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This is what happens when you have a shiba + a bichon.

the thing i love the most about amy santiago—and there’s a lot—is that the she doesn’t care about being mysterious or cool or any of that crap.

like, there’s a lot of superheroes and doctor whos and sherlocks running around on tv these days, and with all of them, it’s like, you have these moments where you find out that the main dudes are just. Inexplicably Good At Everything.

they can take down a bad guy, bake a perfect soufflé, field strip any firearm in under 30 seconds, and dance an award-winning rumba, and it’s fucking intimidating. it’s like the show runners want to drill the idea into your head that They Are Cool and Better Than You, like, yes fine I get it, you know?

but it’s not like that with amy.

amy doesn’t care about being ‘cool,’ so you don’t have to either.

she knows how to lip read? she probably took a course. she can take down a runner in a dress and high heels? she never missed a self defense class. she can fold a perfect table napkin? she watched a DIY video. she knows about wedding insurance? she made a whole. freaking. binder.

and if you want to be like amy? you CAN.

you absolutely can, and it’ll actually make amy so much more amazing, because then you know how much hard work it took for her to be that good in the first place.

and if she knew you wanted to be like her? amy would definitely cry and then she’d help, and that’s why i think she’s wonderful thanks for coming to my TED talk.

How to Tell Someone That You’re Suicidal

Everyone gives the same advice: talk to someone. Tell them how you’re feeling. But no one ever tells you how to start that conversation with someone - and it’ll probably be one of the hardest conversations you’ll ever start. But it’s worth it. For starters, it doesn’t matter how you choose to tell someone. In person is fine. Text is fine. Facebook messenger, email, Twitter DM, Facetime, Skype - they’re all fine. There’s no rules of social etiquette here. It doesn’t matter how you tell someone. It matters that you tell them. Secondly, be direct. Saying the words “I am suicidal” is difficult, but they have to be said. Dropping hints won’t always get people to clue in. Most people don’t want to assume that their loved ones are suicidal, or people might be too shy to ask if you want to die. If you can’t bring yourself to say anything else, just say that - I am suicidal. Help me.  If you are struggling to find the words to tell your loved ones what is going on, here are some templates you can use to get started. Feel free to copy them exactly.  Hi. I really don’t want to freak you out, but I’ve got something important to tell you. I have been feeling suicidal lately, and I can’t handle this by myself. I need your help.  I just want to warn you, I have something really upsetting that I need to tell you, and I really need you to stay calm. I’ve been thinking about killing myself, and I don’t know what to do. I need you to help me.  I have a huge favor to ask you, but I have to warn you, it might upset you a little bit. I am suicidal, and I can’t work up the courage to tell my parents. Would you be able to talk to them for me? You might have noticed that I’ve been acting different lately, and I need to tell you what’s going on. I am depressed, and it’s gotten so bad lately that I’ve been thinking about suicide. I know that I need to get help, but I don’t know how. You are the person I trust the most, and I really need your help here.  I know you’ve been worried about me lately, and there’s something I want to confess to you. I’ve been thinking about killing myself lately by [method of suicide]. I really need you to come over and take away [means of suicide]. 

I want you to know that I love you, and what I’m about to tell you is not your fault. I don’t want to live anymore, and I need some help right now to keep me safe.  You might not know this, but I’ve been struggling with depression, and to be honest, I’ve started thinking about suicide. I really need someone to talk to about it. You don’t have to give me advice, I just need someone to listen to me right now.  I’m sorry, but I think I’m in real danger of hurting myself. I am at [address] right now, and I need you to come over here, or phone 911 and tell them to come get me.  If you are feeling suicidal, you need to tell someone. There are people in your life who love you, and they probably don’t realize how much pain you’re in. You just have to tell them that you need help. You don’t even have to type the words - just copy and paste one of those passages to someone you trust, and hit ‘enter’. It’s that easy. You deserve help.  You deserve to live.  Life gets better. It does. Give yourself a chance to see that. 

Even if you can't see it yet, you add something important to this world. Every time you smile at someone, you make a difference. Every time you create something, whether it's fanfic or vent art, you make a difference. Every time you listen to someone, you make a difference. Every time you make someone laugh, you make a difference. Every time you do someone a favor, you make a difference. Every time you help someone out, you make a difference. Every time you speak up, you make a difference. Every time you express yourself and let others express themselves, you make a difference. Every time you take care of your pet or your loved ones, you make a difference. It may just be little things - but little things add up in the long run and it's good that you're here!

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- Ghost by Sir Sly

“And then you haunted me … You’re a ghost.”

- Heavy Metal Detox by Wavves

“I believe /  We’re not alone.”

- Two Coffins by Against Me!

“How lucky I ever was to see / The way that you smiled at me / Your little moon shining bright at me.”

- Cold Cold Cold by Cage the Elephant

“Well, it’s cold, cold, cold, cold inside / Darker in the day than the dead of night.”

- The Moss by Cosmo Sheldrake

“But have you heard the story of the rabbits in the moon?”

- The Ghosts of Beverly Drive by Death Cab for Cutie

“I don’t know why, I don’t know why I return to the scenes of these crimes.”

- Oh Devil by Electric Guest

“Oh Devil, I know you’re afraid.”

- Walking With a Ghost by Tegan and Sara

“You’re out of my mind, out of my mind.”

- Guillotine by Jon Bellion

“And if you have nightmares, we’ll dance on the bed.”

- Black Magic by Jaymes Young

“I let you in my brain / I used to doubt, now I believe.”

- Spirits by Strumbellas

“Got spirits in my head, and they won’t go.”

- Bloody Shirt by To Kill A King

“Oh, you lie next to me / Heart is beating heavily.”

- Tradition by The Belle Game

“Pull him through the dirty cold / He was made of your brittle bone.”

- Lights Out by Royal Blood

“My eyes are still burning red / So turn the lights out.”

- Love Like Ghosts by Lord Huron

“Yes, I know that love is like ghosts / Few have seen it, but everybody talks.”

- Abandoned Mansion by Dr. Dog

“You did it to yourself, but you did it to me, too.”

- Meet Me in the Woods by Lord Huron

“I’ve fucked with the forces that our eyes can’t see / Now the darkness got a hold on me.”

-  Witches by Sir Sly

“Hunting for the witches / And I think I found one.”