All I Do Is Make Mistake After Mistake Repeatedly And Lose People I Care About Because Of It. Not Like

All I do is make mistake after mistake repeatedly and lose people I care about because of it. Not like they fucking care in the first place I guess.

And it’s not like this stupid fucking place is helping either. One hour a day with a psychiatrist. Please. You think that’s gonna do anything. There’s so much shit going on in my brain that not is going to happen while I’m here if you never send anyone to actually talk to me. People just fucking check to make sure I’m alive and not actually trying to die.

Fuck this. I want to go home. Curl up in my bed and die.

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So much love for this <3

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DONT. CRY. I AM JUST A FISH.

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6 days ago
“A Sleeping Mother Snow Leopard Curled Up In A Doughnut Shape, Front Paws Resting Against Her Back,

“A sleeping mother snow leopard curled up in a doughnut shape, front paws resting against her back, while her tiny, eyes-and-ears-closed kitten nuzzles into the fur of her belly and wraps their arm around her”

1 month ago

This is SO COOL

First Drawing In Clip Studio! Really Liking How It Feels To Draw But I'm Still Getting Used To The UI.

First drawing in Clip studio! really liking how it feels to draw but i'm still getting used to the UI.

I like to think that poorer mudwing homes would just slowly merge into a apartment style building with winding hallways, while richer mudwing homes have a planned layout and A LOT of painting on the outside to show off.

First Drawing In Clip Studio! Really Liking How It Feels To Draw But I'm Still Getting Used To The UI.
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1 week ago
Traditional art of 5am Pearl from Double Life drawn with pen and markers. She is leaning her head on a bloody hand and petting Tilly, her dog, who is looking up at her. She is wearing a red cloak, has red moth antennae, and a scar over one eye.

Hermit-A-Day May 12!! Pearlo!

Loved 5am Pearl in Double Life so I absolutely had to go with that version of her. Even included Tilly! <3 also gave her some blood >:)

I remember when Pearl was just a helper on Grian channel. She’s such a fantastic builder and I absolute just adore her organic builds. She’s done some pretty amazing stuff. <3


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1 month ago

Can someone explain how people can sit in a room together, scrolling on their phones, and not be impulsively sharing every other thing they read with each other?

I feel this requirement to share the funny little thing that made me giggle with the friends near me because I just want to share things that make me smile, even if they don't understand.

I want people to share their goofy interests with me, even if I don't get it. Do other people not want that? Do other people not chuckle out loud to themselves while scrolling the internet, looking at their funny lil' blorbos?

I think sometimes I get a little annoying because of this. Oh you vaguely know about mcyt? Let me share this crazy thing happening in Hermitcraft that I'm obsessing over and the crazy fan art that's being made for it. Oh you like video games? Tomodachi Life, Rhythm Heaven, Hollow Knight Silksong, and Deltarune just got amazing news and my funny media sites are going ape shit. Look at the funny memes, I will explain them to you so you laugh. Oh you know about warrior cats? Look at this amazing art about a character you may or may not remember or even know. I love it for reasons x, y, and z.

There's too much amazing stuff out there for me to keep it all to myself. I feel the need to express it to the people in my life, not just those online.

Maybe I'm crazy. Who knows.


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1 month ago

I totally agree with this. It’s okay for us to be excited that friends finally get to meet, that they look at each other fondly because they genuinely enjoy each others company, that they look so happy to be around each other.

But all of this can be enjoyed under a platonic viewpoint. They are good friends. They’ve said it themselves. Leave the real people to be good friends. Be happy for their friendship and that they get to meet. Be squealy over them finally getting to interact in person.

Just don’t force romance on real people. They’ve never spoken out about it, but if the internet learned anything from Jacksepticeye, Markiplier, and their fanship, Septiplier, it’s that we should leave the romance out of how we see them as people.

Ship the characters, not the people.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

Can I be honest with you guys for a sec? I feel like this needs to be said. This is coming from someone currently in the middle of writing a 17-chapter, 50k+ word Scarian fanfic, so keep that in mind. The way some of you act around Desert Duo is genuinely just… weird to me. It really hit me during the charity streams. And to clarify, when I say Desert Duo, I’m not talking about their characters—because then I’d be a total hypocrite. I mean the real people.

The way people ship-post about Grian and Scar themselves using clips from livestreams is just super off-putting. They’re close friends, not a couple. Grian is literally married. Seeing the chat constantly flooded with stuff like “omg scarian” or “the way he looked at him”—it’s just… weird, man.

Sorry if this comes off as harsh, but I really think this kind of stuff belongs in fanfics and fanart, not in real-life clips. It crosses a line, and yeah, I know I’ve said that in like five different ways now, but I really need you guys to understand how off it feels. And I get that someone’s gonna say, “Well, they don’t care,” and maybe that’s true. But still—can we not just acknowledge that blurring the lines between the real people and their characters for the sake of shipping is kinda weird?

Like, I clearly enjoy scarian fan content, but this… god, man…


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1 month ago

Ok I have determined that this book was written before you could play music from your phone because it’s saying you can bring a radio or an mp3 player with you. I’m even more impressed that it had a gay couple in it now!


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2 months ago

I wish to hold him

He Is Going

He is going


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