# jungkook
# đ©” love đ€
Summary: Jimin is laying on the bed and you just have to kiss his tattoos
Pairing: Jimin x reader
Genre: painfully soft drabble
Word count: 558
Jimin was laying in the bed and it was a problem.
It was a problem because you promised yourself you would get up early and have a productive morning. Instead you were now standing in the doorway and staring at your partner bundled up in cozy blankets.
He was lying on his stomach with his arms wrapped around the pillow. His hair looked soft and messy, half falling into his face. Behind the black locks his eyes were closed.
The blanket covering him showed a tiny hint of the first moon tattoo on his upper back, hiding the others that were trailing down his spine.Â
Oh.
Yeah, you were not gonna be productive this morning.
You made your way to the bed and carefully sat down, trying not to startle Jimin. He had a peaceful expression on his face, his cheek squished into the pillow. Cute, you thought.Â
Your eyes moved down to the little bit of tattoo that was visible.
You loved his tattoos. They were so beautiful and delicate and so him.
Your hand reached out to his back at its own will and softly trailed the crescent moon shape.
âHmmm,â A soft but satisfied sound escaped from Jimin's lips, barely awake. Â
You lowered down and placed a soft kiss right in the middle of the moon. The heat radiating from his back felt welcoming against your lips.
âHmmm,â Jimin mumbled again.
âDo you want to keep sleeping?â You whispered into his ear.
âNo,â he whispered back, barely audible, âs niceâ
You smiled and slowly lowered the blanket covering his back, revealing the rest of his tattoo. He whined a little as the warmth from the blanket was pulled from him, and you quickly placed another kiss on the moon on his back.
Your hand trailed down his spine, following the ink. It almost felt like you were hypnotized, the way you couldn't stop staring at the delicate art edged onto his delicate back.Â
The moon pulled you in and you placed another soft kiss on the first one. This time you didn't pull back, but instead you trailed down, your nose tracing along his spine. When you reached the second moon you placed another kiss there.
Slowly but surely you made your way down his back, kissing every moon on it. You wanted to adore them, to worship them, the beautiful art on your beautiful partner.
After placing the last kiss on the last moon, you pulled yourself back up and almost automatically plopped down next to him. A half asleep jimin looked back at you, opening his arms to welcome you in an embrace.Â
Before you knew it his arms were around you and the blanket was pulled back up, now holding both of you in a cocoon of warmth. His face was so close, two sleepy eyes taking in yours.
âWhat are you smiling about?â He suddenly asked teasingly.
âOh,â you said, not breaking eye contact, âI just kissed the moon.â
A blush fell over Jimin's face as he tried to hide his own smile.
He loved shit like this, you knew.
âWhat are you smiling about,â you asked back.
âOh,â Jimin said.Â
His hand went up to your shoulder and absent-mindedly traced along your own tattoo, a simple yet detailed picture of an ocean wave. Â
âI was just kissed by the sea.â
summary:your college years have never been something you dwelled on for too long. you didnât want to think of all the chances you lost and thatâs why when the guy you had a crush on moves back to town, you try not to let it affect you again. but then he brings up old memories that didnât go the way you thought they had and youâre thrown for a loop. youâre stuck between finding something new with him and falling back into old habits of never standing up for yourself. it probably doesnât help that he dated your best friend, where everything seemed to go wrong.
⣠genre/au: jungkook x reader [she/her, female anatomy], mid-20âs friendships. what kind of au is this? smut, plot
âŁ18.7k words
warnings: heavy plot. smut. a little bit of angst if you squint. tae is oc defender. shy oc. jk is an old college classmate. oc and jk got complicated, misunderstood history :(. oc is kinda insecure? bathroom sex. teasing. foreplay [f and m receiving]. very neeeedddy, long time waited sex.. unprotected. jk fucks oc on the counter, on the door. jk is tatted up but not in his college days. heavy makeout. breast play. fingering. dirty talk. oc goes down on jk as a thx đ€§ jk dated ocâs bestie but thereâs HISTORY. ocâs bestie is the real villain im sorry. took advantage of two insecure college kids >:( love lost, love found vibes. just read I swear itâs not that bad đ no cheating. FRIEND BREAK UPS. oc gets confident toward the end
song inspo: bff â jesse
As you settle into adulthood, you learn a few things about friendships. There tends to be a slight divide between those youâve known since you were young and those youâve collected over the years. Some might value the friendships theyâve held longer more than those that are more recent but for others, what matters is the trust that comes with friendship no matter with whom it might be with. Youâre somewhere in between, you think.
You have people like Taehyung who youâve only recently started to get to know and have had a chance to grow close with. He doesnât know everything about you yet but he doesnât need to, he seems to understand enough now to be an important person in your current life. Heâs the kind of friend you're thankful youâve met on some random occasion.
Then you have someone like your best friend, Miyoung. Youâre not sure the last time you had ever been truly without her at your side. From your earlier school years to college, to now when youâre both settled into what would essentially be your careers and private lives. Sheâs⊠she's special to you in a way that you're not sure you could ever find in someone elseâor at least thatâs what she says?
There hasnât been a time where it wasnât the two of you practically glued together at the hip and you credit her for her outgoing nature that always seemed to balance with your more introverted demeanor. Of course it didn't mean you couldnât make friends without her [take Taehyung for example] but sheâs always seemed to gravitate people toward you with her energy. Thatâs why you're not at all surprised by tonightâs events and how everyone seemed surprised that you came alone.
âHonestly, Iâm happy you made it, it feels like we havenât seen each other in so long,â Your friend, Hoseok, pointed out as he led you to the private area of the lounge bar where it seemed like a reunion was taking place, âWhen Miyoung said she wasnât going to make it, I thought you probably werenât going to show up andââ
âIs that what you would have preferred?â You asked with a teasing smile as he began to stumble over his words, attempting to backtrack.
âWhat? Y/n, donât you know Iâve been desperately enamored by you since your first year? Donât make such crass comments,â He joked back, helping you out of your coat as you grew closer to the room filled with loud chatter. He led you with hands on your shoulders and said, âAnd between us, Iâm a little happy she didnât come. I wasnât really in the mood for this to turn into a Battle of the Exes fighting ground.â
âWhat do you mean?â You barely had time to ask as you entered the room where an explosion of your name was heard by old college classmates of yours who all seemed on the border of tipsy and in a good mood. You couldnât help but smile, looking at everyone at once till your eyes fell on the person in question.
He didnât hesitate to meet your gaze with equal surprise as you sat across from him, just one person down the line. Immediately the people next to you tried sparking a conversation and you used it as a distraction to keep from gawking at him. When Miyoung told you she wouldnât make it, you debated coming yourself but after some begging from Hoseok you decided to come along. Despite your best friend not joining, you're kind of glad she didnât. Hoseok is right, it would have been a battlefield and you did not want to be caught in the middle of it.
âY/n.â
Ignore, maybe? Just ignore and maybe heâll forget trying to talk to you and your head won't be on the chopping block. You looked down the table at some of the other people you remember from campus activities or long lectures and tried to ignore the growing smile you could see on his face from the corner of your eye.
âHungry?â The person next to you asked as he made you look his way. There were platters of hand food across the bar table and you happily took whatever Jimin offered. As much as you hated it, you couldnât help but look across the table to make sure it really was who you thought it was,
Jeon Jungkook.
Better known as your best friendâs ex boyfriend.
Or worse, the first guy you liked when you started University.
âHi,â he said in a low voice, catching you in the middle of staring at him. In your defense, he seemed so differentâmore matured if you will. Now he was covered in tattoos and piercings, he lost that sort of boyish charm but clearly gained something else along the way. He was buff and bigger, more intimidating yet alluring? Safe to say he didnât look like the âBoy Next Doorâ you had a crush on in your English seminar.
âYouâre here,â was all you could think to say back, giving up on your sorry attempt at ignoring him for no real reason other than saving yourself from an awkward encounter.
âSo are you,â Jungkook bit into his bottom lip as he looked at you closely. How is it that someone could look so different but the same all at once? In your gaze he could still see that curiosity in everything that he remembered from back then when he would spend lectures wondering what was on your mind. In your appearance, he can see how much youâve changed physically. They were surely small differences in everyone elseâs eyes but he always had a tendency to pay too much attention to you and it would get him in trouble.
You gave him a polite nod in response to his blatant observation that matched yours and attempted to shift your attention elsewhere but he didnt let it get too far. He cleared his throat, âHow have you been?â
âMe?â You asked, âOkay, I guess. Busy with work.â
âSo Iâve heard, youâre in marketing now, right? What happened to your writing?â Jungkook asked, seeming genuinely curious to know. He didnât care for the conversations happening around him more than he did hearing your response now that you looked more willing to give him one.
âIt wouldnât have paid the billsâYou remember my writing?â You asked, surprise evident in your features that he couldnât help but smile.
It was hard for him to forget his biggest competition at the time. He let out a small sigh, ready to go on about being unable to forget a certain piece you wrote when a firm hand was placed on his shoulder. Yoongi stood over him, âSmoke break?â
Say no, he thought. Jungkook could easily reject the offer and continue what he was going to say. Without meaning to, he looked back at you, but you had excused yourself from the table in the blink of an eye. Nodding hesitantly, he grabbed his jacket and followed his friend out while he wondered where you went so suddenly.
You were hiding in the washroom when you got the call from Miyoung, like she had a sixth sense telling her to reach out.
âSo how is it? Is it as boring as I said itâd be?â Miyoung asked as she waited in line for some nightclub she was going to with some of her various other friends.
âUm, kind of?â You said without much thoughtâknowing it was what she wanted to hear. In reality, it was fun. You were greeted warmly that it washed away your earlier worries and youâre being taken care of by old friends you didn't get to talk to as much. Not to mention, youâre seeing Jungkook again after a couple years of hearing and thinking of nothing about the guy, so you donât actually think it's boring.
Miyoung snorted, âFigures, good thing I didnât go. I could not sit through more than an hour of everyone going on and on about what theyâve been up to. I mean, yeah I miss Hobi and stuff but I could see him whenever, yâknow? Who all showed up?â
âI think everyone,â You admitted with a nervous bite of your lip. It was now or never. You tell her that it seems like Jungkook has come to visit or has come back to stay and youâre not sure how sheâll take that. She might even march over here just to tell him how she's felt these last two years and chances are thatâll ruin the easy vibe for everyone else. You leaned against the stall door and talked with her.
âSo youâre back,â Yoongi asked with a smirk as he took a drag from his cigarette, âMy Golden Boyâs back? Someone pinch me.â
âFunny guy,â Jungkook said sarcastically as he looked out onto the busy street. Yoongi shrugged, turning toward the bar window looking around to see the group, âArenât you happy you came?â
âYeah, itâs great seeing everyone again,â Jungkook told him casually, flicking the end of his cigarette and watching the ash fall to the cold cement of the street.
âWant to know who surprised me tonight?â Yoongi asked, looking over at him to see if his expression would change at all, âY/n.â
Jungkook cleared his throat awkwardly, âWhat do you mean?â
He shrugged, dropping ash to the ground, âY/n never comes out to these sorts of things, and if she does come itâs usually with Miyoung but she came by herself tonight.
âYeahâŠâ Jungkook zoned out a bit as he thought about it more, âWhy doesnât she meet up with you guys often?â
âYou know Y/n doesn't really go out,â Yoongi said, âAnd sheâs busy with work, at least thatâs what Hobi says. I donât know, when Hobi said Miyoung wasnât coming tonight we both expected Y/n to not show too but⊠hey, arenât you happy she isnât here?â
âI donât really care either way,â Jungkook confessed truthfully, âBut do you know if⊠yâknow, you might have heard something about Y/n and if sheâs still seeing someone orââ
âOh God,â Yoongi couldnât help but laugh as he put his cigarette out, Jungkook doing the same, âItâs been like three years, man.â
Jungkook watched him laugh as he walked off leaving him to follow, âWhat?â
Yoongi held the door open for him, âYou know what, but Iâll answer your question, anyway. Last I heard Y/n is single, so what now?â
He waited for Jungkook to respond but he wasnât listening anymore. There were too many things on his mind that he needed to work out before you came back to the table.
âWhat do you mean youâre leaving? You just got here,â Jimin said to you as he held your hand in his to stop you from leaving, âOne more drink.â
âItâs late,â You tried to say, âIâve got to be up early.â
âLiar, itâs a Saturday night, Y/n. Sit your ass back down,â Hobi said with a firm voice making you sit down immediately. He flashed you a cute smile before asking everyone if they wanted another round of drinks.
âSo, what were we talking about earlier?â Jungkook asked, trying to get you to talk to him again, âYour writing? Yeah, how can I forget it? Remember we used to read each otherâs essays all the time before⊠well.â
Before he broke up with your best friend.
âYeah, I remember,â You admitted, trying to find something to say. What kind of questions would Miyoung want to know? What do you want to know? What should you prepare your friend to know? âHow long are you visiting?â
âActually, I just moved back, I got a job doing graphic design for a local company,â Jungkook told you with the hint of a smile, âItâs my first time meeting up with everyone again.â
You let yourself indulge in small talk with him here and there but usually when he started it. The night had been fine, you enjoyed your time but after a while all you wanted to do was go home and Hoseok couldnât make you stay any longer. You ended your night wondering if you should go out more.
Everything has a backstory, right? How it all started and yours seems pretty tacky. You spent the first couple years of University doing what you had to do in school and letting Miyoung drag you to whatever outing she had on the weekends. Some time in your third year, you joined this English class with the most boring, monotonous professor ever and thatâs where you met Jungkook.
In all honesty, you thought he was cute from the get go. Sitting through three hours of a boring lecture led people to do odd things and one of those for you was staring at the cute guy who sat down a couple rows from you. It was just a little thing you did to pass time so you never expected anything to actually happen from it.
Then one day most of the seats were taken [naturally, it was a large class] and he seemed to have been running late because his usual cycle of seats were all taken except the one next to yours. Despite all those times you would find yourself ogling the stranger, when he was right next to you, you didnât say a single word.
It was Jungkook who spoke first and it was just to ask if you could help him catch up. That day you were supposed to read someone elseâs prompt and revise it and you chose each other which then trickled down to a routine of it. Without speaking much, he would sit next to you or silently save you a seat whenever you were running late and the one time you decided to switch it up and sit elsewhereâŠ
Well, he was practically pouting the whole day.
It had been a nearly perfect set up to what could have been if you just allowed yourself to go for things but it didnât happen that way.
One random Tuesday night, Miyoung wanted to go out for some cheap drinks and you found yourselves at a bar not too far from campus where you ran into a senior in one of your classes. Yoongi had come up to you first, just greeting you and making small talk when Jungkook who apparently had come with him, recognized you too.
They drank with you and Miyoung for a bit and you honestly thought it had been fun. You had never had real conversations with him outside of school work and it was nice to have more people to hang with that it just felt natural. Though at some point through the night Miyoung had gotten kind of flirty. She claims she assumed you had wanted Yoongi and not Jungkook and practically called dibs on him despite meeting him for the first time that night.
When she made her intents obvious, you couldnât help but backtrack.
You always considered yourself pretty self aware about yourself. There was nothing special really and when you compare yourself to Miyoung there just isnât much competition.
She was the perfect Prom Queen type who always had the nicest clothes or the cutest boyfriends, the best awards and most interesting stories. The amount of guys she would pull who you didnât even have a chance with was insane. And though you might sound bitter, youâre not. Youâve never been the type to want the spotlight or attention and being best friends with someone so damn perfect was that you could always stay in the shadows.
So when she started flirting with Jungkook, you didnât really notice his awkward glances or how he shied away from her proximity. You only saw how he smiled politely and listened to her go on and on about how great she is and assumed he was into her like all the others had been.
You tried to act normal after that, you would talk to him every now and then and never questioned why he stopped talking to you as much until he started dating Miyoung but you werenât bitter. You were understanding.
It made sense he would date her. She was beautiful and smart and someone people pine for. It was a given that that would happen so once again, you didnât take it personal.
They dated for a couple months [nothing serious at all] and then he dumped her which resulted in Miyoung practically forbidding you from even looking his way at all. You completed your last year without thinking about him despite the various mutual friends you shared and went on with your life when he moved.
That was the backstory and why you felt so awkward seeing him the other night.
You havenât told Miyoung yet because thereâs a high chance she wonât care at all and would get annoyed that you even thought to bring it up. Your friend is very pretty and she likes being in relationships so sheâs been in quite a few since they dated and probably doesnât care to be reminded at all.
The only person youâve told is Taehyung.
âBut did you at least have fun?â He asked as the two of you sat at a small restaurant for lunch. You nodded your head, âYeah, it was alright. It was just weird, for me at least.â
âWhy?â Taehyung asked as he dug into his meal, stuffing his mouth with no care in the world, âI mean itâs obvious everyone was happy to see you and didnât want you to leave. Who cares if Miyoung didnât go, clearly it didnât matter to anyone else.â
You didnât say anything, taking your time to enjoy your meal as you drifted off in thought. He is right, you know that sometimes itâs just in your head and you overthink things. You always feel like youâre boring to others so itâs natural for you to assume no one would be happy to see just you and not your bubble of joy best friend. There has to be a certain level of comfort between you and another person to show personality and itâs rare people get to see it.
âBut howâd it go with that guy? Did he ask you about her?â Taehyung asked with a hint of curiosity.
âNot that I can remember. I donât know, it was kind of awkward but we talked a bit,â You told him honestly, âHe just moved back down so thatâs cool I guess.â
Taehyung looked at you skeptically but you avoided his gaze, trying to distract yourself with your phone.
yoongi: throwing a welcome back party for jk this weekend, u coming?
you: idk, if Iâm free
yoongi: ⊠ur always freeđ€
yoongi: just say yes, bring whoever u want
you: but is he ok with me going
yoongi: y wouldnât he be
yoongi: heâs the one who asked me to make sure u come
you: okkkkkk đ„č
âTae, can you come with me to this party please?â You asked, immediately showing your friend your text messages leaning across the table for him to see them clearly.
Taehyungâs brows furrowed as he read through the texts carefully, âJungkook is the ex boyfriend, right? Whyâs he so interested in you going?â
âHeâs not,â you said, âHeâs probably just doing it to be nice, since everyone I know will be there.â
âWhat if heâs⊠yâknow, interested?â Taehyung asked curiously and you nearly choked on your drink.
âNo, oh my god,â You couldnât help but roll your eyes, âWe were just classmates and we stopped talking after he dumped Miyoung soââ
âYeah but did you ever stop to think âhm, Iâm the one who knew this guy first and then Miyoung went and snatched him from me before I even got a chance to exploreâ,â Taehyung said in a high pitched voice, presumably mocking yours. You reached over to playfully shove his shoulder making him grin mischievously.
âWhat? No, it wasnât like that at all,â You tried to say, âHim and I didnât even really talk until the night he met her at the bar and⊠no, thatâs crazy. He liked Miyoung right away.â
Taehyung just sighed, giving up on trying to get through to you, âIf you say so, but whoâs the one he approached first? Because I can tell you right now it wasnât her.â
Despite how he expresses himself when he talks about your best friend, he doesnât dislike her. He thinks Miyoung is alright, maybe a little too much for his tastes but that doesnât mean anything. He understands the two of you are really close and although he has had many chances to befriend her too, he just hasnât.
Heâll talk to her if you force them to hang out together but he would never go out of his way to be her friend. It might sound bad but Taehyung is pretty protective over you and rightfully so, he feels.
He doesnât want to badmouth one of his closest friends but you have a tendency to overthink things. You donât realize how great you are and make yourself seem smaller and he thinks Miyoung and other people like her in your life are at fault. Heâs heard some of the things she says to you and itâs like you hold her up so highly thereâs no room for you to see how pretty, smart, and talented you are. And before anyone gets the wrong idea, heâs not in love with you or anything.
Youâre too good for him so he gave up on that idea long ago.
Plus, now that heâs able to connect some of those pieces from when you were in Uni, some things are clicking into place for him. Miyoung tends to dim your light a bit, or copy something you do and claim it as her own and when he hears this little backstory between all of your old college friends⊠he just canât help but wonder if Jungkook was one of those things she claimed for herself.
With that thought in mind, he agreed to go with you to this party and see for himself what is there and what could be. He just wants whatâs best for you and for you to be able to go and get it without worrying youâre not good enough or stepping on anyoneâs toes.
When Friday night came, your apartment was filled with loud music and even louder complaints coming from one person in particular. Taehyung was just listening to you and Miyoung go back and forth about tonightâs plans and it got to the point where you couldnât say anything but the truth about what you would be doing tonight.
âItâs a welcome back party for Jungkook,â You said, trying your hardest not to let your voice sound strained.
âWhat? When did he get back?â Miyoung asked, sitting up from your bed and tossing your pillow off her lap, âLike he moved back?â
âYeah, I guess not too long ago,â You said with a shrug, looking in your mirror to see if you liked the way you looked or not, âI donât know, Yoongi is the one who invited me.â
âWhy didnât I know? Why wasnât I invited?â Miyoung asked, turning to Taehyung like he would have the answers.
âProbably because youâre his ex girlfriend and you ditched out on their little reunion so you could party,â Taehyung said, not bothering to look up from his phone.
âYeah but, whyâd they ask Y/n? Sheâs not even friends with him,â Miyoung said with a slight scoff, âYouâre not actually going right? We could go out, just the three of us. You already hung out with them, you and I havenât gone out in weeks, letâs just do our own thing. Unless youâre trading me in for all of them.â
You looked at her with apologetic eyes. Youâve been busy with work recently and she is right. The last people you hung out with aside from Taehyung were all of them two weekends ago so it would only be fair to hang out with her this time. It shouldnât mean anything that you were invited and that Jungkook wanted to make sure you were going. Miyoung was supposed to be your best friend so how could you go to a party she wasnât invited to?
Just as you were going to give in and shoot Yoongi a text that you werenât going to make it, Taehyung spoke up for you. âWhy donât you just come with? One of them said Y/n can bring whoever she wants and Iâm already going so itâs not like you have to be by yourself. Plus, arenât the rest of them supposed to be your friends too? Y/n already agreed.â
âWhy didnât you ask me first?â
âI didnât realize I needed permission,â You couldnât help but sigh, sitting on the edge of the bed to comfort her, âWe can just stop by, have a drink or two and leave if itâs lame. Come on.â
After much convincing, the three of you arrive at Yoongiâs place which was a small house with good outdoor space and the inside was packed with people already. The amount of party goers made you anxious but at the same time slightly thrilled that surely the attention would never be on you with so many people around.
âY/n! Miyoung!â Namjoon spotted you two first and he threw his arms around you both with a grin, âSurprised to see you here, Mimi.â
âYeah, probably because I was the only one not invited,â Miyoung said bitterly, making Namjoon take a drink from his cup and look away nervously.
âLetâs get you guys drinks then,â He said with an awkward clear of his throat looking to Taehyung, âWhatâs up, Iâm Namjoon.â
âTaehyung,â he said, following you to the drinks table. The music played loudly and there were a lot of people having a good time that it was somewhat easy to try and blend in and act normal. Miyoung had a pout on her face, looking around worried but Namjoon brightened her mood and every now and then another friend would stop by to greet her. Taehyung mostly clung to you and only drifted away when a friend would spark conversation with you but you were thankful he was around.
âY/n,â someone called out to you from across the room. You couldnât make them out through the crowd of people and it took a while before you spotted Jungkook making his way to your direction.
âJungkook,â you said with a nervous breath, looking around for Miyoung but she was off with Namjoon talking about god knows what.
âHow long have you been here? Why didnât you say anything?â Jungkook asked, slightly more energetic than usual. His hair was messy, with strands out of place, he wore a basic black tee and baggy jeans so why did he look good? Itâs still hard for you to wrap your mind around who this is.
Heâs gotten so muscular and just⊠more intimidating with his tattoo sleeve and piercings and itâs so unexpected but in a good way.
âI, um, you know, I just assumed you were busy,â you lied, looking around for one of your friends. Taehyung was at the table getting a drink and heâll be back soon to save you before Miyoung looks around.
Jungkook found himself looking around too, as if he could see what you did but he came up short, âDid you come with anyone?â
âYeah, Miyoung and a friend of mine,â you rushed the words out in hopes of sounding casual but Jungkook didnât even bat an eye.
âSo what are you doing alone?â He asked with a raised brow, taking a step closer to you, âActually, thereâs something thatâs been on my mind since last time I saw you and I uh⊠I havenât had the chance to say it.â
You blinked nervously, looking up at him and how close he was to you, âWhat is it?â
He licked his lips, playing with his lip rings shyly, âWell, I was wondering if you would like to get together some time, just you and I. Weâve never had the chance to hang out.â
âWeâre hanging out right now, arenât we?â You asked, feigning naivety that almost seemed teasing. In truth, you could sense what he was possibly asking and you needed him to stop. There was no reason for you two to hang out alone, no matter how much the thought made you giddy.
âI guess,â Jungkook couldnât help but let his eyebrows knit together in confusion. He took another step closer to you, hand on the wall behind you for support. , âBut I was still hoping⊠I know itâs probably kind of awkward but weâre grown, right? We can get together without worrying about anyone else.â
âWho says itâs because Iâm worried?â You asked with a hint of playfulness in an attempt to ease some of the growing tension caused by the way he looked at you, âWhere is this coming from all of a sudden?â
That made him crack a smile, âAll of a sudden?â
âYes, all of a sudden,â another voice added in from behind him and you jumped at the sound. Jungkook didnât bother to turn around, he was more focused on the way you tried to look behind him and meet Miyoungâs glare.
âWhereâd you run off to?â You asked, pushing past him making Jungkook slide his hand off the wall and roll his eyes at the disruption.
âSomewhere I felt wanted,â she said bitterly, eyes on Jungkook as she spoke to you, âLetâs go, Iâm bored.â
âI thought you were having a good tiââ
âIâm not, Y/n,â Miyoung almost snapped, âYou said we could have a drink and go. Weâve been here for like forever and I want to leave. Thatâs what we agreed on.â
âOkay, jeez, letâs go then,â You said with a sigh, âLet me find Taehyung.â
âGo, then,â Miyoung said, making you take a deep breath, trying to tell yourself she had a right to be upset. She didnât want you [as her best friend] talking to her ex boyfriend. And you did say you didnât have to stick around for longâŠ
âWhat?â Miyoung asked Jungkook with a roll of her eyes as she caught him staring, âDid I interrupt something?â
âYou still donât know how to speak to people like theyâre human beings,â Jungkook said simply, âAnd itâs sad to watch.â
âScrew you,â Miyoung scoffed, âYouâre just mad I stopped you from trying to ask my best friend out. My friends are off limits.â
âShe was my friend too,â Jungkook said as a reminder, âAnd I can do whatever I want. Youâre just childish.â
She snorted, âRight, says the guy who fumbled me.â
He couldnât seem to act mature anymore and before he stop himself he said, âRemember, youâre not the one I wanted anyway.â
He walked off without much care for how she felt and found his other friends, wondering who it was you ran off to find.
âTae, can we go now?â You asked your friend. Taehyung had found himself a group of people to entertain with his stories and had nearly forgotten who he had tagged along with until you pulled him to the side.
âUh, okay,â Taehyung cleared his throat awkwardly, âWhat happened? I thought everyone was having a good time.â
âMiyoung wants to leave,â You said with a small sigh, âShe saw me talking to Jungkook and I just donât want it to become this big problem so can we please just go?â
Taehyung placed an arm on your shoulder, leading you to Miyoung who waited at the door, âYeah, sure letâs go.â
The car had only stayed silent for the first half of the drive to Miyoungâs apartment. Somewhere between the last red light and this short stretch of road, a fire had been lit underneath her which made her start up again.
âSo what was that back there?â Miyoung asked from the backseat and you debated just acting asleep or like you were too drunk to listen properly. She leaned forward, looking at you closely.
âWhat do you mean?â You asked nervously.
âYou know exactly what I mean,â Miyoun said with an annoyed tone, âFirst you get invited to a party for my ex boyfriend and next thing I know the two of you are whispering in the corner looking like youâre about to kiss and like Iâm not even in the room.â
Taehyung had to bite his tongue from responding, worried that if he spoke too soon it would only make you seem more weak to her antics. He just tapped his fingers against the window trying to keep silent
âMiyoung,â You started with a sigh, âYouâre overreacting. It was nothing, weâre friendsââ
âSince when?â Miyoung scoffed, âYouâre supposed to be my friend, Y/n.â
âI am,â You said defensively, âAnd if you want to talk about this tomorrow then thatâs fine but right now itâs late and weâve all been having a decent time so donât ruin itâŠâ
âY/nâs right, letâs end the night on a good note,â Taehyung finally said but he seemed to go ignored by you two.
âYouâre not though, real friends wouldnât flirt with their best friendâs ex boyfriendââ
âYou two dated for less than five months and it was years ago,â You blurted out, âI knew him before that so donât act like Iâm betraying you.â
âOh my god, I knew youâd still be bitter I started seeing him,â Miyoung said, suddenly making you hide your face in your hand from exhaustion. âI didnât know you had a thing for him back then. You shouldâve said something instead of holding it against me like you do everything else.â
âWhat are you talking about?â You couldnât help but scoff.
Miyoungâs eyes narrowed suspiciously, âYou know exactly what Iâm talking about and itâs not fair.â
Taehyung took a deep breath, fingers clenched around the steering wheel unable to bite his tongue any longer, âMiyoung I donât think youâre being fair. Youâre clearly drunk and you just want to argââ
âShut up, Taehyung,â She snapped, slurring on her words a bit and not even realizing the car came to a stop in front of her building, âIâm not even talking you and you can stop acting like Y/nâs bodyguard because last time I checked sheâs a grown adult who could speak for herself. God, I swear everyone is the same. Just because Y/n is boring and insecure, doesnât mean she doesnât know how to speak for herself.â
âGet out. Weâre at your place so just go,â Taehyung said, annoyed with the harshness she was projecting on you, âY/n might put up with you but I wonât.â
With an irritated scoff, she swung the back door open, âFine, screw you guys too.â
The door slammed shut as she stormed up to her apartment and Taehyung waited till she was gone to say, âFuck, what did that girl drink? Y/n, why do you put up with that? Hey.â
You stayed silent for a moment letting her words sink in. Whatever, she yelled and threw a tantrum, thatâs fine, thatâs normal. But she seriously thinks youâre just a bore and maybe youâre starting to believe it too. If it werenât for you always being cautious over how she might feel about you and what you do, you wouldnât seem so boring.
