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My stupid cat 💔

Welllcooome to one of my recent sketchbooks! Only showing the ones I like here </3

Next post will be more :3

Heyhey!! Been a bit.. thought I would post for once :3

Take some rudie x looey fanart! Click on alt to read what they are saying in the first one.. my handwriting isn't the best!

it's doomed

thinking about gihun's eyes softening when he sees inho laugh... which of course could mean nothing

uhhahhahh!!! Haven't posted recently.. like.. at all- anway!! Take this trashy piece of digital I did because I haven't posted and need smthin to fill the gap qwq

not proud of it but ykk sighs what can u do?? Compliments are GREATLY appreciated!!!

Every day I am in the trenches fighting for my life defending this poor man. He was going through so much and people online demonize him and say he's as bad as his abuser

(I've got a lot of thoughts about this so I'll make sure to separate things to make it easier to look at lol)

Curly is a victim of abuse. Jimmy is his abuser. This is something that I feel a lot of people tend to brush over or don't acknowledge it often.

And I'm not just talking about post-crash. Jimmy's abuse of Curly is there pre-crash too. The party scene where the crew learns about the company going under is a huge example of this. Jimmy verbally abuses him, he gaslights him, he blames him for their (his) misfortune. Jimmy accuses Curly of thinking he's better than everyone (better than him), that he doesn't care about them (about him). That he's going leave them (leave him). Which is not true. Curly tries to explain himself but Jimmy shuts him down and he just takes it.

The fact that he just allows this to happen makes it seem like he's used to this... That this kind of behavior is a recurring thing with Jimmy. And the fact that nobody else tries to defend him or stands up to Jimmy just normalizes it for him. When Anya tells Curly what Jimmy did it catches him off guard. Bc he genuinely didn't think that his friend was capable of that. It wasn't something that was obvious to him. There were absolutely many red flags in the past but they were subtle enough for him to not see them bc he cares for Jimmy, he trusts him. Jimmy's the only one he feels he can open up to, who he can let his guard down with. Jimmy's his home. That's how close they are.

Because of this deep love for his friend and the subtlety of Jimmy's cruelty, he doesn't see the constant verbal and emotional abuse as what it is: abuse. Which is why he finds Jimmy's abuse towards Anya so shocking and jarring.

He isn't a man covering for his rapist friend bc of the 'bro code'. It does look like that from a certain angle and it's understandable why people see it that way but that's not what his character is really about as much as it makes sense otherwise.

He's essentially a battered housewife who's still in love with her husband but is realizing for the first time that the man she loves is a monster. That the man she loves and devoted her life to has been hurting her this whole time and she didn't even realize it. That the man she loves and spent so much of her life caring for has gone and hurt someone else. That he's most likely hurt others before and she's been utterly unaware of it the entire time she defended him and made excuses for him when he wasn't the best or the fairest or the most responsible or when he screwed up yet again solely bc of how much she loved and cared for him.

And Curly barely had any time to process ANY of that before Jimmy decided to try and kill them all to avoid the consequences of his actions. It was ultimately a selfish act even if he thought he wasn't just doing it for himself. Jimmy is selfish and needs to be in control or he loses it. He cares for Curly. He loves him. Curly's done so much for him. Curly's the only one who understands him, who doesn't hate him. Curly's his home. He resents how 'successful' he is but that's only bc he thinks so highly of him. He constantly puts himself down and put Curly on a pedestal and worships him while simultaneously mistreating him.

He treats his best friend like shit, he's awful to him. But he's not aware that this is the case or maybe he's in denial about it. He can't or just refuses to see how he's doing all of what he does for himself in the end. He justifies his attempt to kill them all (to himself and to Curly) by claiming he's doing this for them both. That if they were to get back to earth it would all be Curly's fault, that it'll ruin his life and career... despite the fact he had basically nothing to do with Anya's abuse. Jimmy's shifting the blame on him while acting like he cares for him. Well, he does genuinely care for him but clearly not nearly enough to not mistreat him or use him as a scapegoat for his own guilt.

