Juanalogues - Juana

Art by Alai Ganuza

I think a lot about how we as a culture have turned “forever” into the only acceptable definition of success.

Like… if you open a coffee shop and run it for a while and it makes you happy but then stuff gets too expensive and stressful and you want to do something else so you close it, it’s a “failed” business. If you write a book or two, then decide that you don’t actually want to keep doing that, you’re a “failed” writer. If you marry someone, and that marriage is good for a while, and then stops working and you get divorced, it’s a “failed” marriage.

The only acceptable “win condition” is “you keep doing that thing forever”. A friendship that lasts for a few years but then its time is done and you move on is considered less valuable or not a “real” friendship. A hobby that you do for a while and then are done with is a “phase” - or, alternatively, a “pity” that you don’t do that thing any more. A fandom is “dying” because people have had a lot of fun with it but are now moving on to other things.

I just think that something can be good, and also end, and that thing was still good. And it’s okay to be sad that it ended, too. But the idea that anything that ends is automatically less than this hypothetical eternal state of success… I don’t think that’s doing us any good at all.

zzzzzz              4/26/21

It’s beddy bye time 

time to put our thoughts to rest 

tucked in with our sheets 

The Star and The Hermit

You've gone out to see who's splashing around in your pool at this hour of the night.

Windy Wishes

4/8/22 (2)

A haiku for Boston

4/6/22

just a cat giving a presidential speech on ebola…

i wrote this poem in a car ride home from a music festival at the end of the summer. it one of those poems that i wrote because everything was so perfect in the moment and i had to write something down to capture the moment. :)

salutation seeker, 4/4/24

Windy Night