Okay Ik This Is Random But I Can’t Be The Only One Who Thinks Percy Jackson And Number Five Would Get

Okay so can someone please, for the sake of my sanity, name ONE (1) thing that’s easier to create than it is to destroy because this has been on my mind a lot lately and it’s stressing me out

Deku, running into the room: HEY-

Kirishima: ˢʰʰʰ ᵇᵃᵏᵘᵍᵒᵘ ⁱˢ ˢˡᵉᵉᵖⁱⁿᵍ

Deku: ᵒʰ ᵒᵏᵃʸ ˢᵒʳʳʸ

Kirishima: ʷʰᵃᵗ’ˢ ᵘᵖ

Deku: ᵗʰᵉ ᵈᵒʳᵐ ⁱˢ ᵒⁿ ᶠⁱʳᵉ-

Todoroki: babe come over

Midoriya: I can’t I’m hiding a body

Todoroki: my dad isn’t home

Midoriya: I know

Wilbur and L'manberg's walls

‘’Your walls are high because you learned the hard way that you shouldn’t trust anyone who tells you what you want to hear. You shouldn’t believe their sweet little lies until they prove that they mean it. You shouldn’t be vulnerable until you know they care.’’

- The Sad Truth About Why People Build Emotional Walls

/rp

Walls are often used as metaphors for emotional barriers or emotional walls. Emotional walls are a psychological state that limits you in some way and reduces potential experiences/opportunities. Emotional walls make you feel like a victim of something in your strive for control and freedom. I'd like to prose that Wilbur’s emotional walls match the state of the walls around the nation he attached his identity to, the walls that Wilbur explicitly states were made to keep people around him and himself safe. L’manberg’s walls are a mirror of Wilbur’s mental state.

Before L’manberg was created Wilbur certainly hid things but he didn’t put up this ‘’hero’’ or ‘’George Washington’’ persona he does after the walls are built. When L’manberg’s walls stood tall Wilbur hid and buried his emotions to be the leader he felt L'manberg needed. Wilbur used to spend more time joking and flirting with Dream, but when the walls come up he starts to become more serious. He’s not this way all the time, but he does do things like asking Tommy to stop calling the potions drugs and start nervously trying to get confirmation that people are really on his side. He tells Tommy to go against his reckless nature, like when Tommy and Tubbo go to attack Alyssa because they think she set fire to their forest and Wilbur protests excessively. During the disc war, Wilbur agrees with Dream instead of Tommy because he’s trying to keep things in line. Wilbur pretends to be this leader but according to Ghostbur when he wasn’t on the podium he was crying into his pillow over the stress of being president. L’manbur was a facade. He’s still Wilbur and he has his very ‘’Wilbur’’ moments but he also has this hero facade. He goes from the man who asked Fundy to go scream ‘’Fuck 12’’ at an armoured police offer to the man who pulls Tommy back into L’manberg’s borders when he tries to threaten Dream 54:13.

But when Schlatt orders the walls to be taken down, Wilbur’s facade drops. Even after being throw out and killed by his own nation Wilbur still acts like he’s in that ‘’leader’’ role. Wilbur even focuses more on telling Tommy to run rather than his own cannon death. He says things like, ‘’Tommy...don’t kill. What does that make you, no better than them?‘’. Wilbur is one that takes the responsibility of finding him and Tommy a place to live, Wilbur is the one that tries to ignore his emotions, Wilbur is the one that tries to keep Tommy on the right track morally. But when L’manberg’s walls start getting torn down this changes. When Tommy sees the fall of L’manberg remarks ‘’There are holes in the walls.’’. Just like there are holes in L’manberg’s walls there are holes in Wilbur’s facade and real emotion is seeping through. His son is destroying the very thing he built to keep him safe and Wilbur is devastated. Wilbur’s voice breaks when he talks and he allows himself a rare moment of vulnerability. Wilbur drops the act and becomes on the verge of tears, something we don't ever get to see again.

