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BPD Awarness Month

On top of May being mental health awareness month, it’s also BPD (Borderline personality disorder) awareness month. I don’t even have enough words to describe what it feels like living with BPD. It has been my tool to survival and will eventually be my demise. Life with BPD is the hardest. You are emotionally fucked. You are toxic to everyone you come into contact with. Everyday is a struggle. Every hour is a caution tape. Living with it is like living in a gas chamber that is slowly leaking toxic fumes. Your breath is always caught. Your tears are always flowing. Even with therapy and medication for the symptoms, there is so much left to deal with. It never really goes away. At a moment's notice you can change feelings from “I love you” to “I hate you”. Having someone love you feels fake. Like you are never going to be loveable. That no one could ever love you. You’re too much of a burden. Too damaged to be loved. BPD is from trauma. And well, I have generations of it. No matter how much I try, no matter how much I grow it never feels enough. Emotions feel like suicide. Thoughts scream too loud. Demons control you like a puppet unable to run away. Hallucinations come and go. You really never know when they'll come or go. Sometimes the episodes will be minutes, others months. Distance or slightest voice change feels like abandonment. Happiness or peace feels like an illusion. Losing someone is like the world is the knives across your skin. Anger feels like jumping off a cliff. Every time someone tries to comfort or love you feels like a trick. You either feel alone or feel like a god. Living with BPD is the hardest thing to live with. It's comparable to giving my children up for adoption. Either you’re high on top of the galaxy or you’re at rock bottom over and over in a vicious cycle. We are so stigmatized. People think we are “ticking time bombs”. Hell I’ve even had therapists leave or deny me because of it. For all of my borderlines out there, you deserve love. You deserve happiness. You can’t just cope, you have to heal. It will take every ounce of self control and inner power to get through each episode. But I promise you when you find peace, true peace you’ll know what I’m talking about. Your trauma does not make you. You are not your trauma. You are not crazy. You are not a burden. Just hang tight, we’ve got this. 

I think one of the worst symptoms of bpd is the lack of emotional permanence no matter how many good and loving people you have in your life the second you are alone it feels like you were never loved and it was all just a figment of your imagination

Having BPD feels like being stabbed over and over for years until one day, I wake up and I’m not in pain anymore. Not because it’s gone, but because I’ve gone numb. Now it just feels like I’m walking around with my stomach split open, dragging my own intestines behind me.

I’m still bleeding. I just don’t flinch anymore.

BPD awareness month apparently.

the diagnosis felt damning at first, not gonna lie… but it’s just a part of who I am. it’s also been helpful, to have a key to help me understand why - why do I always feel so empty and hollow ; why does the simple idea of rejection and abandonment makes me spiral into frenzied panic ; why I can’t seem to love like normal people ; why does cutting red lines in my skin so often feels like the only solution ; why I always seem to see people as my best friends, all the while knowing I am not their best friend - and why that hurts so much. what was helpful was also to see that all of these feelings, they exist within everyone. they are part of the human experience. bpd is just that - human feelings and experiences, with the volume and intensity pushed to the maximum.

it’s painful. stigmatized, too. but in the end, it’s only human.

… it’s hard to be human. but even if it often doesn’t feel like it, I exist. we exist. we are not monsters. we are only human.

Okay, here’s an interesting question. What hobbies do you guys have that wouldn’t be apparent from your online presence? Like something you spend a lot of time doing or thinking about beyond whatever you post on your blog.

"If you use em dash in your works, it makes them look AI generated. No real human uses em dash."

Imaging thinking actual human writers are Not Real because they use... professional writing in their works.

Imagine thinking millions of people who have been using em dash way before AI becomes a thing are all robots.

REBLOG IF YOU'RE A HUMAN AND YOU USE EM DASH

Since I know that it helps when you're not ok... what are your favourite things about Artemis?

*feel free to answer whenever younlike, or not to answer, if you don't want to*

Thank you, you’re so sweet 💜 It’s a tough question to answer though x’) I guess, it’s the duality of him. How he’s a perpetual funambulist - never quite a child, never quite an adult ; never quite a criminal, never quite an honest man ; never quite a human, never quite a magical being. Also, how his biggest strengths are also his most fatal flaws ; he is superhumanly intelligent, but that doesn’t mean he’s wise - and most if not all of the times he fell it was because of hubris. He has a resolve of steel, but his unbreakable determination often causes him to go too far, and get people (mostly ones he cares about) hurt.

