just didn't want to listen.

Offline

You'd been offline for a week now, not posting on twitter or Twitch. Jungkook had been messaging you but you only told him that something happened to your roommate so you couldn't really talk or be on your phone much.

It turned out that the individual who had tweeted that negative thing about you was just some random person who made up stories to get attention and was well-known for lying about everything. Even yet, you felt terrible for abandoning Jungkook in that manner after he had planned a lovely evening for the two of you.

When you woke up today Hobi brought you flowers.

"Thank you," you mutter as you take in the large floral arrangement, feeling joy for the first time all week. You hear Hobi say, "Don't that me, thank Jungkook," and your eyes widen. "By the way, he's in the living room, and he can tell something is wrong since you're a terrible liar."

"Although I'm not saying you should tell him the truth at this particular moment, that's essentially what I'm advocating." He tells you before leaving your room.

When you enter the living room and murmur, "Hey," Jungkook quickly gets up and hugs you. A squeak leaves your lips at the unexpected move before giving the embrace back. You mutter "I'm sorry" against his chest. "I'm alright, but I-"

"You don't have to tell me what happened, okay? I just want to know that you're doing okay," he cuts you off. You sort of regret not having the courage to tell him what's wrong again. "I saw you weren't live all week, I was kinda looking forward to seeing what the hype about your streaming is all about." You joke, trying to clear the air. Jungkook chuckles, leading you to the couch and sitting down with you. "i sort of, couldn't really concentrate on what I was doing," he admits, his hand playing with yours as you sit in silence for a second. "All I could think about was you"

"At first I thought I did something wrong by showing you who I really was, for lying to you"

Ah, there it was again, this guilt feeling in your gut. How could he be so perfect and trust you with such a thing, but you couldn't even tell him anything that was going on in your life cause it would blow your little lie.

"Why would I be mad" you laugh, slouching back into the sofa and smiling at him lazily. "God I like you so much all I wanna do is kiss you and shower you in presents all day" Jungkook copies your action and looks at you, his big boba eyes looking into yours. "Is there anything I can do to help you with whatever is going on in your life?" He asks again, taking your hand into his and kissing it softly. You could melt on the spot by his sweetness.

"I think it's something I have to go through by myself" you admit, placing you hand against his cheeks and just looking into his eyes. "I like you a lot too by the way" you whisper, your face inching closer to his.

Closer and closer until your noses were touching and your eyes closed.

"Anybody up for lunch?" You and Jungkook were interrupted when Hobi yelled, purposefully interfering.

Before saying anything, you give Hobi a filthy look in the rear and decide, "Jungkook and I are going to go into my room and eat later." You grab Jungkook by the hand and drag him behind you into your room, Jungkook following you like a teen in love.

Us

Thank God, with Jungkook, everything had returned to normal. He continued to drop by your place of employment and extend invitations to dates. Just this past weekend, he took you to a park and set up some food and beverages for you. You knew he picked one farther away so no one would recognize him and, more importantly, no one would see him with a girl. It would spark much too much drama in the media, something Jungkook detested.

You relished each of his numerous tiny acts of affection. Like right now, when he made popcorn for the two of you since you don't like chips.

One of his favorite movies was Iron Man, which you decided to watch today. "I feel like I haven't seen this in decades." Once he moved to the bed next to you, you murmur into his neck. He puts his arm around your waist and pulls you close, declaring with pride, "I watch it at least once every few months."

In appreciation for almost everything he had done for you up to this point, you gifted Jungkook a vintage Carhart shirt, which he was wearing right now. "Really?" You pretend to be shocked as you playfully tease him. You wriggle even closer to him as a result of him pinching your side in response. You two never did manage to watch the film, for some reason you just spoke, however. With the two of you, things have always come to that. You constantly seemed unable to stop relating details of your lives to one another,

"I streamed with this huge streamer once, I think he's only a few places behind me on most followed person" Jungkook starts. A few? I'm only one behind you dumbass. You chuckle to yourself but listen. "Really? What's his name?"

"His name is Borahae7; I bet you don't know him. He's decent at a number of games," Jungkook says with a shrug, "I even lost to him a few times too many." As he laughs, Jungkook gives you a cute glance from besides you. "But he hasn't been online much lately, I suppose he is taking a break," he only notes, moving on to the next subject so effortlessly.

