I've Been Gradually Getting Braver With Reaching Out To People After A Very Long Period Of Keeping To

I'm going to take a little break from the dash. I got some bad news on Friday that's led to a low mood that's been threatening to bleed into things a little more than I'd like in spite of my best attempts. I'll be back when I'm feeling a little more steady.

I know there are people who avoid OOC interaction entirely to avoid meta knowledge tainting their portrayals and I definitely can't live like that but I've always had memory issues and there is so much different stuff bouncing around in my head anymore that I don't know how to keep straight what has been revealed ic and what hasn't anymore :') constantly paranoid I'm going to unintentionally metagame because I can't remember anything ever

"I have depression." - character who has been through extensive therapy.

"I feel dead inside all the time and nothing helps!" - character who does like, regular introspective thinking and is aware of the concept of mental health.

"Leave me the fuck alone I'll be fine once I get over my stupid shit." - repressed character.

"It's fine I'm just having an Empty Time. What? Yeah, empty times, you know, when everything is like bzzzzzz in your brain and you don't shower for two weeks. Why, what do you call it?" - ooooughhh now we're talkin

”you can just make an oc” you dont understand anything. the character needs to mutate naturally until unrecognizable. like all evolutionary processes it takes time. you can’t force it or it doesn’t take. you must endure weird ooc thematically discordant versions of a guy until they bud off into beautiful new life. have patience

i don't care how 'cringe' or 'mary sue' you think your oc is. i think your oc is cool and i think you should talk about your oc more.

this applies to everyone

The problem w writing fiction is that you'll be like tee-hee I'm going to write a story about a fucked up little scenario that's got nothing to do with anything in real life, just some pure messed up nonsense, and then you finish it and take a step back and go aw rats I made a metaphor again

people might think creating OC lore involves a lot of thinking & planning, but in my personal experience, OC development is more like a divine vision from a god slamming you over the head with a mallet while ur doing the fuckin dishes or folding laundry

I am actually so serious I think it really messes with a childs creativity and joy to tell them to never make a mary sue OC. Like that unbridaled form of joy where you make a self insert OC who super cool and everyone loves them and they have every superpower in the world SHOULD be something a kid makes, it nourishes their ability to create things for fun and not be stifled by "oh but what if my character is too overpowered and cringey...". whatever

Hey, can y’all rb this if it’s okay to send you messages asking about your ocs, cause on god I wanna interact with y’all but I am terrified of being annoying lol

me making my oc a worse person