And the little things, too ; the tiny cracks in his sarcastic facade, that show the heart of gold behind the cold persona. Love this dipshit with all my heart ✨

Sometimes, questions are kind of like butter. You've got to clarify them.

Also, again for the ask thing: since I love how you write Artemis, do you have other inspirations for him outside Colfer's books? Like, music, or other characters in books or series, that helps you "channeling" him :3

Oooooh, I love this question !! (and thank you so much for the compliment you’re so sweet 🥹)

To be honest I’ve never really thought about it that way ; Artemis is just a character that I’ve thoroughly obsessed over for almost a decade now :’) so the child is kinda part of my dna now ^^"

But my interpretation of him is probably very influenced by mtv series Daria. This show has been my absolute favourite forever ! My mum had all 5 seasons and 2 feature films on DVDs, and I watched them on loop absolutely everyday, I knew all the dialogues by heart and Daria and Jane were my spirit animals.

I really recommend all of the Fowldom to check this series out ; the main character Daria is extremely intelligent, witty and cynical, she is a great source of inspiration for me in writing Artemis ^^ and also the show is just absolutely great and so freaking funny. (also worth mentioning that I’ve always headcanoned that Juliet had an early teen phase where she was a lot like Quinn ; when I write Artemis and Juliet I’m always inspired by Daria and Quinn ^^)

Another big inspiration, though more recent, is definitely Aurora. She is my absolute beloved, my Stendhal syndrome, her music is everything to me ; and since I am a maniac and cannot be trusted not to combine all my hyperfixations, I’ve always felt like Aurora is very much a “what Artemis could have been", had he had a shot at freedom in his childhood. A lot of her songs (All My Demons, In Bottles, It Happened Quiet, Conflict of the Mind, My Body is Not Mine, Invisible Wounds…) I strongly, strongly associate with Artemis - my interpretation of him at least.

That’s what the key thing must be, though. I think over the years, I’ve really crafted an interpretation of Artemis that really feels like my own. I see him as an initially extremely empathetic, emotionally acute person ; who was broken by his father’s neglectful and abusive parenting, and forced to learn to silence his feelings in the name of Family and Business - and his journey is all about reconnecting with his emotions. I know it’s not that far out there of a take, there are a lot of hints in the books that can point this direction ; but this notion that within Artemis there is a permanent thunderstorm of emotions and deeply embedded guilt, a desire to prove himself worthy of love and respect, is really my main guideline when I write him :)

Thank you so much @laeliana for letting me ramble ^^"

Another ask, and this one is pretty specific :3 Who is gonna help Artemis chose the clothes for the heist not-Fairy-Thief-heist? Or he will do that himself? Because TOD presents him already into the heist, but wouldn't it be funny to see him planning one AND having decide how to dress/somebody helping him to? Early 2000s fashion was... something XD

Well, since he’s not exactly on speaking terms with Juliet after Artemis Experiments Weird, he can’t ask for her input and she is the only one that could have actively helped him there. So instead, he does "a ton of research" (aka he watched Mean Girls on 2x speed and took screenshots and notes) and then raids Angeline's and Juliet’s closets to compose an outfit that seems fitting ^^"

I want the heist scene in Pareidolia Agent to really be a parallel to TOD, so the plan is that the scene starts in media res like in the book :)

Sooo ask about "Artemis Experiments Weird": is there any chance we'll see more of Selene? :3 her fate saddened me more that that of the other character... sorry for beating around the bush, I don't know how comfortable you'd be with such spoiler straight in the ask. You know what I mean, anyway :3

Thank you for the ask !! Yes if possible I’d rather that this particular spoiler you’re referring to is kept secret ^^ As for Selene, yes you will see a lot more of her ! What the epilogue hints at is that even though Artemis wiped everyone’s memories of everything (including her), he still told her “but I will not forget you”. So Selene has lost her corporeal form, but she keeps on existing as a memory in Artemis’ mind, and can talk with him like an annoying inner voice (fitting for his self-proclaimed conscience ^^). When Pareidolia Agent takes place, it’s been at least a year since they’ve coexisted like this, and they have started experimenting on whether Selene can interact with the world outside of Artemis’ mind… and it turns out she can ! It costs both of them a tremendous mental effort, but Selene still has some access to the Wired, and can remotely access computing systems and simple mechanisms… even, but it’s even more exerting for them both, do some form of “astral projection” and glitch her way out for a few moments, on a very short distance.