"Im sure he has his reasons," you just note quietly. It is accurate to say that you haven't been on live much lately—just once or twice a week. It was genuinely missed, yet it still seemed off in some way.

"...and that's why I decided never to play minecraft again, I mean those creatures are wild" When Jungkook speaks, he pulls you out of your reverie and tightens his arm around you to make you look at him. "Yeah, when I was a teenager, I only ever played it a few times." While not entirely truthful, you agree with him.

As he leaned closer to you once more, his eyes were starring at your lips. "Is it okay for us to kiss now, or is it just too random?" You laugh in response to his question. "You may kiss me Jungkook," you giggle and then his lips were on yours, savoring how softly they touched one another.

By this time, you had kissed several times, but nothing more than casual groping occasionally resulted from it. However, tonight would be different.

His eyes initially fell on your covered boobs as you parted away from him to remove your shirt with his hands below. He snickers, reaching out to grope on with his large palm, "They're so cute." getting you to whine at him. You tell him, "I'm sensitive," before kissing his neck once again and putting your hands on his crotch while gesturing for him to take off his joggers. He groans, "Fuck wait," and gets to his feet to pull them off more effectively.

Once he's back on the bed with you still in your underwear, he says, "Is this okay with you?" "Yes," you nod as you grip the hem of your shorts and pull them down to join him beneath the blankets. You breathe against his ear, "Want you so much."

Before joining your mouth in an ardent kiss, Jungkook's hands caressed your body, stroking and squeezing everywhere he could. However, the passionate kiss was short-lived as Jungkook moved down to your clothed pussy and kissed your panty chastely before removing it completely. "Does this feel ok?" Before ruining you with his lips, he checks to see that you're as comfortable as possible. You moan "Fuck yeah."

Before you knew it, Jungkook's tongue was circling your clit and making out with it once more. Both the noises and the visual were sexy, maybe even nasty. "Oh my goodness," you scream as you grasp his hair and attempt to remove him due to your clit being too sensitive. "I don't want to cum yet," You sit up to say, before forcing him to lay down once more. "Who would have thought you'd be the kind to dominate in bed?" Jungkook chuckles before taking a grip of your ass, squeezing it, and then smacking it as hard as he could, making you scream even more.

Your hands effortlessly locate his hard cock, giving him a couple pumps before spitting on it and licking the tip. "You're such a tease," his hands entwined with yours as he urges for you to take more of him. Your mouth widened for him as your hands fondled his balls. He slowly led you to a lovely rhythm of up and down motions while moaning, "That's it, take it all baby." His abs flex as he yells "Fuck babe," his hips sinking farther into your mouth with each minute that passes.

Panting into your mouth, your lips reuniting for the one hundredth time today as he says, "Let me fuck you." You merely nod at him as you are positioned on his lap and gazing into his eyes. You strike him with the word "condom," trying to keep him hard by pumping his cock. He only nods while rummaging through his drawer to find the modest package.

"Put it on for me." He handed you the condom after teasingly cracking open the plastic wrap.

Before placing the condom on his cock and giving him a couple gentle pumps, you giggle and wiggle your ass.

As you sink down next to him, he murmurs in a dreamlike voice, "Pussy so good." Every time he kisses your neck you to giggle. He wants you to stay this way forever hearing your moans. Your clit is grinding against his lower abdomen as you grind your hips more quickly, moaning with delight as your climax soon follows.

Your small pussy is stretched wide open by his cock's nestling deep inside of you.

In an effort to come closer to his release, Jungkook's hand advances and grips your tits. You squeal with pleasure as his thumb tickles your pebbled nub.

You teasingly flick at his nipple in return, making Jungkook laugh beneath you.

A single giggle escapes past your lips. But it quickly fades when Jungkook's finger rubs circles on your clit. "Oh!" Your brows knit. Grabbing his had away from your sensitive area. "I can't" you warn him.

Your legs are opened wider by Jungkook, and his thrusts get stronger. At this moment, it seems as though he is attempting to fit his entire dick inside of you. As he fights to hold on, Jungkook's brow begins to perspire. He eventually groans loudly inside of you, "oh shit fuck," as he lets go.

.

"What's the reason behind your smile?" as you walk into your house after sleeping over at Jungkooks, Hoseok asks a simple toast with jam and cheese on his plate as he ate breakfast. Leaning against the counter to watch him, you say with a smile, "Just.. nothing."

