He Just Feeling A Bit Depressed

So, TW, abuse, toxicity, break ups,

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So I never really knew you

God I really tried too,

Blindsighted, addicted

Thought we could really do this, but really we were foolish

In hindsight it's obvious,

talking with my sister I ask why do you love this guy, she i said "I dont really know, but it's love and that's fine."

Some mistakes get made that's alright, that's okay,

You can think that you're in love

when your really just in pain

Some mistakes get made, that's alright, that's okay, in the end I'm sure that there's a moral to our stories

It's funny memory,

Can turn into a bad dream,

When running wild,

Turns violentile,

Remember how we hid in my closet?

Just like our sexualities did,

So romantic, But you never even loved me!

God I should have seen the signs!

Talking with parents they asked, "where did you find these friends?" I said, "I don't really know, but it's true and that's fine!"

You that, Some mistakes get made that's alright, that's okay,

You can think that you're in love

when your really just in pain

Some mistakes get made, that's alright, that's okay, in the end it's better for us, what's the moral of our story!?

They say it's better to have loved and lost, then never to feel love at all.

That's just a loud of shit.

But we just need to tell you all.

Some mistakes get made that's alright, that's okay,

You can think that you're in love

when your really just in engaged

Drama will get to you, and that's alright, it's okay, soon it will be better for us, there's a moral to our stories, right?

Some mistakes were made, is that fine? It's not okay, some mistakes I've made were never right, I'm not okay, but I promise I'd stick around for the better of our stories.

Some mistakes get made that's alright, that's okay,

You can think that you're in love

when your really just in pain

I've made some bad mistakes,

I'm still crying

It's okay

We can get through this honey, I know that there's a moral to our stories!

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I remember listening to MOTS and thinking, "wow this fits me and my friends. I wonder what would happen if I made it more like us." And this is what I have. I keep thinking, "There's gotta be a reason why were are all like this."

My friends and I were kind of violent. Physically I was the worst. Maybe verbally too. But we were toxic to each other. It's wrong to say, but that's how we clicked. That's how we worked. That's how we liked it. And hated it. We were perfect for each other. The friend group was always mixed up, and for me, I was really the glue.

I try and I try but it's so so hard to change. I believe the song isnt just about romantic relationships, but platonic ones too. So yeah. Based on real events.

That is exactly why we're getting emotional

i can’t believe we’re getting emotional about this finale when Schlatt’s final bloody words were ‘Flatty Patty’

I have seen the webtoon and it is great! Shirt but great! I liked the mystery part to it. Also good luck with college if you're still in it! I started online school and it's super time consuming.

Hello!

Sorry I haven’t been very active on this account, my life got super busy due to college stuff. 

However, since you guys apparently like my story telling, I figured you would like this.

Recently, I found out about a contest on Webtoons, and I’ve decided to join it! I know it’s not my typical content, but if you guys have the time, I would really appreciate if you took the time to read my entry, and possibly share it with other people. If a lot of folks look at it, it’ll help my chances on having the story be one of the few winners! It will only take a few minutes of your time.

Fair warning: It’s very different from the content on this ask blog. I focused on making the story spooky rather than fluffy.

Here’s a link to my Webtoon.

Thank you in advance for reading it!

'On Monday we met and you took me home.

You gave me a family of friends you see, and I loved you all equally.

Well that isn't true actually. I liked one more than the rest. And it was you. You were so charming. So funny. So smart. So strong and so cool. And you cared about me. You cared about others too.

People say you have bad heart and that you're cruel amd vain. But they don't know the real you.

On Tuesday you grabbed my arm and pulled me aside. I had dropped a glass on the floor shattered. I was scared for a bit. But you gave me a Dustpan and told be to hold still. You took a broom and sweeper it up. You didn't yell or hit. You were... nice.

You told be to be more careful, that I could have hurt myself. And you cared.

On Wednesday, I felt weak. I felt like falling over. The whole left side of me felt weak and tired. You picked me up and you carried me to my bedroom, which took a while because we lived in a castle. He tucked me to sleep, and stayed a bit. You got a book out. I had reached out for your hand and you smiled. You took my hand and held it as a fell asleep.

Apparently Killer walked in when I was asleep. He would always tease me about this. I found it funny. You didn't. That made it better.