Now, will Selene be forever stuck as a ghost, chained to Artemis’ psyche, or will they find a way to truly bring her back - and in the meantime, how does everybody else feels about Artemis seemingly arguing with himself and somehow suddenly manifesting telekinetic powers… We shall see ;) Thank you SO much for this ask @laeliana !!! If you or anyone else has other questions please please please keep them coming :D

please let me ramble on my silly fics, the published and the wips alike. 🥹

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A Market of Aquamarine and Rain ✨

Thank you for the tag ! Last Song : Heart-Shaped Box, by Nirvana Last Movie : Earth Mama, by Savannah Leaf Last Book : House of Many Ways, by Diana Wynne Jones Last TV show : Adolescence Sweet/Savory/Spicy : savory ! Relationship status : married ✨ Last Thing I Googled : La maison aux mille détours english title 😅 Looking forward to : feeling better enough to start functioning again Current everlasting obsession : Artemis Fowl tagging : @laeliana @valhelos @ionlymadethissoicouldleaveanask @weeinterpreter

tag game

tagged by @litterateur97 @gigantomachy1916 and @lightyaoigami ❣️

Rules: Tag 10 people you want to get to know better.

Last song: getaway car by ms taylor swifttttt

Last movie: wallace and gromit vengeance most fowl :)

Last book: y/n by esther yi

Last TV show: mob psycho 100 :3c

Sweet/savory/spicy: it's so hard to choose,,, but spicy i think

Relationship status: married to my wonderful spouse & dating my wonderful girlfriend :')

Last thing I googled: best way to brush cats teeth

Looking forward to: my girlfriend visiting in 10 days and my birthday at the end of next month ❣️

Current obsession(s): meronia always

No pressure tags: @dreamfilleddonuts @aaxzlyte @chupacabrafritz @tinyowl12 @queer-omens-in-the-archives @vorareromantic @vriskarlmarx @empressofthewind @mellosberetta69 @squidish @lsdoomed and @deelavis

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Round 2 of the Artemis Fowl fandom ask game

But this time, I asked my husband to answer 💜 I was curious to see what would his takes be, and I figured it was worth sharing the thoughts of my best acolyte in AF fanfic writing, my eternal partner in crime ✨ (calling him by his nickname Chat 😸 from now on for ease of reading)

the character 😸 least understands Doodah Day. Chat doesn’t understand what he adds to TLC, as to him in terms of character archetype and motivations he is just a pale rip-off of Mulch, with different “powers”. Honorable mention, also in TLC, Qwan : Chat feels that his character should have been a lot more prominent and developed, we never know much about him and he feels like it’s a missed opportunity.

interactions 😸 enjoyed the most Artemis and Foaly ! They are Chat’s all-time favorite duo, he feels like together they should be absolutely unstoppable, and even bigger besties than Artemis & Holly and even Artemis & Butler. Chat finds it sad that their duo is limited to a bratty-yet-friendly rivalry, “what wasted potential 😿". Well, in Pareidolia Agent (next installment of Artemis Experiments Weird), let’s just say Chat and I decided to work on that 😇

the character who scares 😸 the most Foaly ! Because, most like Tokita in Paprika, he is way too inconsequential and childish for the amount of intellect, resources and power he has. Multiple times in the books, catastrophes happen because Foaly pissed off the wrong people or didn’t anticipate that his inventions might be hijacked and used for evil. Even though he is ultimately a lovely lil guy, Chat feels that Foaly is so immature he is a timebomb waiting to explode, and an absolute danger to everyone.

