You know that thing with a ball in a jar, where the ball represents grief and the jar represents you? And while the ball doesn't change, the jar gets bigger, representing that grief doesn't get less, it's just that you grow bigger. When I got first introduced to that concept, it seemed ridiculous. But since then... I know that it's true. There's certain things in my life, if I actively think about them, they get me just as mad and worked up as if they happened yesterday. However, they don't occupy my mind 24/7 anymore, like they did when they did happen recently. And I think that's exactly what they mean with the ball in a jar analogy. And I suppose that's better than nothing.
I fucking hate tech corporations so fucking much. Literally not a single big tech company has reliable customer support, if they have one at all.
Like what I wouldn't give to just be able to make a phone call to some of these companies. So many problems could be solved in 10-30 minutes instead of hours, if not days searching for a solution on the internet only for it to still not work and just giving up, and just being made fun of by tech bros if you dare to ask online by making your own post, and *still* not being provided with a solution
queers will do anything except admit that amab/afab dynamics within the queer community are often the same as man/woman dynamics in the general world
The tags are everything I know. I am sharing this with every single one to try and spread the word.
It's barely the beginning of the year and I'm already failing
Would reblog a thousand times if I could
I feel like people forget most trans guys still had to grow up as girls.
We were still forced to be mature early
We were still told to not to take up space
We were still subject to female beauty standards
Our bodies were still treated as inappropriate
We were still pitted against each other
We were still excluded from “male” activities
We were still treated as lesser the boys
Those things don’t evaporate once we transition they’re fucking internalized. I constantly have to remind myself I’m allowed to exist. We don’t stop dealing with misogyny.
Looks like I'm going to have to skip avocado toast again
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This is what causes inflation, in case you're wondering.
The worst part of being suicidal is people trying to talk you out of it
I need fellow friends who are also struggling. Doesn't matter online or offline but I'm tired of venting to my friends about how hard it is to juggle all my responsibilities in a body that's actively trying to not be alive, only to hear "damn that sucks" or "I believe in you" when you know they live with loving parents who provide everything for them, and don't have to put up with a body that's mentally and almost physically falling apart.
Of course I'm happy for those people but I don't think people fully grasp how much dysphoria, depression brain damage, and a broken relationship with your parents, sets you backwards in life. And tbh I need friends who can relate to at least 2/3 of those things just so we can talk about our shitty problems while having fun idec what.
please hmu
I remember my testosterone information thingy said "may cause you to be angry or more irratable, as well as mood swings" bitch you mean puberty? You mean experiencing human emotions??? Wtf
the idea that testosterone is a dangerous hormone that inherently makes someone domineering and difficult to be around is transphobic all round, leaning on bioessentialism.
for trans men and transmascs, we are warned against medical transition for fear that we may lose our agreeableness and perceived passivity. we are seen as potential aggressors after going on it.
trans woman and transfems have any testosterone in their system, whether on hrt or not, held over them like an original sin that can not be escaped that positions them as more aggressive and dangerous. it is seen as something that threatens their womanhood and can be brought up against them at any time to revoke it.
testosterone is not an evil hormone. it does not change your moral character. it does good for some and bad for others, like any other hormone.
Trans man, 19 years old, on T and post top, stealth in day to day life. This is my blog to post about trans stuff, as well as other queer stuff sometimes.
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