On Thursday, Error confided in me about his crush. I remember taking his hands and pulling him close. You walked in on us. We swore it was nothing and that it wasnt what it looked like. You weren't so sure though. You seemed... jealous? In fact you didn't put us in any missions after that.

On Friday you were sick. You caught a cold from Dust. I made you some soup and you thanked me. I liked it. The way you smiled at me. It was lovely. You looked a little different because you were sick. Well really different actually but... I still liked you the same. You were the same person no matter what you looked like.

You said you like how brave and courageous I was. I blushed and shook it off. Telling you I wasnt brave or courageous. You smiled and rolled your eyes. Before you fell asleep you said you loved me. What did you mean by that?

On Saturday you were better and I was glad. We watched a movie. A horror movie. Lust and Killer were scared shitless. Killer and Lust were clutching onto each other. And I was scared too. But I wanted you to think I was brave. But you pulled me closer and said it was okay to be scared. Right. I was stupid. You could feel emotions.

You liked the darkness. It was always dark. We all fell asleep after the fourth movie. Well expect for me amd you. I was on your shoulder and you were on your phone. We laughed at something we saw. You turned your phone off and the only thing I could see was your cyan eyelight. You pressed our mouths together.

On Sunday I was nervous. I was so scared for you. You were in a bad fight with your brother. You said you loved me with all your heart before you went unconscious.

A month later I slept in your bed, praying you would come home okay. We were the same. Error would lead us and we even made a truce with your brother.

In fact him and Killer are together. Did you know that? I'm sure you did.

Half a year later the doctors said it would be a miracle if you woke up. Thing was I was too emotional. I was sick a lot. Then I went to the doctor and it turns out i was pregnant. You're the only one I let into my life. I knew it was yours. I prayed amd prayed. You deserved to meet your kid.

A year later we got news. We were visiting you. All of us. Even your son. I called him Incubux. I think you'd like him. The doctor thought you would wake up. Our son was a few months old.

A few months old. He looked a lot like you. I was excited. Finially you would meet your son.

But you never woke up. You took your last breathe when our son was seven. We were by your sighed and you turned to dust. I never got to tell you I loved you back. But you knew. Incubux is fifteen now. I'm over it now. I still love you. But I dont cry tears of sadness when I remember you. But tears of joy.

Our son has a boyfriend. Error's kid. Oh. Error and Ink got married. So did Killer and Dream actually. Most of us did. Dust and Blueberry, Horror and Lust, SwapLust and Swapfell, but not me. Maybe in another life we can get married.

I'm writing this letter to you, Nightmare. I know how much you liked to read, so I tried to make it worth it. When ever I look at our son I see you. And I know you're watching us.

I'll join you soon. You see, I'm dying. Our son still young. I've made a will. Dream gets our son. I know you would want that. I have a few months left to live. And I'm going to spend each thinking about you. I've made several letters, and I'll give them all to you.

All my love, Cross.'

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This made ME tear up a bit.

Crossmare angst bro. @nightmarexcross

"The affairs."

Does this count as Crossmare Angst? @nightmarexcross

[SwEaRinG]

[Implied (?) Things]

[Inspired by the following songs: Say No To This, Congratulations, Burn, First Burn, Selfish, Bad Girlfriend, Roxanne, I don't need your love.]

Cross stroked the purple skeleton's cheek. The Skelton was wearing a purple jacket, a black crop top underneath. Lust smiled, his heart shaped eyelights glowing.

Cross and Lust had been seeing each other for almost a year without their husbands knowledge.

Yeah that's right. They were both married to other people. Cross married to Nightmare, while Lust was with Error. Lust and Cross would meet alone in the bedroom when ever their husbands were gone.

They had nice times, then they fell in love. They knew it was wrong. Immoral. They truly loved their husbands, but they also loved each other.

'You treat me so much better than Error' Lust said once. 'You love me so much more then Nightmare.' Cross replied.

Cross loved Nightmare a lot. Cross didn't feel loved most of the time. Nightmare wasn't as affectionate as Cross, even if Nightmare did love Cross.

Error on the other hand, didn't love Lust. In fact he too, was having an affair. Lust knew it too. Error didn't trust Lust right.

The first time they ever cheated was when Lust came crying to Cross about Error. Nightmare was on a business trip with Dream.

Cross comforted the smol, held him close and whispered sweet words to him. Lust kissed Cross. Cross had kissed back.