Jimmy is the rapist, Jimmy is the one who does all of these horrible things. And yet it's highly likely that Curly would just blame all of it on himself bc that's exactly what Jimmy did to him. He's in so deep he can't see the facts of the situation.

It takes abuse victims so long to come to terms with their abuse. It takes time and reflection to see things with an unbiased and healthy perspective. Abuse (especially years of it) isn't just something you can just escape. It consumes you and can twist your reality. Curly had about a week or less to process all of it and then take action in a way that protected his crew and abided by Pony Express' guidelines. Dealing with something this serious in a setting that makes resolving it extremely difficult in a practical sense is already hard.

There were no locks on any of the doors except for medical and the cockpit. They couldn't just kill him. There was nowhere they could detain Jimmy that wouldn't involve corporate potentially penalizing the entire group. They could have used the cryopods but then there'd only be three available for any actual emergency and there were already five crew members and four pods in total. Also, I doubt corporate would be 'okay' with them using the cryopods for anything other than their intended purpose. Hell, even if they were able to make it back to earth without any incidents there's a good chance that corporate would consider the situation 'poor team synergy' and collectively punish the entire crew for Jimmy's actions.

So on top of having to deal with an already difficult situation, Curly has to grapple with the realization that Jimmy a: abused Anya, b: has been abusing him as well (for a very long time too), and c: has probably abused others before Anya and he had no idea about it. He needed to act but he didn't and it doomed all of them.

But it's so unrealistic (maybe even cruel) to put that much pressure on someone, force them through an utterly earth-shattering realization, and then expect them to do the correct/right/responsible thing in that moment. It's a little ironic how people vilify him for that when other characters do the same thing that nobody blames for it.

Anya is the ship's nurse. Curly is the ship's captain. They both have duties and responsibilities on board the Tulpar. She has to keep the crew healthy and safe and is the only one with enough medical knowledge to do so. He has to make sure that everything goes well and goes according to procedure. He's responsible for the crew, the cargo, and even the ship itself. Both positions are integral and require a lot of responsibility to do properly

They're both put through distressing and traumatic situations where due to them being human people with emotions and fears that make them essentially avoid their responsibility/doing what's required of them.

Curly has a freeze response and doesn't act when he should have when it was crucial to have done so. Anya has a fawn response and essentially puts her patient in danger and harm's way. She knew full well what Jimmy was capable of. She experienced it herself and she witnessed it happening to Curly as well. And yet she allows Jimmy to be alone with Curly while being fully aware of how dangerous he is. Which she shouldn't have, that wasn't the 'right' thing to do. Keeping him safe was her responsibility.

But Anya's human. She's going through a lot at the moment. She's terrified of Jimmy and she's trying to appease him so he doesn't hurt her again. It's a natural very understandable thing to do even if it's not the 'right' or 'responsible' thing. They failed each other when they needed each other most and I think that's the most tragic part of it. If anything, all of them failed each other in some way, shape, or form.

So it's incredibly frustrating to see people give Anya so much sympathy and grace for doing something so human yet still 'wrong' but then turn around and give Curly none of that for doing essentially the same thing she does.

I don't know for sure if it's actually because Curly is a man or if it's only part of it or maybe some people just lack that sense of awareness but it's depressing and frustrating as fuck as a male victim of sexual violence and abuse to see this kind of behavior and this much victim blaming towards a character who is undeniably a victim of abuse like I am.

A MOMENT OF COMFORT.

♡ — twisted!glisten × twisted!rodger

(reflectivedetective)

⭑.ᐟ genre: slight (very tiny) angst, fluff :33

⭑.ᐟ synopsis: rodger simply comforts an insecure glisten after a devastating view of others leaving him again

⭑.ᐟ wc: 555

⭑.ᐟ a/n: this fanfic was simply my friends' idea so hehe and i kinda made this like a few days ago or something

“you’re leaving..? w-wait! don't leave me!” twisted glisten yelled, rushing towards the players in the elevator.

ichor fell down his half shattered face, a look of panic on his face when the elevator slammed shut in his face, leaving him alone. he fell down to his knees, crying quietly and choking on his tears.

he slowly stood up, sniffling a little as he walked towards twisted rodger’s capsule, sitting by it. slowly, rodger emerged from his disguise, towering over him.

