Qi Qingqi: Isn't It Weird How Nearly Everyone We Know Had Awful Families

Man, if disciple Bunhe had tried to come out to Shen Qingqiu it would've gone so poorly.

SQQ: Binghe really shouldn't spend so much time with this old man! Shouldn't he be off charming some women disciples?

LBH: Shizun, this disciple does not like women.

SQQ: …

SQQ, internally: Oh no, I raised a misogynist.

Yue "I'm pretty sure I don't even have trauma?" Qingyuan and Shen "I made my trauma my entire personality" Qingqiu are both extremely traumatized.

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Yue Qingyuan headcanon that I don’t see used often enough? The man has PTSD and dissociates and the main reason he doesn’t tell Shen Jiu why he didn’t return is because he literally can’t get the words out. He chokes every time. I’ve seen this take ONCE (you can find it here) now and it was beautifully written.

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The difference between Shen Jiu and Shen Yuan is not that Shen Yuan would never do the things Shen Jiu does

It's that, fundamentally, Shen Jiu will do anything to protect himself except be honest with himself or others and Shen Yuan will do anything to protect others except be honest with himself or others

In other words to compare bingqiu to qijiu

Shen Jiu will commit great violence because he is sure he's right and Yue Qingyuan will permit it out of guilt despite his personal wishes

Shen Yuan will permit Luo Binghe to commit great violence because he is sure Luo Binghe is right to do so. Luo Binghe will refrain from committing violence out of guilt despite his personal wishes

Luo Binghe outsources his moral compass to Shen Yuan but Shen Yuan is outsourcing his rage and violent urges to Luo Binghe

Shen Yuan is not as far from Shen Jiu as people think

In that Qijiu ask, I think you're right about how YQY's shizun must've been extremely detached emotionally, and probably encouraged the same in YQY. I remember what he says during his confession, about how "nobody was willing to actually listen to what I was begging for; nobody was willing to let me out..." That line paints his shizun in a pretty damning light to me.

Yeah. Like, just because YQY doesn’t show his rough edges as SJ does, doesn’t mean he doesn’t have them. Yue Qingyuan to me sometimes gives off the vibes that his rough edges were forcefully sanded down and it hurt. 

The way Yue Qingyuan is a strong and just person, except for when it comes to Shen Qingqiu at which point he is so full of remorse and guilt and would destroy himself in order to protect him- even to the point of going against his own beliefs.