Or was that just how you were and now youâre trying to say itâs because of Miyoung? Jeez, you just canât seem to make up your mind about anything but all you know is that⊠youâre not boring. Well, you donât have to be. If she wants to think that always backing up whatever she says makes you boring, then maybe itâs time you just do what you want even if she doesnât like it.
âTae, can you do me a favor,â You finally said, making him look over at you curiously. The car is still parked in front of Miyoungâs place and heâs been waiting for you to speak anyway, âWhat?â
âTake me back to the party please.â
Miyoung was wrong, if you were boring itâs because she made you boring. Anytime you did anything on your own, she always had to ruin it and you just let her. You just let Miyoung monopolize your time and make you her right-hand in everything. Youâve never gotten the chance to truly put yourself out there because you firmly believed you didnât compare.
Maybe you needed to stop overthinking and just do what you want, be confidentâor at least act like you are.
âY/n! Youâre back?â Yoongi asked once you made it to the party again, âLet me tell you, I was mad because I thought you left before even talking to me.â
âIâm so very sorry,â You said playfully, âBut do you know where Jungkook is?â
He seemed to freeze up, surprise written on his face and he looked down at you questioning. You held his gaze, watching the wheels turn in his head before he was blurting out, âI donât know. The bathroom?â
You blinked nervously, letting him slip away from you when someone called for him and were left standing there. Your mind was racing with ideas yet you couldnât think of what to do.
What did you expect coming back?
What does this prove?
You feel anxious and insecure and maybe she was right, youâre boring and you donât even speak up or do anything exciting.
âJungkook?â You called out to him as you walked down the hall of doors, knocking or opening whichever door you landed on. You got to the last door with a bated breath, realizing itâs a bedroom and closed yourself in.
Your sense of bravado had been short lived. Whatever burst of confidence you had was completely gone now that you sat alone in the guest room contemplating just going home or not.
In all honesty, this was stupid from the very beginning. You let Miyoungâs words get to you and you acted before you could think. You didnât need to prove anything. Plus, you donât want Jungkook. Maybe once before you did⊠but not⊠anymore?
God, you felt like an idiot.
âY/n?â
Your heart dropped with a sense of disbelief as you looked up. The once pitch black room was illuminated by a block of light from the open bathroom door. Jungkook stood at the doorway, brows furrowed as he looked at who sat on the bed.
âJungkook,â you cleared your throat awkwardly.
âYouâre back?â He asked, looking you up and down with a hint of suspicion. You nodded your head silently, making him blink with confusion.
You stood up from the bed suddenly, âAre you done in there?â
âUh, yeah,â he moved out of your way, watching you closely as you closed the door in his face before he could say anything else.
Maybe this had been a sign that you didnât want to talk to him but he couldnât bring himself to leave the privacy in the bedroom to go out where everyone else was. He could hear the faucet running but oblivious to how you wet your face to try and snap yourself out of this strange mood before drying off. When you opened the door, you didnât expect to see him standing there right in front of you.
âEverything alright?â He asked, halfway in the doorway, walking forward making you step deeper into the bathroom.
âYeah, everythingâs great,â you said with a strained smile, backing away, âJustâwhat about you? Has it been fun, this is all for you, right?â
âI guess,â Jungkook shrugged, âBut it would have been more fun if you stayed.â
âGood thing I came back then,â you couldnât help but laugh nervously, leaning against the sink counter.
âGood thing,â Jungkook licked his dry lips, âY/n, about what I was saying earlier⊠I would honestly like for us together sometime, just the two of us.â
A small, shy smile appeared on your lips as you thought about earlier and repeated yourself playfully, âWeâre hanging out right now, arenât we?â
âI guess,â he blinked in confusion, looking down at you and struggling to keep his composure. Your response was a bit of a let down since he hoped you had come back to see him and he should have known better. You would never take him seriously after his mess with Miyoung and he was always reaching for the stars thinking it could work out.
Plus, youâre too good for him. You always have been.
He canât explain why, but heâs always felt a sense of ease with you, like everything was perfect. As shameful as it is to admit, Miyoung had reasons to be worried.
When they dated⊠well, it didnât stop him from thinking about you from time to time. Miyoung was aware of it too and he looks back on it now and realizes how wrong he was then. It was wrong for him to think about you when he was never able to have you, and he will be much less now.
âAm I wrong? Is it not just the two of us now?â You asked, swallowing the lump in your throat and looking to the bathroom door which was closed some time ago.
âY/n,â he said it softly but you could sense his warning tone, like you were going to get yourself in trouble. Jungkook wanted to believe you were aware of what this looked like yet he knew there was a chance you werenât. He couldnât just go for it.
He could not just go for it.
Not even if you looked up at him with a look in your eyes that said you might want him toâŠ
He could be dreaming it up.
Would you want him to?
No. No way, you would never, thatâs how this all started right? You wouldnât want him the way he wanted you and youâll go be with someone else while he beats himself up for another failed attempt. Heâs not in college anymore, he canât make the same mistakes.
You do not want him.
âY/n,â he said with a sigh, âI think we should get out nââ
It was soft but sudden. One second he was giving up on everything he had been hoping for and was ready to go on once again without telling you how he really felt. The next, your lips were on his, barely giving him a chance to feel the tenderness of it before pulling away with a gasp.
âJungkook,â you covered your mouth with your hand, âOh my god. Iâm s-sorry, I, that was not okay. I shouldnât have done that.â
You were rambling, apologizing for doing it without asking him first but in all honesty, he couldnât hear you anymore. There was a strange ringing in his ear that only seemed to stop when he grabbed your face in his hands, and pulled you into a real kiss.
To keep yourself from leaning back too far, you wrapped your arms around his neck and met him the rest of the way. You kissed him back with an equal sense of urgency that had his eyes falling shut and letting himself get lost in the moment. Your lips were soft against his own and his lip rings felt cold on your tongue the first couple times.
At one point you surprised him by nipping at his piercings with a soft tug and it had his hands tightening around your waist, using his strength to pull you onto the counter with ease. It made it easier to kiss you and he let the small sigh you let out guide his tongue between your lips. Your hands were in his dark hair, and you surprised him with the way you took lead of the kiss. It felt like he was melting into you and it was doing things to him.
âY/n,â he mumbled softly, âI want you so bad.â
You pulled back from him with widened eyes. It was the first time you heard him sound that way and you knew he meant it. He looked at you with an intense gaze and it felt good to be looked at that way by him. You wanted him too, right? Thatâs why you came back. That's why you were so upset back then. Why canât you have him now?
What was really stopping you?
Nothing.
The second time he kissed you, you didnât hesitate from doing more and it had his mouth dropping when he felt your hand trace down his toned chest. He let that feeling motivate his hands to do the same to you and they ran along your sides till he could feel your front. His hands slipped under your top and found your chest, gently reaching to touch you as he kissed you with his tongue.
Your fingers trailed down his navel to the waistband of his jeans, tugging softly and teasingly that you felt the way he sucked in a shaky breath. When he didnât pull away to tell you to stop, you took it as a sign to go a little farther and undo the button and zipper. Jungkookâs rough fingers caressed your breasts ever so softly but with an added pressure that made you let out a small sigh, especially when he ran his thumb over your nipples.
He released a light groan against your lips when you got more confident in your actions and slipped into the hem of his Calvin Kleinâs. You barely touched his growing member but you felt it harden against you, the more attention you gave to it and it was all just exciting to you. His kisses were needy and his rough hands felt so good against your sensitive buds that you couldnât hold yourself back. You wanted to make him feel good too and you could tell you were.
Jungkook helped you tug his jeans down enough for you to have more reign over him and you touched his bare dick so softly. The first touch was light and teasing, like you were still letting him get lost in the feeling before you actually did anything but it was soft that it made a tingle run down his spine. Goosebumps rose on his skin and blood ran straight to his cock making it easier for you softly palm him to full hardness.
You circled your fingers around his tip, softly running your thumb around the ring feeling him twitch with need and softly sliding down to his base.
His movement grew rougher, he was no longer softly caressing your breasts but more groping, never getting enough for the softness of them. When you began to stroke him gently, he found it hard to keep himself from digging his nails into your flesh to ground himself and it made a hand of his fall to your leg. His palm was wide and flat against your inner thigh, tracing his lips down your jaw and to your neck to try and distract himself from getting too lost into the feeling.
âFuck,â he huffed, licking his dry lips as he began to slowly fuck into your closed fist, deaf to the sound of music just outside the bedroom you two were hiding in. The bathroom felt even smaller at this point yet he couldnât bring himself to put a stop to it now. Especially not when your hand began to fuck his cock faster, with more vigor as he twitched in your hold making his nails dig into your thigh harshly.
Your skirt was scrunched up around your hips at this point and he could see the soft blue of your laced underwear and couldnât stop himself anymore. He had grown too curious to have you and with his hand so close already, he let his thumb trace along your covered folds.
They were already sensitive at this point and his sudden touch made your insides tighten with arousal, your back straightened in surprise and a light moan left your lips. The sound snapped his attention away from his own pleasure and when he did it again, he swallowed your moan with his mouth on yours.
He couldnât take thing slow anymore, especially not when his dick felt so close to the edge already and was trying not to cum all over your hand and so soon.
You were withering against him, squirming on the counter to feel more of his hand against your heat. Your fingers tightened in his hair when he reached under to the hem of your panties, pulling them down as far as he could. You wrapped your legs around his waist as he tugged them down your thighs. Jungkook pulled away from your lips with a slight groan as he brought his fingers to your lips. He pressed into your bottom lip watching close as you drew your mouth open and took them in. As you licked between two fingers, your handâs stroking sped up with more pressure that had him pushing them deeper down your throat.
When he pulled them out there was an obvious line of drool connecting his fingertips to your lips and he brought his hand between your legs once more. The mixture between his rough fingers and the slick that now coated them made a tingle run down your spine when they ran along your folds. You pinched the fabric of his shirt as he circled your hardening clit with his middle finger while his index finger began to tease your sensitive labor.
He ran the longer finger down your slit, dipping into the puddle of arousal that formed at your center before using it to wet your clit and massage you gently.
You looked into his eyes as he finally pressed his middle finger into your waiting cunt, giving you a second to respond and he couldnât help but let his lips slip open with heavy breaths. Your hand stopped its actions as you took in the feeling of him pulling out his finger before pushing it forward once more. Each time felt hotter than the last and it made him want to take things further. When he thought you adjusted enough, he teased the tip of his ring finger in with his middle one and kept a steady pace of thrusting.
At this point you began to stroke him again, rubbing against his mushroom tip where a thick vein was felt along the underside of it. Your hips had began to move with the motion of his hand and you were fucking his fingers into you while fucking his cock with a closed fist. The both of you were left speechless, unsure how long you had been locked away in the bathroom but not caring either.
You felt more impatient than him but you couldnât help it. You canât remember the last time you let someone else touch you and none felt quite like this. Jungkook seemed to know where to kiss, where to press or pay attention to and he never left a part of you untouched. Even now as he thrusted his fingers into you, his other hand was at your chest again, fingers pinching your nipple and tugging harshly but it brought little whines from your lips.
âJungkook,â You were breathlessly calling for him and youâre sure that if your back wasnât to the mirror, you would be able to see how desperate you looked to him. Your other hand was on his hips, pulling him forward in hopes of getting him to get the hint that you needed more, âFuck me.â
âWhat?â He asked with heavy breaths, looking down at the way the tip of his cock pressed against your inner thigh now, âReally?â
âPlease,â You found yourself begging, desperately begging for him to give you something and oh, how it worked.
His eyes rolled back at the soft sound of your begs and with a hand on your thigh, he pulled you harshly to the edge of the counter. He placed his hand over yours and stroked himself once, twice, to slick his member with your arousal and his own.
His cock was hot to the touch and pointed straight to your waiting entrance. He had made such a mess of you already that when he pressed his tip into your clit, it nearly slid down from how wet you are. You had to bite your lip to keep from whining too loud when he teased you with that repeated motion, wetting his tip more and feeling the way your walls tightened and released for him.
Your back was fully against the mirror now, legs open waiting for him and you were getting impatient. The anticipo had been building up for too long and you brought your hand between your legs. All it took was a soft push down for his cock to sink into your waiting pussy.
His jaw went slack at the sudden tightness of it, he hadnât expected it to be so snug. His tip barely pushed against the ring of nerves and your facial expression matched his own when he kept going. He held your thighs open, guiding himself in with a deep breath.
âFucking hell,â he growled lowly, hands trembling as he kept you open and ready to take him in. He looked up at your eyes, completely enamored by the way your features softened with pleasure. Your eyes were glazed over with obvious lust that made him want to just fuck you into oblivion.
âOh my god,â your hand circled around his neck, pulling him into a sloppy wet kiss that left him biting your lip softly. He groaned against your lips as he picked up the pace of his thrusting, letting his cock drag against your puffy walls so that you could feel every juncture on his length. Your back was arched into him, your chest nearly pressed against his and he snuck his arm around your waist to pull you firmly against him.
âThatâs it baby,â Jungkook groaned into your ear, gripping onto the counter with his free hand to fuck you better. You were on the edge of the sink and he bucked his hips up to reach that pleasure spot he had found with his fingers just moments ago and had you moaned loudly into his ear, âYou sound pretty, tell me how it feels.â
âFeels good,â you whispered softly against his neck, lips teasing kisses against his skin that made the veins in his arms bulge, âDonât stop, please.â
âNgh, Y/n, beg for me,â Jungkook said with a deep voice filled with lust as he fucked you with all his strength. There were too many layers of clothing between you but neither of you seemed to have the time or energy to tear them off. You were both too focused on the pleasure that came from feeling his skin against yours.
Your legs tightened around his waist forcing more of his length into your sopping cunt and his fingers pinched your sides roughly. Without thinking, Jungkook lifted you off the counter. You clung to him as he stepped back and he needed a second to just feel the way your pussy tightened around his hard, thick cock. He wanted to dig into your guts and it was nasty how badly he wanted to have you cum all over him.
It was so unexpected because you always came off as a quiet, reserved person but here you were letting him tear you in two with his fat dick. Jungkook used his strength to push you against the door, letting you drop onto his length before backing his hips up and pistoning them back into you.
âFuck, I canât,â your legs tightened around him with your face digging into his neck, âJungkook, baby, I canât.â
âYou can,â He whispered, pressing you firmly into the wall, âCome on baby, take it.â
âToo much,â You whined, squeezing your eyes shut as he picked up the pace and you searched around for something to hold. Your hand tightened around the doorknob, trying to anchor yourself as he fucked you so good you could barely focus on anything but the pleasure, âIâm so close.â
Jungkookâs hand held you firmly by the waist while the other cupped your ass, groping you harshly as he fucked you onto his length trying to make you cum, âCum baby, for me. Yeah?â
âYeah,â you moaned, âKiss me, please?â
He didnât hesitate to do so, kissing you with tongue as you clung to him, moaning into his ear and shaking slightly. His knees buckled tightly to hold you up and just as he gave one final thrust to the hilt, he felt your orgasm hit you.
Your walls tightened around him, nearly bringing him to his own orgasm before feeling his tip get flooded with your release. His thighs shook with the pressure of it and he felt his strength leaving him. His abdomen grew tense and he pushed you back to the counter where you let your head fall back with pleasure. You swallowed dryly, panting heavily, âOh my god.â
You were sweaty, tired and overall unsure what to think but your mind hadnât cleared yet. All you could focus on was the way Jungkookâs dick throbbed painfully hard when he pulled out of you with a slight pop. You eyed his red member, slightly hypnotized by how pretty it looked and you dropped to your knees wordlessly.
Jungkook watched you slip down on your knees in front of him and it took him a moment to process what was going on. He was hard, so fucking hard he couldnât think straight and it wasnât until your hands held his thighs, eyeing his cock hungrily did he realize what you wanted to do. He brought a hand fo attempt and gently brush your hair back, âY/n, baby, you donât have tâoh fuck.â
His jaw went slack when your hands circled his base, your lips on his tip and taking him down your throat suddenly. Your nose brushed against the base of his cock, eyes watering as you tried relaxing your throat around him and he nearly stumbled back with surprise, âY/n.â
You ignored his call of your name, and began to bob your head against his length, your tongue licking along the thick vein you discovered earlier and feeling his hands sink into your hair to guide you, âThatâs it, fuck.â
Jungkook looked at his reflection in the mirror, turned on by the way your head was seen bobbing against his length and his body was overheating so much he had to pull his shirt over his toned chest to cool down. It gave him a perfect view of the way his cock disappeared between your lips.
The thought of having you like this hadnât dawned on him yet but now he couldnât forget it. The memory would always be ingrained in his mind and although he doesnât know if heâll never get a chance to do this again, he couldnât hold it in any longer.
You gradually began to pick up the pace, using your hands to hold closed fists around his cock to help stroke what didnât fit in your mouth. You swallowed and bobbed around his dick hungrily, moaning around him and hollowing your cheeks when you would pull your head back until only his tip was between your lips.
As ashamed as he was to admit it, he wasnât going to be able to hold himself back anymore. Still wanting to warn you, he tried to guide your head off him, âIâm close.â
All it did was push you to take him deeper, stopping when he hit the back of your throat and sucked. Jungkookâs eyes squeezed shut with a loud growl as his orgasm hit him harder than it had in a very long time.
You coughed as his cum sprayed down your throat, thick and creamy with a bittersweet taste that you tried to lick up. You wouldâve cleaned him off fully despite his legs shaking but he pulled you off. He pulled his softening dick out of your wet mouth with a huff, panting heavily as he looked down at you.
âY/n,â his voice was dry, pulling you up to your feet, âThat wasâŠâ
He couldnât even get the words out as he watched you lick the corner of your lips and without thinking about it, he pulled you into a heated kiss. You kissed him back with need, moaning against him as his tongue circled around yours hungrily, not caring for the way he tased on you. You only broke away to catch your breath, realization dawning at you as you looked at his messy appearance that surely mirrored yours.
You sat against the counter for a moment, attempting to catch your breath as Jungkook did the same. The two of you were silently readjusting your clothes again and you needed just a moment to yourself. He looked at you, buttoning his jeans back up, âIs everything⊠okay?â
âYeah, um, can I just get a minute,â You said with a hoarse voice trying to pretend like you couldnât see the way his shoulders slumped down. With a short nod of his head, he left the bathroom to let you wash up and for a moment you just looked at yourself in the mirror.
Your reflection looked different, maybe because what you had just done was so out of character and with your best friendâs ex but⊠why did it feel right?
Jungkook wondered what would happen now, if you expected him to leave the room or wait for you but he wanted to be with you. He didnât want to walk out and think that because he got something heâs been wanting for years now, heâll just leave. He knows the others are looking for him, mostly because heâs gotten a few texts now asking where heâs at but he canât bring it in himself to care. When you opened the bathroom door into the dark room, he looked like a deer caught in headlights, rushing to his feet, âAre you sure everything is fine?â
âYeah, yes,â you nodded stiffly, âIf you want to go out there with everyone else thatâs fine. I wonât be upset or anything.â
âWell, I was kind of wondering if you wanted to come back to mine?â
The first thing you noticed the following morning aside from the sun shining down on your face was the heavy arm across your waist. It made your eyes flutter awake with a small huff leaving your lips as you attempted to stretch your limbs but it tightened around you, securing you closer to Jungkookâs naked chest.
âMorning,â he mumbled sleepily into your hair as he hugged you closer.
âWhat time is it?â You asked awkwardly, trying to sit up making his arm slide to your hips instead. You reached for your cell phone, eyes widening by the number of text messages.
miyoung: bye I was drunkkkkkk đł
miyoung: did I đ€ź at all?
miyoung: r u alive
miyoung: helloooooooo
A quiet sigh escaped your lips as you read it over. Either she couldnât remember how upset she was in the car or sheâs going to pretend like nothing at all happened.
God, what did you do?
âY/n,â Jungkook grumbled tiredly, âLay back down.â
âI should go,â You bit your lip nervously. If Miyoung forgot what happened last night then maybe she forgot about Jungkook asking you and wonât know you⊠slept with him. Fuck, were you a bad friend?
He dated your best friend and dumped her out of the blue making it obvious he wanted nothing to do with her and here you are letting him fuck you in the bathroom. What did that make you? You had a poor lapse of judgment last night, you acted out of character and hadnât been behaving like yourself at all.
âWhy?â He sat up suddenly, âYou donât work today, right? Why donât we go grab breakfastâwell, brunch.â
You looked down at him, unable to stop yourself from taking in his appearance. He had bed hair, no shirt on and his blanket draped over his waist. He failed to take off his jewelry last night so he still wears silver chain necklaces around his neck and leather bracelets. You couldnât possibly spend time with him still. It wasnât right, right?
Just as you were ready to give him your answer, your phone began to vibrate with an incoming call. You looked down at the screen and a picture of you and Miyoung displayed on the screen that had Jungkook huffing quietly and laying back down, close to giving up.
In all honesty, you werenât in the mood to talk to her. It still bothered you by how harsh she was last night but thereâs a chance she doesnât even remember and⊠âHello?â
âTell me why I have a raging headache when I barely drank last night?â Miyoung said immediately once the call went through, âItâs your fault yâknow for upsetting me.â
You couldnât see her but she was walking on a treadmill in her apartment acting like everything was completely normal. Jungkook didnât care for your conversation either but he was focused on the way you looked first thing in the morning.
You looked cute, undeniably cute with circles under your eyes and a disheveled appearance. You wore an oversized shirt of his so you wouldnât have to sleep in such uncomfortable clothes and he loved it. You looked good in his clothes.
Without thinking, he sat up and pressed his lips to yours in a short and surprising kiss. You flinched back with confusion, nearly dropping your phone in the process but he backed away with a small smile. You tried to glare at him but you couldnât stop from smiling and it annoyed you when he placed a gentle kiss against your neck that made you feel flustered. You almost forgot you were on the phone when he leaned in for a kiss again and one you would surely grant.
âBut I forgive you,â Miyoung said suddenly.
âWhat?â
âI forgive you, Iâm over it,â Miyoung said with a shrug you couldnât see, âOur friendship means more to me than Jungkook and I know you would never do anything that you know would upset me so⊠itâs whatever. In the past.â
âWait,â You held up a hand to Jungkook as you said it to the both of them, âWhen did I apologize?â
He stopped immediately, looking at you with concern as Miyoung went on, âI mean, we both know you were going to. Iâm just letting you know itâs alright.â
âNo, Miyoung, I wasnât going to,â you couldnât help but scoff, âI havenât done anything wrong.â
Technically.
Jungkook raised his brows, surprised by your tone and a little turned on? Was that okay to say?
âI didnât mean it like that, but you know⊠you were flirting with the guy who dumped me,â Miyoung said, âItâs fine, whatever, you want to flirt with Jungkook, I donât care anymore I just thought I meant more to you as a friend.â
You didnât say anything for a moment as you looked down at Jungkook who couldnât seem to go more than a minute without attention. He had your free hand in his measuring your size difference and you released a sigh, âYou know what, Iâm kind of busy right now so Iâll call you later.â
Miyoung wasnât able to get a word in before you ended the call, turning your attention to Jungkook, âYouâre getting me in trouble, sir.â
âIâm terribly sorry,â he said, biting back a grin, âHow should I make it up to you? Brunch?â
âYouâre still thinking about that?â You asked with a slight laugh.
It was strange trying not to let your best friendâs feelings bring you down too.
âIâm hungry,â Jungkook said, hand on his toned stomach for detail.
âI donât have clothes or, I donât know, a toothbrush,â you couldnât help but sound sarcastic, falling back on the bed with an arm on his chest.
âDonât worry, I got you.â
In the end you caved to his incessant begging and found yourself dressed as casual as ever with an oversized tee and the skirt you wore last night clashing horribly. The only thing that had you regretting it was what stood [parked] in front of you.
âYouâre not serious, are you?â You asked as you watched him walk up to you with a helmet in his hands, âI canât get on that.â
âYou can,â Jungkook said, putting it over your head, âIâm a very safe driver.â
âWhat about your car?â You asked nervously as he buckled[?] you into the head gear, âCanât we just go in that.â
âWe can but that wonât impress you,â Jungkook snorted a laugh as he got his own helmet on, âCome on Y/n, I wonât kill you, donât worry.â
With a small sigh you nodded, letting him lead you to the bike and he swung a leg over to straddle it and patted the seat right behind him. Frankly, you didnât care that you were in a skirt. You know that thereâs an appropriate way for people in skirts to straddle something but you cared more about living so you straddled it the way he did. Jungkook couldnât help but smile as he felt the softer touch of your hands on his waist and without saying a word, he pulled you into him suddenly. Your chest was pressed to his back and your arms snug around his waist.
âAtta girl, no time to be shy now,â he chuckled, feeling you smack his arm playfully.
If he were being honest, he liked this side of you. Heâs never seen it before and it was breathtaking and enjoyable. Before when you were just classmates you were still stand offish from him and the only night he got you to open up was the first time he ran into you and met Miyoung. It was short lived and once he dated her, he rarely got to see you alone.
When he got back, you would barely even look at him yet whatever spurred last nightâs events seemed to open up new possibilities for you two. You havenât talked about what happened but heâs expecting it almost excitedly.
Jungkookâs hand ran up your thighs, securing you to him as he started up the motorcycle, feeling the smoothness of your leg and teasing the end of your skirt with a small tug, âReady?â
He felt you squeeze harder before taking off.
The cafe was small and filled with warmth making this feel oddly close to a date⊠which is probably because it was? Youâre still not sure how to take it.
âDid I really get you in trouble?â Jungkook asked as he cut his breakfast sandwich in half before doing the same with yours. When you looked at him he looked concerned by the notion. You didnât have to ask to know what he was referring to and you couldnât help but sigh, âNot really, sorry, it was more my fault than anyââ
âWhy though?â Jungkook cut you off, âWhy is it always your fault? You canât talk to me now?â
âYou know we didnât just talk,â you bit your lip nervously. You couldnât meet his gaze and he didnât like that.
He huffed in annoyance, âBut she doesnât know, or does she? I mean, what does it matter?â
âYou dated. Sheâs my best friend and it bothers her, I already feel guilty for what happened last nightânot that I regret it, donât get me wrong but⊠well, itâs just confusing and it upsets her,â You rambled, still defending Miyoung even when she was slowly getting under your skin.
âWe dated so long ago, it was such a short fling,â Jungkook said with a laugh as he went back to eating, âAnd she dumped me so why does it matter if you and I get together?â
âI donât know, I just⊠sheâs my best frieâwait, what did you say?â You met his stare suddenly making him set down his coffee cup to answer.
âShe dumped me so why canât you and IâŠâ he stopped. Did you mean for him to repeat the part about being with you? Did you want him to say it again, maybe use the right words this time?
Why is he saying Miyoung dumped him? You remember the day exactly.
Miyoung called you while you were studying in the library late one night, not fully in tears but clearly under duress and she couldnât stop herself from letting her emotions get to her. She went on to tell you how Jungkook dumped her suddenly over a phone call because he wasnât interested anymore and was just using her or something.
You remember because you left the library to go comfort her and you almost ran into him on campus and he wouldnât even look you in the eyeâŠ
He dumped her because he got bored, thatâs why she asked you to stop talking to him. He was just like every other guy according to her and you owed her the promise to avoid him. It was you who introduced them anyway andâŠ
Why is it that any guy youâve ever thought youâve liked would fall for her instead, only to dump her and in return make her ask you to not speak to them again?
Jungkook wasnât the first so when she asked you to avoid him, it bothered you a little but you soon got over it and did as told.
You always do as told without questioning it.
âYou broke up with her.â
He chuckled, shaking his head no, âI was going to but she beat me to it. I donât know how honest you want me to be this early in the day.â
âTell me,â you urged him on.
âI wanted to break up with her but I had this sick feeling that I wasnât going to be able to talk to you as much anymore or it would be awkward so I stuck it out,â Jungkook said it with a shrug, âBut then she dumped me and suddenly you wonât even look at me so it was worse for me, I guess.â
Your eyebrows stitched together with confusion, âWhat are you saying? Why did you care if I talked to you or not? You went for Miyoung the second you met herââ
âThatâs not true, actually,â Jungkook confessed, deciding if you wanted honesty he would give it even if it embarrassed him, âI wanted you.â
âAnd when I met her, I was obviously there at the bar trying to talk to you but she kept butting in and next thing I know, you were off talking to Yoongi and ignoring me,â Jungkook went on, âTo be honest, I was kind of insecure back then, like really insecure and I was trying to get you to notice me but everytime someone would cuââ
âJungkook, stop, I just⊠no, you did not like me, you dated Miyoung,â You cut him off, fidgeting in your seat anxiously, âItâs fine, itâs in the past.â
âNo itâs not fine and I asked how honest you wanted me to be and you told me to tell you so Iâm going to,â Jungkook said more seriously, âI was insecure, alright? I had just moved to the city and I shared class with this pretty, incredibly smart girl who would barely give me any time of day. Honestly it was kind of depressing, I was kinda depressed at the time and I needed a boost to talk to you so I asked Miyoung and⊠she said you were into someone else so I was pretty bummed out. Then sheâs kind of just everywhere and she actually tries to talk to me so when she asks me out, I say yes but I realize I still have to see you.â
âAnd I liked being around you even though I probably shouldnât have because technically I was dating her at this point and I realized that I practically screwed up whatever chance I might have had with you,â Jungkook couldnât stop himself anymore. He was saying whatever was on his mind, barely giving you time to process any of it before continuing, âYes, I know itâs fucked up because whenever I thought it might work and I might catch real feelings for her, you would came around and they just went out the window. So it was getting harder and harder to keep pretending and I wanted to break up with her but I was worried you wouldnât talk to me anymore.â
âShe beat me to it and dumped me because she was bored and I was relieved, honestly, but then I see you on campus and you canât even look at me anymore,â Jungkook cleared his throat, âThen life went on, I moved away, moved back, ran into you again andâŠâ
âAnd what?â You asked breathlessly, lips dry and completely frozen in your seat.
