What Is A Para? I Have Seen The Term A Lot In Madd Circles And Suspect Is Has To Do With Paracosms Yet

@sillycyan @bardic-tales @junk-kitten (tagging the gf to try to get her active on here eheh)

put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle & let your friends pick their favorite of the first five songs!

I just saw this tag game on my dashboard and I thought it would be funny to play! Tagging my beloved moots to go on with this Spotify game @huntressofartemis001 @lunacchy @baekhyunsbestie @nelyastudies 🫣

Last song: "Money" from the musical Cabaret

Favorite color: Green and purple

Last book: "King King Theory" by Virginie Despentes

Last Movie: Scream 4

Last TV Show: Agatha All Along

Sweet/spicy/savory: Savory/salty!

Relationship Status: Polyamorous, in a relationship

Last thing googled: Rimes-

Looking forward to: An open scene I'm going to this week

Current obsession: Work (drag and clowning)

Thanks for the tag!

@rainbow-starheart idk who else- So open tag!

10 People I'd Like to Get to Know More

thank you for the tag @badplayerana @lavender-twilight23

Last Song: Happiness is a Butterfly by Lana Del Rey

Favorite Color: Light dusty pink

Last Book: Dune

Last Movie: Nosferatu (2024) and it was so good!

Last TV Show: ER

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: Sweet all the way

Relationship Status: Currently engaged to fellow fanfic writer @soholdmetightao3!

Last Thing Googled: No spoilers but it was medical case studies for the fic I am currently writing

Looking Forward To: Marrying @soholdmetightao3 this October!

Current Obsession: Cherik obviously and making my blorbos suffer

Tagging a few people but feel free to ignore @soholdmetightao3 @chris-in-the-headlights @havernel

Trick or treat!!!

Happy Halloween! Here's a simple treat: my playlist for tonight 🎃👻🧡💀🦇

Nothing scary, just pure vibes 🍂🕯️

@sillycyan @trashy-kitty

Picrew

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Old 2020 Picrew that I privated before but people still seem to want it back BAD so here you go LMAO Considering supporting me! - KoFi:

@primalshane @thelost-experiment @caffeinated-eccentric-polymorph

y’all, if you fell on your tumblr graphics chart, would you survive? 🤔🧐🤨 (using the hourly feature)

Might aswell tag a mutual haha

@theoneandonlypatches @theworstundead @boyswillbedogz @caffeinated-eccentric-polymorph baller (sorry for tagging y’all in so many things XD)

I keep going back and forth between separating the yapping from my main and ufvgubhniebnuifyvb

I think I'll just put everything back here and imaybe reblog my art to a more organised sideblog if I really want to separate it 🤔

So uh, if during the night posts you'd seen here previously or only on @ceps-pers move here, let's pretend it's normal 👍

Will probably keep the blog for straight up yapping (like this) and have the rest here, cause I don't want it to go unused tbh (or if somebody has another idea of what I could do with it I'll take it tbh-)

HEY! Want to help my research?

I won’t go too much into why I need this information but presuming you’re on tumblr I assume you’ll be happy to share - please answer some basic questions about your identity and existence! If you do, you’ll get a very big thanks from me :3 like a question game !!

Feel free to write it as detailed as you want but I deeply appreciate if you would be precise!

It goes as follows:

What sort of animal would you be and why?

What’s your stance on society/humanity? Have you ever had people bring you down, wether it be directly or indirectly?

We’re you ever ostracised as a child from communities or gatherings?

What’s your preferred way to spend some time to recharge, and when do you usually do it. (Bonus, does it actually leave you happy and content?)

Do you have trouble understanding your thoughts?

What are your core beliefs/principles to live by?

Do you consider yourself a good person?

How often do you think on mortality/the future and what it holds? Does it leave you scared or worried?

Are you currently content with your living situation.

Do you have a steady flow of finances / are you satisfied with how much you currently have and/or your job?

What’s your favourite food and why?

Would you like a pet? Any pet. Explain.

What’s your stance on anything sexual?

Do you find relationships necessary (personally to you)?

Have you ever thought that there may be some sort of other force or creature, wether it be something tangible or something divine, watching you? Does it leave you feeling uncomfortable?

Where do you feel safe?

Do you think other people are you the way you want to be seen? How do you want to be seen?

Have you come to terms with what you physically look and sound like? (Mirror, pictures, video, audio) Does it in any way comply with what you like?

What’s your preferable way to dress?

In a store, what aisle do you go to?

How would you respond to a crying child in your care?

How would you deal with a misbehaving dog in your care?

What differences are there, in your eyes, between human and animals?

If you could live in an isolated forest, far from any city, and surrounded by animals and nature but with no way to return - would you?

Would you be willing to transform into some sort of animal or creature, permenantly, and are there any preferences or worries you have regarding it?

Where would you like to live?

Do you yearn for something unobtainable?

Have you met the person you consider to be “the one”? This can be platonic (like a good friend), romantic, or anything else. Can even be an animal.