the character who is mostly like 😸 Artemis, “because him and I have way too many flaws in common 😿” (which is kinda true tbh, déso pas déso mon amour)

hottest looks character Vinyaya ! Chat is an absolute sucker for long white silvery hair 🤍 (which he absolutely insists on telling everyone he once sported himself ! now they are still long but only blonde ^^)

one thing 😸 dislikes about his fave character Artemis lets himself be ridiculed to easily, especially after book 4 - worth noting though that Chat barely considers book 5 to 7 to be canon 😅 And this is one of the main reasons why (yes I sait 5 to 7, that is intentional - Chat has refused to read TLG and claims it simply doesn’t exist)

one thing 😸 likes about his hated character Chat absolutely loves the cold cruelty of Opal murdering Root. To him, she was the most ruthless we’d ever seen any character be in the series at this point, and Root’s murder shook the status quo in such a dramatic way, hinting at the series shifting towards a darker, more serious tone that he absolutely loved. It didn’t exactly turn out that way, but he still loves TOD for this.

a quote or scene that haunts 😸 Chat adores the first interactions between Artemis and Spiro at the beginning of TEC - how Artemis ruthlessly (and carelessly) mocks Spiro and threatens to completely ruin his career, then how the shift in power happens in the blink of an eye.

a death that left 😸 indifferent Vinyaya, “because it’s not canon 😾” - and because it felt so gratuitous, absurd and useless.

a character 😸 wish died but didn’t Chat’s hot take (that I do kinda share) : Butler should have died in TEC. Chat feels like Artemis learned his lesson too easily, with too little consequences, and that Holly’s attempt to revive Butler shouldn’t have worked this well. To quote : "Artemis’ fatal flaw is hubris, and he should have paid a higher price for flying too close to the sun ; here, his character evolves without having lost anything”. for those who have read Experiments Weird : no comments

😸’s ship that never sailed Chat isn’t a huge shipper, but after pondering he declared that Holly and Trouble should have been together after TOD. So @ionlymadethissoicouldleaveanask that’s a win for the Holly/Trouble truthers gang 😝 And that’s it ! Chat doesn’t have a tumblr but if his takes stir some conversation he’d read and respond with pleasure 🙂

my favourite ship dynamic is “me and the bad bitch i pulled by being autistic” but you can’t tell which is which

Round 2 of the Artemis Fowl fandom ask game

But this time, I asked my husband to answer 💜 I was curious to see what would his takes be, and I figured it was worth sharing the thoughts of my best acolyte in AF fanfic writing, my eternal partner in crime ✨ (calling him by his nickname Chat 😸 from now on for ease of reading)

the character 😸 least understands Doodah Day. Chat doesn’t understand what he adds to TLC, as to him in terms of character archetype and motivations he is just a pale rip-off of Mulch, with different “powers”. Honorable mention, also in TLC, Qwan : Chat feels that his character should have been a lot more prominent and developed, we never know much about him and he feels like it’s a missed opportunity.

interactions 😸 enjoyed the most Artemis and Foaly ! They are Chat’s all-time favorite duo, he feels like together they should be absolutely unstoppable, and even bigger besties than Artemis & Holly and even Artemis & Butler. Chat finds it sad that their duo is limited to a bratty-yet-friendly rivalry, “what wasted potential 😿". Well, in Pareidolia Agent (next installment of Artemis Experiments Weird), let’s just say Chat and I decided to work on that 😇

the character who scares 😸 the most Foaly ! Because, most like Tokita in Paprika, he is way too inconsequential and childish for the amount of intellect, resources and power he has. Multiple times in the books, catastrophes happen because Foaly pissed off the wrong people or didn’t anticipate that his inventions might be hijacked and used for evil. Even though he is ultimately a lovely lil guy, Chat feels that Foaly is so immature he is a timebomb waiting to explode, and an absolute danger to everyone.

