U Got Through Everything U Didnt Think U Were Strong Enough For

So ever since infinity war came out, my dad hasn’t stop sending me..well...this..stuff

Survival

Yea, of course I’m

Scared

Nervous

Frightened

But then I realize

I’ve felt like this before

Afraid

Uncertain

Worried

And I got through it

I survived

It may have been a bad dream

But oh

Felt so real

I could almost feel the tears sting my cheek

Hear the pounding of the knocks on the door

Hear everyone yelling at me, trying to grab me

Feel the fear and anxiety rush throughout my body

Mom?

Dad?

Where are you?

I try my best to push the bed out from the wall

As I hid behind the bed

I internally screamed because I knew that if I actually did they would find me

I put my hands over my ears to stop the loud pounding noise of the knuckles against the door

tears run down my cheeks

trying my best to not have them hear me crying for help

I wake up

I didn’t know it was a dream until 6 years later

So I know

If I’ve felt like this before

And if I could survive then

I know I can now

The Sun says, ‘how are you going to make me shine in this life’  The Moon says, ‘be vulnerable, be sensitive to the sanctity of the sphere of life and death” Mercury says, ‘i will keep you eternally young if you keep me active and learning’ Venus says, ‘there are pieces of me hidden inside people everywhere waiting to love you’ Mars says, ‘you’re too far in to stop now, this is your last shot’ Jupiter says, ‘my blessings are there for those with the high mind’s eye to see it’ Saturn says, ‘i’m not the enemy, work with me and you will know magnificence’ Uranus says, ‘you are more than they say you are, and who they tell you to be’ Neptune says, ‘i am imaginary, but i am also as real as you make me’ Pluto says, ‘there are some things that you won’t understand until the afterlife’

Cherry

“You were so brave 
for incarnating during this Dark Age, 
never believe that those terrible things
 come with your character, 
 you are not bad 
because of the bad that happened to you, 
it’s just the 12 signs of this time”

—

Cancer ~ you own the night,  you know this when you close your eyes  and wake up in the sky  to dream another blue moon  or lye across her silver crescent hue

there is no tomorrow  there is always last night  and i know that when you are alone and crying into the darkness  you rise the sea and the tides  and you think nobody notices 

Cherry

“So, if you are too tired to speak, sit next to me because I, too, am fluent in silence.”

— R. Arnold

I’M SO SAD I RAN AND GRABBED ACWNR MANGA AND OPENED IT AND THE FIRST THING I SAW WAS:

Farlan: “Just don’t die”

Isabel: “You must return, you understand, big bro?”

AND THEN

Random guy: “Maybe he’s dead?”

Isabel: “IMPOSSIBLE! Bro is going to return! YOU CAN BET ON IT!”

AND HERE I GO

I TRUST YOU ISABEL

SOMEWHERE IN HEAVEN YOU MUST KNOW WHAT’S GOING TO HAPPEN

I TRUST YOU AND NOBODY ELSE

Am I the only one who pictures Mathias Thias from the zodiac book series looking exactly like James from voltron? Just, picture indigo eyes and hair a bit darker...

“Cancer, you’re the caretaker of the signs, the unappreciated mother you wash their feet with your tears after they have finished stepping all over you they scream you’re moody, pessimistic, manipulative you’re the one they take advantage of So say ‘fuck it’ and cut the cord take the ax and slice your way through their hearts show them how pretty you look in blood-splattered clothes make them hide from you, make them realize that you are the monster from under the bed take the lover of your neighbor, watch them go mad for you ride off into the sunset together as the world behind you grows distance You don’t have to be maternal, or caring, or empathetic you can lead the life of your dreams you can play the villain if you so please Cancer, you are powerful and they’ll write stories about your rightful rage”

— a Cancer’s culmination // hnl 2017 

“It’s a most distressing affliction to have a sentimental heart and a skeptical mind.”

— Nagulb Mahfouz, Sugar Street (via books-n-quotes)