Do you hold any strange emotions or feelings or even memories that don’t seem to be yours? Do you know any place you could have seen it (online or real life) or why they may have formed?

How has being in school affected you?

How has work affected you? (if you don’t work, feel free to skip) mentally, physically, any way.

Do you have any hobbies and what do they mean to you?

Have you ever had some unexplainable pull to do something?

Are you supportive of people with different ideologies or opinions as you?

Do you think it’s possible to get every single person to have the same level of freedom and education and understanding?

What does the universe/world/‘god’ mean to you?

How often do you exist in nature and truly get a hold on it?

What things does existing invoke in you, how do you feel when consciousness, are there any primary functions that are more prominent than others? Do you have any specific thoughts about life? Do you feel aware of a certain taste your life has?

Do you believe in fate/destiny, do you have any experiences which prove that fate, and do you think it has good plans for you?

How do you respond to being hurt by another person? (Verbally or physically)

How do you deal with an accident?

Do you think there’s any ulterior purpose for us being alive, and do you have any idea of what you are meant to do? (Specifically you)

Have you had any paranormal experiences, and do you share them with others?

Do you believe yourself? What sort of personality would you say you have?

Did your parents treat you well?

What are your primary skills and how well do you know them?

Can you plan, and do you stick to those plans?

Do you dream in colour?

Do you think in images, words, audio, or energy? Or a mixture?

Do you remember dreams and how detailed are they?

What sort of activities do you and your family do together?

Do you have intuition/gut feeling and has it ever been scarily right?

What commonly known or said things do you hate or stand against?

(screw it what's a fun fact about yourself also @ people I'll go first I'm allergic to myself

@escapetheslaughter

@ugly-astral-taurus

@bees-official

@gremlininthedark

@bloodmoon-da-idiot

@multifandomcutie13 )

It’s so great to see anothe polymorph/shapeshifter who also has MaDD (I think the term for those is Xenreve if I’m not mistaken?)

May I ask about your kin experience while also having MaDD?

I don't know, maybe? To be fair I didn't know there was a term for that-

I'll look into it though, so if anyone has links-

It's a bit special, because I'm pretty sure I was a dog therian before anything else, but now it's shifted to being my main form as a shapeshifter.

I've daydreamed for as long as I can remember, and I don't mean the normal amount obviously: it's always been, and still is, a coping mechanism for me, dare I say the one I default too (art is a close second though, and I often mi the two).

As a note, my daydreaming hasn't been maladaptive for the last few years, but I still say I have madd. It's chronic the way I see it: if I'm not careful, it could become pathological again. Now i don't have to be careful all the time, but when I feel particularly bad I have to consciously use other ways to cope along with daydreaming, otherwise it still has a tendency to take over.

I like saying that until a few years back, I was fully living in my head. I had pretty much no life outside of my daydreams. And living fully in your daydreams for that long has had some interesting effects on my psyche and identity.

I've come to realise that I lived through my paraself because of multiple reasons, the main one being masking and being terrified to stop.

I mask way less now, and that's led to me feeling like my paraself, except reverse isekai'd: I barely have any memories outside of my daydreams until the years I "got out of my head", so it feels like being dropped from my world, the one I lived in 95% of the time, into this one.

Since my world is very much full of magic, there's a lot that didn't quite transfer to this body.

In source, I'm a shapeshifter. My constels and main forms are linked to this too: they're the forms I liked to take the most and the things I was and/or related to.

Now I also used to have magic. I could heal with it and create illusions. (I could also bend the elements a bit, but healing and illusions were my main ones).

I discovered earlier in childhood here witchcraft and forms of healing, and I've edged around it for a while (the healing methods, I've been practising witchcraft in this verse ever since I discovered it), but this year I've started learning to heal! It's not quite how it worked for me, but it's similar enough that it makes me really happy to be able to do so again.

For the illusion part, I've found performance arts the closest thing to it. I used to incorporate my magic into my art a lot, and I feel very connected to Everything when I'm performing, it's really euphoric.

That's all I can think about for now ahah, but I might reblog this with additions if I think of any ^^

In any case, thank you so much for the ask anon!! I love yapping and this was such an interesting and lovely question to answer <3

Taking the offer to join in ^^

I'm pretty different from my child self, so much so I changed my name, even though fundamentally we're exactly the same, so this was interesting!

Making this made me feel full of love for myself tbh 💕

@lifenconcepts if you feel like doing it ^^

Picrew tag game!- Create yourself now vs how you looked when you were a kid

Link

I was tagged by @cutebisexualmess for this but the chain was too long so I'm restarting!

If only that little girl could see me now (she'd probably think I was cool tbh)

uhm tagging: @b3achfagz (ik you dont do tag games so u can just ignore this but i though u might find it cool) @cassiecryptic @viktheviking1 @depressedgremlinbitch @ramencat12 @inkyslimee @the-horrifying-digital-circus @patipati @cute--thing @musicalsiphonophore @tastetherainbow290 @disenchantedwarlock @bookishcatcafe and anyone else who sees this and thinks it looks cool!!