He looked at you warmly, âI found you, everything just came back and I knew I didnât want to lose you a second time. I wanted to ask you out the first night at the bar but you didnât even want to talk to me so I tried again last night and you were so ready to blow me off when Miyoung came along. I donât know what made you come back to the party and I donât want you thinking Iâm some sleazy guy who acts like that with just anyone. I was just⊠it was unexpected and I had been waiting years for something to happen between us.â
Suddenly, this didnât feel like an easy brunch inside a warm and cozy cafe anymore. In all honesty, it felt a little suffocating now and you donât know how to explain it, but you didnât want to be here. So much has just been thrown at you and you donât think you can handle it all.
What did he mean that he liked you first?
Why had Miyoung told him you were into someone else? You learned to stop sharing who you liked with her so long ago and had never once told her anything like that in school. Why couldnât she just have asked you? Why did she ask him out after he made it known he wanted you?
You donât care that he said yes, that really was in the past for you. Now youâre more focused on why someone who was supposed to be your best friend would act so sneaky? What did she gain from it?
Why did she lie and say he dumped her? Was it just so she can paint him as a villain and make you not want to talk to him anymore? Why would she do that?
âY/n?â He called your name waiting for you to respond to him but you just sat there stunned, âIâm sorry, I know I was a piece of shit for dating her when I wanted you buâY/n.â
Your mind is filled with questions that you couldnât answer and it was overwhelming. The cafe felt suddenly overwhelming and you just had to get out of there, so you did.
âEarth to Y/n, I donât know how long you plan on ignoring the world but I know youâre not too busy with work to ignore your friends.â
Tacky, Taehyung was so very tacky leaving a concerning voicemail. Who left voicemails these days?
And he was being dramatic, heâs acting like youâve fallen off the face of the Earth but thatâs not true. Youâve just been holed up at either the office or your home for the past week, avoiding any call or text from anyone so you could be alone with your thoughts.
Alright itâs been over a week, almost two and maybe it is a little concerning but youâre telling yourself youâre just being dramatic.
âY/n you better open the door before I break it down,â Taehyungâs muffled voice boomed from the other side of your front door and you begrudgingly went to let him in.
âRelax, Iâm not dead,â You muttered under your breath as you let him in.
âDamn near!â Taehyung said loudly as he let himself through the door, âWhat is up with you? You havenât responded to any text I was beginning to get worried.â
âSorry,â you mumbled as you flopped down onto your couch, âIâve just been tired.â
âToo tired to answer the phone?â Taehyung asked sitting down next to you, âMiyoung, I get. Ignore her all you want but me? What did I ever do to you? Whatâs up with you? I havenât talked to you since the party. Did something happen?â
With a small sigh, you let your head rest against the back of the couch, âI slept with Jungkook.â
âReally?â Taehyung seemed genuinely surprised, âSo fallout with Miyoung Iâm assuming? Look, I personally donât get why you try to make her happy but sheâll get over it. Did you like it? Like him?â
âYes, I donât know, Iâm confused, I donât know what to believe anymore,â you admitted, âAnd I feel so dumb because this shouldnât be a big deal.â
âAlright well I need you to rewind and explain things better so my pea brain can handle it,â Taehyung made himself comfortable, âYouâve gone Ghost for over a week, I want to know why. Was it because of Jungkook? Miyoung? If you think sleeping with him makes you a bad friend theââ
âSheâs a liar,â you cut in, âAnd it shouldnât bother me so much because sheâs my best friend but thatâs why it bothers me, Tae. Iâve known her for so long, and Iâve always tried to be a good friend to her but it was never enough. So I tried harder and harder because who else would be there for me like her but⊠now that Iâm looking back on it, I donât think sheâs ever cared about me as much as I care about her and it sucks, honestly.â
Taehyung wanted to tell you so many people cared about you but he wanted you to say whatever you needed to say first.
âYou know what Jungkook said? He said Miyoung knew he apparently liked me before and still asked him outâand lied about how I felt about him,â You said, âAnd okay, why would I fight over a guy with my best friend but now that Iâm thinking about it⊠itâs fucked up right? She lied that he dumped her and begged me to avoid him. You saw how she acted the other night just because he talked to me. What was that about?â
You werenât going to go into full detail about the past because you owed Jungkook enough to not tell Taehyung about everything he said but he needed context.
âAnd I know itâs in the past so I should just move on but I canât,â You admitted, âI still like him but if I⊠I get with him Miyoung would never let me forget that she dated him first, even if he liked me. Itâs just all so confusing and overwhelming and it sucks that Iâm letting it get to me like this but⊠itâs not fair.â
Once again, Taehyung didnât say anything but he could tell you were feeling emotional by the way your voice began to shake.
âI like him, and not in the way I liked him before but I like this new him too, and itâs not fair that even if she lied or even if she snaps at me about shit that doesnât matter, I will still feel guilty,â You finished.
âY/n,â Taehyung cleared his throat, âObviously I donât know everything that happened back then but⊠I think that if you feel for him what he feels for you, it shouldnât matter what she says. And honestly, I just⊠I wish you could see that there are so many people who care about you so much and you donât have to put up with being belittled by someone who is supposed to be your best friend just because you have history. It doesnât matter if itâs in the past, if itâs upsetting you now then clearly it still matters so donât try to downplay your emotions.â
âBut sheâs my best friend,â your lip quivered.
âThen what am I?â He forced his lip to quiver as well.
âYouâre my best friend too,â you sniffled.
Taehyung mimicked your expression, âThen as your best friend, Iâm telling you to stop trying to make excuses for people who donât treat you rightâand go fix it with this guy.â
âBuââ
âY/n, I know you,â Taehyung sighed, âAnd I know that youâre not going to do anything if you think it upsets her but she doesnât deserve a friend like you. You deserve to go be with whoever you want. I donât care about what she says and at this point neither should you. I know that right now itâs confusing and youâre overwhelmed but if youâve been ignoring me youâve been ignoring himâI hope because if itâs just me thatâs coldâand if the girl I had feelings for ghosted me⊠Iâd be hurt.â
Jungkook was not hurt. He was⊠y'know, perfectly fine and thatâs what he kept telling himself. Itâs not like you made any real sign of feeling something for him too after hooking up and maybe that had just been a casual, one time thing. He can handle that, heâs grown.
Sure, he sort of spilled his damn heart out to you just for you to storm off on him and not reach out to him in days but heâs not bothered by it at all. Thatâs why when his two closest friends called Saturday night asking him to go clubbing⊠he said yes.
It was a chance to possibly let it go, forget it even, but it wasnât easy. He was aware that he was possibly reading too into what happened the other night but could you blame him? Youâre suddenly all about him and spend the night at his place where you wake up in his arms before going out to eat. It was like the perfect set up for a what if yet it went all wrong. Clearly it was his fault for being hopeful.
âSo who else did you say is meeting us here?â Jungkook asked Hoseok for confirmation as he passed him a drink. The music played loudly in his eardrums that it was borderline painful and he wanted to leave more than anything but there was that stupid what if in his head.
âJiminâs joining later on and so is Namjoon and his girl,â Hoseok said as he made sure everyone else had what they ordered, âOh, and Y/n too, I think.â
âY/n?â Jungkook tried clarifying. Hoseok smiled, âI know, itâs weird, Y/n seriously rarely comes out but all of a sudden sheâs starting to more. I mean, lately she has, probably since around the time you got back?â
Jungkook let his friend go off to do whatever he wanted while he stood there seemingly frozen. Tonight would be the first time in days that he sees youâtalks to youâand heâs not sure how to handle it. Thereâs nothing he can do about it either because he hasnât confided in anyone yet but itâs painfully obvious that heâs waiting for you.
Yoongi noticed first, like he usually did, and tried talking to him, âWhatâs up with you? Youâve been antsy since the party, will you finally tell me where you ran off to?â
âYeah man, donât think we didnât notice when you disappeared,â Jin said with a slight wink, âWe just want to know with who.â
âY/n.â
He could see you from the corner of his eye when you joined them at a table they had found. You came with Jimin by your side and a shy smile on your face. He assumed it was Hoseok who had screamed your name considering how he hogged your attention with a huge grin and Jungkook felt nervous all of a sudden.
As embarrassing as it was, Jungkook had nearly forgotten what he was asked until he looked back at Yoongi and Jin who looked at him expectantly. A nervous laugh escaped his lips as he shrugged, âDid you guys miss me too much?â
âSneaky guy, donât change the subject,â Jin laughed before letting Jungkook shift his attention back to you, making it painfully obvious where he was focused.
You felt a little nervous to be out tonight but after what you had talked about with Taehyung, you knew he was right. You acted strange with Jungkook after he opened up his side of things to you and it was plain wrong. Part of you isnât even sure if heâs actually interested or not since he didnât reach out to you this week and it made you wonder if he was really upset.
And if he was, would that mean that he didnât want to speak to you?
âI need a drink,â you mumbled to yourself more than to the others but it made a good excuse to at least try. You looked at Jungkook for the first time since you got there and cleared your throat to awkwardly ask, âJungkook, do you mind going with me?â
âGet me another, will ya?â Yoongi asked with a sudden wink that made Jungkook do a double take. Was he winking over the drink or him leaving with you?
He nodded his head in response and without question followed you to the bar once more. The bar was packed from all sides and Jungkook had to fight his way to the counter working as a barrier from people pushing at you. If he were to be honest, he wanted to skip the questions and get close to you again but he had to stay strong. He needed answers, right?
âAre we good?â Was the only thing he could think to ask.
You looked at him warmly, sitting down on the stool at the counter with him standing close to you, his hand itching to reach for you. Your lip caught between your teeth as you nodded, âAre we?â
For some reason he didnât expect to be asked that back. It made him wonder if he thought you were. It was undeniably embarrassing to have you walk out on him like that after he thought it had been going good but did that mean he was truly upset with you?
âYeah,â he nodded stiffly, blinking nervously and looking to the bartender who noticed them a while ago but had to attend to earlier customers first, âBut uh, I guess I am just a little confused by it all. Did I do something to upset you? Was it what I said?â
âNo, no, Iâm sorry, it wasnât you,â You blurted out, âIt was me, I wasnât thinking straight and I feel really bad about leaving like that.â
âThen why didnât you just call or even text me?â Jungkook asked honestly, âI⊠I think thatâs what bothered me the most.â
You looked down at your hands, âI'm sorry. I didnât talk to anyone, seriously, and I did think about reaching out to you but I donât know, Iâm really bad at explaining things.â
âWell can you try? I know it was sudden but I thought it had been going good,â Jungkook said and the longer he tried getting to the bottom of this, the more annoyed he felt that you couldnât just say it, âI think Iâve made it clear now how I feel about you and all Iâm asking is for you to do the same.â
âIâyes,â you stumbled over your words, âI mean, Iâm trying to be clear now but Iâm doing a shit job at it. I did have a good time with you but it was honestly, really out of character for me to yknow⊠and then the whole Miyoung thing and Iâm sorry but it was just a lot all at once. Itâs definitely not fair to you that I acted that way, but I do have feelings for you.â
He let out a sigh, feeling unsure how to take it and stuck between wanting to smile in relief and wanting to be upset. You didnât text him, nothing. How is that fair? He wanted to reach out to you but after the way you left he thought he would just make it worse if he kept bothering you. The bartender finally got to you two and he let you speak first as he tried gathering his thoughts a little more.
âBut what does this mean?â Jungkook asked now, âI want you and you want me, right? So, what does this mean Y/n because right now Iâm still confused by it all. If itâs because of Miyoung thenââ
âNo, itâs not, honestly,â You said, reaching for him, pinching the bottom of his shirt between your fingers to pull him toward you, âI don't care what she thinks anymore, I like you and I should have just said that from the beginning.â
The pull was harsh and had him looking down with his lips slightly parted in surprise, âY/n, youâre not being fair.â
You knew it. You knew you probably ruined your chance now and coming to see him had just been a waste. You nearly let go of him when he continued, âYou canât ignore me and walk out on me and then just tell me you want me too, expecting everything to be fine.â
He had to be tough. He canât just let it go even though youâre saying everything he wants to hear.
âYouâre right, Iâm sorry,â you said with a slight frown, âI can leave if you want me to.â
âUgh,â he groaned, unable to help himself anymore as he closed the distance between you two. He circled an arm around you and pulled you into a hug, âWhy would I want you to leave when Iâve been waiting for you to get here?â
âWhat?â You asked, hands finding his waist as he held you, âI thought you were mad.â
âI was,â Jungkook said, âSo you donât know how annoyed I am with myself right now. All it takes is for you to sweet talk me a bit and give me those eyes of yours for me to fold, thatâs embarrassing.â
âJungkook,â you said, âIâm sorry, I shouldnât have walked out like that. I should have texted you and if you want to be mad, I get it. If you want to think it over anââ
âAnd what if I donât?â He asked looking down at your pouty lips and glossy eyes, âWhat if I just want to let it go and be with you without any more problems? Can I do that?â
His tone was surprisingly firm and you couldnât do anything but nod, âOkay.â
It didnât change the fact that you still felt bad because it seemed like you were being let off the hook easily but what else could you do? Jungkook really did seem ready to move past it and thatâs why you came here in the first place. You just hadnât expected it to be so easy and it made you feel bad.
When your drinks were ready, you opened up a tab despite his protests to just put it on his and the two of you got back to the group like nothing had happened. There was still a lot that needed to be talked about before you told anyone about what happened but itâs not like they were all oblivious.
Jimin, for instance, had been keeping an eye on you two at the bar since you left and had seen the majority of your conversation but he didnât bring it up. Instead he watched silently for your little glances in each otherâs direction and shy smiles. It was obvious to Yoongi too that Jungkook was in a much better mood now than earlier and it wasnât hard for him to figure out why.
Perhaps for the same reason you had suddenly started joining them more often, being more comfortable too.
It had been a slow start for the two of you after the night at the club. Neither one of you seemed to want to rush into things but at times there was a strong pull. Tonight was going to be your first official date but you were keeping that information to your friends until you figure out if this works or not.
Jungkook picked you up from your apartment and drove to a nice restaurant where the two of you sat for dinner. He was very attentive to you, making sure your glass was always full and all your needs met and it was a surprisingly good feeling to be taken care of this way. Youâve dated in the past but you canât say youâve always chosen the right ones. You had a tendency to lean toward the ones who were overly forward with you because in your mind there was no doubt they liked you.
At first it would be nice but then you would realize that it was more of a conquering feeling to them than actually wanting to be with you and you would be left heartbroken. Thatâs part of why you rarely put yourself out there.
Jungkook is different though, he always has been. When you first met him he was forward but aloof. You never expected him to actually like you because you couldnât see the signs clearly and the way things turned out it just never worked. Now that heâs been back heâs almost like an entirely different person in the sense that heâs ready to go for what he wants and itâs sort of admirable.
If you had been able to do that back then maybe you would have had him sooner but there was no point in dwelling in the past. He was here now and so were you. Honestly, knowing that there's something thatâs been brewing between you two for a long time made it easier to feel confident around him.
âWhy are you so pretty?â Jungkook couldnât help but ask even if his mouth was full. He was trying not to smile too as he said that.
âOh my god,â You felt your face heat up, tempted to hide behind your hand. It took you a moment to think of a response and it was surprising for the both of you to hear you say, âWhy are you?â
Jungkook cleared his throat awkwardly in hopes of not seeming too affected by your words. It didnât work and he broke out into a grin, âI wasnât expecting that.â
Dinner was filled with small flirting here and there. Itâs crazy how well you and him seemed to get along when you stopped worry about other things. He made you smile, really smile and you made him feel giddy whenever he talked to you. He wanted to spend his night with you and nobody else.
âAre we going to meet with everyone else after this?â You asked as he pulled your chair out for you and you got up from the table. After some back and forth arguing, he eventually took care of the bill despite your protests and the night felt near its finish much to your disappointment.
It was the weekend and youâve been trying to go out with your friends more and they had asked to meet up laterâbut both you and Jungkook had to tell them maybe.
âDo we have to?â He asked, taking your bag in one hand and holding yours with the other, âYou think theyâll get a little suspicious if weâre both gone?â
You walked with him across the restaurant toward the entrance. You werenât paying much attention to the people you passed, âIâm sure they know.â
Your response surprised him a bit and he couldnât help but ask, âReally? Has it been that obvious?â
âYeah, Jimin called me out on it the other night,â you shrugged, reaching for your bag to look for chapstick while he led you to the front. You couldnât meet his eyes because you sensed where this was going.
âWhatâd he say?â Jungkook asked slowing his pace for you.
You blinked nervously, distracting yourself with your lipbalm as you tried sounding casual, âHe asked why we were being so sneaky at the bar.â
Jungkookâs eyes widened slightly, opening the door for you as he said, âDamn, what did you say?â
âI said because weâre together.â
You tried being slick about it and slide past him without much attention but it was useless. He stood in front of you with a smile on his face, âOh, we are? I donât remember you clarifying that. Can you remind me when you asked me to be your man?â
âOh god, donât act like that,â you whined shyly.
âIâm sorry baby, I gotta hear you say it with your own words. Whatâd you tell him?â Jungkook blocked your path, hands finding your waist and keeping you from running. He liked making you flustered and you had no idea how you left him with a racing heart.
You pouted, looking at him seriously, âJungkook.â
The two of you stood outside the restaurant looking like a playful couple that maybe had one too many drinks but it was all Jungkookâs fault. He wouldnât let it go to rest and even had the nerve to smirk as he teasingly said, âThatâs not how you say âBoyfriendâ.â
âYouâre ridiculous, we talked about this,â you said, focused on his chest to hide your embarrassment.
Jungkook just grinned mischievously, âWhat did you tell him?â
âI said you were my boyfriend,â you mumbled into his chest.
âYour what?â He asked trying to step back and get a good look at your face, âCome on baby, donât get shy on me now.â
You whined, âJungââ
âYour what?â He was laughing now, not caring for whoever might pass them and stare because he felt good. Too good to be affected by a strangerâs judgement.
âMy boyfriend,â you sighed with embarrassment, âYou heard me the first time, goof.â
âThatâs what I thought, alright, you ready to go?â He asked with a chuckled as he took your hand in his ready to walk with you to the car.
âY/n?â
You both stopped in your step, wondering if it really was your name you had heard. You looked back toward the rest, eyes threatening to widen with surprise as you looked at the person who stood at the entrance. She was with a group of people all headed inside but when she saw you, she stopped.
âMiyoung, hey,â You cleared your throat awkwardly, your demeanor changing completely.
âHey, what are you doing here?â She asked as her eyes trailed behind you where Jungkook was looking at you with worry and confusion. He wanted to make sure everything would be alright, knowing how Miyoung would react. He didnât want your good night to be ruined over something petty.
âWhat do you mean? Iâm uh, I was just having dinner,â you said stiffly, looking back at Jungkook which proved to be a mistake because it seemed to solidify his presence to her.
âWith jungkook?â She asked with a snappy tone. Miyoung shooed away her friends, telling them to go in without her as she approached you.
âYeah.â
âWhy?â Her brow arched with amusement, clearly ticked off and in disbelief by what she saw before her. Like usual, the situation seemed much worse than it really was.
It was time for you to be up front. Whatâs the point in putting yourself out there and letting yourself open up to him if you wouldnât have the courage to make it known? You swallowed dryly, âBecause weâre⊠dating.â
Jungkook had stepped back from the situation, not wanting to worsen it so he stood off by a light post not too far for a smoke break. He tried distracting himself with lighting his cigarette but he couldnât help but freeze up when you said that. It brought a shy smile to his face as he waited for you to finish.
âNo, youâre not,â Miyoung scoffed looking back at Jungkook as if betrayed by him too. You blinked with confusion, what did she mean youâre not? Did she expect you to be joking or back down? âWe are.â
Miyoung stood in front of you now, slightly taller, âY/n, youâve been ignoring me for weeks and now youâre saying youâre dating my ex boyfriend? What kind of friend are you?â
This time it was you who scoffed lightly, looking away from her to try and process what you would say but you had spent too much time already trying to think it over, âThe thing is, um, Iâve been kind of wondering the same about you.â
âMe?â She looked down at you genuinely taken back, âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
You swallowed the lump that formed in your throat and tried to gather the courage to just say it. You could feel Jungkook around, listening but giving you space and it was like a push start for you to say what was really on your mind, âIâm just tired of feeling like Iâm the only one who puts effort into being friends and I donât see the point in always fighting. Weâre not together, we donât have to be friends if it always has to be some sort of argument. Itâs getting tiring at this point and I think maybe itâs best we just distance ourselves from each other.â
âYouâre kidding, right? Iâm like the only person who really cares about you, Y/n. Donât act stupid.â
Although that made Jungkook want to intervene and tell her how very wrong she was, he didnât. He didnât want to speak for you. He knew you could speak for yourself and he should let you, even if he was itching to cut in.
âNo, I donât think you are. I know you think you are so you always tell me you are, but youâre not. People like me for me and not just because Iâm friends with you,â you said coldly and your tone was definitive it left her speechless. It had to be one of the first times you were ever remotely close to snappy with her and she didnât expect it.
âI know itâs hard for you to think of me as my own person but I donât have to do what you want,â You said, âAnd I think you only boss me around and act sneaky behind my back because youâre threatened by me.â
She opened her mouth to speak but nothing came out. What you said left her rendered quiet. You waited too, waited to see if she would tell you to stand down but she didnât and you didnât give her time too, â But I think I should go, I donât want to bother your dinner any longerâand uh, maybe we just shouldnât contact each other anymore.â
Jungkook had forgotten about his smoke break, jaw nearly to the floor at how confident you sounded. It was obvious you had never spoken to Miyoung that way but she couldnât even deny what you said. You did it so casually and like you couldnât care less which made you seem mature compared to Miyoungâs tantrums.
âWhy was that kind of hot?â Jungkook asked as you finally reached him under the light post. Miyoung had stormed off with an evil glare that he ignored telling you how âYouâre doneâ.
He looked down at you with hazed eyes, amazed and enamored. You scrunch your face curiously, âWhat was?â
âYou, right now,â He chuckled, reaching for your hand in his, âKind of scary too. Remind me not to get on your bad side.â
âYouâre exaggerating,â you tried to laugh it off, âI wasnât mean, was I?â
It was so dumb of you to still be worried about it but you couldnât help it.
âNo, you were calm and casual but that was so scary,â Jungkook gasped dramatically, âBecause I know you were mad at herâ⊠it was mean but only a little and so very very hot, and youâre doing all this in that dressâŠâ
Without meaning to be, Jungkook was sort of like your hype man. You were worried about being too harsh, you still are, but he made you feel better about it. Part of you will never not feel in the wrong for being with Jungkook but youâve gotten the rest off your chest and it felt good. Maybe you were a bit mean or maybe you werenât, you could never be entirely sure but Jungkook seemed to be on your side no matter what.
âYou like my dress?â You asked him with a teasing smile as he held the car door open for you.
âI really do,â he played with his lip ring, looking down at you.
âThen take it off me.â
âOh fuck,â Jungkook whispered to himself as he looked around the parking lot, âHere?â
You broke out into a laugh as you sat down. Your words got to him easier than you thought and he sighed, âYou canât say that shit to me, Y/n. Iâll actually do it.â
âLetâs go back to my place and see if you can keep your word then,â you told him, watching him close the door with a tense jaw just thinking about it.
You canât do this to him. You canât be shy and cute one second and then act like that. You canât. Thatâs not fair to him. How is he supposed to not be affected when you say things that get his heart racing while looking so cute? Was this what it would be like dating you? Just constantly caught by surprise?
He did like the way you stood up for yourself. He liked that you spoke your mind more freely than before and he takes joy in hearing you flirt back. In the beginning it felt like he was the one always trying to get you to talk to him or notice him and now youâre saying things that make his head dizzy.
âYouâre gonna be the death of me, yknow?â Jungkook asked after the painfully long car ride back to your apartment. He was removing his coat as you sat on the edge of your bed to undo your shoes.
You let out an amused laugh, âWhat do you mean?â
âI mean⊠you act all shy and innocent and then you say shit thatâŠâ Jungkook let out a groan, âI canât explain it, you just drive me crazy.â
âIn a good way or bad way?â You asked, following him with your eyes as he closed the space between you two until he was at the end of the bed standing in front of you.
âA good way,â he said softly, âIâm finding more sides of you Iâve never seen.â
âAnd you like it?â You asked shyly, feeling his hands curl around your jaw.
âI do, a lot,â he confessed brushing his lips against yours, âI don't know what I wouldâve done if I lost my chance with you again.â
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NO PART TWO
oml yall this took me forever to come up with đ I went through at least six other ideas before deciding on this one and I canât tell how happy I am with it yet but I tried my hardest not the disappoint đ„č I miss being more active and taking to you all but life has been so busy lately
please let me know how you feel and I promise Iâll try to be more active đ«¶đœ
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pairing : husband!jungkook x wife!reader
genre : smut , fluff
warnings : there is a babyy , oc is a stressed mom , jk relieving all her stress , nicknames used : sweetheart/honey/my love , sexual : clit play , fingering , cum eating , making out , oral sex (f recieving) , lactation kink , p in v , mate press (?)
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"shh, shh, it's okay, baby."
you gently pat your baby's back, switching from patting it and rubbing it up and down every second.
"my baby, hmm, it's fine. don't cry, don't cry, my love." you rock your baby up and down while spinning around the room, walking back and forth, doing all sorts of things to calm the baby down.
"sweet baby." leaning your head down to press a soothing kiss onto your baby's forehead, then another, another, and another and so on. there's a small smile forming on your face once your baby calms down a little.
"come on, shhh. goodnight, my love..." you carry your baby to his nursery, tip toeing, not wanna risk anything as you slowly bend your body forward to place the sleeping baby on the crib. and just as you do thatâ
"waaaahhhhhhhh! "
ah. yeah. right.
quickly retrieving back to your old position, your hand immediately flies to lay on top of your baby's back meanwhile your other arm is wrapped around your baby's body.
letting out a sigh mixed with exhaustion, you press your baby's head onto your chest, letting him listen to your heartbeat. please go to sleep. earlier you read an article saying that letting the baby listen to the mother's heartbeat makes them sleep better. please work.
don't get me wrong. your son is the best the best thing that has ever happened to you. he's your everything and you've always wanted to be a mom. but sometimes, it's just so hard. but you're aware that this is not something you can avoid and is prone to happen. and seeing your son's cute bunny smile at the end of the day was worth all the struggles. no matter how exhausting it can get sometimes.
it was around 3am now, after all.
your back was pressed against the headboard as you cuddled your baby into your embrace. half lidded, you watch your turn his face from side to side on your chest, trying to find a comfortable position and a few small squeaks leaving him here and there.
there's a small smile on your face while you rub your baby's back soothingly. meanwhile also trying not to fall asleep on spot.
but just as you were about to go against your own words and fall asleep, the door creeps open, making you jolt back up to look for who it is, only to see your husband's head peaking from behind the door.
he walks in, taking big but silent steps towards you.
jungkook smiles, "how's my babyboy doing?"
"he's a very bad baby tonight." you huff with a small grin, playfully, "but i managed to put him to sleep."
jungkook giggles, leaning forward to press a kiss onto your sleeping baby's cheek. your son squeaks, shifting his face from one side to another while comfortably laying his head on your chest.
"gimme the baby, honey. i'll put him to in the cot. you should get ready for bed." he pats your hair, twirling one of your strands.
"hm, okay." you get up, gently placing the baby in your husband's arms. but thenâ
the baby suddenly yelps, fists clutching onto your shirt tightly. you're startled, but you handle the situation just fine.
"ah, ah, ah, my baby." you're groaning, you're tired. but it's okay. you look at jungkook, the dark circles around your eyes very clear, but it's okay.
"oh, come on, baby. come to papa, it's okay." jungkook hums a small tone, one that your son for sure likes, as you slowly sneak the baby into his arm.
without even noticing the change of positions, your baby just snuggles into the familiar warmth of your husband's chest.
sigh. you sigh, sitting back on the bed.
"get ready for bed, my love."
you nod, just getting up from the bed and walking back to your shared bedroom.
by the time jungkook manages to fully calm your baby down and place him in his crib and come back, he finds you still on the bed blankly staring at the wall.
he's confused. shouldn't you be in bed already?
"honey, what's this? not sleepy?" there's concern written all over his face.
"are you okay?"
the moment he asks that, he notices your face turning completely sour with a big pout forming on your face. oh no, he knows that face very well.
"hey, hey, what's wrong?" jungkook quickly rushes to sit next to you, his hand now on your back, rubbing up and down and flattening any wrinkles on your shirt.
without any warning, you pull your husband closer by his arm and hugs him tight, face buried deep in his neck.
"i feel so exhausted." a small mumble.
your husband sighs, immediately noticing the problem.
"i know, sweetheart, i know. it's okay. just calm down for now, hm?" he leans his back against the headboard, pulling you closer to his body as you curled up into a small ball and let yourself be comforted by your husband's soothing heartbeat.
"we had this talk before, remember? days like this are prone to happen. and we have to get through it somehow." he whispers into your ear, pressing kissing in between his sentences as well. you hum, lightly nodding your head, agreeing.
