It Hurts But I Am Used To It.

As time goes by the more i lose control over myself the less i feel.

I think it's getting worse and no one knows that.

Ya you did it sucks that i couldn't grieve over it...

How do I tell u that i love u beyond your imagination, it just scares me that u will leave me too.

I wish i could sleep and not wake up again in a world i barely exist.

In a place where there is nothing to feel like home

I would rather sleep forever than live like i have never slept

Ah this feeling in my chest drowns me i feel like i am getting swallowed by my own self.

I wanna go home and fall asleep knowing i wouldn't have to wake up the next morning or the next or ever.

How do u beg someone to stay in your life, you can't just need to deal with the loss somehow.

I am living it too...

The thought of losing contact with u is terrifying.

How do I tell u that i love u beyond your imagination, it just scares me that u will leave me too.