the character who is mostly like 😸 Artemis, “because him and I have way too many flaws in common 😿” (which is kinda true tbh, déso pas déso mon amour)

hottest looks character Vinyaya ! Chat is an absolute sucker for long white silvery hair 🤍 (which he absolutely insists on telling everyone he once sported himself ! now they are still long but only blonde ^^)

one thing 😸 dislikes about his fave character Artemis lets himself be ridiculed to easily, especially after book 4 - worth noting though that Chat barely considers book 5 to 7 to be canon 😅 And this is one of the main reasons why (yes I sait 5 to 7, that is intentional - Chat has refused to read TLG and claims it simply doesn’t exist)

one thing 😸 likes about his hated character Chat absolutely loves the cold cruelty of Opal murdering Root. To him, she was the most ruthless we’d ever seen any character be in the series at this point, and Root’s murder shook the status quo in such a dramatic way, hinting at the series shifting towards a darker, more serious tone that he absolutely loved. It didn’t exactly turn out that way, but he still loves TOD for this.

a quote or scene that haunts 😸 Chat adores the first interactions between Artemis and Spiro at the beginning of TEC - how Artemis ruthlessly (and carelessly) mocks Spiro and threatens to completely ruin his career, then how the shift in power happens in the blink of an eye.

a death that left 😸 indifferent Vinyaya, “because it’s not canon 😾” - and because it felt so gratuitous, absurd and useless.

a character 😸 wish died but didn’t Chat’s hot take (that I do kinda share) : Butler should have died in TEC. Chat feels like Artemis learned his lesson too easily, with too little consequences, and that Holly’s attempt to revive Butler shouldn’t have worked this well. To quote : "Artemis’ fatal flaw is hubris, and he should have paid a higher price for flying too close to the sun ; here, his character evolves without having lost anything”. for those who have read Experiments Weird : no comments

😸’s ship that never sailed Chat isn’t a huge shipper, but after pondering he declared that Holly and Trouble should have been together after TOD. So @ionlymadethissoicouldleaveanask that’s a win for the Holly/Trouble truthers gang 😝 And that’s it ! Chat doesn’t have a tumblr but if his takes stir some conversation he’d read and respond with pleasure 🙂

You are 64.2% good, 39.2% chaotic, making you chaotic good. 😈 seems fitting grazie @laeliana that was pretty fun to do :) tagging : @valhelos @kayden-i-guess

Tag game!!!

Do this quiz

And this picrew

And tag people(obviously)

Although anyone who wasn’t tagged here can of course join in, it’s open to anyone :3

@anartistwithamask @gummy-axolotl @shadowthegay @auseryoumayknow @copper-ichor @moonysfavoritetoast @alexthescaredenby @invaderxeya @fungal-boy-witch-yay @artists-void @hazbin-hotel-lucifer-simp @ka1-the-pr0ot @theautumnalcat

Eheh, I’m happy I managed to surprise you with my answer ! But out of curiosity, I’d love to know what character you were expecting here ? :3 I didn’t have the faith to crawl out of bed to search my books, but I had noticed this discrepancy between book 1 and TAC, yes :/ Oh well, another instance of Eoin Colfer’s tumultuous relationship with lore consistency ^^ I completely agree about the different treatment Artemis seems to have received from his father, it’s also my interpretation :) I just wish it was expanded more on, because this premise is so fascinating to me - if Grandfather Fowl was this much nicer with his grandson, then how did Tim feel and react about that ?! Why doesn’t he reflect more about this in TEC ?!! Why doesn’t Artemis think more about his grandfather, the stories he was told, how different or similar he was to his own father ?!!!!! GAAAAAAH this is so frustrating :’(( As for my headcanons on master Arcand Fowl the Third… Maybe someday ;)

🎤 Character you least understand?

That’s such a tricky question to answer, depending on how you interpret “understand”. Thank you for asking ! After pondering for a bit, I think I’ll say Artemis’ grandfather. What I don’t understand about this person, is why we know so absolutely little about him, when he should be SO important to explain why Tim became Tim, and thus how Artemis became Artemis. The little we do know about this grandfather just feels off and weird to me. Basically, he’s only truly mentioned three times : - In book 1, Angeline mistakes Artemis for his grandfather, and talks to him extremely fondly and casually, even calling him (in the French version at least) by the most informal term possible to adress a grandparent/FIL ; indicating a very warm and soft relationship ? Though it might just be her psychotic episode distorting the actual truth of how they interacted ? - Then Tim, in TEC, claims that his father only treated him as a businessman and barely knew him as a person ; if his relationship with his father was so cold and distant, why would Angeline show this man such kindness, when we know how fierly protective she is of the ones she loves ? - And then, in TAC Artemis recalls a fond memory of spending time in his grandfather’s workshop. Sure it might be Angeline’s father in this memory but I don’t think it is. I feel like Tim’s father deserved to be a much more prominent, menacing shadow, even being long dead before the start of the first book. I would have loved to know more about him (like, I don’t know, a name would have been nice ^^”), but that’s also just me wanting to know more about the Fowl family in general. The good thing here at least, is that there is such little lore that it gives a lot of leeway for headcanons 😈 And oh, how many do I have about this man 😈