"it's for our little baby. you're the best mommy i know and ever will know. just imagine us telling sannie about how much of a hussle he was when he's older." he chuckles, placing kisses on the crown of your head.
you smile into his chest, nodding.
"it's for our sannie." you mumble and jungkook hums, gently massaging your head. jungkook brushes his fingers through your hair, gently, soothingly, almost making you fall asleep. he had his head leaned downwards, forehead pressed against the crown of your head as he planted small pecks all over your forehead and eyelids.
"jungkook." you pull on his shirt, slowly making your way out of his embrace.
he just hums, caressing your cheek so softly.
stop. you love him so much.
you touch his hand on your cheek, leaning forward to connect your lips with him. your husband immediately smiles into the kiss, his fingers holding your face so gently as your lips moved against eachother perfectly.
his tongue licks your lower lip, slowly sneaking its way in your mouth. the tip of your tongues meet eachother, smoothly gliding against eachother as you to make out. like, really hard.
there's soft little noises coming out of the smacks of your lips, both of you eating eachothers faces out. not being able to hold back, you whimper, your fingers gripping onto jungkook's biceps.
you makeout for a few more seconds then breaking out for air.
jungkook couldn't help but let out a small squeaky laugh.
and oh, that laugh. it brought you back to the days where you both were just two highschoolers starting to like eachother. made you feel like a little girl having her first crush.
thinking about that had you forming the biggest cheekiest smile on your lips.
jungkook was a little confused at your change of expressions, but he just smiles it off. you sit up on his lap again, pulling your husband in for another kiss.
so you kiss.
but then, jungkook manages to get you to lay down on your bed on your back and him slowly getting on top of you. almost sneakily.
breaking from your kiss, you groan, letting your head fall onto the bed. jungkook snickers, almost evil, body laying softly on top of yours as he pulls you into another kiss. now, your legs are crushing his thighs, caging him between them while both your hands gripped onto his shoulders.
while you both are eating out eachother's faces, jungkook's hand slithers under your baggy sweatshirt, massaging your soft stomach.
"hm..." he hums, squeezing your tummy fat.
you both open your eyes at the same time, jungkook breaking down to a small giggle again. the tip of your tongues brush past eachother over and over again. fuck, you're getting so hot. you bet your face is as red as a tomato right now.
your husband brings up his other hand to hold you face by your cheek, then his tongue leaves you for a brief momentâand instead, he spits a globe of spit down to your mouth.
"swallow."
gladly, you swallow it down, opening your mouth again with your tongue out to show that you've done as he said.
jungkook huffs, smirkingâfuck, he's so breathtakingly attractive.
"my amazing little wife. best woman in the world. best mama." his words flutter your stomach entirely. you swear you could see the butterflies flying out of your stomach.
you just smile in return, and that's more than enough for him.
"are you feeling any better, my love?" jungkook caresses your cheek as if you were the most fragile being on earth, touching you with so much gentleness.
you just hum with a small nod. but your hand touches jungkook's one that was on your cheek, then you put his fingers in your mouth.
jungkook watches you with amusement as you wet his fingers with your saliva. once you felt satisfied enough, you pull his fingers out. lifting up the hem of your sweatshirt using your other hand, you glide jungkook's fingers down your body, leaving a small trail of saliva on your stomach.
once you've reached your pelvis, you lift up little shorts, pushing his hand inside.
"touch me, jungkook." you moan out.
and i swear to god, jungkook swore he's never ever seen his wife hotter than this moment. he felt all the blood rush down to his pants, his dick hardening each second.
"shitâ" his voice was so breathy, "you're so hot. baby, i'm gonna lose my mind." he takes a deep breath before diving straight down to your neck. he begins to kiss and suck on your neck, nibbling here and there, biting too. meanwhile, jungkook also makes sure to add a little bit of pressure to your clit. not doing anything but just pressing onto it subtly. tease.
you moan as your husband continues to suck and bite all over your neck, leaving little hickeys all over.
"i need you so bad, kook. please take care of me..." the last bit of words leave you in a whisper. jungkook almost feels dizzy from your words, god he loved it so much.
"i'm so tired, hm. need you to make me cum to relax me." you're caressing the top of his cheek with the pad of your thumb.
jungkook loved seeing you needy.
"alright, honey." he places one final kiss on your forehead.
jungkook spreads your legs further apart, fingers skimming over your soft cotton shorts over and over. and once he sees the little wet spot in between your thighs, it almost makes him drip the drool out of his mouth.
"ahh, pretty." his thumb rubs over the wet spot, caressing it and pressing onto your clothed clit. through your shorts, jungkook pinches your clit, making you let out a small squeal.
"just get to it, hmph." you groan. jungkook's smirk just widens more. your husband nods, taking off your shorts.
"ah, fuck, prettiest pussy ever, baby." the tip of his fingers dips in between your mushy folds, collecting some of your arousal. he brings it to your clit to get it wet, then gently rubbing circles on top. you whimper, nodding.
jungkook lowers his body down, hooking his arm behind your thigh, hoisting it up a bit. his body lays fully flat on the bed, between your thighs with his face pressing kisses all over your thighs. he also bites your flesh, not too hard but not too softâ well, hard enough to form little marks for sure. he bites a spot on your thigh inches away from your pussy, then flicking his tongue on that area, gently sucking it afterwards.
like this, your husband makes sure to leave small hickeys all over your thighs and take his time. while you were left squirming and the puddle in between your thighs just growing and growing.
i thought you said no teasing?
jungkook swipes his thumb over one of your hickeys, caressing it and then leaning forward to press little kisses over it.
"love these fuckin' thighs."
and without a warning when your eyes were closed, your husband decides to dive into the messy in between your folds with a long lick.
"ah!" surprised, you hook your fingers into jungkook's hair. he hums, licking stripes of your pussy. kitten licking your hole, his fingers tease your clit. he circles your clit slowly while his lips latch onto one of your folds, sucking on it.
jungkook pulls away with a groan, making you let out a long relieved sigh.
"more."
"hm."
he gets right back to licking your pussy, making long strokes from your hole to your clit. then he spits on your clit first, tongue immediately swiping over your clit repeatedly. it was the perfect stimulation to beg you for more. his eyes were closed, he seems to be in the moment enjoying your pussy as if it was his last meal. while making out with your clit, he decides to have some mercy on your hole.
your husband plunging two of his fingers in your pussy was the cherry on top for you.
"ahâ ah, ah! mmh...!" your grip on his hair tighten. back arched, face thrown back, whimpering and moaning so fucking loud.
"shhh, you might wake sannie up, my love."
you nod vigoursly, pushing your husband's face deeper into your pussy and grinding. jungkook was going at an animalistic pace, his face completely smothered all over your pussy. your arousal mixed with his drool was all over his face. his jaw was already beginning to ache, but he didn't care. all he cared about was whether his pretty wife was satisfied or not.
his fingers thrust in and out of your hole sloppily. the scene was so messy. he loved how squishy your pussy felt. and that just made him think more about how you'd feel wrapped around him again.
one last tug and bite on your clit, you let out one last long moan, pulling onto your husband's hair roots as your cum gushed down your cunt.
"shit, oh fuck" your husband whines at the sight of your swollen cunt.
he caresses up and down your cunt with the back of his middle and ring finger. you hiss at the cold feeling of his wedding ring pressing onto your clit as if that whole finger wasn't just inside you just a minutes ago. jungkook realises you liked it. so he smirks, slapping your swollen cunt with the back of his fingers repeatedly, especially making sure his ring is slapped against your clit over and over again.
"kook!âwhine haaaaah! haah, hh!"
he slaps your thigh harshly to get you to stop squirming around. once his wish is fullfilled, he forces open your thighs, diving right back into your slit again.
"jungkook!" you were already overstimulated enough.
his eyes were closed once again and nails digging into the flesh of your thighs. face buried deep in your pussy again, he carefully lapped at your sweet juices away with long satisfied hums against your cunt.
"hm, hmm, hmâ so good." he reassures.
and a last little kiss was on top of your swollen clit. you let out a small mewl followed by relieved sigh.
"how are you feeling, baby?"
"good, so good. thank you." you pant.
"anything for my heart." he coos, kissing your temple.
aw. he said "my heart". your heart melted.
jungkook pokes your cheek with a smug grin as he lifted his body up and got off of the bed. huh.
"where are you going?"
"to clean you up?" he raises his eyebrow at you, slightly confused.
"what?"
"what do you mean what?"
"wellâ uh, i thought you were gonna..." you pout.
"hm?"
"kook, please fuck me. i am so horny and i need you so bad." there we go. jungkook's jaw was on the floor for the second time today. i can't lie, he was loving this new side of you. bold and straightforward. you're more vocal about your sexual needs now. you never were before.
he opens his mouth to say something, but shrugs while biting his lips, hurriedly getting on top of you again.
"shiiiiiiit, let me take care of you, mama."
your husband's fingers hook onto the hem of your shirt, pulling it upwards to take it off of you. he gawks at the sight of your tits, squished in your bralette. he hurries to take it off, throwing it away not caring where it may land.
his big hands impatiently grab your tits which were filled and heavy with milk. he looked completely hypnotised. squeezing and massaging your tits, his eyes glued to the milk that's leaking out of your nipples. swiping his thumb over your nipples over and over, jungkook looks over to you, asking for permission.
you nod.
immediately taking in one of your nipples in his mouth, your husband begins to suck relentlessly.
"oh, jungkook...!" your hand was on the back on your husband's head, instinctively massaging his scalp while he dived into your breasts.
he spits on your nipple then swirls his tongue on the saliva, dragging it all over your chest. the artwork being created on your chest was very messy, like always. he playfully bites your soft flesh and pulls it as if he could just bite a chunk off of you.
"tastes surprisingly good."
"surprisingly good?" you crack up a laugh, tilting your head to the side as you ruffled his hair.
"yeah."
he squeezes your breast again, fingers travelling from there down to your pussy again. with a smug face, jungkook parts your legs again, getting in between. he playfully flicts your clit just to earn an annoyed groan from you. apologising with a little kiss on your clit, your husband begins to rub himself through his boxers.
pulling his cock out, he slaps it on your clit a few times, making sure your clit was covered in his precum. then, he glides it down to your hole teasingly slow. spitting on his cock to use it as lubricant, he finally glides it in your drenched cunt.
"ohhh"
"ohhh"
both you and jungkook moan at the same time, lovingâobsessively loving the feeling you just got. shit, that felt good. like so so so good. especially after waiting for his cock to slide in you.
"so warm, mama. so perfect for me. you're all mine." he just cups your face, staring at you so lovingly. jungkook holds up your legs by your thighs, pressing your knees to your chest. his cock goes in and out of you steadily. short timed pants from the both of you take over the room, mixing well together and creating a small harmony even.
jungkook couldn't get over how pretty your pussy looked. so pretty and perfect for him. he was aware that you did have a bit of insecurities building up after your pregnancy. but being the sweet loving husband he is, he had a talk with you and reassured you that he still saw you the same, and of course he will for the rest of his life. you were everything to him. so perfect.
he spits a ball of saliva onto your clit, watching it dribble down to mix with his thrusts. he swipes his thumb over the small patch of hair on top of your cunt, groaning.
watching jungkook act completely mesmerised with your cunt only made you wetter and his thrusts grow even rougher.
his thighs snap into your ass like a drum, the sound of skin slapping and moans and whines filling the room. mostly yours. but you knew better to keep it on the low.
"shit, oh, mama!"
jungkook spreads your legs by the knees now, both your knees ending up on the sides of your head. his body leaned down to yours, breath fanning against your lips as he quite literally manhandled the fuck out of you.
the sex wasn't rough, though. it's like he didn't want to make it rough. but it felt so good. but he made sure to increase his pace at odd times just to rile you up.
"mm, haaaaaa!"
he knew you needed to come from clit stimulation though. so to make it easier, your husband moves your left leg to his right hand, his hand holding both your legs now as he fucked into you.
"oh my god, jungkook!"
immediately squeezing your eyes shut at the sudden stimulation on your clit, your breath hitches and toes curl. your husband rubs your clit in the form of an eight, pinching it then and there too.
"hmmmm, you're gonna cum?"
you nod repeatedly, eyes squeezed shut and feeling completely fucked. no pun intended.
"yeah? cum. cum so i can fuck it deeper into you." he rubs your clit faster, increasing his pace. you whine out loud as your sweet cum comes down, making your body shake under your husband's grasp. jungkook groans once your juices coat his dick as he fucks you through your orgasm.
"oh my god, i love you...so much!" you choke out, nails digging into your bedroom. shit, that was just what jungkook needed to release.
"fucking hell, say that again." he throws his head back, bringing both your legs up in the air again and pressed against eachother as he fucked into you.
"i love you!"
"ahh, shit, shit..." he groans, thrusts getting sloppier as he cums down your cunt. he collapses right next to you, hugging your thighs close by your knees. while both you and jungkook regain consciousness while laying on the bed for a few seconds, you also make sure to admire his afterglow and also to tuck a few of his hair strands away.
jungkook gets up fast though, but never misses to kiss your hand. he quickly grabs a tissue and cleans in between your legs.
you yawn, snuggling into the sheets.
"you just wanna go to sleep?"
you nod. but you get up, making a quick trip to the bathroom to pee. by the time you're back, the sheets are changed are new, neatly tucked too. your heart immediately warms as you smile widely, wrapping your arms around your husband and kissing his cheek.
"i love youuu!"
"i love you more, baby!" he pecks your pouty lips. he tells you to dress up while he goes to check on your baby. once he comes back, you're happily tucked in your bed with a big fat smile on your face.
"someone's feeling better, huh?" he scrunches his nose up.
"uhhuh!" you nod also, patting the vacant spot next to you on the bed. jungkook happily lays there, inviting you to lay in his arms.
"i love you, mama. god, i'm so crazy for you. thank you for all you're doing, honey."
â° pairing. â emo!jk x reader
â° genre. â early 2000s au, best friend's older brother, childhood friends to lovers, smut, light angst.
â° word count. â 10k+
â° warnings. â swearing, family issues, friendship betrayal, mention of drugs/alcohol, smut [ cunnilingus, rough sex, ...idk how else to describe it ] reader and jk are both 18+, minors dni.
â° a/n. long awaited part 2! the amount of love i received from part one was overwhelming and it means to world to meet that so many people instantly fell in love with this couple. another part is already in the works!
â° taglist. @ahgasegotarmy116 @hellbornsworld @kissyfacekoo @littlestarstinyseven @skzthinker @cuntessaiii @nikkiordonez12 @ilikekpop-c @busanbby-jjk @xjjk187 @aloverga @kookcobain @mzeji @bxcndd @hoseokteardrop @canyon-lwt @hopefulrascalstatesmantoad @jksteponme @parkinglot-nights @chromekingkong @jk97bam [ if i didn't tag u it's because tumblr didn't allow me to! ]
part one | masterlist | ao3 | buy me a coffee?
âDid you seriously think I wouldnât find out?â Somi is glaring daggers at you upon opening the front door, arms crossed across her chest as she eyes you. Her lips are twisted into a disgusted snarl, youâve never seen her this upset before.
You swallow the lump in your throat, âFind out about what?â
She cocks her head to the side, squinting her eyes at you. âDonât act like you donât know.â
Fuck, youâre screwed. If there were a list of all the reasons why you shouldnât have had sex with Jeon Jungkook, the simple fact of him being your best friendâs brother would be number one.
With closed eyes, you let out a relieved sigh. As much as you wanted to wait to tell Somi about hooking up with Jungkook, itâd be an enormous weight off your shoulders not having to hide it any longer. Itâd only been a few days since it happened, but you really hate keeping secrets from her.
âHowâd you find out?â You question, chewing on your bottom lip.
âMy parents told me, duh.â
Holy crap, Jungkook told his parents the two of you had sex? Why the fuck would he do that?
âThey did?â You ask, completely bewildered.
âWell, yeah!â Somi finally uncrosses her arms, demeanor completely changing as her gaze softens, âWhy didnât you tell me your sister got engaged?â
Thank God you didnât elaborate any further.
âOh! Because they probably arenât gonna last.â You respond, stepping into the Jeon household once Somi allows you to enter. Itâs been a few days since youâve been here, mostly due to the fact that you were completely avoiding Jungkook.
The empty condom in his trash bin had been plaguing your mind nonstop, you could barely even sleep from how embarrassed you were. Why did he fake his orgasm? What if he didn't fake an orgasm and just shot a blank? Did you do something wrong? Was he not attracted to you? Why was the condom empty?Â
Seeing him in person wouldâve only intensified the thoughts roaming in your head, so you avoided him at all costs up until now. Youâd promised the Jeon siblings that youâd finally see Twilight with them and their friends despite not being able to function correctly around either of them.Â
Somi snickers, following you into the living room. âOoh, thatâs not nice.â
âItâs true, though,â you explain, âsheâs still so young, only a few years older than your brother. I mean, can you picture Jungkook getting married in a few years?â
The regret from that question fills you almost immediately.
âSure,â Somi responds, pausing to greet the eager doberman charging at her. âAs long as he finds the right person. Heâd get married in a heartbeat.â
You want to ask what Somiâs definition of âthe perfect personâ would be for Jungkook or the type of girl sheâd be willing to set him up with. Itâd probably be the unnamed, mysterious redhead you recently dreamed about curb stomping (yikes!).
You donât respond to this, taking a seat on the sofa when the sudden shout of your name has you flinching. Itâs Somiâs parents, excitedly greeting you with open arms as you politely stand to properly hug them. âI feel like itâs been so long since weâve seen you! Howâs your family? We just heard the news about your sister!â Mrs. Jeon ambushes you with questions, all while cradling your face.
âAbout how sheâs making the biggest mistake of her life?â You half-joke.
Mrs. Jeon playfully waves a hand in your direction as she steps into the kitchen, her husband only a few feet behind. âOh, donât say that. Iâm sure the two of them will be very happy together.â She turns to her husband, grabbing his hand, âI just canât believe Imogen is getting married. I still remember when she first started high school.âÂ
Mr. Jeon sighs in disbelief. âI know,â he mumbles, nodding at you. âYouâre up next soon, huh?â
âMaybe she can marry Jungkook,â Mrs. Jeon comments, opening her fridge, âset him straight.â
âGross, Mom. Donât wish that on her.â Somi groans in disgust as she plops down next to you.
Well, that answers your previous question.
âWe should probably get going, right? To make it in time for the trailers?â You ask.
âYeah, we should.â Somi responds, tilting her head up towards the staircase, âJungkook! Hurry up and come downstairs! Weâre ready to go!â
âGimmie a minute!â He shouts back, and a chill runs down your spine. Itâs been too long since youâve heard his voice. The last time you saw him, he was lying naked in his bed; youâre not sure how youâll survive being around him all night knowing what your last encounter was like.
As promised, Jungkook is sliding down the staircase a minute later and nails the landing. Heâs wearing a black Twilight shirt featuring the leading couple, black cargo pants, and, of course, black sneakers. He looks like his usual self until you take a closer look and notice the reddish-black eyeshadow that decorated his eyes. It wasnât much, just enough to make his eyes pop, and it complimented him perfectly. A second later, you see the black nail polish neatly coated on his nails. You have to blink a few times to ensure this is real life and youâre not trapped in a wet dream.
He strolls into the kitchen, ignoring the stares from his parents before digging through the fridge. His mom clears her throat, crossing her arms at him.
âWhat?â He asks, retrieving a two-liter Mountain Dew bottle.Â
âSeriously, Jungkook? The makeup? The nail polish?â She questions, clearly frustrated.
Jungkook cocks his head, unscrewing the soda bottleâs lid. âWhatâs wrong with it? Somiâs wearing the same thing.â
âSon, you know thatâs different.â His father interjects.
Jungkook takes a swig of the soda before responding. âWhy? Because sheâs a girl?â
âItâs not like that, hon. Itâs justâŠwe didnât make a big deal of it when you first started the piercings, and the tattoos, and the hair dye, but thisâŠitâs a little much. Donât you think?â His mother asks.
You want to step in and remind his parents that Jungkook is old enough to make his own decisions and express himself as he pleases, but itâs not your place. Instead, you cheer silently when Somi surprisingly interrupts the discussion. âDid you guys seriously force him to come back home just to criticize how he presents himself, or would you rather have a peaceful summer?â
âWe arenât trying to criticize him, Somi. Weâre just looking out for our child.â Mr. Jeon responds.
âItâs a special occasion, Dad. Is it bad that I wanted to look nice forââ Jungkook abruptly cuts himself short, quickly glancing in your direction before returning his attention to his parents. â...to go see Twilight with my friends?â
What was that about?
Silence passes, and the three stare at each other until Mrs. Jeon sighs defeatedly and says, âNo, thereâs nothing wrong with that, sweetheart. I hope you guys enjoy the movie.â
âWe will,â Jungkook responds, closing the soda bottle lid and placing it back in the fridge. He heads for the front door, beckoning you and Somi to follow behind. Heâs eager to leave the house, quickly swinging the front door open and jogging towards his car.
You and Somi say goodbye to her parents with a promise to be home by eleven before following in Jungkookâs footsteps, who already has the car running. As you wait for Somi to finish locking the front door, Jungkook rolls down his window and shouts, âHurry up! Letâs go!â
âWill you calm down?!â Somi throws back, rolling her eyes as she finally removes the house key from the lock.
You follow her towards Jungkookâs car, sliding into the backseat as you pretend not to notice Jungkook watching you through the rearview mirror. He wants you to look at him, but you refuse, busying yourself by buckling your seatbelt and convincing Somi to do the same. Once Jungkook is convinced youâre not going to do so much as glance at him, he puts the car in drive and pulls into the road.
Somi talks your ear off in the backseat about whatever comes to mind while you keep your eyes on the window. Itâs hard to not notice Jungkook glancing back at you through the mirror at every red light or stop sign, but you donât dare meet his gaze.
The movie theaterâs parking lot is crowded when you arrive; it takes Jungkook a few minutes to eventually locate a spot. A smile is plastered on his face as he parks the car, eager to see some of his closest friends after being separated for months. He informs you and Somi to disregard anything foolish he friends may say, claiming they arrived early to smoke behind the movie theater, so theyâre more than likely too high to function properly.
Jungkook shrugs when Somi asks why people do that, shoving his hands into his pockets as the three of you approach the theater entrance. "Some people say it makes the movie experience better."
You want to ask Jungkook if he's ever been high, but you can barely even bring yourself to look in his direction, let alone ask him a question. So you're silent as the three of you enter the movie theater, instantly spotting Jungkook's bandmates in the far corner.
Well⊠Jungkook's bandmates and one other guest.
The bubbly redhead greets you guys first, running up to Jungkook with open arms as if they haven't seen each other in a million years. It makes you want to vomit.
You look away as they hug, directing your attention to the concession stand employee who had already been watching you. His name tag reads 'Beomgyu,' and he resembles a younger version of Jungkook, with the same dark hair and similar lip piercings. His eyes stay on you until a customer blocks your path, and you're back to watching Jungkook reunite with his friends.
"Hey, you were the one at that party, right? With Somi?" The redhead asks, squinting her eyes at you.
"Yeah." Is all you respond with, because why in God's name is this girl talking to you right now?
"It's nice to meet you. I'm Scar," she introduces herself, extending a hand for you to shake.
Somi interjects, grabbing ahold of your wrist while glaring at Scar. "Your name is Scarlett."
She drags you along to the ticket booth, mumbling about how she doesn't like nor trust Scar. When you ask for her reasoning, she responds with, "I don't need one. I just don't like her."
At least you're on the same page about that.Â
Still, you can't help but wonder why Somi has a distaste for Scar. You have your petty reasoning for disliking her, but Somi (more than likely) has better knowledge of Scar's personality, so whatever reasons she dislikes her could be legitimate.Â
You're thinking of this as Jungkook orders the tickets for everyone, asking the employee to give him a minute when the friend you recognize as Yugyeom starts tapping his shoulder. "We should go see Saw instead; it just came out."
Jungkook looks genuinely confused at the suggestion. "What? No, we came here to see Twilight."
"So?!" Jaebeom chimes in, eyes red as the devil, "Come on, dude, you've already seen Twilight. Don't you wanna see something new?"
"Fuck no, we're literally in the middle of buying the tickets." Jungkook reminds everyone.
"I kinda wanna see Saw, too."
"Same."
"Yeah, me too."
"I do, too."
Jungkook whips his head around at his sister, "What? Even you?"
Somi scoffs, "Well, yeah! Twilight just seems boring in comparison."
"Come on, guys," the employee interrupts, "you're holding up the line."
Jungkook turns towards you. "Do you still wanna see Twilight?"
Truthfully, you want to go home; but seeing how excited Jungkook was for the movie made you feel something, so you nod. He lets out a relieved sigh.Â
He moves out of the way to allow his friends to buy their tickets first, slipping his sister cash to pay for hers, which she initially rejects. "I don't need your money," she claims.
"Just take it, Somi. I brought it for you."Â
From what you can make out, it's enough to cover her ticket and grab something from the concession stand. The pair of siblings may bicker a lot, but it's nice to know Jungkook still looks out for his younger sister whenever he can.
Somi reluctantly accepts the money and purchases her ticket; you watch as Jungkook follows suit, ordering two tickets for Twilight and stopping you from opening your purse. "Don't worry about it."
"Oh, it's fine. I have enough." You reassure him.
Jungkook laughs to himself, "Why are the two of you like this?" He questions, fishing out crumpled dollar bills from his pocket and handing them to the cashier, who sighs in annoyance, straightening and inspecting each bill before placing it in his register.
You don't know why Jungkook insists on being so nice to you despite your persistence in not speaking to him. A part of you wonders if he thinks this is some kind of date now that the two of you will be separated from the group. It doesn't matter. You don't know why you're overthinking it.
Once all the tickets have been purchased, the seven of you head towards the concession stand. Somi debates pushing herself to the front of the long line, claiming that the theater should make accommodations for those whose movie is starting sooner. Or something like that, you can't really focus with the way Beomgyu is staring at you. You're used to guys always staring, but they tend to shyly look away upon making eye contact.Â
Beomgyu is quite the opposite, staring you down every chance he gets. Your skin feels hot, and you're suddenly anxious under his gaze.Â
When the group ahead of you has finished ordering and is heading off into their theater, you're sure to stick close to Jungkook as you approach the counter. Beomgyu eyes him over once before returning his gaze to you. "What can I get for you guys?"
Jungkook takes the liberty of ordering a large popcorn for the two of you to share and doesn't even get mad when you request a slushie instead of a fountain drink. He doesn't let you pay, swatting your hand away when you absentmindedly reach for your purse. "You seriously have to stop doing that." He mumbles, handing Beomgyu the cash.
Beomgyu quickly prepares the popcorn and Jungkook's drink but takes his time making your slushie. He's sure to fill it to the brim, and you're worried it may accidentally overflow and leave a sticky mess. "You didn't want candy or anything?" He questions, handing you your drink.Â
You shrug, "Maybe Twizzlers, butâ"
Before you can finish, Beomgyu is reaching under the counter and sliding you a pack of Twizzlers. "On me."
"Oh, are you sure?" You ask, hesitant to accept the free candy.
Beomgyu sends Jungkook a cocky smirk before he responds, "Yeah, enjoy the movie."
You thank Beomgyu and pretend to not notice the death glares the two boys are sending one another before walking with Jungkook to your theater. "That guy was weird." He comments.
"Yeah." You agree, but it's definitely not true. Beomgyu was friendly and clearly interested in you, unlike Jungkook, who sent you nonstop, draining mixed signals. If his definition of weird is someone straightforward, then you should start going after weirdos.
Once you're settled in your seats in the back of the theater â per Jungkook's request â he clears his throat and says, "So, I tried messaging you on Facebook. Didn't get anything back."
"Oh, sorry. I haven't been using Facebook that much." You reply, hoping your lame excuse is believable enough.
He nods, eyes bouncing between you and the movie trailers playing in the background. "Yeah, I figured." He says. When you don't respond, he continues, "I would've asked Somi for your number, but I didn't want her to get suspicious or anything."
"That's smart." You admit, nodding in agreement.
"Are you okay?" Jungkook asks suddenly, his full attention to you.
You finally make eye contact, and the expression on his face makes your heart sink. He looks genuinely concerned and confused by your sudden coldness. You hate being so mean to him, but you're too embarrassed to explain the real reason why you've been avoiding him. So you nod and say, "Just a little tired."
It's clear he doesn't believe this; the same expression is still on his face as he refocuses on the movie trailers.Â
You hate how awkward it feels to be around him now. Never in a million years would you have guessed the two of you would end up like this. A week ago, you would've been overjoyed at the idea of being on a movie date with Jungkook, and now you're considering leaving early and catching a taxi home.
The two of you remain silent as the rest of the trailers play on, and Jungkook immediately sits up in his seat when the lights finally dim and the curtains are pulled back further. He's reticent throughout the movie, aside from a muffled chuckle occasionally; he even side-eyes anyone making too much noise.
You enjoy Twilight nonetheless, agreeing with Jungkook that you do, in fact, dress like Bella Swan from time to time. When he asks if you liked it as you're exiting the theater, you tell him it was very nice and that you hope there'll be another movie.
Jungkook smiles at this, tossing his empty cup in a nearby trash bin. "I'm sure there will be. Maybe they'll even cast you as Bella's stunt double since you already have the clothes."
"Shut up." You tease, and it feels nice to joke with him as usual. You may finally have the courage to tell Jungkook why you've been so distant these past few days.
Saw doesn't get out for another few minutes, so you're stuck waiting in the lobby for Somi and everyone else. Jungkook gestures towards the nearly empty slushie cup clutched in your hands, "You get free refills on that, I think."
You take his word, strolling over to the concession stand. Beomgyu spots you immediately and gestures for you to skip around the line. You shake your head, but he still beckons for you to come over. You feel bad, but the line has gotten longer since you were first here, and you really don't want to wait in a long line just for a refill.Â
"What flavor?" He asks once you've slid him your cup.
