My Detrans Note Game Is Only At 22 Notes And I Already Screwed Myself Over So Much... For Every Two I'm

Would really appreciate more detrans related asks! I am very honest about this whole thing, I’ll answer any question. You can also just bully me or try to convince me to detrans. Also kiiinda related… looking for a hypnotist to help me with detrans kink?? Shape my personality at my core…

I haven’t even *mentioned* that I’m schizoaffective on here have I? hehe, since I started posting on here I’ve mostly just been depressed and occasionally manic, but that’s not how it usually is is it??

nononono no it is nooooot!!! I am actually quite many dimensional beyond this ever so simple identity conundrum.

You come here to get off, I come here to live. I am undead, I rot within my ever still walking corpse. My productivity is limited by the demons that bonds me to my identity to my health to my world.

If I can’t kill them who can?

This is why everything needs to be reset, not in the traditional sense but the circles beyond circles :)

there’s a word for this i think, i am not speaking with clarity. Sometimes it happens. Sometimes you should be glad that I ever thought to imagine you here in the first time.

I DO NOT GET DEPRESSED.

I am BEYOND the comprehension of your feeble eye sockets and I will twist the bonds of the galaxy to fly through your being and soul.

Thank you for listening to me 😊

this isn’t really a question but i do hope one day you can be happy as yourself, whether thats female or male i really want u to be happy

Thanks. I think I am “happy” just confused. The main frustrating thing to me with this whole thing is I’m a content creator and all this flip flopping about gender has made me not really want to show my face, which is setting me back a lot. How I present myself to the world is complicated and confusing and I want to stick to just one thing.

Realistically I’m probably a gender fluid person that wants to stick to one gender. Being male and female permanently both have merit to me. I’ll figure it out eventually.

I think I’ve mentioned this but I completely shaved my head in October, so for a long time even if I wanted to be a girl I looked pretty male because of the short hair.

I’m reaching the point soon where I can either start convincingly passing as a girl again or I can get a male haircut. I don’t know which to do.

What did you do to being called a creep?

When I was a girl I understood what it was like to be pursued by weirdos, and honestly I was kinda into it. Now I've sorta become like a lot of those guys that used to be after me. I want a girl to show affection to, and I'm desperate. I would never cross a line, but I'm definitely a pathetic horny simp sometimes.

Fakegirl mtftm Detrans Notes Game

Detransitioning has become more real than kink for me over time and I need a little push to commit to it

Every 2 - One day without shaving my face (starting April 1)

Currently (165 Notes) Can shave again June 22

Every 10 - One week without hrt (starting March 30)

Currently (165 Notes) Can take hrt again July 20

Every 25 - I'll buy a distinctly masculine article of clothing

25 - throw out all my panties and buy boxers

Every 50 - Pick up a new, hypermasculine interest (be sure to suggest some!)

50 - start using a deeper voice

75 - Present as male in public sometimes

80 - I'll do everything I can to unlearn my voice training permanently

90 - Start actively rejecting anything girly or feminine. Try to get myself disgusted by the idea of being associated with girly stuff.

100 - Casually present as male publicly all the time (except when with close friends or family)

100 - My hair is already fairly short but I'll get it cut in a more masculine style

100 - Actively train myself to think more like a horny dumb bro

110 - No show to my next hair removal appointment (to prep for bottom surgery)

120 - Start working out (to get buff)

125 - Change my identity and pronouns to male and he/him on all my private accounts that my friends and family don't see

125 - completely change my wardrobe

150 - I'll change my pronouns to he/him on all my social medias

175 - Throw out all my hrt and never refill it

200 - Maintain a beard for the rest of my life

200 - Start taking testosterone supplements

200 - Cancel my bottom surgery entirely

300 - Start applying for jobs as a guy

500 - I'll come out to everyone I know as detransitioning and be a boy forever

The Fan Experience

Fakegirl Detrans Kink Transformation Story

Warnings: Sexual Content, MTFTM Detrans, Transformation, Identity Death, Misoygyny

You’re realllly pretty, and you know it. Everyone else knows it too. It’s not easy to be adored my thousands of viewers every time you go live, but you manage. Your winged eyeliner, all that blush, a little heart under your eye, you’re an egirl stereotype, but it looks great on you. You’re cute, you’re beautiful, you’re everyone’s girl.

You stare down the camera and catch a glance of yourself on stream. Totally on point, you’re nailing it today. Something deep inside you stirs… you’re *really* hot. To other people obviously. A little confidence never hurt anybody.

It feels good to feel this good about yourself. 7 years ago you were a boy, as silly as that sounds. That’s private information, only your closest friends explicitly know you’re trans, but of course it’s an open secret among your viewers. It’s hard to keep something like that toootally under wraps, ya know?

You just want to feel pretty, so you can stare at yourself, so other people can stare at you, and that’s what you’re doing.

Something is wrong.

You’re really only half aware of it. Here and there the you in your stream does something *slightly* different. She makes a different gesture, she uses slightly different verbiage, she’s not quite you.

She’s hot.

You’ve always been aware of it of course, how pretty you are. People tell you all the time. This is different. This is arousal. Attraction to a distinct person, to the you on the stream.

You hardly notice when your camera turns off.

You feel much more alone now, clearly in private, and extremely aroused, so you do the most logical thing. You whip it out and start jacking off. All your pretty makeup has been absorbed into your skin, making your face greasy and rough. Your hair starts falls out in clumps, leaving you with short, balding hair.

You don’t care, you’re focused on your favorite streamer.

Your body rapidly becomes completely unrecognizable, as you become an anonymous viewer instead of the main event. You’re misshapen and asymmetrical. Decidedly not pretty. Decidedly not a girl. Just an unremarkable man jacking off to a pretty girl.

You’re too horny to notice, in a deep haze of indifference, but god she’s so hot, and you’re so close, you just need her to say your name. You donate the most you can afford, $20, and she mentions you! It’s enough to feel every cell in your body explode in ecstasy as you coat her pixel perfect face in ropes of cum.

Something clicks.

She’s not even your favorite. There’s chicks on here way hotter than her.

She’s not really that bangable, and you know it.

Even when I was a girl this was the kind of girl I tried to be lol

Let’s play a little game. If I can’t go the whole day without cumming I’ll cut every goal in my detrans notes game in half. (This is almost impossible)

ugh i need to have her or something like her