I Never Faked My Love And Care To Someone

the mortifying ordeal of admitting you do want to be loved vs the mortifying ordeal of not wanting ppl to pity you or feel bad for u vs the mortifying ordeal of wanting to reciprocate affection but being useless vs the mortifying ordeal of being careless with others and actually feeling bad vs the mortifying ordeal of being perceived as vulnerable at all.

raison d'être

the most important reason or purpose for someone or something's existence.

I CAN ,I CAN ,I CAN, I CAN,

I CAN DO IT

Mental pleasure >>>

Sexual pleasure>>>

In my life,till now..i always wanted to walk up to the stage and receive some reward(certificates) like all my friends who did in the highschool.

Whenever I see them walking up to the stege and receiving those certificates,i think "one day i also want to have that moment". And it did really happen yesterday, I received two certificates for my wonderful performance in the college culturals.

Finally ,i walked up to the stage,lil shivering plus excitement..o went near the teacher and tada..

I posed for the photo with a certificate in my hand🔥

I should say that I AM PROUD OF MYSELF now

I know I break boundaries.

I know my friends are pissed.

I know what I'm doing is no good.

I know my actions will harm me.

I know it will destroy my inner peace.

And I still do it.

But I don’t blame myself, nor do I try to warn.

After a point, I just stop because…

I know I’m stubborn, and once my mind is made up, nothing will change it.

So, I do it.

I do whatever my fragile heart wants and yearns for,

Even though the feeling doesn’t last long.

I do it.

But I also let it hurt.

I let myself bear the consequences.

It’s hard, but I’ll do it.

And one thing I’m glad about is that I’m always there for myself

Before and after anything bad happens.

I don’t put myself down.

I don’t curse myself for the poor decisions I make.

I let it hurt, but with my utmost care and concern.

I accept that this action was meant to happen,

And it’s okay to make stupid decisions.

We all make mistakes and outgrow them eventually.

I’m gentle with my heart,

And I love that about myself.

LATE NIGHT MOTIVATION

Nd I have heard in Google articles…

If you wanna move on..donot stop loving him..donot change ur ways..

Nd I am not...I think I am going thru the right path.

I am gonna get better soon..

I will shine as usual

Fearless nd smart ...that's who i am.

I am my strength,my frnd ,my love

I am a star and stars never fail to shine..

✨✨✨✨

"Weep day and night, until your eyes dry out .

Use all the tears of your life so that they don't distract you again"

-Kunti

I’m both clingy and a bully when I’m comfortable with you.