I Know You Spent So Much Time Acquiring Your Perfect Girl Voice Uwu But That Will Only Make Your Detransition

they have yet to invent a hotter thing to hear than "I know what you need" from someone who could not be further from having your best interest at heart

for me a detrans kink isn’t about taking away his identity, it’s about letting him play with every messy piece of it. When he’s begging me to degrade him, he’s really begging me to accept every part of him, even the parts he’s terrified of.

He’s always been so guarded about gender, but in these moments, he’s wide open. When he’s desperate, humiliated, pleading to be my girl again, it’s not weakness, it’s bravery. Watching him break his own rules for pleasure makes me want to ruin him and protect him all at once.

I’m actively hurting myself and making bad decisions in order to hurt myself and I have literally no one to talk to and I’m just losing it and I made so so so many bad decisions last night and this just feels like a breaking point for me idk I just can’t keep doing this I can’t even function. I have literally no one I feel like I can talk to about this and I’m just losing it. I don’t know if I’ve ever been this bad before and the idea of that alone really sucks.

this is a cry for help please help me

I have hit 50 notes on my detrans motivation notes game! This means 2 things:

1) I have to start using a male voice. This is actually going to be kind of hard for me. I have a very cis girl passing voice that I always default to. Unlearning using that is going to be harder than it might seem, but I will start trying.

2) Every 50 notes I need to adopt a new masculine interest/hobby. Here’s the thing about this, I already have somewhat male coded interests. I like comic books, sports, and history, among several more feminine interests. That being said when I was a cis girl and I told people I like baseball or whatever, no one raised an eye. Lots of girls like baseball. I need to find some interests that are so AMAB coded that almost no cis girl would touch them. Like if I started playing CS:GO or following UFC or something. Not sure I’d be into either of those particular but I want to hear lots of suggestions from everyone reading this! You honestly could even say something like “hitting on girls” or something lol

As I mentioned this will happen per 50 notes so I will probably be picking up plenty of new male interests. Again this more than just a kink for me, I’m using this as a push to actually become a man.

random idea:

getting brainwashed so your deadname real name becomes a trigger that turns you on…

oh wait… that already happend 😵‍💫💕

Hello!

I like dms :) i'm a loser fake girl (a normal boy) potentially detransitioning

Okay doubts over for now!!! I’m back to wanting to be a cis man. I went out in public today as a guy, even wearing a binder. I still sounded like a girl, unlearning voice training is harder than you’d think when you’ve sounded like a cis girl for years.

I feel like I’m really coming across as trans masc here and maybe that’s basically what I am at this point. I’m guessing most people that see me in public think I’m trans masc. My facial features are soft and feminine, I’m relatively short, if I’m not wearing a binder (which most of the time I’m not) I have noticeable breasts, my voice does not sound like a cis man at all, the small amount of facial hair I have looks like it just started growing.

I think the assumption for anyone would have to be either that I’m afab trans masc or maybe alternatively that I’m significantly younger than I am. I think add to that I’ve always been kinda afab-coded (I tone it down for this blog because of the nature of it) and trying to sell people on the idea that I’m a cis guy is probably not easy.

I would say if anything at this point I look like I haven’t aged since I started taking hrt and if anything look even younger than that because of the effects of estrogen, so even if I told someone I’m a cis guy they’d probably guess I’m like 18 or 19 (I’m about to turn 25)

This isn’t really a detrans kink post as much as it’s just a detrans post, but it’s interesting. I think pulling the curtains back on the kink stuff… a lot of this isn’t kink for me. Part of me still very much so wants to be a girl, and to be perfectly honest my personality and mannerisms and way of speaking are so naturally feminine that I would have to fundamentally change who I am as a person at my core to meet the detrans goals I have in mind. That’s not easy at all, but still it’s exciting to try and I want to see how far I can go with it.

Because of the nature of my personality my natural state is probably being female, I guess in the back of my head I’m pretty sure that if I detransition I’ll retransition eventually. That’s why I’m so tempted to ruin every chance I have at being a girl, going off hrt for a while and trying to change my personality and all that.

We’ll see how it goes :)

just took a break from sleeping for 16 hours to listen to kawaii future bass while doing your mom <3

your mother is such a bimbo that I asked for her number and she gave me her SSN, she’s a good role model for you <3

I love committing tax evasion!!! I have swiss bank accounts in over 7 states. I’m on Idaho’s most wanted list, they want me, but those hoes can’t farm my potatoes with a ten foot pole. <3

I’m so proud of you <3

I married your mom, do you know what that means? I’m your parent now. I know you thought we had something special, but that’s just going to bring a WACKY dynamic to thanksgiving. <3

I bought your mum a bowkay of roses and she cut her finger on the pedals, i licked up the blood and that’s how we got VAMPIRE DISEASE. Now we stay up all night monster mashing and sleep sunup to sundown. <3

I know I’m a few months younger than you but I am your parent and as the proprietor of a number of swiss bank accounts you are going to have to back off, ur mum is mine now and if you wanna slice of the pie you’re going to have to try again in your next life <3

Went to a New York Knickerbockers game at Madison Square Garden and that’s how I met your mother (she was the basketball) <3

Sorry you weren’t invited to the wedding, we only wanted to invite people making 7 figures or more and you didn’t make the cut. How many swiss bank accounts do you have again? 1? At most. Leave this to your elders sweaty <3

the slow march of time will consume (most of) us all. The year is now 2222. Humanity has been replaced with a complex system of pulleys and levers being operated by a single elderly man with a glass eye named Xebulorp. Of course your mom and I still have VAMPIRE DISEASE so we’re still kickin’ <3

Happy Mother’s Day!

Normalize cute, cis-passing trans girls throwing it all away and becoming hairy, masculine, straight alpha males.

Normalize pretty trans icons that inspired a new generation of trans girls completely transforming into perverted, transphobic dude bros.

Normalize girls that started hrt early and never finished male puberty going off estrogen and letting their real adult body finally develop.

Yes this is from personal experience. Yes I used to be a slightly well known trans Internet personality. No, I'm certainly not anymore :)

and at this point it's much more than just a kink.