You tell him anything is fine and he gets to work, combining the cherry and blue raspberry flavors. "How was the movie?"
"It was good. The vampire stuff was cool."
"Have you seen Saw yet? It just came out."
"No, I haven't."
"It's so good; if you wanna give me your number, maybe we can see it together sometime."
What is it with guys offering to take you out to a movie they've already seen? You're not complaining; it's just odd.
Beomgyu is clearly interested in you and has offered to take you out. You'd be silly to pass up on this guy just because your current relationship with your longtime crush is at a standstill. So you accept, scribbling your phone number down on a napkin with your name underneath. He promises to call you once his shift ends and that he looks forward to seeing you.
When you turn to meet up with Jungkook, he's gone. You catch him storming out of the theater, hauling ass to his car.
You run to catch up to him, calling out his name and begging him to slow down.
When he finally does stop, there's a look on his face that you've never seen before. He gets angry all the time, but this was something completely different. "So you were just using me, huh?"
What? What is he talking about?
"Using you for what?"
"To lose your virginity. You just wanted to get it over with, right?" His voice is slightly hushed now but still loud enough for you to feel embarrassed about anyone passing through the parking lot.
"Jungkook, what are you talking about?"
"You used me to lose your virginity, so when you date other guys you can tell them you've had sex before. Is that what this is?"
This accusation hurts, considering that Jungkook was the only guy you've ever been interested in romantically and sexually. You don't know where this theory originated, but you don't like it.
Jungkook continues before you respond, "I tried reaching out and talking to you, and you just blew me off! And yet, here you are, giving your number to random guys! Am I not good enough for you?!"
"It's not like that, Jungkook!" You don't mean to raise your voice at him, but you can't help it. Both of your emotions were at an all-time high.
"Then what is it like?!"
Here goes nothing.
There are already tears forming as you go to explain yourself. "I didn't reach out to you becauseâŠbecause I was embarrassed."
"You were embarrassed to have sex with me?"
"No!" You yell in reassurance, "No, no, no. Of course not. I was embarrassed because I know you didn't finish. I just thought maybe I did something wrong or didn't do enough."
Jungkook quirks a brow at you, "What makes you think I didn't finish?"
You really hate that he's making you explain this. "I saw the condom afterwards; it was empty."
"You went digging in my trash can to find the condom?" Now he looks more disgusted than confused; this is going so horribly.
"No! I saw it when I went to get my phone off the charger."
Jungkook takes a minute to process everything, scratching his chin in deep thought. You can't tell what he's feeling, but he does look hurt. It makes you regret avoiding him in the first place.
"So, you were prepared to never talk to me again over an empty condom?" Despite his stern demeanor, he's clearly shaking as he questions you.
You want to say no, that it wasn't a case, but you can't bring yourself to lie to him again. So you say nothing. Jungkook nods at your lack of response before turning around and walking towards his car. You remain still, frozen in place, watching as he sits on the hood of his car and smokes a cigarette.
If it weren't for Somi finishing her movie within the next few minutes, you would've walked the entire way home.
This bitch is driving you crazy.
Your older sister, Imogen, is home for a few days to start her wedding preparations. The fake bridezilla persona she's putting on bothers you the most, bursting out in tears at the most inconvenient times or having a breakdown about selecting a theme. Deep down, she doesn't care about any of this bullshit; she's like you about parties or big events.
"This is literally the biggest day of my life, and you're being so fucking difficult." Imogen snarls at you, pouring herself a cup of coffee. You're sitting a few feet away on the kitchen counter, staring out the kitchen window. Despite Imogen's occasional yelling and snarky comments, all you can think of is Jungkook.
It's been an entire week since the movie theater incident. You haven't stopped by the Jeon household not once, telling Somi you fell ill and don't want to get her sick. It's another lame excuse, but she buys it, opting to talk to you on the phone daily until you recover.
You have yet to speak to Jungkook; it's not like you've tried. The idea of messaging him on Facebook and not receiving a response makes you anxious. It's hard to believe you subjected him to the same torture not long ago. It doesn't help that Scarlett is suddenly all over his page, commenting on nearly every one of his posts, writing on his wall, or tagging him in pictures. Your recurring dream of curb-stomping her is back in full force.
You sigh at your sister, "Whatever you say, Imogen."
She waves dismissively at you, "Please, don't even talk to me right now."
You hop off the counter in annoyance and stomp off towards the staircase, mumbling, "Fucking drama queen."
"Language." Your mom warns you, flipping through one of the several bridal magazines your sister has stacked on the coffee table.
Imogen scoffs, setting her mug on the counter. "I'm the drama queen? Whenever I talk about my wedding, you throw a fucking fit!"
"Why are you pretending to care about this stupid wedding and that stupid boy you barely even know?!" You shout back from the staircase.
"If my wedding is so stupid, then don't come!"
"I don't even want to go to your stupid wedding, with your stupid fiancé and your stupid red velvet cake that no one's going to fucking eat!"
This is probably the dumbest fight you've ever had.
Imogen doesn't respond to this, advised by your mother not to and to let you stomp up the stairs in a furious rage. You make a beeline straight to your desktop, waking up the computer with a mouse shake and entering your password.
Facebook is already open once you've signed in, Jungkook's page staring right back at you. You're ashamed to admit you'd been cyberstalking him, but you had no choice. Seeing him in person would've been too much, but you still want to ensure he's doing okay.
There's a new post up when you refresh the page; you chew on your bottom lip as you anxiously wait for it to finish loading.
It's a picture of his dirty Chuck Taylor's perched upon a wooden stool. You recognize the background immediately; he's in the treehouse in his backyard. You and Somi would spend hours up there as kids, giving each other manicures and exchanging secrets; now, you can barely look her in the eye without bursting out in tears. You hate how complicated things have become.
A light tap against your door has you swiveling around in your chair. It's Imogen, leaning against your doorframe with her arms crossed. "Who's that?"
"Somi's brother." You respond, scrolling to a photo that actually shows his face.
Imogen steps further into your bedroom, squinting her eyes at the computer screen. "Oh, yeah. Hasn't changed much, has he?" When you remain silent, she asks, "Would it be wrong of me to assume he's the real reason why you're so upset?"
You sigh, letting your shoulders drop. "You'd be very correct, actually."
She nods in understanding, sitting on the edge of your bed. "So, what's going on? You like him?"
"We kind of like each other, I guess." You mumble. Honestly, you're not quite sure how Jungkook feels about you at the moment.
"And Somi doesn't approve of it?"
You snort, "Somi doesn't know. There was nothing to tell her at first, but things have changed."
"Are you guys dating?"
"No. We actually haven't talked in a week. I may have hurt his feelings."
Imogen nods towards your desktop, âWhere is he now?â
You shrug, âHome, I guess.â
She stands, stretching out her limbs. She glances around your room, locates a jacket dangling lifelessly from your doorknob, and tosses it to you. âLetâs go.â
Taking an impromptu trip to the Jeon household had you sweating. What if Jungkook doesnât even want to see you? What if Somi catches you talking and asks whatâs going on?
Each concern you raise is instantly shot down by Imogen, claiming youâre creating excuses to avoid seeing him, how youâre only imagining the worst possible scenarios. You appreciate her overwhelming support but canât help the nervousness creeping through your body as her car approaches the Jeon household.
âRemember, be apologetic but not desperate,â Imogen informs you, putting her car in park in front of the house.
âI am desperate.â You remind her.
âWell, donât let him see it. You got this.â
You thank your sister one last time for the advice before stepping out of her car. Youâre careful to avoid being seen from windows as you make your way into the backyard; not entirely sure what youâd say if Somi were to catch you.
You scale the tree quickly, silently praying the old wooden steps are stable enough to hold your weight.Â
You sigh in relief once youâve reached the top, only to groan at the sight of Scarlett sitting across from you. She looks up from her iPod with a bright smile, quickly pulling out her earbuds as you enter the treehouse. âHey, stranger! Watcha doing here?â
Her enthusiasm really makes you sick. âCame to see Jungkook,â you pause to glance around the tiny, wooden deathtrap, âbut heâs nowhere to be found.â
âHeâll be back soon; went to use the bathroom,â Scarlett informs you, running her hands through her hair. âSo, you guys really like each other, huh?â
What? She knows about that?
âJungkook told you?â You question, trying your best to appear unbothered. Youâre unsure where sheâs going with this, but you have no reason to trust her.
Scarlett nods, âWe tell each other everything. So when he told me you guys werenât talking, I may have devised a plan to help you come around. You do use Facebook, right?â She smirks
Holy shit, all the posts of them together were to make you feel jealous enough to have a conversation with him; and your sworn enemy was the mastermind behind it. It was all a ploy to get under your skin, and you fell right into the trap.Â
âYouâre a stubborn little thing, though. Didnât think itâd take you so long.â She comments, slipping her jacket on.
You shrug, âI didnât think heâd want to talk to me.â
âJungkook always wants to talk to you. I donât mind it, though. You seem good for him.â
Aside from Somi, Scarlett is probably the last person you wouldâve expected to be supportive of your relationship with Jungkook. So, to hear sheâd been secretly rooting for you behind the scenes nearly gives you whiplash. You almost feel wrong about your dreams of shoving her face into the pavement.
You tuck a loose strand of hair behind your ear, âSo, nothing is going on between you guys?â
Scarlett grimaces as if you deeply offended her, âOf course not! Donât get me wrong, heâs cute, but not my type. His sister is cute, though.â
Woah.
âSomi? Jeon Somi? Youâre into her?â You ask, completely stunned.
âHell, yes. Hey, do you think you could set us up? Jungkook would never.â
âYou do know that Somi canât stand you, right?â
Scarlett excitedly nods, âI know, itâs kind of a turn-on.â
You hold your hands out to stop her from elaborating any further. Scarlett has surprised you in more ways than one in less than five minutes. Youâre sure any new information wouldâve made your head explode.
âIâllâŠtry my best.â You promise; not quite sure how Somi would feel about the idea of Scarlett liking her.
âFor what?â A voice interrupts, causing you and Scarlett to direct your attention to the treehouseâs entrance. And there he is, in all his gothic glory.Â
âGirl talk, none of your business,â Scarlett responds, making room for Jungkook to crawl in.Â
âFine. You keep your secrets; Iâll keep mine.â Jungkook groans, sitting between the two of you.
âWill do. Iâm outta here. Got a hot date with a box of hair dye. See you suckers later.â Scarlett waves goodbye as she exits the treehouse, reminding you of your promise before disappearing down the steps.
Jungkook clears his throat, sweeping his hair away from his eyes. "Soâ"
"I'm sorry," you cut him off, "I should've reached out and talked to you, but I was just too embarrassed and didn't know how to approach you about it. I really like you, and I wasn't using you to lose my virginity. I mean, you're the only person I've ever been interested in. So, again, I'm sorry."
He sighs, "I understand why you were embarrassed, but I promise it had nothing to do with you."
"Then what was it?"
Jungkook anxiously scratches the back of his head before he responds. "It's just thatâŠsometimesâŠit takes me a little bit longer to, uhâŠto finish."
Oh.
"Is it because of yourâŠsize?" You can't help but wonder.
Jungkook snorts, "What, you think I'm big?"
"I'm out of here." You joke, faking as if you're about to leave.
"Wait, wait, wait." He stops you, "I was only kidding. I never really thought size played a factor in it, but every guy is different. But, still, that doesn't mean I didn't enjoy us having sex. I mean, you had already finished, and I didn't want to tire you out just for my sake."
Knowing he had a perfectly reasonable explanation makes you feel even worse about spending all that time avoiding him. You want to tell him you wouldn't mind him tiring you out, that the idea excites you, but you refrain.
A beat of silence passes, and you ask, "But, I'm sure if there's something that you're really into, then it wouldn't take as long for you to finish. Right?"
Jungkook nods, "I guess."
"Then, what is it? What are you into?"
He coughs, tips of his ears turning a light shade of pink. "UmâŠI guess I'm intoâŠroughness?"
Ah.Â
"That's not a big deal. A lot of people are probably into that."
"I mean, it's fine either way, but I mostly prefer when girls are kinda rough with me. Fuck, this is embarrassing."
"It's not!" You reassure him, placing a gentle hand on his knee, "It's nothing to be embarrassed about. I appreciate you trusting me enough to tell me."
Jungkook stares at your hand on his knee before placing his own on top. You twist yours upwards and interlock your fingers, not missing the smile that forms on his face. His bangs have swept into his eyes again, and you use your free hand to move them out of the way. "It was my first time, too, by the way."
You snort, "You don't need to say that just to make me feel better."
"I'm serious," he continues, "I mean, I've gotten pretty handsy in the past, but nothing like what we did."
You shake your head, "I don't buy it. You seemed so experienced like you knew what you were doing."
Jungkook shrugs, "I mean, I'm not completely innocent. I may occasionally watch certain videos and read certain stories from time to time."
Porn and smut. Beautiful combination.
He shakes his head, "You still don't believe me; how come?"
You sigh, memories of the night before he left for college flashing in your mind. How you ran home in tears, how he only responded to Scar's comment on Somi's Facebook post. It almost hurts to think about. "The night before you left for school, there was an opened condom wrapper on your floor. I just figuredâŠyou know."
Jungkook nods at the memory. "I wasn't gonna go to the dorms the next day. I was planning on running away, that's why I gave you that bandana. After my parents helped bring my stuff to the dorms, I was gonna put everything in my car then take off."
You're having a hard time processing this information. Why would Jungkook plan on running away? What does this story have to do with the empty condom?
He continues, clutching your hand even tighter. "I only told a few people I was leaving, and there was this one girl who came over to say goodbye. She'd been really into me for a while and was heartbroken that I was leaving. We were about to hook up, hence the condom wrapper, but I couldn't do it."
"Why?" You question.
"Didn't feel right. I wasn't into her the same way she was into me. Just couldn't do it." He explains, eyes staring deep into yours. You believe him; you know he's being truthful.
"What made you decide to stay?" You ask.
"For Somi," he answers, "I couldn't just leave her like that. And for you, too."
Though you've felt it for many years, telling Jungkook you love him is too soon. But you want to, so very badly.
"I'm glad you decided to stay." Your voice is barely a whisper now as you try to stop yourself from tearing up.
He nods, "Me too."
You sit in comfortable silence for a minute, clutching each other's hands. You wish you could stay like this forever.Â
"I just realized you never told me if there's anything you're into." He points out.
You shrug, "Just you." And it's true: Jungkook is the only person you've ever been interested in. Everything he says and does is genuinely attractive to you.
He drops your hand gently, using it to tilt your head towards him, and he kisses you.Â
You're quick to cradle the back of his head as his hands snake around your waist, deepening the kiss. You move to straddle his lap, slowly pushing him onto his back. He grunts in surprise, breaking away from the kiss. "Youâ"
"Stop talking." You demand before your lips intertwine with his once again. With one hand on his chest, you reach to grab a fistful of his hair and tug lightly, earning a satisfied moan from him. You're not used to being rough with guys, but you're sure Jungkook enjoys it with the way his erection is already pressing up against your thigh.
Reluctantly, you pull away from him and sit up, staring at him sprawled underneath you in complete awe. "Alright, I'll message you my number so we can text. See you later."
"No! No, no, no. Please don't go." He pleads, holding you in place when you go to stand, "Just stay a little longer, please."
You smile down at him, fighting the urge to stay in the treehouse. "I can't. Imogen is waiting out front. We'll see each other soon, okay?" You promise, planting a kiss on his forehead.
Jungkook nods, fingers drumming against the floor as he watches you crawl out of the treehouse. "Don't be too surprised if I seem extra excited to see you next time." He calls after you.
"Trust me, I won't."
Jungkook is the first boy to ever sneak in through your bedroom window.
He carelessly tosses his backpack in first, cringing when it lands on your carpeted floor with a loud thud. Though youâve assured him your parents are heavy sleepers, heâs still worried youâll get in trouble if he makes too much noise and accidentally reveals himself. âSorry,â he apologizes, wrist gripping your forearm as you help pull him in.
âItâs fine,â you whisper back, âtheyâre not gonna wake up.â
âStill,â he grunts, using his upper body strength to pull him further into your room. âDonât want you getting in trouble.â
Itâs a day after the treehouse incident; as promised, you sent Jungkook your number and spent all day texting back and forth. Despite not being big on texting, you admire how Jungkook likes to keep you updated on what heâs doing and how he checks up on you to ensure youâre okay.Â
âWeâll be fine, but just in case, I did make room for you in my closet in case you have to hide.â You inform him.
Jungkook stifles a laugh, âGood to know.â He settles himself on the edge of your bed, moving over once he realizes heâd sat on a pile of clothing. âOh, were you about to shower?â
âI was,â you answer, moving the clothing over to your nightstand, âbut Iâll wait until after you leave.â
He has to stop himself from making a joke about joining you in the shower. He nods, leaning down to drag his backpack towards him, âGuess what I got today.â
âWhat?â You question, legs folded underneath you as you sit beside him.
Jungkook slowly unzips his backpack, careful not to make too much noise before rummaging through it and clutching something in his hand. He momentarily turns his back towards you, clips something to his shirt, then turns back around.
Thereâs a name tag on his chest now with his name scribbled in black ink and a little star next to it. âA job?â
He nods, âAt that music store, Spin City. Need to start saving up before classes start. Plus, I wanna take you out somewhere nice before summerâs over.â
You gulp, âLike, a date?â
âYeah. I mean, unless⊠I donât know. I just kinda figuredâŠâ He trails off, suddenly worried he may be scaring you off.
You grab ahold of his hand, âI know, and trust me, youâre perfect, and I want us to be together. But, the night we saw you at that party, I did ask Somi if she would be upset if I was into you. Surprisingly, she said she wouldnât mind as long as I talked to her before making a move on you. And, wellâŠâ
âWe made a move on each other without telling her,â Jungkook finishes for you.
You nod, âExactly.â
He sighs, âSo, Iâm guessing that means you wanna wait before we make things official.â
âYeah. No matter what, I still want to be with you. But itâd be best for all of us to get her on board with this first. Show her how much we truly care for each other, and make sure sheâs okay with it. So she knows my relationship with you wonât affect our friendship, and vice versa.â You explain. Jungkookâs eyes never stray from yours, listening intently and nodding at everything you say.
âThatâs fair,â he agrees, âItâs a good idea. Do you want me to talk to her? Or for us to talk to her together?â
You shake your head, âSheâll definitely freak out on you; itâs best if I do it alone first, then you talk to her afterward.â
Jungkook leans back against your bed, resting his head on your pillow. Itâs funny how different your aesthetics are; he looks perfectly out of place, sprawled on your baby pink pillow surrounded by teddy bears. âWhen?â
âI dunno,â you respond, lowering yourself until your head rests comfortably on his bicep. âDoesnât have to be right away. As long as itâs before we move into the dorms.â
âWe shouldnât wait too long, though. Itâll only make things worse.â Jungkook mumbles, pulling you closer to him.
âI know. Iâll have a talk with her soon, I promise.â
You interlock pinkies to solidify your promise and ease his nerves. You hadnât realized how anxiety-inducing this was for Jungkook as well. The idea of Somi not approving of your relationship had him genuinely worried.Â
âBut, you should know that no matter whatââ he starts.
You cut him off, âI know.â
The hands that once purposely dumped slime in your hair are now tugging your panties down your legs.
âCan we try something?â Jungkook asks with a mumble against your lips, your soft blue underwear now clutched in the palm of his hand.
âLike what? I actually make you come for once?â You joke, earning a laugh from Jungkook.
âDonât worry about me.â He presses another kiss against your lips, âYou trust me?â
âOf course.â You respond, sitting up in Jungkookâs bed as he moves backward, never breaking eye contact with you. He pushes your skirt up slightly but pats your hand away when you go to remove it altogether.
âLeave it on.â He commands, bringing himself at face level with your cunt.
Youâve never felt this shy in your life, grateful your bunched-up skirt created the tiniest barrier between having Jungkook see you all flustered. Never had you been this intimate with a guy, especially not a guy you technically werenât even dating.
His thumb is circling your clit before you have the time to protest, to tell him he doesnât have to do this just for your sake, but the feeling of his fingers pressed against you has you at a loss for words.Â
âThis okay?â He asks.
âYeah.â You respond, tilting your head upwards to stare at the ceiling.
Before you know it, his middle and index fingers are pressed against your opening, eliciting a gasp from your lips. At your reaction, Jungkook slips his finger into your entrance, thumb still playing with your clit. He insists on being teasingly slow today, wanting to draw out every moment and observe your reaction. Â
He pumps his fingers in and out of you in a slow, consistent motion, an amused smirk on his lips when he hears your breathing become ragged. Abruptly, he slips his fingers out of you, moving your thighs to rest them atop his shoulders.Â
âWait, you donât have toâoh fuck.â Youâre cut off by Jungkook pushing himself forward, placing a sudden kiss on your clit that has your hips jolting in the air. His hand grabs your waist and licks at your slit, keeping you in place as he gently returns your body to his mattress.Â
His growing erection is the last of his worries, all too focused on dragging his tongue across your cunt. He flattens his tongue, pulling the wetness upward until heâs circling your clit again. In search of something to grab onto, your hands grip the bed sheets until Jungkook reaches forward, moving your hand over to grip his hair.
His eyes are closed when you look down at him, and you swear you can hear him moan as he eats you out. You try your best to keep the noise down out of fear someone will hear, but you canât help but yell out when heâs back to fingering you, all while circling your clit with his tongue.Â
Your grip on his hair tightens, pushing his face further into your pussy, and he lets out a satisfied groan. Itâs embarrassing how quickly your orgasm approaches; everything with Jungkook is so intense. He knows this, eyes fluttering open to watch your expressions. Black eyeshadow is smeared across his eyelids as his eyes focus on your own, hands gripping your thighs as he tongue circles your clit.
His fingers are relentlessly pumping into your cunt now, contrasting against how teasingly slow his tongue is moving. He pulls his mouth away, lips glistening with your arousal, and asks, âYou close?â
You donât respond directly, but the grip you have on his hair gives him all the answers he needs before heâs diving back in. It doesnât take much for you to come after that, a final kiss pressed on your clit, sending you over the edge and coating Jungkookâs fingers.
Jungkook doesnât stop there, still continuing to lick and suck your clit until youâre begging him to stop from the overstimulation.
âSorry.â He apologizes, planting a kiss on your inner thigh, âWas that good?â
âThat was literally the best thing thatâs ever happened to me.â You respond. Jungkook lets out a laugh as he crawls up next to you. âI should be upset with you, though.â
âWhat?â He questions, peppering your face with kisses, âWhyâs that?â
âI came over to talk to your sister about us, and you distracted me.â
âHowâd I do that?â
âBecause! You came downstairs in your eyeshadow. Then you were all like, âOh, hey. I cleaned my room; wanna check it out?ââ You mimic a deep voice that sounds nothing like his.Â
âI apologize for putting on eyeshadow, bringing you to my room, and eating you out. Can you find it in your heart to forgive me?â
âI guess.â
You both laugh at this as you move to pull your skirt down. âHey, howâd you realize you like it when girls are rough with you?â
Jungkook shakes his head as the memory returns to him, a shy smile on his face as he glances over at you. âA couple years ago, I was picking on Somi for something. I donât even remember why, but it got to the point where my parents were telling me to stop, and I wouldnât. Then, you just started yelling at me out of nowhere, and I donât know why, but it was the hottest thing ever. I was in awe. I really thought you were gonna slap me. Since then, itâs just been a turn-on of mine.â
âWow. Thatâs actually kind of pathetic.â You tease.
He groans, âPlease donât say that. Youâre gonna make me hard again.â
Laughter is shared between you once again before you lean your head down to rest on his chest, the sound of his steady heartbeat making you feel calm. A comfortable minute of silence passes before you have to address the unfortunate inevitable, âSomi should be here soon, right?â
âYeah,â Jungkook mumbles, âwithin the next ten minutes.â
You sigh, âNext time I come over, Iâll have to tell her about us.â
The next time you stop by the Jeon household, Jungkook has you bent over in the backseat of his car.
His finger digs into your waist as his cock is plunging into you at full force, emptying all the thoughts from your brain. You still havenât fully adjusted to his size, but you donât care; the pain of being split open makes you come faster. It feels better.
Jungkook insisted on taking things slow, telling you that youâd need to adjust to his size, but the moment you sunk your dripping cunt onto him, he was under your spell.Â
Your body lunges forward with every rough stroke Jungkook gives you, hands buried in your hair as he pulls you up against his chest. His hand moves from your hair down to your neck, tilting your head back while applying the slightest bit of pressure against your throat. Your eyes close out of instinct as tears form in the corner of your eyes before trickling down your cheeks. He kisses them away one by one before settling his lips on your neck. You make a mental note to check yourself for hickeys afterward.
Youâre coming around him before you realize it, body spasming as you grip the driverâs seat headrest. Jungkook shows no signs of stopping or slowing down; in fact, heâs sped up even faster since fucking you through your orgasm. He lets go of your neck to push down on your back, left hand gripping your waist while the right intertwines your fingers with his.Â
A few strokes later, heâs finally coming and jokes about showing you the used condom as confirmation.
You shake your head, gesturing for him to pass you the shorts heâd tossed in the front seat. âI canât believe I let you trick me again.â
âWhat?!â He exclaims in utter shock, reaching in the front seat to grab your discarded clothing, âHow exactly did I trick you?â
âI came over to talk to Somi, but then you were all like, âHey, come look at my car; I just got it washed.ââ You playfully roll your eyes, searching around the backseat for your underwear.
âCan I keep these?â He asks suddenly, the most nonchalant expression on his face as your panties dangle from his middle finger.
You scoff, reaching to snatch them from him, confused when he retracts his hand. âI think I will keep them until you talk to Somi. Since it was you who wanted to talk to her first.â
âThen, I guess Iâll get them back tomorrow because Iâm definitely talking to her today.â
Except you donât.
You spent the entire summer sneaking around with Jungkook and procrastinating about having that talk with Somi. It was anxiety-inducing, to say the least, and you had no idea how sheâd react. You tell yourself she wonât be upset as long as you assure her your friendship wonât be affected by you dating her brother.Â
Youâre scheduled to move into the dorms within a few weeks, so itâs best to sort things out now before you all live under the same roof, unable to avoid one another. Jungkook doesnât seem nervous at all. In fact, heâd given you a pep-talk the day before you showed up at their home.
âShe canât stay mad forever.â He pointed out, eyes sealed shut as you do his eyeliner.
âI know,â you mumbled, adjusting yourself on his lap, âbut that girl can hold a grudge.â
âRight, but this is you weâre talking about. You mean a lot to her, to both of us, actually.â
His words play in your mind as you enter the Jeon household, following Somi into the kitchen. âBaking something?â You ask, a sweet, decadent scent hitting your nose.
âBrownies for some stupid bake sale my parents are having. Help me clean up?â She asks, pouting her lips at you.
âSure.â You agree, under the assumption that there wouldnât be much to even clean up.Â
Boy, you were wrong. Itâs like Somi used every dish in the house to make one sheet of brownies. Thereâs no backing out now; you already agreed to help, and itâd be best to stay on her good side for now.
She gets to work rinsing each dish before handing them to you to load the dishwasher, moving quickly to get everything done faster.
âWhat a beautiful friendship.â A familiar voice comments; you fight back a smile as Somi groans at her brother.
âYou wouldnât know; you donât have any friends,â Somi responds, laughing at her words.
âNeither will you, soon,â Jungkook whispers back, groaning when you swat him in the chest. âAny brownie batter left?â
âNone for you. Shouldnât you be at work?â Somi asks, handing you another dish.
Somi takes a break from rinsing off the dishes to bicker with Jungkook for a minute. You tune out from the conversation, dipping your fingers into the leftover batter bowl and gathering the chocolate on your fingers.
âIâm leaving, Iâm leaving,â Jungkook says. When Somi finally directs her attention elsewhere, Jungkook takes the opportunity to grab your wrist, bringing your fingers up to his lips before sucking the chocolate off them.Â
Your eyes practically bulged out of your head, nervously glancing behind you to ensure Somi hadnât seen anything. You swat at Jungkookâs chest for the second time, and he laughs as if youâre being overly dramatic. Itâs odd how surprisingly calm he is about everything. His demeanor would have worried you if you didnât trust him so much.Â
Jungkook wipes the renaming bit of chocolate around his lips before mouthing âGood luck.â You give him a nervous smile, watching as he slips past Somi and leaves out the front door. You get back to work, making small talk with Somi as you help her load the dishwasher.
Itâs now or never.
âSo,â you start, âweâre gonna be living together soon.â
Somi smiles, âFinally! God, I canât wait to have some freedom. My stupid curfew is a major cock-block. Right when things are finally getting good on a date, I have to go back home. So fucking frustrating. Thereâs literally cobwebs in my vagina.â
You snort, loading the final dish into the washer. âWell, you wonât have that problem anymore.â
âI know. And maybe youâll even find someone worthy even to date you.â Somi jokes, hopping on the kitchen counter.
âUh, what if I already have found someoneâŠworthy enough?â You question, pressing a few buttons to get the dishwasher going.
âAs if.â
âSomi, Iâm serious.â
She sighs, still not buying your confession. âAlright then, who is it?â
â...Your brother.â
A beat of silence passes, and then Somi doubles over in laughter, nearly slipping off the counter several times in seconds. It takes her a minute to catch her breath, clutching her collar for support as she regulates her breathing; even tears are forming in her eyes. âHoly fuck, can you imagine? You and my brother? Jesus Christ.â
âLook, there really isnât an easy way to say this, but we really do like each other. Weâve beenâŠtogether this whole summer. Well, not officially; I didnât want to put a label on anything without talking to you about it first.â You finally confess. The weight on your shoulders doesnât immediately drop as you expected; itâs like the load has gotten heavier.