But back to present time. Cross pulled Lust onto his lap and kissed his temple. Lust giggled a bit and kissed Cross's cheek. "How was your week?" Cross asked.

"Error left to "hang out with some friends" and came back drunk. He left this." Lust said and pointed to a faint scar. Cross kissed it, pulled back and frowned. "Yours?" Lust asked back.

"Good. I did some writing. As much as I love Nightmare, I'm glad he left on ANOTHER business trip. Though should be back tomorrow."

"Actually I came home early." A deep voice said. The couple turned to see Nightmare, his cyan eye narrowed, his arms crossed.

Cross sputtered, his eyes widening. Instead of pushing Lust away, he pulled Lust closer. Nightmare gritted his teeth. "In OUR bed? How long has THIS been going on?" Nightmare asked. Lust shivered in fear. Not from Nightmare, but at the thought of what Error would do if he knew about the affair.

Nightmare's fists tightened, waiting for an answer. Cheated. He'd been cheated on! So many thoughts ran through his head.

"A year." Cross said softly. "WHAT?!" Nightmare roared. A year! How could he not have known? Cross yelled back. "No! You can't be mad! You never even loved me! You never say goodnight, or kiss me goodbye! You never ask me how MY day was! You've barely shown any affection towards me! You don't get to be mad! You can't because you never even LOVED ME!"

Cross was in tears. Lust wiped them away and pet the oreo. Nightmare's eye widened. His goop melted off. He was back to his passive form. "You... think I don't love you?" He asked. Nightmare thought for a while. Tears streamed down his face. 'Was it all him?' He thought.

Cross was right. He never said goodnight, or kissed Cross goodbye everytime he left. He never showed Cross much affection.

Nightmare felt his heart break. Cross blinked back more tears seeing Nightmare cry. "I should have left you but I still love you. You're faking it. You don't feel bad. No. No. NO!" He bursted, pushed Lust off of him and ran out the room, knocking Nightmare to the ground.

Lust frowned. He came over to Nightmare and hugged him. "I'm sorry. But he's right. Do you even love him?"

Nightmare sobbed out an, "Of course." Maybe Nightmare didn't deserve Cross. Lust let Nightmare go. "Then go make things right."

Nightmare looked up at Lust.

Cross was outside at the fountain. Nightmare stepped outside. He wiped away his tears and walked over to Cross. "I'm sorry Cross. I don't deserve you, I love you, so, so fucking much. So fucking much. I love you so tucking much and I'm sorry I never showed it! I-I-I-'m not good at- at-at feelings and I- I know you hate me now and I understand I'm not mad you you you had every right to find someone who actually showed you love." Nightmare whimpered and held his tears back. Cross hugged Nightmare tightly. "I love you too. I'm sorry I cheated I just-"

"It's okay. We'll work through this together." Nightmare said. He kissed Cross. Cross smiled and kissed back, tears still running down both of their faces

Lust smiled sadly from the back. He was happy for the two. But he knew he'd never be loved the same way Cross loved him ever again. And he'd go back to Error, knowing Error was always having an affair.

'But that was okay.' Lust thought.'Because that's just how life is.'

Cross looked over at Lust and frowned. Cross explained Lust's situation to Nightmare. Nightmare's eyesockets widened, then softened at Lust.

Lust was so kind. Error didn't deserve him. Error didn't even move him. He was just there to show off to his friends.

Nightmar kissed Cross on the cheek and hugged him tightly.

"We'll figure this out together and we will help the poor boy."

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AND THAT'S THE END OF PART ONE!

I think and hope this counts as Crossmare because that's what I'm going for-

(With a bit of Horrorlust on the side 7u7)

hey wow that finale fucked me up but at least we got PHILZA MINECRAFT

that one fucking meme

please reblog, it spreads my work. commissions are open!

Crosslust ship child uwu

Also her and Keen are twins

Redraw!! 2020 // 2021

I really liked this ship so I make a drawing in April 2020, now in August 2021 I like this ship again so I made this beautiful redraw, im REALLY PROUD of this redraw, it made me see how much i improve, i love it for that.

Done w this finally- these three pages are actually supposed to be a sequence!

(Fixed a few things on the pages I’d already posted nmbjkbhihv)

More #perirep to come, stay tuned! 💜💙

Bonus epilogue doodle:

She onto them lmao