WAS IT CASUAL CAPTAIN!!!! WAS IT!!!!!!

WAS IT CASUAL CAPTAIN!!!! WAS IT!!!!!!

was it casual when you stared at him playing cricket and analysed his arms and his hair!!?? was it casual when you nearly broke down when he told you he was going to leave!!!! was it casual when you thought about him even though he wasn't in the room, was it casual when he was the only person in every room to respect you no matter what! was it casual when the fondest moment of you life was walking with HIM!!!!!! was it casual when you kissed your pillow at night AND YOU IMAGINED KISSING HIM!!!!!!!!! was it casual when you missed him so so dearly it hurt to be alive! was it casual when you snuck into a party to see him even though he might have not even been there but you'd do anything you could to see him at least once more! was it casual when he gave you something so fundemental to his power that it came to symbolise more than power it came to mean his memory his love and his devotion, was it casual when there was such an understanding between you that he knew what was unspeakable and unspoken unable to leave your dying lips for the fear of reputations...

WAS IT CASUAL!!???? WAS IT CASUAL CAPTAIN!!!!!!!!!!