Hobi looks at you while turning around and grinning as well crossing his arms. "Tell meee."

You laughed in response to his false whining, "Me and Jungkook are dating now," you shrug, but you couldn't help but smile even wider. "Oh my gosh that's great," Hobi exclaims as his eyes widen in awe. He yells, fully ignoring his food as he approaches you. "Tell me everything; tell me how he reacted when you told him the complete truth; he responded positively right?, as you appear to be doing, then he must have been supportive. He wouldn't be angry, I told you."

You stop him with, "Wait I-" Your brows wrinkle as you gaze at Hoseok in silence and admit, "I didn't tell him yet."

"what do you mean? the whole purpose of being in a relationship is that there shouldn't be any secrets between you two" He whines annoyed.

"I'll tell him, I swear, but for the time being I just need some space to enjoy my relationship without destroying it."

"you're not going to ruin it, Y/n. You will ruin it if you tell him too late,"

Oops

7butterfly donated $4: I'm so glad you're back to your regular schedule.

"I have to admit that I had to take care of certain family matters. nothing very serious. But now I'm back and I'm better than ever" Just to get back into the streaming flow, you chuckle as you play some Cypher. Going back to your gaming origins, you'd truly needed and missed this.

The chat was more lively than ever, and even several notable streamers, including Jungkook, complimented you on returning to streaming on twitter.

Everything was pleasant and back to normal, and you now even had a boyfriend.

"Let's play one more game before calling it a day, okay?" As you hit "play," you talk into the microphone, and then have your character begin to run around the map.

"That was a very close call, lets end with this. I appreciate you all and hope to see you all tomorrow."

You go offline with a single click of a button.

Your brows wrinkle as a message pops up on discord just as you were about to stand up. You take a sip of your water, put your headphones back on, and then re-adjust your seat before clicking on Discord.

Kook97; I'm glad you're back, I was thinking we could stream together again sometime

You; absolutely, have you been practicing like I told you?

You grin to yourself as you type out the message.

Kook97; not as much as i wanted to, been busy with my girlfriend, you know how they get ;)

You; haha sure

You cringe as you write out the message.

Jungkook began to type for a little period before stopping once more. You question whether it was an accident. However, you decide to leave it as that and close Discord when suddenly, you unintentionally click the wrong bottom, calling Jungkook.

"Shit shit shi-," As you and Jungkook come face to face, you scramble to click 'end call' but it's too late; it seems as though your world has just been smashed. again.

Lies

"Y/n?" After a brief moment of stillness, Jungkook lets out a sigh.

You open your lips, but nothing comes out as you just gaze at your computer. You glance down and click the "end call" button while having tears well up in your eyes.

"Kook I-"

Jungkook laughs, "Fuck," but it wasn't a nice laugh at all; it rather was a "fuck this shit" laugh. "Damn, and here I was thinking it was terrible that I didn't immediately tell you what I did for a living"

"Jungkook listen-," you start, hoping he will at least give you a moment of his time to explain. But as fast as he picked up the call, he disconnected you.

You were left with no choice but to spend the remainder of the evening at your computer, staring blankly at your screen until you finally fell asleep with tears flowing down your cheeks. That morning, your phone's alarm woke you up early for work, you never missed a day of work, regardless of how unwell you were or how depressed you were at the time. So you got up, went through your morning routine, and then headed out the door to the bus stop. You were too worn out to make the customary 15-minute stroll to the convenience shop.

As anticipated, Jungkook did not enter the store this morning to purchase a bag of salty chips or another sweet energy drink. However, you were secretly relieved since it meant you could avoid confronting him about what occurred the day before.

Hobi went out yesterday night with some of his friends and texted you to say that he would stay at their house that night, so he wasn't aware of what was happening until you ultimately had to inform him and then you'd get the lecture of a lifetime.

life was shit.

Around ten minutes into your break, when you check Twitter, Kook97 announced that the stream for today has been cancelled. You groan. The only people who understood the reason why were you and him.

Opening the next app you tap on His and Your Chat to read the most recent messages.

Kook🐰: when are you free again?

You: I literally just left your place

Kook🐰: I know but I already miss you

Kook🐰: is that weird?

You: no I miss you too :(

Kook🐰: can I come over tomorrow?

