please someone come in my dms are scrub any hint of femininity out of my head!!!
I need to be brainwashed out of touch with my feminine side, just completely erased and out of touch with anything remotely feminine
Went through a whole arc about my facial hair today but in the end it is now gone :)
I have hit 50 notes on my detrans motivation notes game! This means 2 things:
1) I have to start using a male voice. This is actually going to be kind of hard for me. I have a very cis girl passing voice that I always default to. Unlearning using that is going to be harder than it might seem, but I will start trying.
2) Every 50 notes I need to adopt a new masculine interest/hobby. Here’s the thing about this, I already have somewhat male coded interests. I like comic books, sports, and history, among several more feminine interests. That being said when I was a cis girl and I told people I like baseball or whatever, no one raised an eye. Lots of girls like baseball. I need to find some interests that are so AMAB coded that almost no cis girl would touch them. Like if I started playing CS:GO or following UFC or something. Not sure I’d be into either of those particular but I want to hear lots of suggestions from everyone reading this! You honestly could even say something like “hitting on girls” or something lol
As I mentioned this will happen per 50 notes so I will probably be picking up plenty of new male interests. Again this more than just a kink for me, I’m using this as a push to actually become a man.
perfect bounce
I love being a boy! I love my dick, my musk, my flat chest! I love how easy it is to get horny and how good it feels to be able to cum 🥴
Detransitioning has become more real than kink for me over time and I need a little push to commit to it
Every 2 - One day without shaving my face (starting April 1)
Currently (165 Notes) Can shave again June 22
Every 10 - One week without hrt (starting March 30)
Currently (165 Notes) Can take hrt again July 20
Every 25 - I'll buy a distinctly masculine article of clothing
25 - throw out all my panties and buy boxers
Every 50 - Pick up a new, hypermasculine interest (be sure to suggest some!)
50 - start using a deeper voice
75 - Present as male in public sometimes
80 - I'll do everything I can to unlearn my voice training permanently
90 - Start actively rejecting anything girly or feminine. Try to get myself disgusted by the idea of being associated with girly stuff.
100 - Casually present as male publicly all the time (except when with close friends or family)
100 - My hair is already fairly short but I'll get it cut in a more masculine style
100 - Actively train myself to think more like a horny dumb bro
110 - No show to my next hair removal appointment (to prep for bottom surgery)
120 - Start working out (to get buff)
125 - Change my identity and pronouns to male and he/him on all my private accounts that my friends and family don't see
125 - completely change my wardrobe
150 - I'll change my pronouns to he/him on all my social medias
175 - Throw out all my hrt and never refill it
200 - Maintain a beard for the rest of my life
200 - Start taking testosterone supplements
200 - Cancel my bottom surgery entirely
300 - Start applying for jobs as a guy
500 - I'll come out to everyone I know as detransitioning and be a boy forever
something I'm absolutely fucking weak for is when dudes gain weight and in the process manage to look like 10 or 15 years older, like unnnnnnnghnf perfection, not that I don't love actual daddies but like there's an incredible allure to a guy who's pursuit of pleasure completely obliterated any chance he had of looking young and pretty🤤🤤
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feel free to make bad choices with me in dms
Maybe I’m gender fluid or something idk, but really I want to be binary one way or the other, permanently.
Whats the most stalkery shit you secretly got off on during your time as a content creator
Well it was other people stalking me, and people were definitely very creepy towards me, even recently someone from back then found my insta and slid in my dms and tried to dom me. I told him I don’t really like guys but he insisted. There was a LOT of that in 2022.
erm so I may have impulsively shaved my face which I know I said I wouldn’t do but to be perfectly honest having facial hair is just not practical for me. I can’t openly be detrans rn I’m not ready for that and I don’t know if I ever will be. I’ll keep skipping my hrt for the foreseeable future but I just have to shave.