Somi has a blank expression as she stares at you, eyes darting around the kitchen as she processes the information. âYouâre serious?â
You nod.
She shakes her head, âWhat kind of friend are you?â
Fuck.
âSomi, please, let meââ
She cuts you off, hopping off the counter and inching towards you. âSo, what? All this time, you were using me to get close to Jungkook? Out of every fucking guy on the planet?!â
âNo! Of course not! Somi, I never even imagined myself in a relationship with him until this summer, I swear!â Your voice trembles as Somi approaches you. The two of you have never been in a physical fight before, but the expression on her face tells you thereâs a first time for everything.
âOh, really? You expect me to believe that, huh? So itâs just a coincidence that you guys suddenly got together right before weâre all gonna be living in the same building?â
âI know it doesnât sound great, butââ
âI think you should go.â Somi cuts you off calmly, her sudden change in demeanor shocking you. A moment ago, she looked angry enough to hit you, but now, she seems a few seconds away from breaking down in tears.Â
You nod understandably, telling Somi to take all the time she needs and to call you when sheâs ready to talk.Â
She doesnât say a word as you exit her house, and you wonder if youâve just lost the best friend youâve ever had.Â
âIâve never seen her this angry, Jungkook. I thought she was gonna hit me or something.â You groan, ear pressed up against your phone as you rant to Jungkook.
Itâd been a few hours since you left Somiâs house; Jungkook had promised to call you during his break to hear how the conversation went. Youâre still shaking as the memories flood you, how your best friend in the world accused you of using her. What a fucking joke.Â
âSheâll get over it, trust me. Yâknow, before I called you, she spent five minutes yelling at me over the phone. Five fucking minutes, and I just took it. Sheâll be fine.â He says, following up with a loud slurping noise that suggests Jungkook has chosen to have ramen for lunch.
Itâs astonishing how calm heâs managed to stay this entire time.
You flip over on the couch, head resting on the armrest as you stare at the ceiling. âI just donât wanna lose her. Sheâs a fireball, for sure, but sheâs my fireball. I donât know what Iâd do without her.â
âI just told you youâre not gonna be without her, okay?â
â...Okay.â
Thereâs a knock at your front door, most likely from the pizza delivery Jungkook had sent to your house.
âI gotta go. The food is here. Are you still stopping by after your shift?â
âOf course. You gonna be alright?â
âYeah,â you stand, making your way to the front door. âIâll save you some pizza.â
He chuckles at that, âYou better. Iâll see you later, okay? I love you.â
He what?
âYou what?â You pause, hand on the doorknob.
âI love you, and Iâll see you later.â He hangs up.
You donât have time to process his words; the knocking at your front door happens again.
Twisting the knob, youâre met with Somi staring back at you. âSomi? Whatâre youââ
âI donât care if you date Jungkook.â She claims, storming through your front door, âIf you guys want to be together, then Iâm not standing in the way. But I will not be your friend if you date him, so itâs either him or me.â
You follow Somi into your living room, your pulse quickening upon hearing her ultimatum. âSomi, thatâs notââ
âBefore you chooseâŠas a girl, and as your friend, I have to be completely honest with you.â She sighs, fingers nervously raking through her hair as she sits on your couch. âI called Jungkook after you left, and he talked to me about you guys.â
You nod, taking a seat next to her. âOkay, andâŠ?â
She sighs again, taking your hand in her own. âEverything heâs ever told you was a lie.â
Can we get a part 2 of "get off the floor" ? It was sooo good
you know what? why the fuck not.
get off the floor, m | jjk >> get on the floor, m | jjk
pairing(s):Â jungkook x reader
summary:Â You order Jeon Jungkook to get on the floor. He says, âMake me.â You make him get on his knees. The exact place he wants to be and the perfect place for him.
warnings:Â rated M (18+) for language; bratty (needy) JK; wedding guests reader and JK get a damn room because they are not-safe-for-public, traumatizing some elevator patrons in the process; public teasing; smut (fem dom!reader + sub!JK, begging, biting, marking, spit kink, f and m-receiving oral, slight degrading talk (not really), whipping JK with his own belt, cowgirl, cock-and-ball torture, edging, forced multiple orgasms) ft. a cameo of certain lil meowmeow chastising them for being horny ;)
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âMine or yours?â
You watched him run the scenarios in his head. âMine.â
âAh,â you mused. âMine then.â
He ran to catch up with your quick strides, looking just about as done with you as you had with him less than twenty minutes ago when he was laying on the floor being insufferable. Deserved. He grumbled under his breath. âWhy ask if youâre just going to ignore me anyway?â
You turned and faced Jeon Jungkook, forcing him to stop dead in his tracks and almost collide with you. His white dress shirt was barely buttoned. At least he had the decency to fasten the black vest back up and haphazardly shrug on his blazer. You looked up at him, pointedly, although it was more to fluster him with the lines of your collarbones and cleavage. Instantly wiped the frown from his expression and replaced it with the struggle to focus on your face.
âWhy follow if youâre against it?â you asked, completely blocking his path.
âIâŠâ He fumbled with his words. âIâm not.â
âYouâre not?â
You both stood in the hallway, so close to the lobby that you could hear voices. You watched Jungkook bite his lower lip, the awareness that if anyone happened to walk by â hotel staff, wedding guest, random patron â would bear witness to you slowly backing him into the wall, expression unchanging, until your chest was pressed against his chest, the smooth curve of your breasts brushing against his bare skin.
You narrowed your eyes.
âYou have another thing coming if you think you can take advantage of me,â you breathed. Slowly and with venom.
He seemed genuinely shocked. âNo way.â His youth shone through despise his mature appearance. âI want you to take advantage of me.â
You raised an eyebrow.
Jungkook seemed to realize that he blurted out his secret desires a little too loud. His ears began to singe bright red. He tried to raise a hand to cover his face. You slapped it down. He whimpered, pressing his lips together so that only you could hear it vibrating from his chest to yours. You saw his eyes dart about to check if anyone was around.
You grabbed his chin with three fingers, dragging his face back down.
Dark brown orbs shaking, his pink lips parting as you forcefully brought attention back to you. You leaned in, your lips moving against the side of his open mouth, whispering to his lip piercings.
âThen why your hotel room?â you asked rather calmly.
Hesitation. Then voices seemed to be moving towards you both. Panic. Jungkook attempted to escape your grasp, but you gripped his chin harder and shoved your torso into his, stepping between his legs to imprison him against the wall. He gasped in your ear. Hot and saturated with desire. You began to slide your thigh up between his and Jungkook couldnât speak fast enough, his hands finding your hips and trying to keep you away from his growing erection lest he lose his common sense and give in to all he wanted.
âI wanted to see you in my clothes after,â he whined, squeezing his eyes shut to avoid your stare. âIn only one of my t-shirts⊠And⊠M-Maybe we could s-share in a b-bed â please, s-stop⊠I canâtââ
You backed away.
He had not even registered your body heat left until a second later, bolting upright as a group of women turned the corner. Other wedding guests in fine dresses and holding cute colorful purses, deeply engrossed in conversation and fits of giggles, heading to the restrooms presumably to freshen up. You were already walking the opposite way, towards to lobby and the elevators.
You couldnât help but smirk as you heard Jungkook bolt into a run to catch up.
Careful of your skirt, you stepped into the metal box with a few other hotel guests that seemed unrelated to the wedding. The doors began to close. A tattooed hand smacked the edge of the metal and the elevator stuttered, opening back up again to a red-faced Jungkook in a three-piece black suit with his white dress shirt half-open suddenly confronted by a scattering of startled faces.
And your enigmatic smile.
He weakly apologized and slunk into the elevator.
Now everyone was trying not to make eye contact with you both.
You tugged on the hem of his blazer and pulled him closer to the corner. He could do nothing but obey. From this angle, the rest of the elevator couldnât see your expression due to his broad shoulders crowding you. Only Jungkook could. He, however, had a harder time of hiding, due to his height and his slicked-back black hair. The elevator carriage began to rise. You spotted him reaching up to smooth back a few stray strands in attempt to disguise previous dishevelment.
You raised your hand.
Jungkookâs dark eyes shot towards the action, warning you and mouthing, âDonât.â
You traced the line of his pecs. His jaw clenched. You broke into his personal bubble to murmur, âWhat floor was the hotel room on again?â
Confusion clouded his features. His hand slid to the back of his head. The doors were opening and a few people stepped out. The rest were subjected to the sexual tension brewing in a corner. You smiled up at him, as innocently as a trickster could. Jungkook raised his other hand, probably to point to you to wordlessly ask what floor your room was on, but you scooted forward, grazing hip to hip, causing his hand to ghost your ass. Scarlet alarm rushed to his cheeks.
Your fingertip snuck closer and closer to his nipple.
His right arm dropped hastily and he mashed the button for the nineteenth floor, trying to push your hand down, inadvertently causing your nail to scratch against his already-erect nipple.
It seemed to take everything in him not to moan.
The doors slid open to the tenth floor and another couple hurried out. You gave Jungkook the devilâs smile. He glared at you. And shifted awkwardly. You glanced down. Then back up. He was trying not to look at you while also staring down your chest. Or maybe at the bulge in his slacks.
You paused as you felt his hand settle on the small of your back.
Now when your eyes rose, his did too. Somewhat uncertain. You didnât move away. He seemed to be searching for something. You didnât have anything to hide, so you let him look. You saw his lashes lower. He pulled you slightly closer. Leaned in, still searching, and you let him approach, the edge of your lips faintly rising.
A harsh ping interrupted.
âI would tell you two to get a room,â a dry, raspy male voice cut in from behind you.
The metal doors slid open. Jungkook started, backing off, revealing the unintentional audience. Dark olive-green jacket. Black beanie with black hair sticking out from the back. Black track pants and sandals. The pale man was carrying a plastic bag that seemed to be full of ramen. He glanced from Jungkook to you. Shook his head and walked past you both, smelling like fresh-cut pine.
His cat-like eyes found yours as the elevator began to close.
âBut I assume that is what you are about to do.â
The not-so-strange strangerâs smirk disappeared as the doors shut.
The light from the panel of buttons switched only once. The doors opened again, to floor nineteen. Only you and Jungkook were left in the carriage. He grabbed your hand and pulled you out to the hallway, practically flying down the halls as quietly as he could. You were still a bit taken aback by the cat-like man who spoke with faint Daegu intonation, but were broken out of your thoughts as you saw Jungkook drop his room card, scramble to catch it from the air, succeed, and then fail to have the card reader scan it because he was pulling out too fast.
Hm.
You placed your palm in front of the reader.
His hand was shaking. He shot you a lost and frustrated glance, but you simply took the hotel key and inserted it into the slot, letting it turn green before removing it and opening the door. You stepped in, followed close by Jungkook. So close his crotch hit your ass. Subtle. The heavy door slid shut, automatically clicking. And then.
Darkness.
For a breathless second, the world was completely, utterly still.
You heard his breathing quicken, as if he finally realized the implications of everything up until now. It was easy to want, Jungkook learned, but much harder to do once the miracle came true. Perhaps that was too nice of a way to put it.
His idea of paradise was clearly not heaven sent.
You caught his hand in the dark, lacing your fingers in his to draw him away from the light switch.
Your name on the tip of his tongue before you kissed him deeply.
In the dark, he hadnât noticed your body twist, silent as a snake, slipping the hotel keycard back into one of the font pockets of his slacks, and now you gripped his hand, holding it up and out of the way as your other hand roamed his skin, sliding up his collarbone and fanning over his neck. Devouring. You swallowed his gasp and tilted your head, softly coaxing his cries as you pressed your fingertips into the sides of his neck, relishing in the solidness of his muscles and the fragility of his sanity.
âA-AhâŠâ
You turned your head and used your hand to pivot him the opposite way. His wispy moan breezed past your cheek. It wasnât quite as important to be silent anymore, but darkness had the ability to hush all, snatching vision away to amplify touch and sound. Your hand cradled his head and forced him down, your lips feathering over his cheekbone.
To his ear.
You circled your tongue, tasting the curve. Jungkookâs moan pitched. You felt him fighting his blazer as you kissed his ear, whisper light, almost noiseless, licking up his neck to feel his pulse against your tongue. Exhaled. His entire body quivered. He threw the blazer down onto the floor and grabbed your hips, almost lifting you in his pleasure, bringing more of his ear to you.
You bit down.
âOh, fuuuuckâŠâ
His fingers glossed over the slinky fabric, one hand on your ass the other creeping up your back, stroking your skin to guide delightful shimmers up your spine. He provoked you to bite his neck. You teased him with small kisses. Wet tongue, subtly writing your name onto his neck with your spit. A momentary tattoo only you knew. He was impatient, digging his blunt nails into your flesh.
You couldnât resist teasing.
âWhatâs the matter?â
His trembling breath drifted down to your shoulder.
âB⊠Bite me.â
You stepped forward with one leg, smiling as you felt him press back against you, his hardness slipping into the divot of your thigh and crotch. Too many layers of clothes. Just the right amount of not enough.
âI canât,â you hummed, running your tongue over the line of his neck muscle. âWhat if you have someone?â
Jungkook sounded a little bit offended and a lot whiny.
âThereâs no one but you.â
Before you could become giddy over that â and, anyway, nothing was stopping him from lying â you bit the side of his neck, just under his ear. And sucked.
Hard.
It was an intimacy high unmatched. Skin between teeth, digging your fingernails into his chest, dragging down, scratching him as you bruised him, feeling his embrace loosen because the bliss of pain seized him. A gasping, weak groan fluttered from his lungs, up to his throat, leaving his lips in a drawn-out, sensual song of your name, lazily thrusting up against your thigh. Sweet friction. You lashed your tongue over the hickey. Left a constellation of bites surrounding it. Jungkook whimpered, stumbling as you caught his ear with your teeth and lightly tugged, subtly repositioning your bodies.
You flicked on the light switch.
The sconces on the walls lit up in a soft, pale white glow.
You looked down and the bruises were red-purple, a lasting mark beginning to deepen in color.
Your eyes shifted and Jungkook was staring back at you, panting. His carefully done hair was getting messier with every minute he spent with you. His vest was somehow on the floor. His dress shirt was barely hanging on his shoulders, the spread collar framing the top of his tattoo sleeve. The only reason he wasnât completely shirtless yet was because the bottom was stuck in the top of his slacks. His belt was still buckled.
You smiled. He seemed flustered by it.
You placed a hand on his bare shoulder.
âGet on the floor.â
His dark eyes glittered. He couldnât help himself.
âMake me.â
Your smile became a little more sinister. He balked and then buckled when the toe of your heel hooked into the back of his knee, making him lose his balance. You pressed down, firmly, pushing him to kneeling position. Your heel clicked back onto the tile floor as he caught himself, keeping steady as he realized you were using his body to balance yourself.
Jungkook lifted his head. Eyes wide. Hair over his forehead.
You looked down at him with a devilâs smirk.
âI thought you said⊠That my suit was too expensive to be on the floor,â he mumbled in meek protest.
He tried to be cheeky with it. His deep voice fluttered like butterfly wings.
Instead of truly replying, you stepped a little closer to his spread knees. You watched him hold his breath, then stiffen as you placed your right foot on his thigh. The slit of your dress parted like liquid violet, the deep color catching the light at the high points of your hip and the top of your thigh. You removed your hand from his shoulder, thoroughly keeping him in place with your high heel, and slipped your fingers at the apex of the slit, hiking it up. The heavy scent of your arousal was inescapable. Heavy and musky sweet. His eyes dropped down at the grand reveal, then widened as you traced the edge of the leg opening of your panties.
You curved your fingers and pulled the thin fabric aside.
Jungkook was now face-to-face with your glistening pussy.
âHungry?â you teased.
His pleading gaze shot back up to your amused expression. You held it in breathless anticipation. Then you answered yourself.
âI hope so.â
Then you grabbed his head and shoved it in between your legs.
You caught a glimpse of his lips parting, pink tongue extending, and then you felt the warmth envelop you from below. His hand slid up your leg, leaving sparks after his trailing caress. Pleasure like soft petals closing in, and you rocked your hips into his face, feeling his tongue spread your folds apart and dip inwards. His wanton groan made your body vibrate. You gave in, riding his face with your head tipped back, closing your eyes. Rather than hearing the wet sucking sounds, you felt them electrify your nerves. From bud to blossoming bliss, causing you hiss with desire, crowning his head with your spread fingers and holding up your dress with the other. Jungkook tilted his head, closing in around your clit while lifting your leg on his thigh, and now the back of your knee was resting on his shoulder, the adjustment spreading your legs further and giving him the space to press his tongue flat to rub more roughly.
You moaned his name, low and seductive, and felt him shudder under you.
You leaned more of your weight on him and he received it well, holding your legs with his hands, licking, sucking, following the thrust of your hips into his face. You could feel your arousal dripping down, sticking to the inside of your thighs and his cheeks. He moaned in his chest and it radiated through your core, crawling closer and closer to the crescendo, ah, almost, your lashes fluttering, your grip on your dress tightening as orgasmic gravity began to pull you down.
âFuck, Jungkook, Iâm going to cum on your face,â you sighed out, twisting your fingers and pulling on his hair.
His muffled whimper sent you over the edge.
You set your jaw and exhaled heavily, bucking your hips into his mouth and spilling onto his tongue, electric elation clawing up your ass and back. Your body tensed up, completely focused on the surge of pleasure rippling through you, pressing your thigh against his ear. Your hand on his head slid down, holding him in place while your rode it out, smearing your release on his lips. You could, just barely, feel his piercings indenting your skin.
You almost didnât let him breathe.
Then you let go.
Your head rolled back. Opened your eyes to look down, and Jungkook shuddered, his hot breath warming your heat. He leaned in again. Kiss after kiss, his tongue sliding out and licking up, closing his eyes to savor your taste, sending tingles after the high, before slowly opening those dark orbs to look up at you. You brushed his hair back from his forehead to fully appreciate the view.
He raised an eyebrow at you.
You untangled your leg from his shoulder and stepped back, taking away his pleasure.
His hands slipped from your body. Jungkook was distraught, desperation flaring in his eyes, about to crawl after you, but your swept down, flourishing your right hand and catching his chin in your palm, tilting it up.
His lips shone with your cum.
He froze.
You bowed, disrespectfully, bringing your face to his level, breathing in the perfume of your sex mixed with his cologne. You raised an eyebrow back at him even though he was back to being frozen in awe.
âTongue-tied?â
You taunted him. Jungkook didnât have the sense or sanity to have a smartass comeback.
âTake mine,â you offered.
And tilted your head to taste yourself.
In. Out. Your tongue outlined his moaning lips and dove back in, thrusting steadily, turning the kiss messy with your release drying on his cheeks and your saliva smearing down his lower lip. You flicked the tip of your tongue just under the center. His eyes were barely open, pupils blown out, unfocused, letting you claim his lips with no regard to himself except for sucking on your tongue when you allowed it.
You heard him swallow.
His eyes rolled back, and his entire body trembled with a breathless gasp.
You drew back to admire Jeon Jungkook on his knees, his white dress shirt pooling at his wrists and waist. All tan skin, gleaming muscles, and stunning tattoos.
His dress shoes and your heels were tossed into an inelegant pile quite unbecoming of you both.
Lust did that.
âDo you have a condom, by chance?â you asked.
You gave him a little bit of shit for having one buried in his suitcase. His toiletries bag shaped with a pink bunny motif, for fuckâs sake. He tried to hide it from you, as if you would find cute offensive. Had he ever looked in a mirror? But you let him be. His occupied hands gave you a chance to free yourself from your dress. You had paid for it to be tailored to your body, eliminating the need for a bra as it was already built in. Your hotel room key was tucked into the padding of the left breast. Creativity had to happen when there were no pockets. You didnât have your phone or wallet. The wedding had a strict no-phone policy and the meal was complimentary, so you had left your personal things behind in your room. You were careful to hold onto the cups as you unzipped. The thin straps naturally slipped down your shoulders, no longer supported by the tension. The dark purple fabric slid down your body gradually with some help from a light shake of your ass.
You stepped out of it and lifted the dress up, draping it over one of the chairs in the hotel room.
You turned and Jungkook was staring at you with jaw dropped.
Hm.
He had managed to pull his shirt out of his pants. It lay on the floor, its white crispness rumpled with impatience. You pointedly glanced from the shirt to his naked chest. He held the line of condoms with one hand, the foil packaging shining in the light. Your eyes went to his face. He seemed taken aback. Suddenly nervous. You said nothing. With a tick of your head, you bent over and slid your thumbs under the sides of your bunched-up panties and glided them down your legs. Caught them in the air as you stepped out of them.
And placed them on the hotel dresser, right on top of Jungkookâs cell phone that happened to be there.
Your fingertips strayed on the edge as you face him again.
âOh, fuck me,â he whispered under shallow breath.
You smiled with the innocence you stole from him and advanced.
You wondered if he meant to say it out loud. Didnât mind his little slip-ups though. His ears reddened as you stopped in front of him. You stared into Jungkookâs eyes. He held his breath. You reached low and unbuckled his belt, gently teasing it apart and pulling from the buckle. It snaked around his waist, freed from the pant loops. The last of it fell into your other palm.
With a swift flick, you drew the buckle and end together, snapping the leather loop sharply in front of Jungkookâs chest.
âA-Ah!â
He came back to life, freezing immediately when you touched the loop to his pecs. It was a smooth grain leather. Very high quality. You grazed it over his skin. Turned it slightly as you neared his nipple, brushing the hard edge over the hard nub. He moaned in your face, biting his lip once he realized his impoliteness. You did it again. His eyelids fluttered, lowering to half-moons, clutching the condoms.
From your periphery, you witnessed his other hand sneak down to palm himself.
You turned the belt in your hands. You held the buckle with your left.
The look in his eyes was divine, craving punishment.
âYou like pain,â you whispered. âDonât you?â
Jungkook gave you the faintest of nods, sinking his teeth into the side of his lower lip, revealing the tiny mole underneath.
You smacked the smooth leather of the end of the belt into his chest.
âAnswer me.â
He hissed, clenching his jaw while rubbing the highest point of the bulge in his slacks. You let him enjoy it. You were too busy enjoying the glassiness of his dark eyes.
âA-Ah, y-yes⊠PleaseâŠâ
You slapped the leather against his other nipple. He gasped at the sharpness, ducking his head and seeing the slight red mark before you closed the distance, circling your tongue around it and making eye contact. You let your saliva drip. His breathing quickened, watching your every move. You drew patterns on his tense abs with the end of his own belt as you delicately bit down. Switched begin a light tap and a hard spank, all the while kissing his chest. You folded back the belt in your hand so it was easier to use the one end, alternating hits over wet skin and dry skin. His heartbeat raced under your lips. He let out a soft mewl, and then immediately tried to cover up such embarrassing noises, only to be reduced to puppy whimpers as you repeatedly smacked his nipple before roughly sucking on it.
At this point, Jungkook was practically humping his hand.
âTake it off.â
You warmed his shivering torso with your harsh command.
âStroke your cock while I abuse you.â
Jungkook whined, incomprehensible. He was already doing his best to undo the button. You heard the zipper go down as you straightened. You whipped the belt over his bunched pecs. He gasped, almost a scream, shoving his slacks and boxer briefs down together. You had about a half second to appreciate how hard and how red he was before he wrapped his hand around his girth, his eyes nearly rolling back into his head, and he began to fuck his hand.
His pants didnât even have time to fall down his thighs.
You did exactly what he wanted.
Licked up his chest. Spanked across the red trail, leaving a reddened mark. You did not give in to the adrenaline, keeping each hit within measured force, switching between hard and soft, not allowing him to become desensitized. The pain was unpredictable. The contrast made each loud slap seem worse than it was. His skin turned red. His eyes glazed over. His head tilted back slightly, the volume of his moans rising, his body rigid. You wondered if he knew that would help disperse the pain, but didnât ask. The desperate lust was making him drunker than the alcohol he had consumed earlier.
The muscles of his neck tightened.
âDonât cum,â you warned.
âP-P-PleaseâŠâ He seemed on the brink of losing it. âDonât⊠d-do thisâŠâ
You waited until the last second.
Then you shifted the belt in your hands, holding onto both ends, and tucked the loop under his balls, forcefully tugging upwards.
âDrop it.â
He obeyed instantly despite the tears on the edge of his eyes. The heavy weight of his hard cock struck the belt, dipping it down. You lifted the leather to fully cup his shaft and, while holding his terrified, eager gaze, slowly crossed your hands over, trapping his cock in a makeshift leather ring with his belt.
His cock throbbed so strongly that you felt it almost dislodge your work of art.
You raised an eyebrow.
Jungkook panted, waiting for your next order.
You glanced at the dark red-purple tip. It was shiny with pre-cum. Your gaze raised. His eyes were begging yes. His mouth kept up the act.
âN-No, donât⊠pleaseâŠâ
âTouch it,â you murmured with the sweetness of a succubus.
His fingertips ghosted the sensitive skin and he almost buckled, shaking his head. You kept your grip on the belt, preventing him from lowering too much. If he wanted to escape you, all he would have to do was back up. But Jeon Jungkook did not want to escape you. He wanted to stare into your eyes and tease the leaking head of hic cock, shuddering and melting under the heat of your gaze, his body surrendering, subservient to your sublime, stinging conquest.
His hips were slowly thrusting.
His palm was against the tip, using the dripping pre-cum to stimulate himself as his fingertips rubbed along the underside. His lashes fluttered, doing his very best to not look away from you while also almost hitting the high of rolled-back eyes. The strong scent of his pre-cum and your arousal mixed together, saturating the air with pure sex. You took in every detail of his face, witnessing his fall to orgasm.
Almost.
You relaxed your hold on the belt.
âFuck!â
Jungkook bit back his tongue and shot you his most helpless, longing expression. Probably two beats away from pleading you to whip his dick if only for the mere chance of release. It almost worked. Those big eyes truly were your downfall. You forced yourself to step away with a slow exhale, dropping the belt with a clunk and pointing to the bed.
âLay on your back.â
You barely got the words out of your mouth. Jungkook nearly ripped the clothes off his body. You might have heard a seam pop. You pointed to the row of condoms in his hand and didnât have the chance to ask before he separated one and ripped it open. On one hand, you wanted to reprimand him. On the other hand, the situation between your legs was getting rather dire.
You, too, were losing patience.
You stood on the edge of the bed, carefully observing Jungkook.
Those eyes trusted you a little too much after you whipped his chest red.
You decided to trust him too.
Slid onto the bed, crawling forward with immoral intention. In between his legs. He hesitated just before putting the condom on. You breathed out over his twitching cock. He whimpered. You loved it. Your tongue extended. With each throb, the head hit the flat of your tongue, transferring strings of spit down his length. His eyelids fluttered. You closed your lips around his hot, thick cock, unable to resist a taste, pressing him to the back of your throat, already addicted to the way he filled your mouth. You thought about edging him again but your pussy was pulsating with need.
You lifted your head, whispering darkly against his wet, shuddering cock.
âFuck me.â
It was almost a growl.
The condom rolled down and you straddled him for the second time that night, using two fingers to hold him steady before sinking down, arching your back at the slick, full feeling of his cock entering you. It was a long-awaited reward, almost making you dizzy from the finality of it. Both of you moaned in unison. His hands found your thighs, kneading them, and you could feel him watching you, drinking in every detail with his eyes as you sank down, locking your hips to his.
Your gazes connected.
You couldnât resist.
âSay please.â
His brows knitted together. You clenched around him. The defiance was instantly erased, replaced by submission.
âA-AhâŠ! PleaseâŠâ The way your name dripped from his panting mouth was intoxicating. âPleaseâŠâ
You rolled your hips into his with a firm smack.
The pleasure was glorious, direct, shooting through you from below. You drew up and thrust him back into you, again, and again, your breathing laboring as you rode him, drawing him and you to the abyss of lust. His gaze lingered on your bouncing breasts and he reached up, unsteadily, intoxicated on this feeling and refusing to sober up, sinking his fingers into the soft curves. You exhaled hard, blood tingling, moaning softly as his thumbs ran over your hard nipples, rubbing them in time of your rhythm. His fingertips were rough in the most arousing way, adding to the sensations amplifying each other, and so you let him touch you all over, feeling the edge of your lips tick upwards as your orgasm neared.
âI told you to fuck me, Jungkook.â
With half-moon eyes and a drawn-out moan, his hands slipped down your sides. Grabbed your hips and thrust up, making you both gasp. Hard. Slow. You pushed back down and both of you built to a brutal pace, your hands on his abs, digging your nails into hard muscle, and Jungkook was losing his mind, throwing his head back into the pillow, dripping sweat making his hair stick to his forehead. Your core burned, chasing the high, your back arching as well, matching each loud obscene smack with a satisfied cry, closer and harder and skipping breaths to withhold the faintest bit of oxygen.
Searing tension overcame your thighs.
You moaned to the ceiling and came all over his jerking cock, his groan pitching to a whine as he was suffocated by the spasms. You felt your pussy pulsate, dragging you into wave after wave of blistering bliss. The exertion had rendered you airless, gasping, squeezing Jungkookâs hips with your legs while you felt his grip on your ass tighten, sinking his spread fingers into the softness.
You froze, suspended.
Dying that little death.
You were still for a good thirty seconds. His cock throbbed inside you. You lowered your head, drifting down, down, meeting a fucked-out expression and unfocused gaze.
You smiled.
There was something so dangerous about it that it broke Jungkook from his reverie.
You lifted yourself off him, causing his length to slip out with a wet slap to his lower abdomen.
âW-WhatâŠ?â
You made sure he saw you do it. Your hand extended, rolling up and he begged, âO-Oh, d-donât⊠Please, youâre c-crazyâŠâ and paying his words no mind as you dropped the used condom onto his stomach. You wrapped your hand around his slippery, sensitive cock covered in lube and cum.
Held him in panicked anticipation.
âSay it,â you demanded sternly. âYou know what you want.â
The reality of his fantasy devoured him, and Jungkook desperately moaned.
