Syscourse Damage

HELLO I JUST FOUND OUT YOU DIDNT NEED DISSOCIATIVE FUGUE (LIKE FULL BLACKOUT WAKING UP IN A DIFFERENT PLACE) TO HAVE DID??????

WHAT

Synastry overlay Sun, Moon in the 8th house notes: 8th house edition ❤️ ❤️

@astroismypassion

Sun in the other's 8th house

8th house feels vulnerable around Sun. They could feel like Sun sees right through them. Sun is very interested in secrets, fears, desires and dreams of 8th house. You could both overshare when around each other. This connection is passionate, intense, but at the same time a bit awkward. You have a lot of first times together. You might try certain foreign foods for the first time together, first serious relationship or any big life change, like marriage. You might want to do a big transformation with this person. You are prepared to go to extreme measures for this person. You might even change city, job, country for them. There will be sacrifices in this connection. There can be jealousy from others or between you two at times. You might feel a lot of sexual desire for this person. You will reach real intimacy in this connection, but it needs to be balanced. 8th house can be a bit doubtful of this Sun person at first. Or gets easily triggered. You might be reminded of the things from the past, from the childhood, from your relationship with parents. You tell this person a lot of stuff about your life that you wouldn’t tell others. You felt very comfortable, secure and comfortable, like you already know each other. This connection will be constantly changing and transforming. You will constantly revaluate things. You will want to know everything about each other. You might feel naked in front of each other, but not literally or maybe even that. You can behave with this person how you normally wouldn’t with other people. You feel drawn to each other. You just love being in each other’s energy and just talking to each other. You really stand out from the crowd to them. Even if they want to go away, they will be constantly pulled back. 8th house really means you respect individual boundaries and give space to the other to have their own life apart from relationship. So when you are too close, you have tension. But if you just allow each other more space, the person may come back on their own quickly. You can be equally obsessed with each other. You find each other irresistible. Also I noticed 8th house synastry points to wanting things fast and almost rushing it. However, I think these connections have the potential to last for 10 years, if you just don’t rush the other to please your own selfish desires first. Because usually 8th house makes you rather selfish. You only want them doing that for you for example. You are real soulmates. You can sometimes feel like a therapist for the other person. You might test each other, just so you can see that you can trust each other. There is also a spiritual lesson in this connection.

Moon in the other's 8th house

You might have sexual awakening with this person. Before one of you or both might have considered yourself aromantic or even asexual, but with this person you will feel awakened. You will feel passion, lust and desire. You will just want them. You might be quick to merge your finance, living situation or even become physical. With this overlay, I suggest getting physical as late as possible, try to prolong it and don’t give into desire too soon. Because as soon as you merge with this person, obsession, jealous and being territorial might begin. You will experience power struggles, but also understanding on an emotional, physical and mental level like never before. You might have sex dreams about this person, a lot of sexual fantasies (and vice versa of course). It’s an intense, strong bond, but a lot of times unbreakable. You could become too easily dependent on each other and learn to nurture your own individuality and have your own individual lives as well. You will mirror each other a lot. You will challenge each other and learn your mistakes, shortcomings. You might be a bit unwilling to change. One might change a lot (8th house), but you will feel like he is always the same. But this will not be true, Moon person will go through psychological, inner changes, while you might change in your actions, outlook on life. You will know each other’s desires, secrets and fears with time. But at first there might be a lot of frustrations, miscommunication and misunderstandings. You might be very vulnerable around each other. You could feel like the other person see right through you. You could feel like you are naked in front of each other.

@astroismypassion

this post hasn't left my mind since i've first saw it

“He allowed himself to be swayed by his conviction that human beings are not born once and for all on the day their mothers give birth to them, but that life obliges them over and over again to give birth to themselves.”

— Gabriel Garcia Marquez, Love in the Time of Cholera (via macrolit)

Is there any evidence beyond anecdotal that systems with ADHD/autistic systems are more likely to be "fictive-heavy" due to having special interests? I've seen that claim floating around tumblr as if its medical fact, and it feels very strangely infantilizing, as if having ADHD/autism makes one inherently more fantasy-prone. Have professionals even written about "fictive-heavy" systems? Most literature I've read mentions fictional introjects in general as, maybe, a footnote at best.

Anon, I feel like you're coming at this from the wrong angle. Being autistic or having ADHD does lend to hyperfixations, including fiction. This is not the same as being fantasy prone, nor does it negate the legitimacy of DID or introjects. MANY aspects of DID/OSDD are still underresearched. Lack of more documentation of fictives in professional literature does not make them any less real or prevalent.

As to whether this is more common in autistic/ADHD systems, I don't know for sure. It's not something I could prove to you with stats; though the logic and reasoning follows.

I don't think it is at ALL infantalizing to note that fictives seem more common in these systems due to hyperfixations on fiction/media. To say so would indicate that fictives in general have a negative connotation or are something to be looked down upon which is simply not true.

Input and discussion on any/all questions is encouraged.

Me to everyone struggling with discrimination like I am - but also worse.