“glisten?” he called out to him gently, his voice low yet soothing in his ears. glisten lifted his head up, hesitantly looking into his one eye.

“i'm sorry you have to see me like this again.. i swear, i just.. i can't–”

rodger placed his hand on glisten's head, looking towards the direction of the closed elevator that was just a distance away from them. a disappointed look crossed his face, making him sigh.

“it isn't your fault. those players were the ones who abandoned you anyway, but i most likely won't, despite my form,” he pointed out, looking down at the pool of ichor that went from his waist to the floor.

glisten followed rodger's gaze, gazing at his pitiful state. glisten’s eyes softened in pity and sadness, but he looked away afterwards.

“i'm sorry you had to be like that too.. you.. didn't deserve getting infected like that,” glisten mumbled quietly, avoiding his gaze. rodger's gaze softened at well, watching as he wallowed in his self-pity.

“why are you apologizing? this infection isn't something you did. it's that.. ugh, blasted dandy,” rodger voiced out the name with hatred, clenching his free hand into a fist. his other hand stayed on glisten's head before rodger looked down at him.

“you know i won't leave you, right?” he questioned, giving him reassurance as he ran his fingers through his swirly hair. although glisten had taken the time to style it, it didn't matter if it was rodger who messed it up.

glisten stayed quiet, still feeling insecure and rodger could sense that. he sunk half of his body down in the pool of ichor, making sure he was the other's height. he reached out, placing his hand on glisten's cheek and caressing it.

“don't stay quiet. say something, glisten. i beg to hear your voice at least,” the magnifying glass spoke, his gaze showing a slight look of desperation. it was rare for the detective to show such emotion, but he couldn't help it when it came to glisten.

at his words, the mirror sighed, his breath shaky. immediately, he wrapped his arms around rodger, hugging him tightly. “i don't deserve you..”

rodger's eye widened at his hug, feeling a tad bit off guard. but he didn't pull away, he simply wrapped his arms around glisten, one of his hands cradling the back of his head and the other on the small of his back.

glisten smiled faintly, nuzzling his cheek against rodger's, finding comfort in his embrace. soon, rodger spoke his last words, wanting nothing but to cuddle him.

“you do deserve me. you just.. didn't know it. but i’ll make sure you see how much i value your existence, glisten. to me, you're everything. and.. i’ll never let you go. i won't let anyone hurt you either.”

“my promise. from me, to you.”

So I may or may not forgot to post like... anything... so live laugh my gravity falls era

Take a dipper (sorry for bad quality he was drawn on my school chromebook..) and some random traditional ahh fiddauthor (oh and a tiny bill.)

One Drink || Part 1

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ah ohmygod, I posted this on tiktok but not here lolz, anyways! here's a fiddauthor comic I made :DDD the draft for this is about 2 years old and I only got the motivation to finish it this year haha

AAAAHH SO CUTE

Dedicated to my dear friend Lenny

WHIMPERS

woodchiper them

I made it scout. He's silly.

ummm.. hello spy 👋😅 (original under cut)

🤧💅

There was this post talking about Luigi being absolutely unhinged

And then immediately made me think about this little joke that I like to do, in where I would go up to my sister, and just say smash (respectful) to anyone who I consider attractive

Purely just because I love fucking with her and every time I do it, she questions why I am the way I am

So now I can’t stop thinking about Luigi and Mario about to save the princess and while Bowser is popping off about his evil plan and what he’s going to do Luigi just shimmies to Mario and is just like

“Pssst hey bro”

“Wha?”

“Why he kind” (tucks hair behind ear)

“Luigi pls-a not again”

“ I’m just saying”

“Don’t”

“Smash”

Mario turn their backs away from Bowser to do a little group huddle

“ Mamma Mia Luigi, that’s it you’re no longer invited to help with rescue mission!” (whispers, but not that quietly)

“Whaaat why! What if you get hurt!”