When the walls are finally down you think Wilbur would be left open and vulnerable without his emotional barriers but to be fair that’s just another facade. L’manberg without walls is Wilbur's villain persona where he acts like he’s on a stage. When the walls fall Wilbur almost instantly switches from being the shattered leader to abandoning his morals. Wilbur becomes pessimistic 1:14:38 and despite telling Tommy constantly not to fight anyone and claiming he doesn’t want to go against Schlatt because he was democracy elected just minutes earlier these morals are forgotten as soon as the walls are taken down 1:16:58. Wilbur was the one listing who people they could trust but after the destruction of the walls he's telling Tommy, ‘’We can’t trust anyone’’ and replying ‘’What people?’’ when Tommy insists they need to go back to L’manberg for the people/their friends. Wilbur even declares he won’t set foot in L’manberg until he rules it 1:44:50. It’s almost as if that when L'manberg walls are standing Wilbur’s in his leader facade and when the walls fall Wilbur’s in his villain facade. Not necessarily him being evil but being what he feels others expect or predict him to be. Wilbur tries to force himself into a mould to be what he thinks others think of him. For example, during Pogtopiea Wilbur’s intense paranoia and delusions cause him to believe everyone was a traitor and working against him (For a while Wilbur even thought everyone was secretly working with Schlatt and Schlatt wanted him dead). Wilbur thought everyone hated him (I mean L’manberg quite literally hunted down and killed him) so from his pov that must make him the villain in their history. So Wilbur acts like the villain. Even when the walls are down Wilbur isn’t vulnerable like he is when the walls have a crack in them, he’s just showing a different facade. Wilbur wants to be human (‘’Someone who looks at him, not as "insane" not as "evil" or a "freak" but rather just unpredictable. Human. This is exciting for Revivedbur. He feels human again.’’) but everyone has all these expectations of him and he feels he needs to meet them to conform to not be abandoned (Ex. Lying to Phil that everything is perfect and fine in order to not disappoint him, he tells his dad what he expects, what’s predicable of him as if he’s a character in a story). Unless something happens to put holes in his walls, he’s always putting on some kind of facade. If that’s trying to make himself seem safer (‘’Now he's back alive and everyone is trying to get on his good side out of fear.’’) or to try a push others away because he believes he’s the villain. The Wilbur you know isn’t real.

This is made exclusively to punish Alexander Hamilton for getting this song stuck in my head.

Watching this scene from "Portal Jacked" again and, the one where Leo's sword gets Portal Jacked, and it didn't resonate with me last time, but Leo in that scene, his expression, his voice? I just...

Cuz look at him when he finally gets frustrated by it all:

and when he says "Because I have no sword" his face immediately falls before ge lets out a frustrated grunt.

It told me here that he probably carries a lot of value in himself because he has his Ōdachi, turning the "Because I have no sword" to "I'm useless now".

Now look at his eyes, you know what they reminds me of?

It's in details like these that I can tell more about his character, the moments where he's shocked, scared, in realization, or simply a long coming frustrated break down, even if it's just for a little bit.

Then the part that follows right after, where he basically states that he couldn't do this on his own (a team can't just be a face man: "there's no team with just a face man!"), I need my brainy guy, and my smashy guy, and my eats peanut butter with his fingers guy!, he needs his brothers, and then what follows next actually made my heart ache:

Look at that face, you can't tell me he wasn't trying to cry, and then the way his voice cracks when he states, bold and clear:

"I'm nothing without them."

Because his voice actually cracks when he says "without", but it begins when he says "nothing".

Look at the way he looks at his hands, at himself. This is not the first time he's thought this, that he's nothing without his brothers, but I think this might be the first time he's ever said it out loud and it's heartbreaking.

So I just created an account on this mess of a website just to say this: it is not a phase. No sexuality is ever a phase. And that's because it can't be a phase if you were never that sexuality to begin with. If you ever came out as/ identified with a specific term and then decided you actually weren't said term, it was simply a phase of exploration. Seeing what feels right. And that's okay! There's nothing bad about getting something wrong every once in a while. So next time someone says 'it's just a phase', don't let it get to you, because you know theyre wrong.

Something I’ve been thinking about are the positions that the Hamato Clan were in when Casey Junior first wakes up at the Lair

Mikey, Donnie & April are all gathered around Splinter, while Raph is standing guard between them & Casey Junior and Leo is standing right in front of Casey Junior.

April: And then I saw that picture and I brought him here.

At that point in the movie the Hamato Clan don’t know anything about Casey Junior other than he has a picture of them & possibly knows about their existence meaning he could possibly be a threat.

April & Splinter have often been a duo throughout Rise so it would make sense that April would go to Splinter when she thinks that there could be a possible threat to the Hamato’s & it would make sense for Mikey & Donnie to stick close as Donnie would want to gather data while Mikey tends to want to stick close to family during times of danger.

Raph: I’m the oldest here. I’m responsible for keeping us safe

Meanwhile Raph stands guard between his family & Casey Junior because of his role as the protector of the family, what Raph is doing is putting himself between his family & any possible danger

In contrast to Raph who puts himself between his family & any possible danger, Leo puts himself right next to any possible danger which allows him to be the first to react to the possible threat.

