thinking about "everyone hit me I was annoying" and how all the violence we've seen between the siblings involves Roman. likely because they saw their own father "beat him with a slipper until he cried" just for ordering lobster (though I think the real reason Logan targeted Roman with so much violence is obvious at this point), thinking about how they claim he liked the violence too because it became so normal for them that it was mythified into a joke, into something so unremarkable they claim not to remember. Roman's pain is a joke at most, something for Kendall to use against Logan when Kendall chooses to acknowledge it all. so, he tries to beat them to the punchline, beat them to the insult, to the abuse with loud vigour, but sits quietly in fear when there's no garuntee someone won't hurt him and deny it if it goes wrong. Roman isn't going back to Logan because he has some hope Logan is changed. He's going back to Logan because Kendall and Shiv assumed he would. Not only did they not trust him, but they threw his greatest pain and shame in Logan's face, not out of a sense of justice, but just to spite Logan. He's going back to Logan because he knows to expect that kind of unpredictable cruelty from him and so it hurts less than staying with Shiv and Kendall and getting it from them. He's not going back to Logan looking for denied love, he's gone back because he's given up on believing anyone in his family can give it and better the devil you know.
And it is possible that I am alone in an empty universe, speaking to no one, unaware that the world is held aloft merely by my delusions and my smooth, sonorous voice
I showed her heights she never saw—
“Woulds’t climb?” I said,
She said, “Not so” —
“With me?” I said, “With me?”
I showed her secrets
Morning’s nest,
The rope that Nights were put across—
And now, “Would’st have me for a Guest?”
And she could not find her yes—
And then, I brake my life, and lo!
A light for her, did solemn glow,
The larger, as her face withdrew—
And could she, further, no?
- By Emily Dickinson
It wrinkles my brain that Jupiter’s moon Europa has oceans that are sixty miles deep, while Earth’s oceans only reach seven miles deep at most. I’m willing to bet good money that there’s life in Europa’s oceans. Like five bucks. You hear me, NASA? I bet you five bucks that there’s life on Europa… Now that there’s money and reputation on the line, I bet they send a mission there real quick.
he's a 10 but he's the last man in the world i could ever be prevailed upon to marry
It’s PRIDE MONTH and wanting to start with this little remembrance from queer people in the past.
why did you people come up with russian names for what is supposed to be a movie set in italy. what was the thought process here. why does she sound like she walked out of a tolstoy novel
Poppy and Ian are like. They’re soulmates, but also they’re horrible for each other. They’re miserable when they’re apart. They can’t stop hurting each other when they’re together. They bring out the best in eachother and also the worst. They love eachother. They are like an old bickering couple. They aren’t romantic. They have linked their lives too tightly to untie themselves. And it probably would be even worse if they did. They both hold a button that allows them to exploit and attack each others most vulnerable core, and they’ve both pressed that button a hundred times each. They believe in each other more than anyone in the world. They’ve been cosmically linked since they were kids. They have faith that the “being together with you” of it all makes anything worth it.
also i'm such a gemma girlie. i don't mean in relation to mark or vs helly i don't care about any of that i'm a gemma girl forever. it's me and her. what if you thought you were eurydice until the last second until you turned around just in time to realize you were orpheus
today feeling like Emily Dickinson (have a thunderstorm inside your head, poison in the veins, dancing with a death, adore your weirdness, being a genius)