“ because I can’t keep hearing about how you think my arch nemesis is fuckable for one more second!”

Now, I know what you might be thinking, did Bowser notice that they were no longer paying attention to him? and that I say yes of course, it’s like a sixth sense of his the second that someone stops paying attention to him When he demands attention, he will notice.

So what does he do? He sneaks up behind the brothers just in time to hear the last thing that Mario said

“Say what now?”

Both Mario and Luigi freeze as they take notice the giant, surprisingly sneaky for some reason koopa behind them, silently they both agree that instead of answering his question they will just start fighting then and there

Firstly because Mario doesn’t wanna repeat himself and he DEFINITELY doesn’t want Bowser to know that his younger twin brother find him attractive

secondly, Luigi doesn’t want him to know either, because frankly he would die of embarrassment, right on the spot

It’s too late though he knows and he will definitely be thinking about it later 

uh oh seems like I stare at my portable screen to much

screams** OMG SO MFING GOOOOOOOOODDD AHAHHAHAHJSNAUDNAVKAXZNH-‼️‼️‼️

I finally learn how to properly draw Split! 😁👍 I messed up on her sweater (it should be sleeveless) but we’re gonna ignore that

Also, weird FleshCousin headcanon (can I even call it that?) but I like to imagine it’s appearance when mimicking having semi-noticeable flaws that differ from what the person’s avatar is.

For example, in my drawing, the original avatar it’s mimicking has 3 four-petaled flowers going across their forehead, but the doppelgängers has 3 three-petaled flowers instead.

A permanent flaw I imagine it including in every avatar it copies is the one blind eye shown in the drawing as well.

Anyways enough info dump, I might work on some more of these after school tomorrow. To end it off, here are the unshaded versions because why not:

Hello people of wobbledogs! I am here to ask for help! I have been trying to get the wide dog achievement for a while and failing, so I was wondering if anybody would be willing to give me some tips? Thank youu! :)

HEAVY TF2 TUMMY ‼️‼️‼️

YOOOO ITS THE DUDDEE👏👏 I will gladly pay up don't worry

sorry it's on paper of you expected digital I ain't amazing at digital :(

squeal

speedingbullet dump bc yeah.

Changed a bit on profile‼️ Also, new pfp🫶🫶

just a persona 🫶

uhhh ykykyk rare occurrence of me doing a bit of digital, I like these :]

Ykw it's been awhile since I posted, take some doodles *throws paper at you and leaves*

*walks in* happy new year tumblr *posts low quality shitpost and walks out*

I had an old body sketch drawn out so I just decided to draw a perishing demo idk-

ykw I decided to male this because the first thing I red when going onto the sniperspy tag was a spy-cat and a Sniper thing so-

Based off of @tf2artsandcomics post :'D

Day 6 speeding bullet week!!! Yippeeee!!

Scout came out pretty good on the bottom one! Sniper, not so much as normal- my trashy drawings yessirr-

Right so I drew this at like one in the morning and I'm tired asf but I got it done!! Yayyyy- speeding bullet week day 5-

It's very low effort and bad but hey I still got it in!! Ok anywayyy hope you like, now ima probably sleep for once!! :'D

some soft heavymedic 💕

Day 4 of speeding bullet week YAYYY- took a bit I was quite busy, yet somehow finished!!! No clue what they listening to but they are. As most of my drawings are, hard to see what in the world is going on but ykyk

I could have drawn sniper better although scout looks pretty good for one of my trashy drawings lol- music boys yesyes!! @homkamiro

Took a bit yet I finished in time! Speeding Bullet Week day 3!! Yippeee- also there is many different meanings to shots though. I was going to do shots as in alcohol, but changed my mind and did shots from a gun! Hope you like, it was a lil rushed and hard to see what's exactly going on but I tried-

Don't mind my wacky handwriting- also if hard to see, they have bandages on I'm just really bad at drawing stuff. @homkamiro