To the trans femmes/trans women of colour who are systematically oppressed. Who get assaulted by "peace" officers and faced with gross uses of "power" (control) from a system that doesn't care, and so they get penalized-or they get murdered every year.

To all the other people who forget, like me, that we as LGBTAQI+ people-especially bisexual people, esspecially ace people, especially us trans people, but then again, especially all of us-legally don't have rights beyond just a very basic "workplace discrimination" catchall (and sometimes not even that). We don't have *basic* housing rights, in most cases. We get sneered at, laughed at when/if we complain.

Our families disown us, and we carry on.

Friends drop us after being profiled by the police, and don't return our calls, and we still make dinner for ourselves, run errands, smile at strangers, and pet a cat.

Increasingly, however, the more stories I read, as we're preading awareness of the things that we as LGBT+ people go through, we seem to be facing more of a backlash. And the more I am faced with unsafe housing environments, (including verbal abuse) and not only given no legal protection, but ignored, gaslit, and publicly shamed and humiliated for speaking out against these issues...the more haunted I feel. The harder it's been to fight against the flashbacks and "think positively" (whatever that means).

Increasingly, I feel like crying every time someone gives me a hug. I seriously feel like I would crumble the next time. I feel like I'm holding back tears every time I see people interacting happily, because I get the impression they don't cry themselves to sleep at night, they don't worry, increasingly, if the next microaggression from an ignorant cishet person will cause us to lose our housing, our employment, our reputation..and we'll be told it's "our fault", for being the way that we are, if not outright, then covertly.

I didn't want to say this, but I'm losing hope, I guess is what I'm saying here. I got yelled at for simply watching She-Ra & The Princesses of Power where I live the other day, after trying my darndest to self-soothe when someone on TV had similar triggers as me. I was yelled at for picking up my blockers (which I need to have, to cause me to, if not *want* to live, then at least not want to die), because I'm on an inconsistent "blackout" at this SLE. They said it would be a week. They lied.

Scrutinised when I speak up, and increasingly having limited rights in any so-called "recovery" environment. At this point, if you're not helping us, you're hurting us. If you claim my existence is "political", then please remove yourself from my life (when I am not absolutely forced to talk to you).

I'm tired. I'm tired of being a burden. I don't even have any girlfriends (I'm transfeminine) to talk to, because I was forced to live in a house full of men-even after I explained I have trauma from men.

I literally called four "helplines" I found online from desperation, several times yesterday, and was told that they were "assisting other callers". I keep trying my best to find a counselor and I keep either getting turned away or at least no called back.

I don't know what to do. I'm tired of being "strong". I wish I had a childhood that I could remember, but even beyond that, I would settle for giving myself that now that I'm older..except I know that I can't even do that right now. I feel like I've let myself down. I feel like (and this breaks my heart to say), it was silly to dream.

It matters. Can you hear me? I am holding your hands and telling you it matters because you matter

not everything has to be productive. you are allowed to be a little silly and goofy. you are allowed to rest. take some time for yourself today. there is so much more to life than work, and you deserve to experience it. feel the sun on your face, stretch your body, call a friend, have a little fun. your work will not suffer for it & will be there when you’ve had some time.

When the porn bots attack is over i want a little badge next to my username with the number of bots I've reported

ppl who celebrate fictional character birthdays are annoying pass it on

My advice?

Be your own fkcing authority.

That's it, that's all.

Astrology observations I made pt 20

DISCLAIMER- Placements will not play out the same way for everyone and having challenging placements + aspects does not mean that you are a bad person or that you will have a bad life. Take what resonates and leave what doesn’t

-mars in the 10th house can sometimes indicate literally doing sex work and being known for it. It’s one of the rarer manifestations

-a Saturn return for someone with Saturn in the 8th house may involve losing someone important to them. That experience will force them to learn to process and face grief and loss head on. They may get an inheritance out of it

-cancer ascendants tend to have soft features in general, rounded faces, large eyes and small but plump lips

-a Saturn return for someone with Saturn in the 10th house may involve literally changing career paths. You may have been working the same kind of job for years and then your Saturn return happens and you realize “that’s not what it want anymore”. This can also happen for people with Saturn in the 6th house

-people with Lilith in the 9th house has had major beef with a teacher/tutor of theirs at least once during their school days. Everything that teacher did left a bad taste in their mouth. If the native comes from a very religious family, they hated the preacher lol

-contrary to popular belief, Pisces mars natives are far from weak, they’re just lazy as hell and need a little extra push to get things done

-people with a lot of 12th house placements feel the most energized at nighttime and they always have trouble with their sleep patterns

-women with Lilith in the 11th house tend to have to deal with men who pretend to be their friend but secretly want to sleep with them and will jump at any opportunity to get in their pants

-another lesson the saturn return might teach someone with Saturn in the 10th house is to start caring about the public image they project out in the world. If before their Saturn return they were wild, carefree, and not concerned about rules and their reputation, they will learn the importance of certain rules and values put in place by authority figures around them then

-people with mercury in Capricorn tend to have such a proper and refined way of talking, to the point of sounding old-fashioned sometimes. They don’t usually keep up with ever-changing modern slang very much