Latest Posts by bloodgutsdevilcake - Page 5

I find it interesting when people say to be who you really are instead of who you think you're supposed to be. In theory its a good slogan for avoiding toxic expectations but in practice I am not a good person. I'm mean and insensitive and it's messy trying to be around people when no one wants to talk to you. My family has told me way too many times that they can't talk to me because of the way I'm like. Sometimes change is good. Its okay to be who you want ti be rather than who you are in that sense.

Does anyone have a recommendation for a digital drawing app?? I tried ibisPaint but its not for me lol

I have a constant nagging issue with wanting to restart social media profiles bc I can't feel comfortable with the profiles I've always had and can't figure out what to do to make my current profiles fit my current person. I never know what to post on anything and it makes me feel less of a person because of it.

Okay, Okay, here me out-

Satan from obey me demon form but in this

furries stimulate the economy more than jeff bezos

-Dilfs-

specifically the dilf from Luca because

this man holds my heart fr fr

so can we start hunting down white liberals now or what

I don't think people should make fun of others for saying they have no friends in front of people who consider them friends because yea obviously we're buds but we're not as close as you are with other people and my debilitating fear of intamacy and constant state of lonliness tell me we'll never be closer than what we are now and I'll never be able to express myself fully to you because you won't understand that when I say friends I mean someone who I know will take all of me and say its okay without feeling like a burden or rejecting specific parts of me that I've grown to accept. I know that's never going to happen unless I get better but I don't know how to get better enough to feel comfortable with myself and not the portraits painted specifically for each person I know. So please understand that when I say I have no friends I don't mean that our relationship means nothing I mean that I am nothing to this relationship which has been copied and pasted to other people for so long and while other people are able to get closer to people I will find myself still sitting here watching us remain stagnant.

reblog this if your blog is a safe space on april fools and won’t have any jumpers, screamers, or anything scary or anxiety inducing

I've made such a horrendous discovery today while thinking about my favorite anime boys...

I'm attract to chaotic dumbasses and I'm not sure if that makes me moronsexual or not but I sure do know that I am far too boring to entain such a person.

There Are Only Two Reasons I have a facebook. So that I can Spread as much false personal information as possibly within the lines of "some of it could happen but also some of this is straight up bs so idk whats real anymore". And to gain points on my otome games.

Obviously I can't be honest in front of my mom?? What do you think I have???? A healthy family dynamic??????

I've only been to therapy twice so far and both times my mother was there and both times we mainly discussed my schooling. Why?? I know I'm failing right now but why is that so important when we could discuss how last time I thought of someone hugging me I almost cried??? I jus thought that Therapy would be more about me getting to say what's on my mind and less avout being lectured about how shitty the world is. I like my therapist and I know she's trying but I can't get a word in between my mother assuming how I feel and my therapist making assumptions off of what my mom says. Could she not see how uncomfortable I've been?? I had to leave saying I was going to the bathroom because I was crying and I clearly hated crying in front of my mother. Is this how its supposed to be?? Cause I don't think I like therapy if it is...

My version of summer always gotta have a creep factor. Felt like this casual but creepy in the autumnal spectrum really fits my soul like a casket. This picture specifically isn't very autumnal but it still has a very warm pallet. I jus wanna be unnerving in every sense of my everyday life while still remaining cute and alluring like a black cat with big orange eyes. My cat has big green eyes that turn orange at night and she is everything I amount to be.

MUSHROOMS

I really wanna start learning about plants and fungi that way if I ever had the need I can eat from the earth safely. So far all I've eaten is snickerdoodles.

I am this close 👌 to disappearing under mysterious circumstances only to avoid doing the 27 missing assignments I have. I know I can pull it off to because my family would simply think I am in my room as I always am and not halfway across the Atlantic on a mysteriously old ship with anyone so gay enough to have joined in hopes of avoiding their problems. We each know shit about sailing but we have our own plants and keep a small garden in where the captain's quarters should be. Our cats will of course come with as well.

the problem with having had a creepypasta faze in middle school is that I have become numb to the world while simultaneously having a nagging fear of getting back into creepypasta because sometimes when I jus wanna hear about cryptids in the middle of the night I find some fanfiction about fictional serial killers getting called "uwu smol beans" and it gives me flashbacks

ok but whys there gotta be so many aesthetics out there???? like they all look so NICE!!

At first I wanted to be punk in middle school because it was middle school, and what I ended up being was a lazy version of emo.

Then I wanted to be real pastelly and hipster freshmen year but all I did was thrift clothes and get called out by old ladies for dying my hair pastel purple.

Then sophomore year I wanted to be dark academia so I got a bunch of sweaters but really I jus looked grunge.

Now!! I don know what I wanna be but all these gamer girls and e-girls be hittin different but thanks to the pandemic I jus dress like a junkie in oversized sweatpants tied to fit my waist but not my ass and whatever shirt is closest. smh

Going commando is basically just wearing big undies

I think art is Beautiful because it shows the individuality of the person. Even if someone is bad at doing one thing in art like drawing they can still find that they are good at sculpting. The ability to have that opportunity is just so wonderful. People have their own special little talent in art that shows who they are. They have the power to create something that can reach into the very soul of others. I think art is beautiful because even if a person is bad at it, their hard work and dedication creates a whole other world, a whole other style of art. I absolutely adore that everyone is good at art but it just takes another perspective to see it. In my art class I sit next to a girl. Someone who is very brutal when she looks at someone else’s piece and even her own. On the other hand I tend to say that everyone’s art is beautiful and scold her for saying otherwise because that creation is proof that they tried. It is proof that even though they may not have wanted to do work they still made an effort and created something their own. She tells me that I’m impossible. She says I’m not very smart for trying to think positively and being creative. As soon as she got her projects back she threw them away saying how awful they were. I would always take them because art is beautiful and no matter what someone says people shouldn’t be distraught over hatred instead they should see that while there is always room for improvement that doesn’t mean your art is bad.