I'm Crying Really Bad, I Need To Cut, Vomit, Masturbate

I so bad want to die. When I do think of it, i masturbate or cut myself to smack out of it I guess to get my mind to pull myself together Lmao #vent

Im Sorry for yapping and venting... but I think it's just me or if there are others who feel this way... I like to abuse myself. Not sure if it's from trauma in the past or something I know it's so unhealthy but I can't help it I like the pain and it's the only thing I know to make myself feel loved... sadly. I'm so alone I want to experience relationships and be in a relationship not sure if it's going to make a difference for me what love truly is I really don't know... I just want a boyfriend hahaha~... he's out there somewhere in just have to wait for my moment for that man. Again I'm so sorry for ranting alot today!

I know it's wrong, but it feels so right

What i want so badly is my nose to be perfect, beautiful skin(face)(no acne), very boney skinny, naturally blonde white hair, blue eyes, long nails, soft pale white skin, top surgery and a beautiful male soft voice

I can try but I can never do right, in my mind it's just so hard to stay attach to this world.

Never thought that I would be this hurt. I think we broke up, I just didn't think that they would do this to me in a most painful way. I really did love them I really do it does hurt. Now I have no friends at all it would still be nice to at least have a stranger comfort me for a second. Tho I will remember them for the good times and happiness. It hurts but I wanted to say thank you. Thank you❤️

4/8/24

Don't you just look at food and go EUGGHHHHH🤢🤮

#anorexia #feeling

I just wanna say, if anything happens... to me. Thank you. All these thinspo pictures and photos are so motivational and inspiring and so very beautiful. But I'm slowly dying and might go to a hospital for force feed. I don't want to go to the hospital nor i do really want to die, the doctors said for me to open my eyes and change and get my head screwed on because I'm in danger to myself. Haha! Trust me, I know what I'm doing. i don't need you guys to yell at me because I already know what I am doing to myself, but nobody will understand, but myself. I'm not sure what will happen later, tomorrow, somewhere in the future, but I'm not going anywhere (I hope) again. Thank you.

I feel stupid

Why am I always the blame for everything? Am I an easy bunching bag? Does your verbal abuse really know how to humiliate me? I guess I know why I always saw myself so low and ugly