âPlease jack me off. Hard. Fast. Donât stop.â
You gripped tightly and let the adrenaline flow. Power surged through your veins as he flinched, groaning into the pillow, his fingers digging into the sheets. His shaft felt hot, slick, stiff. You kept up an intense, harsh pace, and Jungkook cried out, almost thrashing, loudly whining as he came again. Cum pooled at the purple-red head, foaming as you continued, rising to press your knee to his lower ribs, holding him down. He was losing his mind, too oversensitive, whining, âPlease, one more, o-oh fuck, f-fuck, please,â and you reached between his legs, tactfully pinching his scrotum and pulling on his balls with just the right amount of measured force.
Jungkook howled and slammed his head back into the pillow, thrusting up into your hand and orgasming so hard his own scream was cut off.
You ceased all movement.
His throbbing cock shivered and spat out a dribble of white that pooled around your fingers. You relieved his chest from the pressure of your knee. He coughed, sucking in greedy inhales, grabbing your calf as you dismounted. You turned your head. He was incredibly sweaty. His chest was tight. He looked like he had run a hundred kilometers.
Or like you just run him through.
You raised an eyebrow at him.
âI-Is it c-crazyâŠâ Jungkook panted, staring into your eyes. âThat I⊠Want you to d-do that again?â
There he goes again with his antics.
âYou really are a pain slut.â
His lips curved into a daredevil, open-mouthed smirk.
âI like that about you.â
His ears flustered red at your compliment. You held his stare there for another uncomfortable second â on his part â and then looked down at the messy, drenched sheets before finally returning to his face.
âYouâre sleeping on this side,â you declared, sliding off the edge of the bed to wash your hands.
You spotted his open suitcase on your way to the dark bathroom. It was crammed with clothes. You bent down to pick up one of his t-shirts, a white Calvin Klein, slipping it on over your naked body. Flicked on the light and turned your head to glance over your shoulder.
Jungkook was staring at you from the bed. Big eyes wide. Jaw slack. Black hair messy and all over his sweaty forehead. Naked and oh-so-very hot and perfectly enthralled by you while also being head-to-toe trouble for you, specifically.
Yes, you thought, Iâll keep him.
You smiled with a different kind of genuine pleasure and stepped into the bathroom, hearing the hotel bed fly into disarray as he chased after you.
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drabbles masterpost | masterpost
Pairing: Jungkook x reader
Genre: co-workers to lovers, smut
Summary: You've been working (and flirting) with Jungkook for months now, waiting for him to make a move. When he does, it's not the move either of you expected but it opens the door for you both to get exactly what you want.
Word count: 12.2k
Content: oral sex (f. receiving); unprotected sex; (very) soft dom!JK
A/N: So this started with a request for, iirc, Jungkook coming across reader asleep and her asking him to stay or something like that, and then I wrote two more parts to it lol I have obviously combined them all into one fic here.
Your ability to sleep anywhere was legendary, almost to the point of concern. Youâd had the tests â your thyroid was fine, your iron levels were good, everything checked out ok â you just had an extraordinary skill of dropping off anywhere and everywhere. Youâd never known a bad nightâs sleep nor ever turned down an opportunity to nap. Sure, there are more impressive talents, but your preternatural predilection for passing out in odd spots did come in handy. Â
There you were, head on your hand in front of the computer, your right hand still covering the mouse, your notes scattered all around you. Your head nodded slightly and you flinched but didnât wake up. Jungkook stood watching you for a minute, shaking his head. He wondered how much time you actually spent sleeping in bed as opposed to literally anywhere else. He knew you often slept on the sofa having fallen asleep working or reading or watching TV. He knew you slept on the floor more frequently than was altogether normal, claiming it was âgood for [your] backâ, even though you could afford a decent mattress quite easily. He swore he once saw you sleeping standing up at a party, leaning against the wall in a dark corner. You protested and said of course you wouldnât have fallen asleep at a party â not least because it wouldâve been rude â but he was not convinced. Heâd never met anyone who liked sleep as much as he did, who slept as deeply as he did, let alone more. Â
He liked it. An odd quirk from an otherwise altogether adult: you were successful, confident, popular, happy, fun etc. You seemed to move through life with ease, despite what it threw at you. You moved with grace and lived with peace in your heart. Maybe that was what enabled you to sleep so easily. Itâs certainly what enabled Jungkookâs enormous throbbing crush on you. He admired you with every inhale and was almost intimidated with every exhale. You sparkled in his eyes and in his heart. He felt himself growing into a better person just by being in your presence; he wanted to learn everything you had to teach. Â
When you had first met, you were tickled by his shyness. Such a bold performer, such a famous man! And yet such a sweet, little thing telling you how pleased he was to meet you. Heâd thought heâd largely got over his shyness; he wasnât always comfortable with new people or in front of a crowd, but he never let it show. He met peopleâs eyes with a confident smile and smothered his anxiety with reassuring platitudes. But your aura shone so bright, it knocked him off-guard. He stumbled through his introduction and suddenly felt 16 again. You were gracious and funny and so at ease; he felt like an awkward schoolboy. But before too long, he realised that his anxiety had disappeared, replaced with the warm glow of your attention. You were what he wanted to be. His feelings for you were a foregone conclusion. Heâd been desperate to work with you again and again and again, trying not to bring up your name too often, lest he reveal himself (heâd neednât have bothered, literally everyone already knew); then, as he felt the waves of his heart coming up around his ears, he suddenly panicked, he couldnât work with you again! He couldnât let you know how he felt! He dared not. But, was it not a worse fate to not see you again? Â
The meeting after his feelings had come to his attention was, in his mind, a disaster. He forgot words in English and Korean; he couldnât concentrate; he couldnât not blush every time you looked his way. His heart throbbed throughout the entire 60-minute meeting and he left the room exhausted, sweating prickling his scalp and pooling in his palms. Heâd felt such a fool, such a little, lovestruck boy; youâd never see him as a real man, not now. Â
Little did he know. You were charmed by him when you first met; admittedly, you didnât think more of him than that to start with. He was sweet and earnest and â though you hated to admit it now â a little bit try-hard. You hadnât really taken him seriously. But they kept bringing you back in and, as you got to know him, you saw how much deeper his waters really ran. The fierce grit in this soft, little boyâs heart surprised you; his assertiveness and confidence in himself turned your head. As he argued, one meeting, passionately defending his suggestion, maintaining a perfect balance of the cocksure certainty and deferential politeness, you felt your heart grow. You watched him, a smile spreading on your face, realising too late that you had stopped listening to him, hearing only the blood roaring in your ears. Working with him after that had been even more fun. You loved to flirt with him, just subtly enough that you maintained plausible deniability, and you would see him stutter, watch him get a little hot under the collar. You knew he wasnât seeing anyone and you didnât see any harm in it. You werenât about to make the first move â not with an idol â but you did what you could to let him know that he could. The longer this little flirtation went on, the less sure you were that he might return your feelings, but until or unless he outright rejected you, you were going to carry on having your fun. Â
It had been a long day and, though working hours were technically over, you were still sitting at your desk, tapping away. Why was it that the most tedious of tasks were always the longest? You yawned dramatically; does it count as a nap if itâs already 9pm? You figured probably not, but when had that ever stopped you? Resting your head on your hand, you closed your eyes â âjust five minutes,â you told yourself. Â
It was never just five minutes. Â
Sighing and shaking his head, Jungkook approached you quietly. Ever so careful, he pulled your chair out from under the desk and bent down, sweeping you up in his arms. There are very, very few benefits to the compulsively workaholic culture of South Korea, but beds in the office was definitely one. He carried you down the hall to an empty sleeping room, opening the door with his foot, balancing carefully so as not to drop you. He tried hard to focus on carrying you gently, not jostling you or trapping and pulling your hair. He tried hard not to focus on the smell of your shampoo, or the cute, heart-shaped pout of your lips. He tried hard not to notice the weight of your head on his shoulder, the finger that had just slipped between two buttons of his shirt, your nail lightly grazing his skin. Â
You were dimly aware of what was happening, not sure if it was real or you were still dreaming. Unable to think clearly â or, letâs be real, at all â you went with it. Whatâs the worst that could happen? You heard Jungkook grunt quietly as he lowered you down onto a bed. As his arms slipped from underneath you, you found your fingers hooked in his shirt and didnât let go. You mumbled something incoherent and Jungkook froze. Like a deer in headlights, his heart was racing and he was paralysed with indecision.Â
ây/n?â he whispered.Â
You mumbled back, again inaudibly, and pulled your hand closer to you, dragging Jungkook with it. Unable to think clearly, he went with it and lowered himself down next to you. He thought he heard you say his name but wasnât sure he didnât just imagine it. He lay, stiff, beside you, heart pounding and mind racing. He didnât know what to do; he hadnât expected this. Oh, heâd thought about it, no doubt. Heâd imagined a thousand of these scenarios over the past few months, but now that it was actually happening, his head was empty. He didnât know what to do. Your hand still gripped his shirt and you shuffled, resting your head against his chest. You extended one finger and poked him.Â
âJungkook,â you breathed. âRelax.âÂ
You heard him exhale in a rush and slowly, his arm came around you and you felt him sink lower on the mattress, letting his muscles unclench. You took your hand from the front of his shirt and snaked it beneath his arm, grabbing a handful of the back of his shirt instead, fidgeting so that your knee lay between his legs. He smelt so clean and fresh and not too strong; you realised youâd never actually got quite this up close and personal with him before. You could smell his fabric conditioner and his shampoo and you wondered if heâd just brushed his teeth because his breath was sweet and minty. With your head on his chest, you could feel his heart thudding hard in his chest and you smiled to yourself; if this got him so worked up, you were no longer worried that he might not be interested. You pushed carefully, shifting yourself so that Jungkook was forced onto his back and you lay next to him, half atop him, your hand over his heart, your head on his shoulder, your leg over his waist. All he had to do was reciprocate. You were almost fully asleep again before you felt his arms wrap around you and his head loll to the side so his cheek rested against your head. Â
âThisâll do,â you thought to yourself as sleep took you away. âFor now, thisâll do.âÂ
* * *Â
Jungkook woke with a start. For a second, disoriented, he couldnât remember where he was. He shuffled away from you in a panic before it came back to him. It was you. Then the panic started again. It was you. Sweat pricked on his back and in his palms and, wiping them on his trousers, he cursed softly, an erection bulging against its fabric containment. He gulped and looked skyward, desperately wishing it would disappear. The thought of you waking up now, at this second, finding him like this, turned his blood cold. Â
What time was it? The room was pitch black so there was no seeing the clock on the wall. He was wearing a watch, but it was at the end of the arm currently trapped beneath you. He didnât dare try to extricate it. He was on his back and if heâd just turn towards you, maybe he could crane his neck and reach over to light up the watch screen to see the time. But if he turned towards you, brought his body closer to yours... He was trying to will his erection away, not encourage it. Â
He needed to calm down. This was fine. Probably. This was probably fine. You were still asleep anyway so there werenât any consequences to speak of yet; he didnât have to confront anything: you, his feelings... the HR department. He just had to calm down, relax. He took deep breaths and wiggled his toes furiously, trying to direct the blood-flow anywhere else. He had to relax, but not fall back to sleep. That was key. Â
Minutes passed, how many, he had no way of knowing. Finally flaccid, he rolled into you, straining his eyes in the dark to see his wrist, raising his other arm, trying to reach it without touching you. An impossible task. Cursing inwardly, he ran through his options:Â
1. Go back to sleepÂ
2. Wake you upÂ
3. Try to get out without waking you... And then... ???Â
Jungkook knew that number one was not an option. Even if he had wanted to, he knew sleep wouldnât come again. He considered himself lucky that he awoke, randomly, before you. If you had woken first, what would you have done? He didnât know, couldnât even make a guess but he didnât want to. He might not have had any idea what to do, he might be lying there in torment, but at least it was his decision to make. You made him so flustered; he needed these moments to himself, to compose himself, to work out what he wanted, to consider the possibilities. You were always acting, always doing, and he didnât have enough time to think around you. Â
For that reason, number two was also not an option. He couldnât wake you. Not yet. He still needed time. It felt like you had crossed a line now, the two of you; things were different. This meant something, he was sure of it, but what exactly it was, he didnât know. He knew what he wanted, but he was scared of it, too. Dating within the company wasnât prohibited â a futile endeavour at best â but it was prohibited for idols to date staff members. You technically werenât a staff member because you were a contractor, but didnât that still make you an employee? Of sorts? Â
You sighed in your sleep and drew him back to the present moment. No, he couldnât wake you. He could make out the barest silhouette of you in the darkness, could still smell your hair, feel it on his arm, on his cheek. He sighed and chuckled to himself; you were easy like this, he thought. He never got the opportunity he wanted to just revel in your presence. He had to be there, always on, when you were around. He wanted to drink you in, but you moved so fast, you winked at him when he wasnât expecting it, or touched his shoulder or, god, gave him praise, and his brain short-circuited, needed a reboot. By the time he was back in the room, the moment had passed. Now, though, there you were: silent, still, so close. Â
He ran a hand above you, tracing your body in the air with his finger: the peak of your shoulder, the low slope into your waist and soft, round rump, disappearing into nothing, your legs tucked forward in front of you. He imagined touching you: a kiss on the shoulder, an arm around your waist, his leg cocked between yours. He turned his head, his nose buried in your hair, and cursed violently to himself, his cock stirring in his pants again. Â
He had to get out of there. Option three it was.Â
Taking another couple of minutes to gather himself, he slowly, painfully slowly, pulled his trapped arm from beneath you. Not daring to risk disturbing you further, he tiptoed as quickly as he dared and slipped out of the door. Â
The light in the corridor was blinding and he screwed up his eyes, leaning back against the door, waiting for them to adjust to the brightness.Â
âJungkook?âÂ
He whipped round and his eyes were seared again as he opened them to see who was talking. Hoseok.Â
âWhat are you doing here? Itâs 3am!â Â
Jungkook stammered, mind searching frantically for an excuse. Â
âUh, oh, I just... I meant to have a nap... Overslept. What are you doing here?âÂ
âWorking.â Hoseok shrugged, taking steps towards the lifts at the end of the corridor. âNo rest for the wicked! You should go home, though, Jungkook; itâs no life sleeping at the office!âÂ
âSays you.âÂ
âAh, I know, but ⊠Do as I say, not as I do!â He laughed and disappeared into a lift, waving. Â
Jungkook was suddenly aware his mouth was dry. He needed a drink. Thatâs what he would do. Heâd go and get some water and then decide what he was going to do about... everything else. Â
* * *Â
You rolled over, imagining you were in your bed at home and, brain slowly surfacing, realising that you werenât. The room was so dark, it offered no clues. You tried to remember what had happened but you couldnât work out what was real and what you must have dreamt. You were certainly alone in the bed (if not the room), so you assumed you had imagined JK sleeping behind you. But, if he hadnât carried you, how did you get there? You raised a hand to rub your face and caught yourself, not wanting to ruin your make-up. Then you figured youâd already been sleeping in it so you rubbed anyway and then slapped yourself lightly, trying to wake up. If Jungkook had been here, where was he now? When did he leave? And was he coming back? Â
You wondered if you had pushed him too far. You liked that he was skittish with you; it was cute and you loved provoking a reaction, but was this too much? It certainly crossed some sort of line, although you werenât entirely sure which. You were used to running this little game, flirting with him so he lost his concentration, but this was all him. You didnât know what was running through his mind â then or now. You felt like it had to be him to make the next move, but would he? What would it be?Â
You sat and fumbled for the switch, the bedside lamp suddenly shining. You looked away, opening your eyes slowly, letting them adjust to the light. You could now make out the clock on the opposite wall â 3am? You groaned. This was certainly not what you had planned. Itâs also really not how youâd have wanted your first night spent with Jungkook to go. You wondered where he had gone. Maybe you really had imagined things and he had just put you down and left. But then you recalled the scent of his fabric conditioner, the warmth of his body below you. It was too real to have been imagined. Â
You waited a few minutes, you werenât really sure what for, and then stood to leave. You remembered with a start all of your belongings â where were they now? Had Jungkook tidied them away somewhere? Had someone else? It was unlikely that theyâd have been stolen, but anything was possible. You muttered under your breath, cursing your earlier self.Â
âJust five minutes, my fucking arse.âÂ
You opened the door and immediately shut it again. Why did the company keep so many lights on all night? What was the point? Was there anyone besides you even in the building? You closed your eyes and opened the door, taking time to open both fully, allowing your eyes to adjust. Then you headed for the lifts. Â
You werenât even wearing shoes and you were sure you looked a state so you were glad it was so dead. You were relieved to go back to the office you were working in to see that everything was still there. You slipped your shoes back on first and trotted quickly to the bathroom; you might not be seen looking frightful but that didnât mean you wanted to look it. You swiped a hand under your eyes and grabbed the hair tie in your pocket, pulling it all into a messy bun on the top of your head. You returned to the office, gathered your things and headed back downstairs, asking the 24-hour receptionist to get you a car â a perk youâd not, until now, had cause to use but for which you were incredibly grateful. Â
As you were driven back to your apartment in the dead of night, you fingered your phone uncertainly. Should you text him? What would you say? You werenât due back for another meeting until next week and it felt far too far away to not say anything. You were too tired to think. Youâd just get to it in the morning. You yawned widely, thinking of your bed. Â
* * *Â
When Jungkook returned to the room, two glasses of water in his hands, he discovered it empty. He had tiptoed in, walking gingerly in case he stubbed his toes or banged into something, but when he reached the bed, he saw you had gone. He might have discounted option one and chosen option three, but he was disappointed. He knew that he had woken with a panic and floundered, worrying about what to do, but now that the options had been taken away from him, he lamented his inaction. He left the room once more and found his way back to where you had been working: empty. Desk clear of your things: notes, laptop, phone, pens, snack wrappers, mug. He wasnât sure where to go after that. The obvious answer was home, but it just didnât seem an appealing thought at that moment. Jungkook was disappointed; disappointed that youâd left, but mostly disappointed in himself. So much thinking, so much worrying that he was always missing his opportunities. Tonight had been just such an opportunity, he told himself, and once again, he had missed it. Â
He pulled out his phone and stared at it for a moment. He unlocked it and brought up your message thread and stared at it for a moment longer. He took a deep breath and held it as he typed and sent.Â
JK: Are you at home?âÂ
You: On my way. Are you?Â
He hadnât expected you to reply! I mean, of course he had, because thatâs how messaging worked but he hadnât thought that far ahead. What to say now?Â
JK: No, still at work. Did you take a car?Â
You: Yeah. You should go home soon, too; itâs late You: Well, early đÂ
JK: I willÂ
He wanted to make a joke or at least say something interesting but his mind was blank. He regretted messaging you; now you would just think him boring. He hit his forehead with his phone a few times and sighed. Maybe it was home time. Go to bed, get some rest, itâll all look better in the morning etc. etc. He called another car and left. He didnât bother collecting his things; heâd be back in less than six hours anyway. Â
He sat in the car, staring at his phone, willing you to message again, acknowledge what had happened, make a joke, say anything. But his silent pleas didnât meet you and his phone remained lifeless. Â
* * *Â
It had been a long week. You hadnât seen Jungkook, nor had you spoken to him. You carried the tension around with you everywhere; you couldnât concentrate; you made mistakes at work, which never happened. For the first time ever in your life, you couldnât sleep. Every time you lay in your bed, you remembered his warm body and it turned you cold. You remembered lying so close to him on that tiny bed made for one and your own bed felt like the Pacific ocean; you were drowning in it. You passed someone on the street wearing Jungkookâs cologne and you almost turned to follow him. No one had ever put you off your game like this. It wouldnât do. Whatever he had started had to end. Â
The day finally came when you were due back at the office. A whole team meeting this time, not your favourite on any occasion, but especially not now. You knew Jungkook would be on time or late, but not early when you really needed him to be. You werenât sure how youâd be able to get through the meeting with him there, on the other side of the table (the same side?), looking at you, talking to you. You rolled your eyes at yourself that, all this time, youâve been teasing him, flirting with him, enjoying making him flustered, and all it took for him to turn the tables was... almost nothing. Lying together. The smell of his shampoo, the soft wash of his sweet breath against your cheek, his heavy arm across you. He had done more to unravel you by doing nothing than you could ever have hoped to do to him, using all your charms and wiles. Â
You needed to regroup so you found an empty bathroom, with five minutes to go, and gave yourself a good talking to. A quick, sharp slap, one cheek, then the other, a quick power stance, and a final once-over in the full-length mirror to remind yourself that you are a confident, capable, sexy woman who can do whatever the fuck she wants and wonât let anyone, any man, get in the way. Â
You stormed to the meeting room, full of bluster, and took your seat, breathing a small sigh of relief that he hadnât arrived yet â at least you got to settle in first. Â
Then the meeting started and the chair rattled through the apologies: first up, Jungkook. Your head snapped round at the mention of his name. He wasnât coming? You had been dreading seeing him again, but... not seeing him again? You couldnât focus on that now. You had work to do. Â
When the meeting ended (and it had gone very well, thank you very much), you suddenly felt the full force of Jungkookâs absence. It wouldnât do. You had to put a stop to this. You cornered his assistant (who was there to cover for him) and asked where he was. She looked like she didnât want to answer, but the moment passed, and she let you know he was in a meeting for another hour, two floors up. She didnât give you the room number, but that was fine. Â
You made your way to the right floor and, for possibly the first time, you were pleased that every single new building in the world seemed to be made of 90% glass. You peered surreptitiously into meeting rooms until you spotted that oh so familiar back of his head. Then you found an empty room in view of it and sat and waited. As soon as you saw them all stand to move, you did the same. Â
âJungkook!â Â
He span and looked surprised to see you, his mouth hanging open.Â
âDo you have a minute?âÂ
His mouth stayed hanging open and he blinked, like a deer in headlights. You gestured to the room you had been occupying. Â
âI think this room should still be free; can we talk?âÂ
He blinked again and flickered to life. He shook his head.Â
âNo... No, letâs not talk there. Um... come- come with me.âÂ
You followed him into the lift and were about to open your mouth when two others joined you. You held them back, pressure in your chest expanding; you were right to insist on this. You had to talk. You had to get this sorted. Something had changed and you knew your working relationship wasnât sustainable anymore. You cursed him; as much as you wanted him (and you closed your eyes for a moment, remembering the warmth of him around you, his soft hand over yours...), you couldnât go on any longer without touching him, without telling him. Flirting wasnât going to be enough anymore. You had to have him; you had to make him yours. Just standing this close to him and unable to reach out was making your heart race. His hair shone in the light and you imagined running your hands through it, pushing it off his face. You saw his fist clench and unclench by his side and you wanted to hold it, give it a squeeze, run your thumb across his knuckles, bring it to your lips. Your heart skipped a beat and you rolled your eyes at yourself. So much for having a job to do.Â
Jungkook led you silently down an unfamiliar corridor and showed you into a room. It was a studio (his?): one wall taken up with speakers and monitors, a huge desk with any number of buttons and boards and switches across it. Â
âI thought it would be better to have some privacy,â he said, you thought a little sheepishly, as he gestured for you to sit on the sofa. You moved towards it but stopped.Â
âNo, I donât want to sit.âÂ
âOk.âÂ
âRight. I want to establish some facts.â You would have loved to have been gentler, sweet even, but thatâs just not really who you were. âOne: you picked me up and put me to bed here last week.â Â
Jungkook said nothing.Â
âRight? You did that?âÂ
âOh, uh, yes. Not here here, but yeah here.âÂ
âOk and two you did sleep with me here-, not sleep with me sleep with me, but we... we slept.âÂ
âYes.âÂ
âOk and you did that because...?âÂ
His eyes widened again and he stuttered. That you had him flustered brought a spark to your heart, like old times.Â
âOk thatâs fine, Iâll go.â You shook your hands out and clicked your neck. âI wanted you to stay; I wanted to sleep with you so I more or less asked you to. Sleep with you, I mean, like, sleep, just- just sleeping.âÂ
âOk... I put you to bed because you looked uncomfortable and it was late and I thought you should sleep in a bed for once.âÂ
You physically took a step backwards. That was it? Was that... it? Had you read this all wrong? You couldnât be wrong. No. No time for thinking. Powering through. You were powering through.Â
âThree, you left.âÂ
âI, what?âÂ
âSometime that night, you left, right?âÂ
âOh, uh, yeah, well... I left to get some water and then you had left when I got back.âÂ
âOh... Ok. Ok, so... um... So you were coming back then?âÂ
âWell-â he paused and sighed, running a hand through his hair. He perched on the edge of the desk and then stood straight again, kicking his heel against his toe, chewing on his lip ring. His nervous energy was making you nervous, well, more nervous. The pressure in your chest was rising and you felt like you would have to do something soon if he didnât stop moving, if he didnât do anything.Â
He flopped onto the sofa heavily and looked up at you, inscrutable. You were so used to being able to see everything on his face that this unreadable gaze made your mouth dry.Â
âI like you,â he said simply. âI like you and I... wanted to be... close to you. You-⊠You...â He sighed and it came out almost like a whine. âYou make me stupid! You make me feel so... so dizzy and silly and flustered and you flirt with me and I want to flirt back with you but you turn my brain into a white noise machine and I canât do it; I always miss it. Iâm always on the back foot. I can flirt, you know, I really can, but you just... you just... You make me stupid! I canât think around you; I canât concentrate; youâre like a magnet scrambling all my signals; when youâre around, youâre north and I canât point anywhere else. And you were sleeping and I just thought, god, sheâs sleeping, I can do something for her. I can do something where she wonât see me as a stupid, brainless boy; I can take care of her... I just... I wanted to be close to you.âÂ
You hadnât expected that. It was your turn to goldfish at him, your mind buffering.Â
âAnd then I woke up in the night and I panicked.â A deep blush bloomed over his cheeks and you wondered why. âI didnât want you to wake up and- I donât know. It felt like we were in a moment and I didnât want it to end; I didnât want to ruin it. If you woke up, I would just be stupid again and I donât... I donât want you to see me as stupid anymore.âÂ
You laughed, just a chuckle to start with but then a full-throated laugh bubbled up and you couldnât stop it. You laughed until your eyes watered. You couldnât look at his sweet, sad, innocent face without collapsing into giggles. You turned around, away from him, and gathered yourself. Â
âJungkook,â you said, your voice wavering as you tried to keep your mirth in check. âJungkook.â You pulled him by the hand so he was standing in front of you and then, placing both hands on his face, kissed him firmly on the mouth. You felt him flinch a little and then he responded, his hands finding your waist and his lips moving against yours. You pulled away but kept your face close. âYouâre not a boy to me, Jungkook.â You moved your hands across his shoulders and down his arms, strong, smooth, muscular. You felt him squeeze your waist, just gently, and his eyes poured his soul out into yours. Â
âOh,â he breathed. Â
You kissed him again, softer this time, sucking his bottom lip gently, just for a second. When you pulled away, his eyes looked almost glazed and he swallowed, blinking hard. Â
âAre you an employee here?â he asked, throwing you completely. Â
You stepped backwards, out of his aura just slightly to gather yourself. You searched his face for any clues to the background of this non-sequitur.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âAre you an actual employee here or freelance or something else?âÂ
âI... Freelance.âÂ
âOh, good.â Â
âWhat does that have to do with anything?âÂ
He grinned sheepishly.Â
âIdols arenât allowed to date employees.âÂ
You laughed softly as you exhaled. Â
âI take it back: maybe youâre right. Maybe you are stupid.â Â
Jungkook squeezed his hands tight and scrunched up his face. Â
âToo late, catâs out the bag now. You canât take those kisses back even if you want to.â Â
You noticed the cocky smirk sneak onto his face and were about to try to wipe it clean off when he lowered his head and kissed you. He wrapped his arms around you, resting one hand on the small of your back, the other reaching up to brush the hair from your face. Warmth radiated from him, a trail of fire left behind wherever he touched you. You leant into him, running your hands through his hair just as soft as youâd expected. He licked your bottom lip and you opened your mouth to him, unable to stop the quiet moan rising in your throat as your tongues rolled against each other. You were lost in him, the rest of the world a quiet blur, unimportant. He pulled away, leaving light kisses on your cheeks, your jaw, and, just as he pressed his lips against your neck, your phone rang. Â
You both jumped, brought abruptly back down to earth. You fumbled with your phone and answered when you saw it was your manager.Â
âHello?âÂ
âHi, we were expecting you at this meeting; are you dialling in?âÂ
Oh fuck. Had it been that long already? What was the time? You had been so caught up with Jungkook, you had completely forgotten that this was supposed to be a normal workday, with actual work to do and meetings to attend and not just Jungkooks to kiss.Â
You apologised profusely and promised you would dial in within the next minute. Jungkook said you were fine to take the meeting in his studio; he wasnât going to be using it. He would leave you to it. As he stood with his hand on the door, he turned to you, grinning.Â
âMaybe this is why they donât let idols date staff?â Â
* * *Â
