Bardman……………

who else be stuck exclusively consuming niche media and making fan content for niche media because one of your fuckass disorders make it so consuming popular stuff stress you out for some strange reason

its not even “how can i be different today”. its like the more people talk about something the more the ND goblins upstairs reject it and push it to the back of the log against my will. its kind of really annoying because when deltarune chapter 2 came out people talking about it everywhere made me not want to touch it for months when i genuinely love tobys creations. like what evolutionary advantage caused this symptom to exist ?? is it even an ADHD thing?? idek

watching your beautiful moots finally finding a popular media they enjoy then having their fan creations loved by thousands (like they deserve) hits so different bc as much as youre happy for them that will probably never happen to you. bleh

my squire always on some wretched tomfoolery

remember kids the approval of god is a drug and the withdrawal can kill

@moonmagiker

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nvm i think im not entirely the issue i think the meltdown kept getting worse bc my mom is just rly bad at talking and if i had the support of someone whos chill abt it ill be ok. cus she was saying stuff like “im [age] im going to die soon i cant help you forever” like great im already stressing out and now i gotta think about my parents mortality on top of it too

i dont want to blame her bc shes genuinely trying but man oh man

adhd is like, it mostly isnt there, until you have to do paperwork then suddenly its a whole meltdown and feeling like maybe you arent made for this world and should not be here

im really tired

wait what do uou mean people are crediting miku instead of the producers whar 😭

I love that vocaloid has had a resurgence recently and the whole hatsune miku being treated like a real celebrity thing is nice and all, but do not let that trick you into attributing songs to her!!!!

There are real people making these songs, and they deserve credit. Back in the day, Wowaka (RIP) left the vocaloid community out of frustration that his songs kept being credited to Hatsune Miku. That's like saying a Bach song was written by "Piano". She is an instrument, remember that!

adhd is like, it mostly isnt there, until you have to do paperwork then suddenly its a whole meltdown and feeling like maybe you arent made for this world and should not be here

im really tired

I can’t stop thinking about this video

something i realized abt art eventually is that a huge part of having a style is abt what textures you want to depict the things you draw as having and that has nothing to do with realism.

ive looked at the works of some artists with rly impressive, sleek, cool styles, and while they definitely have a solid knowledge of realism the coolness doesnt really come from realism like at all. some people render hair like they render glass or jello so the hair looks so colorful and shiny but rhat is absolutely not realistic. some people render their characters clothes like latex or leather or silk so the fabric looks so glossy and sleek when thats probably not what theyre realistically wearing, but it *looks* cool and pleasant.

this really answered my age long questions abt why i spent all my time in art school but still struggle to make my arts like, specifically stylistically appealing, in ways those artists do it. because real life isnt appealing all the time. i can render skin as realistically as possible and i deflate and feel like i shouldve just kept it flat, because maybe i wouldve rather imagined i was looking at paper rather than human flesh. this doesnt mean all that time studying realism was a waste though because you still need to learn how to render materials/textures like glass and silk realistically to achieve those forementioned styles.

thats just me tho not everyone aims for their styles to achieve the effects that i personally find fun. the point of this post is to inspire people to pay attention to how textures affect style more. do you want your art to have a warm cozy feel? study the textures of blankets and plushies and try applying them even if its not realistic (eg hair). do you want your art to be cool or pretty in a delicate way? study how porcelain or glass reflect light and maybe render skin like that… the possibilities r endless

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me playing sky with my wife whos new to the game

Every few steps she looks back to check on her little kitty cat 🐈🥺