New Development!!!

Oh I forgot I impulsively said this, oops. I failed it. I'll reduce the notes needed for the really big goals.

Let’s play a little game. If I can’t go the whole day without cumming I’ll cut every goal in my detrans notes game in half. (This is almost impossible)

Need people in my dms to encourage me to continue to detransition, since I’ve been having some doubts. I’m still off hrt, but I’m really tempted to shave and ruin the notes game. Someone needs to stop me!!!

please please please but also it could be a girl too maybe

god i just. i need a detransed Daddy, ideally older but i'm not fussy, to just take full control of my detransition. no asking what i want, just taking the reins and turning me into exactly the boyfriend he wants, whether that's a manly skinhead leatherfag or a prissy sissy crossdresser, i just NEED a cured man to choose for me

Howdy. I'm a 26-year-old degenerate fakegirl who ought to be corrected. That is to say, deluding myself that I'll ever be a woman is a tragic farce. Real women don't crank their dicks to fakegirls throwing out their estrogen. Real women don't constantly sit around in a horny daze, dreaming of being victimized, dreaming of being pumped back full of T and having their fake girlpills thrown out. I'm shameless. Seriously. Bully me, ask me for dick pics, whatever. I'll hand 'em out readily. Remind me of how I'll never, ever be any type of woman at all.

True to the promise of my notes game I just bought TEN pairs of boxers and I will be throwing out my useless panties. It's ridiculous I was wearing panties in the first place, obviously they didn't fit. One of the things on the list is that every 50 notes I will pick up a new masculine interest. I am autistic so I'm someone who has a lot of intense, specific hobbies and interests. Some of them are already somewhat masculine, but I engage in them in somewhat feminine ways. For example I follow sports pretty closely and I like watching videos about history. Each time I hit 50 notes I will elevate one of those more male interests and I will try to engage with it in a more man-brained way. Maybe eventually I will pick up entirely new interests too, but they have to be something that I would even find interesting in the first place.

Also at this point I will not be able to shave for most of April (and counting) I intend to start the count of days I can't shave on April 1, just because it'll be easier to keep track of if it starts on the first of a month. I actually at this point have not shaved in 4 or 5 days so I'm undecided if I will shave on March 31 to reset it or not. I am somewhat leaning towards doing that but we'll see.

One last thing, I have edited the list a bit since I initially posted it. I will never change goals that have already been reached and I'll try not to move around goals I already listed unless I feel like they're in an order that is unnatural or doesn't make sense. For the most part I will only be adding new things to the list.

I intend to adhere to the list entirely and I will be posting proof that I followed through. Be sure to hold me accountable. Another thing, if I reach the point where I'm allowed to shave again, the notes game ends.

I have now filled my pillbox for the week aaaand… no hrt!

I have a bunch of left over progesterone from when I used to take progesterone and I’m curious if that would turn me back into a girl mentally.

Maybe that sounds crazy but I remember it making me feel a lot more feminine back when I took it.

I took half my morning dose of hrt this morning, I guess with the intention of getting myself back on it? I haven’t taken my hrt for months. After taking it I quickly thought “How silly of me to think I could seriously commit to going back to being a girl.”

Fact is I can’t commit to either right now. I shaved my head 7 months ago and at this point my hair is kinda long… for a guy.

If I could commit to being a guy I’d go get a haircut and throw out my hrt, if I could commit to being a girl I’d take better care of myself and take my hrt everyday.

I’m doing neither. Genuinely could use someone throwing out my hrt and just shaving my head whether I like it or not.

On a scale of one to ten, how suggestable and easy to break is your mind?

pretty much 10, but im a bit of a brat. You're free to come in my dms and try <3

9/10 Body

3/10 Face

That just makes it hotter because she’s probably insecure

Post-beach cardio

reblog if you're an mtf boy who wants people to come into your DMs / inbox and tell you how masculine and manly you are

Do you see yourself as more dominant or submissive?

i’m more dominant lately <3