Hi.. Uwu *⭐ves Myself*

I hope no one noticed how I literally bought six cans of sf monster and nothing else

is it just me or do stomach growls lowkey feel nice

I kinda came out to my friends yesterday? We were talking about celebrity crushes and I mentioned that I used to have a huge crush on Katy Perry, and my friends were just "Oh Really?" but they were cool with it and I'm so glad... It's just the next morning we did some kind of blind karaoke thing and my one friend was like "I got the perfect song for you!" And it was a Katy Perry song but one which I didn't recognized 😭

So that was kinda embarrassing but whatever

sisyphus is just how having ana-bp feels lol

I be typing out comments and then delete them because what if you think that's weird? What if it's rude? What if I'm unintentionally doing some kind of damage of you?

having a good relationship with food is nice, but being skinny is nicer

big plans this easter (getting drunk‼️)

parents tryna get me to wear a dress like noooo don't they fucking get the hints?

I binged the FIFTH FUCKING DAY IN A ROW.

Holy shit. I feel so ashamed for even typing this and I don't know how or why I could let that happen. And I could've restricted so easily, too, yesterday and today because my parents were at work and I was home alone with my siblings, but NOOO I had to fucking...

I haven't even weighed myself but I'm sure it's going to be awful when I do, especially since I've been doing so well before (I've lost a lot of weight and haven't binged for a relatively long time). I've probably ruined all the progress of the past weeks.

I'm going to fucking change now. I don't think today can be saved honestly, even if I at least counted most of my calories and compared to the other days, it wasn't as bad, but I'm still going to get in my steps and then I'll be fucking DONE with binging. Thankfully, we'll soon visit my Grandma and on travel days I can fast usually, so I'm going to absolutely use that as sort of catalyst for finally locking in again, but of course I'm going to start RIGHT FUCKING NOW.

I can't go back to school after Easter break having gained like 5kg or something, not when we have so many swimming classes atm and all my friends were calling me skinny and complimenting my waist. I still have a week and a half to lock in and lose weight and I'm going to use it.

In the second week, only my sister and I will be home for a couple of days and maybe I'll even try to fast through all of them (depending on how much school work I'll have left to do then)

So yeah, sorry for rambling but I do feel slightly better now because of it

"If you lose some weight you'll fit into that!"

-My 10 year old sister to me as we were looking for outfits to wear at a special event

Like... bitch. But you're right. And no, you weren't "just kidding". It's fine. It's fine. It's FUCKING FINE.

Just gonna do some red paintings on my legs later is all. It's fine.