Leo is the first one that notices when Casey Junior wakes up because he’s standing right in front of him & then Leo makes a big display of being shocked over Casey Junior waking up in order to alert the rest of his family that Casey Junior is awake.

The positions the Hamato Clan were in when Casey Junior first woke up in the Lair shows how they automatically respond to possible threats 

Splinter, April, Donnie & Mikey respond to possible threats by closing ranks & sticking together. Raph responds to possible threats by putting himself in between his family & the possible danger and Leo responds to possible threats by putting himself as close to the danger as possible

c!Wilbur analysis/rant :))

It’s easy to write c!wilbur off as power-hungry and manipulative, but it’s all a matter of perspective.

(For simplicity’s sake, when I say “Wilbur” just assume I’m talking abt the character unless I say otherwise) (also, this is my perception of the character and may not be entirely accurate) (also this is really long I’m sorry)

So honestly I’m fairly sure the paranoia started at the very first war of L’manburg. Even prior to that, Wilbur was clearly stressed about conflict (mostly due to Tommy’s recklessness) and even just presidency in general. But especially when the conflicts built into a war, Wilbur had a large fear of appearing vulnerable (to his people and to Dream). He was afraid of being perceived as weak and being taken advantage of as a result. (keep in mind they also experienced a brutal betrayal amidst all of this, so naturally he’s afraid that his control is slipping). But basically his goal was to provide L’manburg with a respectable leader to make sure Dream doesn’t see their weakness as an opening.

So when it came to the election, I’d say he rigged it out of desperation more than anything. The desperation to maintain control over the decisions L’manburg makes because he’s afraid of leaving it up to anyone else (naturally). This meant that when Schlatt was suddenly the one in control, he was immediately terrified that he could no longer influence anything important such as the tides of war. And literally not even ten minutes later, it got worse. Suddenly, he had no power at all, as he was now driven out of the only place he had ever felt safe.

During exile, one of his biggest nightmares came true. He was vulnerable. Exposed. Physically and mentally. And at this point, it was obvious that his paranoia spiked. At this point, the pressure of trying to be a hero had weighed on him so much that he was practically forced into the role of the villain.

This fear continues through the entire Pogtopia era, as he’s still got himself convinced that he has no power over anything (hence his lack of action during the execution at the Manburg festival). Getting the tnt from Dream was, once again, a desperate action. By allowing Dream to use/treat him as a vassal, he really just wants a reason to be important again. To be useful, like he no longer can in (L’)Manburg. Keep in mind there was also the additional pressure of leading a rebellion, and balancing that with trying to provide for Dream.

When he destroyed L’manburg, it was more out of frustration and exhaustion rather than hatred. He said “if I can’t have this no one can, Phil”, implying that he’s tired of everything being taken from him. He also says that “there was a special place”, which probably means that he’s afraid of L’manburg affecting people the way it affected him.

He also could have done it out of the overwhelming need to feel important. By making such an impact on the server, he can maintain what little remnants of power he has left. Due to exhaustion, he wanted to die, but at the very least he wanted his story to live on, and at this point he’d do anything to make it happen (once again, desperation). His death wasn’t one of escape, it was one of release. He didn’t do it to run away from consequences, though he was obviously oblivious to what he’d have to go through in limbo. You can also tell because as he’s stood at the button, when Phil arrives, there’s clear stress in his voice, not at being caught, but at the fact that for the 8/9th time, he can’t help himself like he so desperately wants to do. However, when that stress dies down and he realises that he can still do it, there’s nothing but pure relief and resolution in his voice. He’s glad that, for the first time in his life, he finally has a symphony that he can finish.

Then limbo happens, and bam, Revivebur. Now he hasn’t been around nearly as long, so there’s not much to say, but anyway. About the manipulation thing, again, it’s all about control. His fear of not having and power over anything obviously carried over into the afterlife. It’s really just the whole concept (which could be considered as a sentence mechanism) of gaining control over others before they can control you. Of course this doesn’t entirely justify outright manipulating people, but it gives you a better idea of why he might be doing it rather than “he’s evil and wants nothing but power over everyone”. You can also tell by how much he enjoys his conflict with Quackity that he’s just excited to finally feel in control of conflict again for the first time in (most likely) years.

Or cc!Wilbur really just want to be a cool villain, who knows.

That concludes my rant that I’ve recited to myself more times than I can count. My fingers hurt. Thank you :)

HE WON