I'll be honest - the only things I know you enjoy are Artemis Fowl and figure skating. So... either of those two things for the fandom asks?

I didn’t think I’d get asked about figure skating, so you know what ? Let’s try that !!

the character i least understand WHY have Guignard/Fabbri and their team persisted with these two god-awful programs for the entire season is beyond me.

interactions i enjoyed the most Kaori Sakamoto and Alysa Liu’s hug at the end of 2025 Worlds temporarily cured my depression <3

the character who scares me the most No surprises here but Eteri Tutberidze needs to be held accountable for all the girls she broke - some of whom we will never know the names. That’s honestly terrifying.

the character who is mostly like me I don’t know any of these skaters personally, and I don’t want to venture into disrespectful territory by pretending that I do. But Alysa Liu’s ‘Promise’ short program has resonated with me deeply - it’s obviously very personal to her, yet the lyrics and the character she portrays also leave enough room for the spectator to interpret with their own feelings. The best comeback program ever.

hottest looks character I don’t go there :)

one thing i dislike about my fave character Kaori, your lutz :’(

one thing i like about my hated character Nothing to like about Tutberidze.

a quote or scene that haunts me The aftermath of the Women’s free skating at Beijing 2022 was just horrible to witness. It was my first time following the Olympics and that almost made me quit watching sports altogether. Thank Frond Kaori was here.

a death that left me indifferent Speaking only about programs here, for obvious reasons. I don’t remember which of Conti/Macii or Carreira/Ponomarenko’s Carmen program ends with the most ridiculous and pathetic Carmen death pose I have ever witnessed, but… yeah, that one. It’s just ugly, and also I can’t stand Carmen programs.

a character i wish died but didn’t Will not answer this one :)

my ship that never sailed Not a ship (again, because we are talking about actual living people), but the “what if” of Worlds 2020 still makes me pause and wonder five years later. Would have Sasha Trusova had a clean free ? Would have Alena Kostornaia faltered after her perfect debut season ? Would have Anna Shcherbakova prevailed with her mentality of steel ? I SO wish I could just take a glimpse at this alternate timeline to see what would have happened to these three girls, had these Worlds taken place.

Of course Artemis Fowl for the fandom ask thing :3

Thank you for the ask !! :D Here goes :

the character i least understand I already answered this one in a separate ask, but let’s interpret the question differently - and honestly, I don’t think I have one. I feel like all the characters in the book are pretty straightforward in what their goals, needs, motives and morals are, sure some of them are jerks but it’s understandable why they are jerks - and those that are more difficult to figure out, it’s mostly just because they are not that developed and mostly side characters.

interactions i enjoyed the most Artemis and Angeline in book one were so heartbreaking, in a good way. It’s really one of the things that drew me in the most when I first read the book. I loved the complexity of their dynamics, and was so sad to see it get mostly abandoned for the rest of the series :’( But outside of them, just everything Artemis and Butler. I love this duo with my whole heart.

the character who scares me the most If I were to run into him in the street, I would be terrified of Butler for sure. But as a writer, I think it would be Foaly ! I find him so difficult to write faithfully, it’s hard to do him justice.

the character who is mostly like me Angeline. Without a shadow of a doubt.

hottest looks character Pass. I just don’t think about them that way :)

one thing i dislike about my fave character The way Angeline is treated past book one will always infuriate me. Her character had SO much potential, all wasted in the name of a Randomosity shirt.

