Day 4

when i first watched it, s2 didn't impress me the same way s1 did. but after rewatching i realized that is the point. every scene that draws a parallel acts as a refusal in some way. little moments like simon saying he has to go at the party, but wilhelm doesn't chase after him like he did in s1. or that wilhelm hears simon singing in the music room, but in s2 he turns around and walks away. or marcus asks the names of the fish and simon doesn't tell him like he told wilhelm. or where wilhelm politely said no as the room chanted for him to get on the table in s1, he stands up and shouts back in s2. there were so many expectations for this season, and it takes every moment it gets to demonstrate that the past is not repeating. it is being challenged. tradition, from the royal family to hillerska to the expectations set up by s1, all of it is questioned and all of it is changed just like wilhelm begins speaking the words of a script only to fold it up and choose speaking in his voice in his own time instead

pilot day

I always wanted to be productive (it’s a lie). I always wanted to be ______ enough as I should understand that wow, that girl is doing so much, she is my role model.

Now I’m participating in some kind of the marathon which aim is to make us understand how we should act in order to make everything we want done. And one of my first thought was “hmm, I need to make my own marathon, I should understand what works better for me”

So, everyone loves round numbers and round dates and I wanted to have like 100 days before new year but you know, it’s not 100 days left

Its 5th of October and it’s 88 days to the new year (really round number, you know) so I think it would be a great idea just to try smth, even if it wouldn’t work. But what if it will.

I can’t actually say all the things I want to achieve, but I’ll try

·        Study. I need to do all the homework right in the week it was given (not the actual week, but in the 7 days after it). And I need definitely to start it right in the day it was given, no excuses.

·        Sport. I’m not really into it but I find it quite good to keep fit since it helps my braun work better and also there are plenty things that I want to change in me. Actually, there are a problem. I can’t do it in my room and I can’t see any variants there how to do it. wellllll

·        Read. I’m in love with reading and I have a truly huge list to read, so my plan max is to read 1 book per week and min is to read at least 1 page per day.

·        English. I decided to have a diary about that journey in English to increase my English skills. And also I can post it there where nobody knows me, amazing.

·        Editing. Recently I discovered that I like recording and editing, so I want work in that field of my life too

·        Youtube. I want to see every video in watch later, so I suppose it’s a good goal too. Now I have 194 videos to see. Also it’s great to try all the things I hear there about

There are my life and I want to make it better in 88 days. Therefore, I will have a daily plan and maybe a small topic about it since I find it a great opportunity not only to write in English but to see how I set and achieve my goals.

Example of the report:

·        Homework. Write what you did today.

·        Sport. How many steps you walked today? Meditation? Yoga? Breathing technics?

·        Books. How many pages and what you read?

·        Video. Did you record anything today? Maybe you did a small video? Send to somebody and ask about their opinion

·        Yt. ?/194

I’ll also try to plan my day in the evning before, will find

and the saga continues...

me: *screams in larry is real*

Describing your OTP to someone:

2017 // 2019

#Flirting

day 1

Well, day number 1 (87/88)

My plan for today was

 The Shawshank Redemption 7/180 pages

Started the day with a small meditation

Did my homework for metal resistance (I hope I translated it right)

Made a sport diary for PE

Wanted to do homework for probability theory and mathematical statistics but it was quite difficult, so i decided not to do it today. Instead of this I did

Hw for theoretical mechanics  

There are left 185 videos in watch later 

I suppose that day was productive enugh

Wilmon and hands season 2

I love how they kept the focus on Wilmon and hands in season 2.

Even if they had a lot less really intimate scenes and much more focus on their separate development, them touching and holding hands remained a focal point in season 2.

Even in Wille's dream it's a prominent and important aspect of the intimacy they share. To touch and be touched is so important for Wille.

And it's one of the last thing he dreams of before waking up - holding Simon's hand tenderly.

Then their hands touch by accident (or was it an accident) and you can basically feel the charge that runs through them.

How many memories run through their heads before Simon pulls away. Because Simon is hurting and he's realising just how hard it is to be near Wille. How much it will hurt and how much he can't ignore the pain.

So he pulls away because he's protecting himself and his heart. And then after this he asks Wille for space.

And I think this moment is so much more powerful because of the distance between them through season 2.

Even though Simon has pushed him away before, Wille is still reaching out.

There's a bit of hesitation but at the same time he feels assertive. As if he knows that there's hope for them now.

But he's slow and careful so that Simon has the chance to pull away if he oversteps his boundaries . It's still on Simon's terms but even if it is Wille is still managing to show Simon what he wants.

And this time Simon is not pulling away at all.

It's such a beautiful moment where they are both trying to figure out what will happen to then. They are bringing comfort to each other again. They are trying to be on the same page even if it's difficult because Simon needs to go to the police to bring himself justice and for Wille that has huge consequences.

He'll have to give up on the freedom he's just realised he will be able to have.

It should feel hopeless, it should drive them apart even more.

But it doesn't at all. Because they are being honest and communicating with eachother and most of all. They understand eachother and listen to eachother.

It feels like they feel hope for the first time in months. Both of them.

And then we have their final moment together. Such a beautiful scene.

They hold eachothers hand, they comfort eachother, they are on the same page and Simon most definitely helps Wille be brave. Even if they are litterally ten meters away from everyone else in a wide open corridor they are not afraid to be affectionate and show their love.

It's such a beautiful and tender moment for them.

The more I think and a analyse this season the more I fall in love with it!

I will never forget the harsh lessons in my life, they made me stronger

it’s okay