Would You Look At This Masterpiece

I like how ogata is kinda this fandom's pathetic kicked puppy but instead of being comforted we just kinda kick him again

"Never kick a man while he's down" I ran over him with a bus yesterday and I'm tying him to a tree today. Tomorrow will be worse.

I was thinking about how similar Ogata and his father ended up being, but I realized he takes so much from his mother too. Ogata is the worst of both his father and mother.

The son of a wildcat is a wildcat as well. Tome was a character who wasn't very developed because it wasn't necessary. But you do know she was a geisha, someone who's job revolved around giving a performance others would enjoy. But she ends up giving all of her love to Koujirou, while he abandoned her and his son. She remained loving him though in a constant state of yearning, lying to herself and ignoring anyone else for the sake of living in a delusional world where he lived her. It meant her son was raised in an emotionally empty environment. It meant her son grew up without a reference for love, only her deluded obsession. But Ogata has that same yearning, and the same delusional world they made up to cope with the fact they were unloved and ignoring anyone who said otherwise. They both ended up absolutely lost to the true world. But when Ogata actually received love, it broke the illusion he'd created about the existence of love so he destroyed it. It is a push pull to love, this being one side and the other that refuses love seeming a lot like his father.

Koujirou received unconditional love from Tome, but of course it meant nothing to him. All that seemed to matter to him was his glory. He comes from a long line of military men, a line Ogata also comes from. Ogata would become like the man his mother loved, and the brother everyone loved, and he'd prove they weren't so much better then him. He tried to become leader of the 7th, therefore following in his father's footsteps and ambition. Ambition being very important in this side as it doesn't seem to be able to coexist with love with these two. Koujirou doesn't really seem to care about his legitimate son, but less his mistress and her child. He only cared for his glory, was willing to send his only son to the front lines fresh out of military college because what an honor it is to be a flag bearer. And how good it would look for Koujirou. Yuusaku absolutely ate this up but that's for a different ramble. Even when his wife tried everything in her power to get Yuusaku to not go to war he made sure his son fought. The fields Yuusaku died in were the same fields Koujirou ordered men under his command on attacks with very high mortality for no reason other than glory in a full frontal assault actually working. Ogata shows the same kind of unapologetic ambition, and in hurting people who love them. He shows it with Yuusaku and later Asirpa in more personal ways. Using people to get what he wants only to abandon and hurt them is a behavior that his father also showed, specifically with Tome. This all leads to similar ends though.

I see people bring up how he died poisoned, cut up, and finally a bullet from his rifle to the head, and how each represents a different family member and how he killed them. But I'm specifically thinking about how both him and his father committed suicide. I mean Koujirou actually didn't but everyone though he did. People thought the guilt of the deaths he had ordered, including his son, was to much for him and he committed. Of course it was actually staged, and Ogata killed him. But that was what made the most sense, why wouldn't a father feel guilty for that? Koujirou didn't feel guilty for his son's death, at least not enough to actually show it or krill himself. Ogata actually did suicide, and he did it because he actually did feel guilty, specifically for Yuusaku. The cover he used for his father's death was what actually made him take himself out. Ogata was different in that he did feel guilty, Koujirou did not.

At the end of the day they both his parents and himself died alone. Ogata took down his entire family and their memories down with him. It was all useless and that makes me wanna blow up.

I finished mtmte/ll recently and as much as I absolutely adored the series, I do have some complaints/questions.

That final arc felt generally kinda weak, but some things really stuck out:

Most glaring to me was Nightbeat's death. I didn't even realize what was going on when I read it. I fully believed he was just getting up to more hijinks on his own, finally make his own discovery, then the series ends and I realized he actually fully died? It was so anticlimactic and honestly unnecessary I didn't even register it was supposed to be a permanent death until I saw he was one of the figurines of dead characters on the table. Why no one even give a fuck either the crew never brings it up 😭

On the note of dead characters, Skids. I know plenty of people bring this up as a complaint but yeah, I see why. One of the best characters in the series killed off in an (questionably necessary) incredibly depressing scene, with no one ever reaching true closure or having good discussions about it. I have a lot of thoughts about his death that I gotta think through first, but Im just unsatisfied with it. It feels like the series relied on everything just ending up okay, like with Tailgate mysteriously living. Cd/rewind and cyclonus/Tg both had plenty of moments were character death is resolved by some miracle because they completely rely on each other to not fall apart, and it would be incredibly depressing for that to happen to a character. And that's completely okay, but then it just feels weird that to avoid that kind of plot, they have the characters closest to Skids just move on, hardly acknowledging it. At that point just being him back as well, because his platonic relationships were as strong as those romantic ones. Or at least have his friends acknowledge it, literally anything. (I do find it really interesting that his first words in the series were his last, calling himself scum. Sad, but a fun idea, that makes his death feel even worse too me. He died thinking he was a horrible person and because of his lack of revival, it's an extremely depressing almost up out of pocket way to end of his character in a series that never had this type of hopeless vibe.) Maybe they wanted the DJD to be a full threat, by actually killing off a character. But it wasn't really them who did it, at least not directly so I don't really think so.

This is more of a question, what was the point of Roller? Don't get me wrong I adored him probably way to much for a guy who didn't really do much. But seriously, what did he do. After the flashback we're he is introduced, it feels like he's supposed to be something of a Skids replacement, as in he's filling in the spot of a charismatic kind guy that's kinda the more down to earth member of the crew to compliment that wacky personalities. I think he was supposed to be a Red Herring in making you think he was Tarn before becoming Tarn (because of his need to be useful and his head shape)? But it was so underbaked I didn't even catch that until after Tarn died and was revealed to be Glitch instead. And now this is getting into more personal opinions/ideas, but I feel like he would have been more interesting if he was Tarn. But I get that just doesn't work because he was a disappeared person, and clearly Tarn isn't disappeared. But considering the loop holes this series gets into to make stuff happen (which again isn't a bad thing I think it makes it more charming) it could have plausibly happened, considering he changed his identity completely to become Tarn. I might make a post going into this idea further, but it would have probably made Tarn too sympathetic (which I also have thoughts about) so I understand why they wouldn't.

Sorry this got to way too long, I might mention more later when I can fully retrospect. Again tho, I really enjoyed this series, no series can be perfect and there were probably time constraints.

I watched one (1) youtube tutorial about animating a ball and decided the principal can’t be much different with humans so why not give it a try

my verdict is: animation is exhausting but looking at the result is fun, maybe I’ll do this again

Nova ref sheets, first attempt at armor designs

Some of my oldest OCs but I was too scared of armor to ever actually draw them

injecting 200 mg of ridiculous agent washington angst directly into loop. just as the doctors ordered

Not gonna be crazy active I think but I will be there

pattern recognition girl final moments