You: ill make dinner for us <3

Your lips purse in sorrow as you sigh. You've never experienced such heartbreak in your life. Even a fight with Hobi doesn't seem to have affected you this much, in your opinion. You make the decision right then to send him a message. Given how recent the events of last night were, it might not have been the best idea.

You: can we please talk about what happened

You: I really meant to tell you Kook

Read

You: I'm sorry

Around noon on that day, when you got home, Hoseok was already there, cleaning his room, and music playing.

You needed some bravery to knock on his door, but as soon as you did, your best friend welcomes you warmly. "You told him, didn't you? thats good."

"How do you know?" You let your emotions run wild as you sniff into his neck. "he didnt react well. did he?"

You begin, sitting down on his bed, "God it's so ridiculous."

"Last night, I had just completed streaming when he texted me, or rather, he texted Borahae over on Discord." As you go, Hoseok simply nods in agreement. "Damn, but I have no idea how to use discord so I mistakenly called him,."

"He saw my face before I could cancel the call."

"It's safe to say that he wasn't amused," Hobi wraps it up for you. "No," you shake your head.

He sighs, "I'm sorry to tell that, but I told you so," yet afterwards gives you a hug. "Okay, I'll go make you a brownie and some hot chocolate. Lets watch your fave, Mean Girls."

Even though Hoseok tends to be rather straightforward most of the time, he is aware of when you need comfort and knows just how to provide it. When you look down at your final last chat with Jungkook and see that he hasn't answered, you choose to get up.

Im sorry

As all Jungkook could think of was you, seconds turned into minutes. Because of you, he even cancelled his stream.

As Jin handed his roommate some food "Here you go" "What's going on? bad day?". he asked.

How could Jungkook possibly convey what had transpired over the last 24 hours? All he could do was nod. It made no sense to him even to think about it, 'Yeah so turns out the man who I've streamed with is also my girlfriend who's been pretending to be a guy for God knows how long.'

When Jin left, Jungkook paused and briefly regarded your chat as he considered whether or not to text you. He was aware that your deception must have a basis.

.

You groan as you continue to look at the blank tweet. How on earth were you going to begin this? You and Hobi decided that it would be best for you to confess after having a lengthy conversation. If people were genuinely that naive as to despise you for being a woman, he'd be there for you.

"Fuck I don't know," You say, tossing the phone on your bed and covering your head in your hands, it went on like this for about an hour before you could really sit down and write what was on your mind.

"As many of you are aware, I have been cancelling, postponing, or simply vanishing on you guys for a few weeks now. And even though I said that it was due of family issues, I lied. The fact is that ever since I started streaming, I have been lying to all of you. I never imagined my channel would blow off the way it did, so I reasoned that it would be okay to pretend to be someone else. I have now lost someone I actually loved as a result of recent events in my life that were all brought on by this small lie. I'm going to quit beating around the bush and just say it. A lot of you are familiar with me as Borahae7, a guy who enjoys gaming and interacting with his fans.

In actuality though, my name is y/n. I'm a 22-year-old girl who, ever since she was a child, has utilized gaming as a means of escaping her troubles. I was aware that it is challenging to stand out as a woman, especially in the gaming industry, and that you may face discrimination for practically anything.

I sincerely hope you can get why I did this and why I waited so long to come clean. If you still want to be a part of my community, I appreciate your understanding and thank you. I have no idea when I'll return. I adore everyone of you dearly."

As soon as you clicked post, you started reading the comments. 99% of them were surprisingly positive and supportive while the other 1% were as expected, 11 year old trolls. What surprised you was seeing Jungkook retweet your post after it only being up for a few minutes. Somehow it gave you faith that he'd forgive you someday.

"Why would we care if you're a girl or a guy"

"Somehow I find it even better that my favorite streamer is a girl"

"As you shoulddd"

"Face cam when???"

Were all comments that made you laugh through your teary emotional eyes. It just somehow felt as if your life was missing something all along-being able to be yourself.

Although you were receiving a lot of encouragement from viewers and other streamers, you weren't sure whether you wanted to start streaming again anytime soon. As a result, you just switched off your phone and left your room, only to be greeted by a beaming Hoseok. He tells you right away, encircling you in a hug and kissing your head, "I read everything you said and also probably read all the comments already."

"You did fantastically, Y/n; your tweet almost made me cry."

