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“[Advice on dealing with writer’s block] Whenever you think you’re going to be blocked, and you’re not sure what to do, just write anything. It doesn’t matter what it is, because whatever it is, it is better than nothing.”

— Matthew Graham (BBC Writersroom interview)

A Room in the night...

bedroom cool: relax & kick back

Milk - Samia

Call - WENS

HEAVEN - Troye Sivan ft. Betty Who

Ghost of Mine - Kailee Morgue

Chasers - Bahari

Party - Audrey

Feels - Anna Of The North

Rebels - Royal Cinema

Sick of Losing Soulmates - dodie

Cherry Lambo (Stripped) - Evalyn

Idle Town - Conan Gray

please don’t - mxmtoon

Spacing Out - beabadoobee

2 Hold U - Clairo

Locket - Crumb

Just Add Water - Cavetown

Make My Bed - King Princess

Would You Be So Kind - Dodie

Faking Bright - Saski

If - WENS

say anything - girl in red

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“A lot of boys and girls think their lives will have meaning if they find a partner who wants nothing else in life but them. That’s not healthy. That’s falling in love with the idea of a person, not the actual person.”

— Joseph Gordon-Levitt, on his character in “500 Days of Summer”

Dudes, just write. Stop asking me if you should start/continue/finish what you’re writing despite having x, y, or z problem. If you want to write I am in NO WAY authorized to tell you when to stop/start. That’s up to you and always will be.

If you think “no one will ever genuinely like this” you are 100% wrong. 100%. Think about all the trash out there that has fans. I wrote stuff when I was twelve that had more genuine fans among my family/classmates than ANYTHING I never shared with another living soul. It’s impossible to write something no one will like.

If you think “I’ll never finish it so why even bother?” you’re only depriving yourself, man. That’s like saying, “I like this cookie, but I can’t eat the whole bag. Guess I won’t even try one.” ????? Just write the story, to hell with endings. Some of the best works in the world went unfinished by the author/composer/architect, yet we admire the heck out of them. Maybe, instead of thinking you’ll never finish something, tell yourself this is the one you will finish (and repeat it until you do).

If you feel “this hurts to write, I’m too close to the subject material” either set it aside or full speed ahead. You MUST know how many classics, prize winners, and life changers came from someone’s very real pain and experience. Addicts, traumatized persons, victims, quite often they find solace and healing in writing about their experiences. Most importantly, so do their readers.

If you want to write, write. Otherwise only you are standing in the way of what you want.

How to Tell Someone That You’re Suicidal

Everyone gives the same advice: talk to someone. Tell them how you’re feeling. But no one ever tells you how to start that conversation with someone - and it’ll probably be one of the hardest conversations you’ll ever start. But it’s worth it. For starters, it doesn’t matter how you choose to tell someone. In person is fine. Text is fine. Facebook messenger, email, Twitter DM, Facetime, Skype - they’re all fine. There’s no rules of social etiquette here. It doesn’t matter how you tell someone. It matters that you tell them. Secondly, be direct. Saying the words “I am suicidal” is difficult, but they have to be said. Dropping hints won’t always get people to clue in. Most people don’t want to assume that their loved ones are suicidal, or people might be too shy to ask if you want to die. If you can’t bring yourself to say anything else, just say that - I am suicidal. Help me.  If you are struggling to find the words to tell your loved ones what is going on, here are some templates you can use to get started. Feel free to copy them exactly.  Hi. I really don’t want to freak you out, but I’ve got something important to tell you. I have been feeling suicidal lately, and I can’t handle this by myself. I need your help.  I just want to warn you, I have something really upsetting that I need to tell you, and I really need you to stay calm. I’ve been thinking about killing myself, and I don’t know what to do. I need you to help me.  I have a huge favor to ask you, but I have to warn you, it might upset you a little bit. I am suicidal, and I can’t work up the courage to tell my parents. Would you be able to talk to them for me? You might have noticed that I’ve been acting different lately, and I need to tell you what’s going on. I am depressed, and it’s gotten so bad lately that I’ve been thinking about suicide. I know that I need to get help, but I don’t know how. You are the person I trust the most, and I really need your help here.  I know you’ve been worried about me lately, and there’s something I want to confess to you. I’ve been thinking about killing myself lately by [method of suicide]. I really need you to come over and take away [means of suicide]. 

I want you to know that I love you, and what I’m about to tell you is not your fault. I don’t want to live anymore, and I need some help right now to keep me safe.  You might not know this, but I’ve been struggling with depression, and to be honest, I’ve started thinking about suicide. I really need someone to talk to about it. You don’t have to give me advice, I just need someone to listen to me right now.  I’m sorry, but I think I’m in real danger of hurting myself. I am at [address] right now, and I need you to come over here, or phone 911 and tell them to come get me.  If you are feeling suicidal, you need to tell someone. There are people in your life who love you, and they probably don’t realize how much pain you’re in. You just have to tell them that you need help. You don’t even have to type the words - just copy and paste one of those passages to someone you trust, and hit ‘enter’. It’s that easy. You deserve help.  You deserve to live.  Life gets better. It does. Give yourself a chance to see that. 

That's how i accepted myself : By accepting others

The most radical thing you can do is to love yourself and love other people. Community is the foundation on which all things lasting are built. Without community, anything we try to create will come crashing down around our ears. Community is our greatest strength.