Hello All, It's Me Again

Hello all, it's me again

I just wanted to give an update and to tell you why I am off of the grid all these months

I have been dealing with toxic shame a lot, and it has been exacerbated by working a job that is not related to my studies and my poor mental health. There is an irrational thought in my heart that I am undeserving of my studies, and seeing all the positive/productive posts. I know it makes no sense... I have felt this way since I was very little, and the origins of these feelings are very complex, so I don't think there is an easy solution for this...

I am not doing better when it comes to this, but I can't just give in to these feelings!!! So I will try to be more active on here and also be more honest, because I know I am not alone in this struggle 🏵️ Might help someone get out of their shell too :> I know it's hard, but I shouldn't betray myself like this

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1 year ago

TED Talks for the New Year

Here are TED Talks that will give you a guide to a successful year

How to learn anything

Power food for the brain

Secret to self-control

Don't be a jerk to yourself

Building your identity capital

Improving your body language

What your future self wants

Saying Yes

Habits of original thinkers

Become the person you can't imagine

Designing the life you want

Be your own life coach

How to talk so that people listen

Curiosity over ambition

Life is your biggest project

How to achieve your most ambitious goals

1 year ago
A Mandelbrot Fractal Calculated And Printed As Text On An IBM 1401 (1959) By Ken Shirriff. This Computer
A Mandelbrot Fractal Calculated And Printed As Text On An IBM 1401 (1959) By Ken Shirriff. This Computer
A Mandelbrot Fractal Calculated And Printed As Text On An IBM 1401 (1959) By Ken Shirriff. This Computer
A Mandelbrot Fractal Calculated And Printed As Text On An IBM 1401 (1959) By Ken Shirriff. This Computer
A Mandelbrot Fractal Calculated And Printed As Text On An IBM 1401 (1959) By Ken Shirriff. This Computer
A Mandelbrot Fractal Calculated And Printed As Text On An IBM 1401 (1959) By Ken Shirriff. This Computer

A mandelbrot fractal calculated and printed as text on an IBM 1401 (1959) by Ken Shirriff. This computer does not use binary numbers and does not use bytes. It also does not use ASCII, but EBCDIC.

1 year ago
Limits for quantum computers: Perfect clocks are impossible
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There are different ideas about how quantum computers could be built. But they all have one thing in common: you use a quantum physical syst

The research team was able to show that since no clock has an infinite amount of energy available (or generates an infinite amount of entropy), it can never have perfect resolution and perfect precision at the same time. This sets fundamental limits to the possibilities of quantum computers.

1 year ago
Heiko Hellwig: Silicon Cities (2018)
Heiko Hellwig: Silicon Cities (2018)
Heiko Hellwig: Silicon Cities (2018)

Heiko Hellwig: Silicon Cities (2018)

1 year ago
Above And Below, 2022, Ig
Above And Below, 2022, Ig

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1 year ago

“Everything we call real is made of things that cannot be regarded as real.”

—Niels Bohr, Danish physicist and 1922 Nobel Prize winner in physics

11 months ago
A photo of the Museum’s large amethyst geode on display in the Halls of Gems & Minerals. Its crystals are a striking purple color.

Today’s Exhibit of the Day? It’s one of the largest amethyst geodes in the world! At about 13 ft (4 m) tall and 9,000 lbs (4,082 kg), this giant weighs about as much as three compact cars. It was born when molten magma poured from the Earth’s crust some 135 million years ago. While its dazzling purple crystals might catch your eye, this geode would have originally been composed of colorless quartz—its distinctive amethyst color deriving from millenia of natural radiation, heat, and trace contaminants. 

You can spot this geode, and other sparkly specimens, in the Museum’s Mignone Halls of Gems and Minerals. We're open daily from 10 am-5:30 pm! Plan your visit.

Photo: D. Finnin/ © AMNH

1 year ago

Listen to me babe. Failure is normal and part of the process. If you never fail, you're not making true progress. You're just regurgitating prior process.

I don't know why society is so obsessed with perfectionism and never making a mistake ever, but that's not how it works. You're going to forget to upload an assignment. You're going to miserably fail a test. You're going to get a speeding ticket. You're going to make your little sister sad. You're going to kill some plants. You're going to get that quiz back you were so confident about and realize that you got 1 question right. Those moments are when true learning take place instead of memorization and regurgitation.

This is why in math they make you show all your work and on science and reading they made you explain all your answers and choices with a paragraph. It highlights your thought process so you can analyze where you were right and where you were wrong. And it's ok to be wrong! No one is ever right all the time.

Don't let anyone shame you for being bad at something. Remember that they had to learn to walk and chew and talk and write and read and they didn't succeed the first few times in any of that. We should be building people up and acknowledging their faults as a way to learn and grow, not as a source of shame and despair.

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