"Well I'm just glad I finally told the truth about myself. Somehow I felt like I was also lying to myself for a long time-"

Ding

As you raise an eyebrow at your roommate you stroll to your bed and pick up your phone only to discover a message from Jungkook.

"Well, time for me to go and for you to get your boyfriend back huh?"

Kook🐰: that was beautiful

Kook🐰: what you wrote on twitter, I mean

You: thank you :)

Kook🐰: I'm not gonna lie, I'm still mad that you didn't trust me with it.

Kook🐰: but it's also funny that I met you both, or well, just you actually, at the same time

You: funny to think that I thought the same thing when you gave me your number in the convenience store

Kook🐰: fuck, this really is a good story to tell

You: it is :P

Kook🐰: so, I feel like we need to talk still, how about dinner at mines?

You: I'd like that

Game on

Once more, you were standing in front of your closet, next to Hoseok. You sigh in disappointment and ruffle your hair as you say, "Well, I can't just wear the same outfit as last time." Hobi agrees as he peruses your outfit, "You can't, no."

"Have you ever considered—I dunno—going shopping?"

"Just shut up and help me select something," you huff crossing your arms. "I don't enjoy going shopping, you know that." "Yeah well, but it seems like you need to cause this," he gestures at the closet, "it's a disaster."

"A fashion crime actually."

You sigh, folding your arms, saying, "Just shut up and help me, please."

.

To your surprise, the outfit you ended up choosing wasn't so bad—it was a sweet purple baby doll dress. It wasn't overly dramatic, but it did the job.

As soon as you leave home, you get into Hobis's car. Somehow, you managed to persuade him to drive you since, for the love of God, you cannot drive while wearing heels.

"Don't start whining just yet; you're going to do great. There won't be drama, you two will talk things out and that's it" Before heading to Jungkook's apartment, Hobi assures you while turning on the radio.

"What If all he wants is to be friends?" Your question comes as you look out the window, your fears taking over.

"Then that's okay too Y/n; life is about loving yourself, boyfriends." Your eyes roll as Hobi lectures you. "Well, my life is about boyfriends" When you hear him sigh, you respond laughing.

"Boyfriend's and other off-screen activities," you wiggle your eyebrows earning a hit from your best friend.

He winks, "Were here, go get 'em tiger."

"Never say that again,"

When Jungkook first sees you, he remarks, "You look nice," looking at your outfit and then up at your face. "Purple; perfectly on-brand"

You enter his house while giving him a slight grin. "This old stuff, really?" You make a joke in an effort to steer the conversation in the proper direction. "You don't look too bad yourself."

Although there was another occasion to consider this, Jungkook was dressed in a black shirt and his customary navy blue pants.

"Just to clear up any confusion, I'm okay with you being my biggest Twitch rival," he quips, his delicate lips curving into a smile. You retort, "Wait till I overpass you in a few months."

Everything returned to how it had felt before, as if his whole 'I'm a boy but really a girl' thing had truly taken place.

Hugging you from behind, your cheek is kissed chastely by Jungkook. "I made pasta."

"I assume you did everything yourself?"

"How'd you know?" He asks you completely confused.

You smile back at him as he turns his attention to the utter disaster that was the kitchen. You giggle, "Well, I have my ways."

"I ran out of time to clean up, Jin's going to kill me, but it's worth it for you." He flirts, offering you a plate and you hit his chest before joining him at the table.

"This actually doesn't look half as horrible you know." You compliment his cooking,

"Thanks?" He chuckles and starts playing some mellow music while you two converse.

After taking a few bites you sigh "I would totally understand if you were still mad at me, I mean, I could've just told you from the start but I got so nervous when you met the real me and i-"

"Y/n" You're interrupted by Jungkook, who then grabs your hand. "When everything happened, I was pretty upset at you, and to be honest, I'm still a little dazed." He begins. "But now that I know who you are as a person, I can see that you wouldn't have done anything to harm anyone," he starts. "I appreciate that you regret what you did and gave us another opportunity."

"Us?" You mutter while gazing through his boba eyes. He squeezes your hand and says, "If you like to, I'd want to try again."

You couldn't help but nod and smile. "That'd be nice,"

"How about playing some Mario Cart?" After you two finish eating and you assist him in cleaning the kitchen a little, he proposes.

"Sure, winner gets..?" You ask

"A kiss?"

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