I Need To Stop Blaming Myself For My Teammates Not Talking To Me. Their Past Experiences, Misconceptions,

What Would A Mediocre White Man Do? (new mantra to live by!)

The older I get, I keep having flashbacks and realize just how shitty my childhood was... wondering if anyone else has a similar experience.

As I grow my knowledge in programming, I realize just how shitty my code is smh

My progression at work over time

Phase 1: Freak out cause I can't code.

Phase 2: Freak out because my code is shit.

Phase 3: Merge conflict

Phase 4: understanding how everything function and excel at it

Phase 5: issue, bug, bug, merge conflict

Result :

....become a realist while also expecting the worst

people with bad taste are always like “yurr hurr The Beach is about zuko and mai and how they’re a great couple” while intellectuals know that Actually The Beach is about mining any and all of the untapped friendship potential of this striking exchange