You sighed and put your head in your hands. The meeting went fine, all things considered, but when the project manager then asked you to stay on the line, in order to ask very sweet and well-meaning questions about how you were doing at the moment, you had started to sweat. Instead of using the time before the meeting to go over your notes and prepare, you had been in here with Jungkook, decidedly not working. It showed. As you span in Jungkookâs chair and took in all the details of his studio, it was decided. You absolutely had to get out of there and get your head back in the game. You took a few deep breaths, gathered your things and opened the door... Only to immediately stumble upon Jungkook, who was sitting on the floor outside. Â
âAh! Wh-, uh, what are you doing down there?âÂ
He grinned up at you.Â
âI was just waiting. I actually do need to use the studio today-â He stood up and cut you off as you were about to interrupt him and led you back inside.Â
âJun-âÂ
âItâs fine!â he argued, resting his hands against your hips. âI told you it was fine and itâs fine.â He pressed his lips against your neck and you groaned, trying not to give in to him. Â
âYouâre going to get me fired, Jeon,â you told him in a warning tone, all the while raking your hand through his hair, gripping his arm tight.Â
âI would never let them do that.â His words were muffled, mouth barely lifted from your skin. His lips found yours again and stole the reply ready on yours. âIâve wanted to do this for so long,â he whispered, pulling back just a little, to look into your eyes and nuzzle your nose. Â
âIf youâd made that clear, just think for how long we couldâve been doing it already!â Â
He snapped his teeth in front of you and hushed you. Â
âHow did I know if you wanted it?âÂ
âOh, you think I flirt with everyone like that, Jungkook?!â Â
He giggled and wrapped his arms tighter around you, kissing your cheek and your temple. Â
âWell, no...â Â
âBecause, actually, I have one of you at every company I work with.âÂ
âOh yeah?â You could feel him smirk as he squeezed you at the waist. âTell me about them.âÂ
You opened your mouth to reply, but he placed a kiss just underneath your jaw, starting a trail of little, sucking kisses down your neck and your brain buffered. He hummed with his lips against you and all that came out of your mouth was a tiny, whimpering sigh. Â
âYeah, thatâs what I thought.â He brought his face back to yours and his eyes were dark and certain. Â
You chuckled a little breathlessly, amazed at the change in him: suddenly so confident, putting you on the backfoot. You liked it. Â
âWhere was all this attitude before?â Â
âOne of us had to keep it professional.â Â
You laughed out loud as he followed that statement up with another kiss, his thumb just barely slipping under your blouse, stroking your skin. Â
âAnd now?â Â
Before he could answer, there was a knock at the door, startling you both. Jungkook groaned and closed his eyes, looking as if he hoped whoever was out there would go away. They didnât.Â
âJK!â Yoongiâs voice called from the other side of the door as he knocked again. Â
âYâknow, if they fired us both, we could just leave now and not be interrupted anymore,â Jungkook suggested, bringing his mouth back to yours. Â
âTempting...â Â
Yoongi knocked on the door again and you broke apart with a sigh. If either of you was to get any work done that day, then it was absolutely necessary for you to part, then and there, but that didnât mean you wanted to. Â
âWhat are you doing tonight?â Â
âNothing.â Â
âGood. Iâm going to take you out.â Â
âWhere shall I meet you?âÂ
Jungkook scoffed.Â
âMeet me? Iâm going to come and pick you up. Weâre going to do this properly.âÂ
âIs that right?âÂ
 Jungkook pressed his lips firmly against yours one final time before finally letting you go and stepping back. Â
âYeah, thatâs right,â he said as he moved towards the door, preparing to open it to let you out and Yoongi in. You bit your lip; you hoped you would discover just how much Jungkook liked to take charge. You might act like a boss, but thatâs just what made it all the more satisfying when you found someone to put you in your place. Sometimes itâs nice not to be in control of everything. He winked at you as you passed him to exit his studio and you blushed, a real-life blush. You could barely look Yoongi in the eye. Â
* * *Â
You had never been this nervous for a date before. Theyâre usually for getting to know someone, usually someone you donât know that well â or maybe havenât even met yet â usually, you donât really worry about it going wrong, or doing something embarrassing, because the stakes are so low. At worst, itâs an awful hour of your time that you wonât get back, so whatâs the fuss? Â
This was different, though. You knew Jungkook. And now youâd tasted him. All day, your mind kept wandering back to his studio, his lips on yours, the unyielding metal of his lip ring between your soft lips, his secure grip on your waist, his hard body pressed against yours. How were you supposed to sit through an entire dinner on the opposite side of the table from him? How were you supposed to see his hands and not think about them on your body? Look into his eyes without imagining them looking up at you through his lashes, his tongue disappearing inside you? How were you going to sit there with him so tantalisingly close to you, able to touch him but not allowed? Â
You took a cold shower that evening. You slipped on your favourite third-date dress; this wasnât a third date, of course, but it certainly didnât have the vibes of a first date. Besides which, this is the dress you wore when you wanted to get lucky and god, have you ever wanted to get luckier.Â
* * *Â
Jungkook was nervous. Extremely nervous. He hoped these nerves would melt away as soon as he saw you; he hoped he could kiss you hello and that that would settle the butterflies in his stomach. He hoped he somehow hadnât just imagined everything that had happened that morning. He still couldnât believe it. You had a point, of course; he knew you had been flirting with him all this time, but he still couldnât believe that it had actually happened. Finally. He was kicking himself for not having acted before, for letting you take the lead again. He made a promise to himself that he wouldnât make that mistake another time. He meant it when he said he didnât want to be a silly, brainless boy around you anymore. If you could see him as a man even when he felt like that, then so could he. Even knowing that you did made him feel stronger, more like the Jungkook he wanted to be. Â
He thought about the smell of your hair and the taste of your lips and the tiny, quiet noises you had made as he kissed you. He didnât dare let himself think about what other noises he might get you to make. He had chosen a restaurant as private as it could be, without it being... too private, so private it would make it weird. It was a little place, not fancy, just somewhere he went often enough that he knew the couple who ran it and knew they wouldnât disturb the two of you and would be discreet.Â
He was early to pick you up but didnât want to rush you if you werenât ready so he sat in his car, anxiously tapping the steering wheel, watching the minutes tick past, painfully slowly. He hadnât been to your place before and he looked up at the building, wondering if you had any windows on this side, wondering what you were doing at that moment, what you were feeling. He didnât expect you would be nervous, at least not as nervous as he was. Part of him hoped you would be. He imagined turning the tables on you, making you flustered, watching you splutter. Now that the floodgates had opened, now that he was allowed to flirt back, to kiss you and touch you, and get as riled as he liked, he couldnât wait to show you what he could do. Â
* * *Â
Your doorbell rang and you jumped, even though you had been watching the door for ten minutes. You stood, slipped into your shoes, and took a deep breath before opening the door. There he was. Neither of you could stop your eyes roving over the other; this was the first time youâd met outside of work. Â
âYou look nice,â he said, taking the words right out of your mouth.Â
âI was about to say the same to you.âÂ
âBeat ya!âÂ
You rolled your eyes and stepped out, expecting him to step back so you could walk down the hall, but he simply welcomed you into his arms, drawing you closer with his deep, dark eyes. Your heart stuttered in your chest at the unexpected close contact and then again when he lowered his face to yours and kissed you, ever so lightly. Â
âReady?â he asked, his face still so close to yours. You swallowed hard and nodded.Â
âYep, letâs go.â Â
* * *Â
The fact that you were in public forced you to put some space between the two of you and you were relieved. It meant your heartrate could settle and you were finally able to drag your mind out of the gutter. Â
He had ordered for you both and he was calm and cool, chatting with the owners, and your heart fell open watching him, remembering that there was so much more to life than work and you knew none of what that looked like for Jungkook. You imagined him coming here the first time and then again, and then again and again, this familiarity settling in place so that they knew what he liked to order and he knew about her mother-in-lawâs arthritis and the new restaurant on the next street they were worried would hurt their business. Â
Part of you had thought this would be strange, awkward, uncomfortable, your nerves jangling in your chest like chimes on a windy day. Another part of you had thought you would be rabid, impatient, frustrated, bored of talking, desperate to get to the action. You had been wrong. It was comfortable and you laughed and joked and he showed you that he really did know how to flirt. Your nerves made you skittish, excited, the anticipation of the moment when his hand brushed lightly over yours almost more powerful than the touch itself. Your barely concealed desire, simmering just below the surface, made that touch burn, scorching through to your core. You were giddy, giggly, silly. He made you feel champagne drunk, up to your ears in light golden bubbles. Â
As before, in his studio, gone was the timidity, the shy, flustered Jungkook replaced by one confident, almost cocky, smirking at you when he noticed you blushing. He winked at you as you took a sip of your drink and you almost choked. You couldâve felt annoyed at the way he had turned the tables on you, but you couldnât deny that you liked it. You liked this Jungkook: this is the Jungkook who caught your attention in the first place. You wanted him to make you flustered, wanted him to look at you like he knew your every dirty secret, like he might make your every dirty fantasy come true. Â
Jungkook was happy. He had thought about this first date for a long time and it was going even better than he had imagined. He had been so nervous he could have puked before he saw you. But then there you were and he remembered. He remembered how much he liked you and he remembered that quiet, whimpering sigh as heâd kissed your neck and his nerves evaporated.Â
He couldnât believe the change in you. The way you looked away, the faintest blush on your cheeks, when he held your gaze too long; the way you almost flinched when he touched you; your wide-eyed, slightly open-mouthed gaze. He was glad he knew the owners, for privacy reasons, but also because he knew they liked him and that they would think twice about that if he swept all their crockery onto the floor and took you right on top of the table like he wanted to. He kept thinking about your pretty mouth, how sweet your lips looked, how much sweeter they might look wrapped around his cock. When you looked up at him, deliberately coy, through your lashes, he wanted to see you on your knees. Â
How many times heâd had these fantasies he couldnât count and now, here you were, real, in the flesh, sitting across from him, laughing at his jokes, licking your lips, looking at him like you had stars in your eyes. Heâd seen that look a thousand times, a hundred thousand times, but this one was different. Yours said something other than âIâm your biggest fanâ; yours said something that couldnât be uttered aloud in public. Yours said something he wanted you to say quietly in the dead of night, naked in his bed. Â
When the plates had been cleared away and the restaurant was empty but for the two of you, Jungkook leant forward on his forearms, taking your hands in his. This was the part he had not been looking forward to. This was the part where, once again, he couldnât just be a normal guy out on a date with a normal woman. Â
âYâknow what I want to do?â he asked as you leant forward, too. He reached up to tuck your hair behind your ear and you turned, demure, coy, shy. Â
âWhatâs that?â you asked, your voice only just level.Â
âI want to take you by the hand and walk by the river. I want you to shiver when the wind blows so I can take off my jacket and give it to you. I want to stop suddenly, and pull you back by the hand, spin you round so I can kiss you in public and not care who sees. I want to see you in the moonlight and remember it for a thousand years to come.âÂ
You were crimson and hot; your heart fluttering in your chest. You had expected filth; he had delivered romance. You wanted to fan yourself; you needed the cool air of a breeze to sweep in and reset your core body temperature to normal levels. Your mouth was dry and you wished your glass werenât empty. You were silent in response, speechless.Â
âYou know we canât do any of that, though, right?â he asked. Â
âYeah, I know. I understand.âÂ
âThereâs other things I want, too.â Â
His voice was lower, eyes darker, and you swallowed hard, a low heat settling in your abdomen.Â
âYeah?âÂ
âYeah. But I want you to know that itâs not all I want. Iâm all in. And I need you to be all in, too. I might not be able to kiss you in public but I want you to know that I want to. I want you. I donât mind telling you that Iâve wanted this for a long time.â He chuckled and rolled his eyes, grinning. âBut I guess you already know that.â Â
âOh, Iâm in.âÂ
He raised his eyebrows, surprised by your certainty. You had been flirting with him for months; you had been so sweet on this date;,he had almost forgotten who you were. You were a woman who knew what she wanted. You were a woman who got what she wanted.Â
âShall we get out of here?â Â
You stood before he could give you an answer and he grinned at you. You walked, a polite distance from each other, to the car heâd parked behind the restaurant. He opened the passenger door for you and you watched him walk around to the other side, watched him slide in, punch it into drive, and then pause. He put it back into park and looked at you. Â
âI need you to know how badly I want to kiss you right now. I need you to know that because Iâm going to need you to remind me that speed limits and red lights exist. Iâm not a bad driver, Iâm not a dangerous driver, but god, if it means I can kiss you even one second sooner, Iâm going to-âÂ
You put a hand to his mouth.Â
âCanât kiss you if Iâm dead, JK. Eyes on the road and keep your head up here, ok?â You tap him on the temple. Then you move closer to him, leaning across the central console to whisper in his ear. âTrust me, your patience will be rewarded.âÂ
âFuck.â Â
You leant back in your seat and looked at him. He was blinking hard, staring off into the distance.Â
âWell⊠Now Iâm going to need a minute.â Â
He clicked his neck as you laughed, and then he gripped the steering wheel tight, looking straight ahead. You waited, just taking him in, filling your mind with fantasies about what you would do when you got back to your apartment. Â
* * *Â
You made it in one piece to your building and stood outside your front door.Â
âSo,â you began, your hand on the doorknob. âYou gonna come inside?âÂ
Jungkook raised his eyebrows, his tongue in his cheek.Â
âThat sounds like an offer I canât refuse.âÂ
You opened the door and wasted no time, shedding your shoes and your coat, letting them fall where they may. You dropped your bag on the counter and turned to Jungkook, who was slowly slipping of his own shoes, stooping to pick your coat up off the floor and hang it on a hook.Â
âWhat are you-? What happened to âif I can kiss you one second soonerâŠâ?âÂ
He turned to you, like the cat whoâd got the cream already.Â
âI thought about it.â Â
He walked closer, as if he were stalking prey, and rested his hands on either side of you against the counter. Â
âI have thought about this a lot and I donât want to rush it.â Â
He took a deep breath and pulled back just enough to let his eyes rove down your body and back up, his tongue running over his lips, his teeth tugging at his lip ring. Â
âNah, I want to take my time with you.â Â
His dark eyes fixed on yours and you heard yourself swallow, heard your heard beating so fast it was humming. Â
âYouâve got time, right?â Â
âYeah.â Your voice was weak, hoarse. You cleared your throat and tried again. âYeah, Iâve got time.âÂ
Jungkook removed his hands from the counter and placed them on your waist, pulling you into him as he lowered his head to kiss you. You couldnât have stopped the high-pitched sigh that came out of you if youâd tried. The relief of his lips finally on yours, the taste of him, the feeling of his body against yours made your bones soft and your muscles weak. You didnât know how long Jungkook was going to make you wait, just exactly what he meant by taking his time; you didnât know if you would survive but you were one hundred percent willing to find out. Â
He had you backed against the counter so hard, it was digging into your back, your bodies pressed so close you could feel his erection grow in his trousers, pressing against your front. You wanted to grind your hips against him, but you were pinned so tight, you couldnât move. You pulled away, turned your head to break the kiss.Â
âJungkook,â you panted. âTake meâŠâ You raised an arm in the direction of your bed and he flicked his eyes in its direction for a split second before they were back on you, before he was kissing you again, stepping backwards, taking you with him. Â
He turned when he reached the bed and pushed you onto your back, climbing over you, pausing to look down at your chest with his lip between his teeth. Â
âFuck, I like you so much.â Â
You laughed and he laughed â you almost thought you saw him blush â and he leant down on his forearms, nuzzling your nose with his. You brought your hands up to cup his face.Â
âYou know youâre cute, right?â Â
He giggled and you were sure he was blushing now. He kissed you quickly on the nose and then on the cheek, then buried his face in your neck, turning your giggles to whimpers as his teeth found your skin, as he sucked light bruises onto you. Â
You pulled your hands between you, gripping his shirt, fumbling with the buttons but he mumbled against your skin and reared up, taking your wrists in his hands and pinning your hands above your head. Â
âI meant it when I said Iâm taking my time, missy. You just keep those hands to yourself.â He bent as if to kiss you again and stopped halfway. âFor now.âÂ
You swore softly to yourself, your underwear so uncomfortably wet, your nipples hard against the fabric of your dress. He let your hands go as he let his own explore your body, one teasing at the hem of your dress and the other kneading your breast. His mouth moved down and he pulled your dress with it, taking you into his mouth, swirling with his tongue, biting with his teeth. You pull hard on his hair and he releases you with a wet pop.Â
âToo hard?âÂ
âNo, no, I liked it⊠More. I want more.âÂ
âIn that case, what did I say about keeping your hands to yourself?âÂ
You whined as you let his hair go and returned your hand above you. He kissed you in the valley of your breasts.Â
âOh, look at my good girl.âÂ
âOh, fuck. Jungkook, shit. I like it. Please call me that again.âÂ
He laughed darkly.Â
âOnly if you behave yourself.â  Â
You hadnât imagined heâd be like this. You hadnât imagined it would be like this at all. But this was better than youâd imagined. So much better. Your whole body pulled towards his, every cell screaming for his touch, your heart yearning for his approbation. You needed it. Needed him. You knew youâd do whatever he asked without a secondâs hesitation. Fuck. Suddenly, you were his. Â
Jungkook chuckled to himself as he sank his teeth hard into the soft flesh around your nipple, cock throbbing at the keening, whining, mewling sounds you made when he did. He pushed your dress up, fingers grabbing at the waistband of your underwear, tugging awkwardly down with one hand. But then your hands were there, too, your hips raised as you slipped them down. He took hold of them from the gusset and tugged, his hand coming away wet when you lifted your knees to kick them off your ankles. Â
âOh, fuck, is all this for me?âÂ
âYes, Jungkook, yes. Please.âÂ
If he wasnât careful, he was going to blow his load before heâd even got his dick out of his pants. You were more than he had imagined: the sounds you made, the way you said his name, how pliable, how obedient you were. He couldnât have written you this perfect in his own fantasy. He wanted this to last forever. He couldnât imagine a more perfect world to live in than this: you beneath him, hot and wet and begging for him. He wanted to make you scream; he wanted you to come thunderously, clapping his head between your thighs, suffocating, drowning him; he wanted you to come gushing into his face. Â
He pressed two fingers into you with a long, drawn-out curse; you swore repeatedly, gasping, whining, trying to tip your hips, grind yourself into his hand. As you moved, he stopped moving. As soon as he started again, so did you. Then he stopped.Â
âJungkook.âÂ
âDonât try to run this show. Iâm going to give you what I want, ok?âÂ
âOh god, ok, ok, ok.â Â
You lay still, desperately trying not to move as he curled his fingers inside you, as his thumb rubbed circles over your clit. You gripped your bedsheets tight in your fists, looked to the ceiling for strength, gritted your teeth, tensed your legs, pulling your feet up to your buttocks just to move some part of you. Jungkook hummed appreciatively and scooted backwards on his knees, pressing kisses to your inner thighs. Â
His hand moved slowly in you â too slowly, torturous â and his mouth made slow progress towards your burning heat. He meant it when he said he would take his time. Just as his mouth made it to the crease of your thigh, he removed his fingers entirely, sat back, looked at the anguish on your face at the loss of him and grinned. He sucked his fingers clean of you, moaning performatively for you, palming at his dick through his clothes, pre-cum soaking through his boxers as he looked at you. Dripping wet and puffy, you were dark and slick and inviting. His mouth watered and he gulped. Â
âJungkook,â you whispered and it broke his reverie.Â
âYes?âÂ
âPlease can you touch me? Please. I need you.â Â
He groaned as his cock twitched and he looked skyward just as you had only moments earlier, before he clicked his neck and winked at you.Â
âSince you asked so nicely, beautiful, yes I will.âÂ
He pushed your legs apart, spreading your thighs against the mattress, and then he licked a broad stripe from your slit to your clit and the sound that left you was loud, wanton, indulgent. He did it again, drinking you in, and again and again and then he flicked at your pulsing little pearl with the tip of his tongue. He rubbed the flat of his tongue over you; he licked through your folds; he took your lips in his and you cried out when he clamped his teeth down on them, remembering at the very last moment, as your fingers grazed his hair, that he had told you to keep your hands to yourself. He hummed with his lips sealed around your clit and then he looked up at you.Â
He had felt you squirm as heâd bitten down and he had felt your hand in his hair. He was about to release you, to remind you of the rules, and then it disappeared and returned to fist the bedsheets beside you and he groaned. His cock was painfully hard, throbbing, leaking, hot and turgid and he shuddered. God, you were so good. He had expected you to protest, to argue, to tease, to show off, to fight back, to be as you are outside the bedroom: bold and assertive and strong. Heâd have loved putting you in your place, no doubt about it, but this? Your complete surrender to him, no questions asked? Just obedience, acquiescence, submission? He moaned, determined to get you off before he lost control of himself completely. Â
It was getting difficult not to move, not to writhe, to squirm, to grind your hips into Jungkookâs mouth as you got closer and closer to your climax. You were trembling, shivering, your whole body juddering towards it like a cart ascending a rollercoaster track. In much the same way, your stomach lurched as your orgasm thundered through you. Like being tipped off a cliff, free-falling, you lost all sense of your body, nerves on fire, every inch of you screaming Jungkookâs name. He pinned you down hard, but you couldnât stop yourself shaking, convulsing, bucking, overstimulated. Whimpering, your thighs clamped shut against his head and you felt him chuckle, the vibrations making you squirm. Â
Jungkook let you lock him between your legs. He was more than happy there. Letting you soak his face, he pushed two fingers back inside your quivering cunt, hooking them hard against your front wall as he sucked on your clit. You tumbled from one orgasm to the next, spots dancing in front of your eyes, your breath coming in ragged gasps. It was like you were being split, atom by atom, separating your body from your soul. Your vision going black, breath trapped in your chest now. You were so sure youâd pass out, overstimulated, overloaded, overwhelmed. But then Jungkook let you go, pulling your legs from his head, pressing small kisses to your stomach as he crawled over you. Â
His face swam in front of you and when he finally fell into focus, a hysterical giggle left your mouth. The smile on his face was so warm and sincere that, were it not for his hair on end and your arousal all around his mouth, you might never have guessed heâd just mercilessly ripped two towering, crashing orgasms from you. Â
âWhatâs funny?âÂ
You couldnât stop laughing, your mind addled. You covered your face with your hands and had to wait for it to pass, wait for the moment to stop feeling absurd, surreal, wait for yourself to return to your body, your mind. Â
When it did and you dropped your hands from your face, Jungkook had shed his clothes and the sight of him there, his naked body, his tumescent, leaking cock very nearly knocked your mind straight back out again. Â
âI really like you,â you said, your voice almost plaintive in its trembling. Â
It was his turn to laugh this time. Â
âYeah, yeah, I bet thatâs just the orgasms talking.âÂ
âNo, really.â Â
You reached out and grabbed his hand and he climbed over you to lie by your side. He cupped your cheek and kissed you, all sticky and sweet. Â
âI really do,â you insisted and he kissed you again. âI really like you.â Â
âIsnât that why weâre doing this, hm?â Â
You groaned and rolled your eyes. Â
âDonât be smart with me, Jeon.âÂ
He laughed.Â
âAh there she is. I was wondering what youâd done with her.âÂ
âDone with who?âÂ
âMiss take-no-shit girlboss.âÂ
You laughed and blushed, curling yourself into his chest, self-conscious and shy.Â
âIâm still here,â you mumbled quietly. âI just⊠I donât like being in charge all the time.âÂ
âYeah, I kind of got that.â Â
He dropped his eyes and when he looked back at you, his gaze was darker, mischief glinting in them.Â
âYou were a very good girl, you know. I didnât expect that.â Â
âYou thought Iâd argue?âÂ
âMmm.âÂ
âDo you want me to argue?âÂ
He grinned.Â
âI mean, Iâm not opposed to it but, fuck⊠Honestly, I needed this little break. You being so fucking good for me⊠shit.â He bit his lip and trailed a hand down your body, circling your taut nipple, dancing over your hip. âGod, I could come right now just thinking about it.â Â
âIs that right? You want me to be good for you? Want me to do as you say?â You shuffled onto your knees. âTell me anything, Jungkook. Iâll do whatever you want.â Â
Jungkook groaned, eyes fluttering to a close. He flopped onto his back and stared at the ceiling.Â
âGod, I think I fucking dreamt you up.â He turned back to you. âYou just canât be real.â Â
You swung a leg over him, taking his heavy cock in your hand. He groaned. Â
âSo⊠You gonna come inside?â Â
He almost yelped, laughing, and then cursing under his breath. Â
âYou really want me to?âÂ
You shrugged.Â
âIâm protected and I know Iâm clean and I know how many health check-ups they make you have so I canât imagine youâre riddled with disease.âÂ
âGod, I love it when you talk dirty to me.âÂ
You leant forward, ghosting your lips over his. Â
âIâm just saying,â you whispered, âthat I want to feel you inside me, down to the tiniest detail.âÂ
âFuck, I made you up; I know I did. I know I did. You cannot be real.âÂ
âOh, Iâm real.âÂ
You rose up and rolled your hips, coating his shaft in your slick. The noise that left him was animal and he flung you onto you back, pinning you down and towering over you. He leant down, your noses touching, and kissed you, his eyes never leaving yours. There was a pause, both just looking at each other, breathing heavy, sticky with sweat. Then the moment broke and you both laughed. Â
He kissed you again, his grip on you softening, relenting. He still tasted like you when he licked into your mouth and your cunt quivered in anticipation of his cock and at the memory of his mouth. Â
He retreated and grabbed a pillow, lifting you at the hips to slip it beneath you before he gripped his cock with a light hiss. He pushed the head of it through your folds, lodged it just barely at your entrance and you whined. He anticipated your action before you could make it, holding your hips down, keeping you still.Â
âJungkook.âÂ
He hummed, less in response to you and more in appreciation of your body, as he ran his hands over it. His thumbs grazed your pert nipples and his hands squeezed at your waist. He lifted the backs of your thighs and pushed them to your chest, humming again in satisfaction. You could feel him at your entrance and your walls pulsed, desperate for him. You gulped, wondering if you still had to keep your hands to yourself. You were so needy for it now that you didnât dare try it, didnât dare take the risk that he might move away, stop touching you, even for a second. Â
âJungkook, please,â you whispered. âI need you to fuck me, please.â Â
He slowly dragged his eyes back to you. Â
âSay it again, beautiful.âÂ
âSay what?âÂ
âTell me you need me. Tell me you need me to fuck you.âÂ
âI need you. I need you. Please. Fuck me, please. Jungkook, I need you to fu- oh!âÂ
He didnât even wait for you to finish. He thrust hard and you got what you wanted: you could feel every ridge of his shaft against your walls, tight and slick and trembling. Â
âTell me how itâfuckâtell me how it feels.â Â
âFeels good, JK. Feels so good. Can I⊠Do I have to, ah, keep my hands to m-myself? Can I touch you? Please?âÂ
He groaned loud, dropping his head, and laughed softly.Â
âYou asking my permission? Does my good girl need my permission to touch me?âÂ
âYes, yes. Please.âÂ
âShit.âÂ
He leant forward, pushing your legs to the side, lowering himself onto his forearms so he could kiss you. Â
âYes, go ahead; fuck, youâre so good for me, baby. You donât have to keep your hands to yourself.â Â
The first thing you did was pull him even closer, kiss him again, whine into his mouth when the head of his cock squeezed past your g-spot. You gripped his hair tight, twisting it in your fingers, keeping his face close to yours. You whispered his name and his eyes found yours; wide, bambi eyes staring openly at you, hair sticking to his forehead, your name on his lips as he pounded into you. You traded sloppy kisses and whispered expletives. Â
âJK?âÂ
âYeah?âÂ
âCan I⊠Can I touch myself?âÂ
You felt his cock twitch inside you and he swore.Â
âJesus fucking Christ, youâre the best. Shit. Oh, shit. Yes, you can, you can.â Â
He wished he could keep his cool, but it took all he had not to come right then and there. He dropped his head to your shoulder and bit down hard, trying to ground himself as you reached between you and drew circles over your clit. Your walls fluttered against him, squeezing and clenching, as you shuddered into your third orgasm and he growled, desperately trying to last, to fuck you through this at the very least. What he wouldnât give for this moment to last forever, to live this moment a hundred, a thousand times over: the sounds and feelings of your climax almost overwhelming him, his head barely above water, about to drown in you and die happy doing it. He wanted to freeze this moment, store it in his memory, crystallise its perfection. But it was over too soon.Â
When your cunt released him, still quivering, he was too quick to breathe a soft sight of relief, too quick to relax, and he juddered quickly to his own end, filling you with milky ropes of cum. Â
Breathing hard, he kissed you, still hungry, still needy, still inside you. He held you at the back of the head and pushed his forehead into yours.Â
âYouâre perfect, fucking perfect.â Â
With a groan, he let his strength go and flopped against you. You held him close and could feel his heart beating hard under your hand. You brushed his hair from his face and smoothed it down. You kissed the top of his head and he sighed. Â
âIs it wrong if I say I think I fucking love you?â He raised his eyes to you, giddy and sparkling.Â
You chuckled.Â
âYeah, yeah, thatâs just the orgasm talking.âÂ
He laughed quietly and pressed a kiss to your collarbone.Â
âMaybe. But if you keep it up, I am going to fall in love with you.âÂ
âIs that a threat or a promise?âÂ
He turned his head to bite down on your shoulder again.Â
âCanât it be both?Â
taehyung dancing to âwhatâs your fantasyâ for @taee âĄ
bonus:
⊿ booâd up in the daytime
⊿ mackinâ & hanginâ in the nighttime
âł SERIES RELEASE DATE: 05/15/2021
summary: in order to pass organic chemistry and pay off your car damages from an accident, all you have to do is help the nerd, jeon jungkook, with a few things: pretend to be his girlfriend and teach him the ways of dating.
pairing: popular!reader x nerd!jjk
genre: college au, fake dating au, friends to lovers au | fluff, angst, smut
warnings: the tracks/mixes included in the party playlist can get really explicit so please do not listen if it makes you uncomfortable - i apologize in advance;Â unprotected sex (protection is your friend!), oral sex, marking/biting, dirty talk, teasing, making out, straddling, dry humping/grinding, fingering, breast play, size kink, cum eating, creampie, multiple orgasms, ass slapping, body worship, mentions of cheating/infidelity, jealousy, insecurities, angst, cussing/mature language, toxic relationships, alcohol consumption, marijuana use, multiple party/club scenes, dancing, etc. (individual warnings for each chapter will be included)
authorâs note: was gonna be a one shot, but obvi not anymore đ€§ also! original idea for this changed a bit - inspired by the movie âlove donât cost a thing.â please, please, please know that this is purely fictional and was created out of imaginary ideas. this is not a real portrayal of any of the characters involved.
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