one thing i like about my hated character Tim’s backstory is so underdeveloped that I had a lot of fun trying to come up with something that would make him at least a little bit likable for future fanfics x’) And well, I’ve grown to be fond of the sociopathic pathetic wet cat I’ve forged through headcanons, spite and willpower alone ^^"

a quote or scene that haunts me “Non… parce qu’alors, je les verrais.” When Artemis, visiting Angeline in the attic for the first time in book one, offers to open the curtains after she told him about voices crawling all around her, she starts crying in pain, fear and desperation. That entire scene broke me, and this specific line stuck (sorry I didn’t feel like looking for the original English version). I guess it hit a bit too close to home somehow. But since then Angeline has been my absolute beloved, only topped by Artemis himself of course.

a death that left me indifferent Turnball Root. There were just too many things that infuriated me in TAC for me to care about his death. The love story also felt way too cliché and I couldn’t manage to become invested in it.

a character i wish died but didn’t I know she died eventually, but for me Opal should have been dead and gone after book 4. She had served her purpose and I feel like bringing her back twice was too predictable, unnecessary, and turned her character into a gimmick.

my ship that never sailed For some reason I really wanted Foaly to end up with Lilli Frond for a long time ?! I figured it would be interesting for Foaly to be the one to see past Lilli’s facade and reveal more depth to her character - and that would have also made for interesting interactions with Holly ! But oh well, why develop existing characters when you can create random ones mid-series ? ):

Oughhhh its so incredibly hard not to sound like a broken record everytime i see your art! It is genuinely so charming and beautiful and gorgeous, I adore the way you color and just your whole style! It suits Artemis Fowl especially well, it has such a whimsical and fantastical feel to it that works so well with AF!!! All this to say I am so glad you are in this fandom keeping us fed.

🥹 Thank you so much, you are just the sweetest. I’ve been having a very rough past few days, and these lovely words give me the comfort I need right now 💜 Merci tout plein !!!

🎤 Character you least understand?

That’s such a tricky question to answer, depending on how you interpret “understand”. Thank you for asking ! After pondering for a bit, I think I’ll say Artemis’ grandfather. What I don’t understand about this person, is why we know so absolutely little about him, when he should be SO important to explain why Tim became Tim, and thus how Artemis became Artemis. The little we do know about this grandfather just feels off and weird to me. Basically, he’s only truly mentioned three times : - In book 1, Angeline mistakes Artemis for his grandfather, and talks to him extremely fondly and casually, even calling him (in the French version at least) by the most informal term possible to adress a grandparent/FIL ; indicating a very warm and soft relationship ? Though it might just be her psychotic episode distorting the actual truth of how they interacted ? - Then Tim, in TEC, claims that his father only treated him as a businessman and barely knew him as a person ; if his relationship with his father was so cold and distant, why would Angeline show this man such kindness, when we know how fierly protective she is of the ones she loves ? - And then, in TAC Artemis recalls a fond memory of spending time in his grandfather’s workshop. Sure it might be Angeline’s father in this memory but I don’t think it is. I feel like Tim’s father deserved to be a much more prominent, menacing shadow, even being long dead before the start of the first book. I would have loved to know more about him (like, I don’t know, a name would have been nice ^^”), but that’s also just me wanting to know more about the Fowl family in general. The good thing here at least, is that there is such little lore that it gives a lot of leeway for headcanons 😈 And oh, how many do I have about this man 😈

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the character who is mostly like me

hottest looks character

one thing i dislike about my fave character

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a quote or scene that haunts me

a death that left me indifferent

a character i wish died but didn’t

my ship that never sailed

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Opale? Please oh please?

There she is ! 😈 I’ve literally never drawn Opal before, so here goes. There are still a few things I’d like to tweak in the sketch, but I’ll start coloring it soon I think. There are two “pictures” in one because I was inspired by an Ashnikko song. I’ll explain more in due time ✨

when you grew up as a lonely uncool girl it will never stop haunting you by the way. you will meet a cool person at a bar or the train station or at a friend's party and you can wear your most stylish outfit and striking eye makeup and you will swear that they can see through all of the facade and see the lonely terribly insecure teenage girl you used to be who desperately wanted to connect and you will swear that they know that there is like an insurmountable gap between you. this will happen forever