The Garden of Edenš
āIām with you. No matter what else you have in your head Iām with you and I love you.ā
ā Ernest Hemingway, The Garden of Eden (via books-n-quotes)
Stephenš
Verses about suffering for Christ. Source.
For real
Even though it frustrates me, I understand why healthy people try to say that theyāre sore too when I mention my chronic pain. Theyāre trying to empathize. But they canāt. They have no way of knowing what it feels like to be in such pain every day.
You canāt compare a paper cut to a battle wound.
For real
āi just want to scream until the ache is gone.ā
ā 10 for the breathless (via imperiallefty)
I almost stopped itš
Hey, unpopular opinion, apparently. But people donāt just āhave pain for no reasonā doctors say this all the time (especially to women and chronically ill people) and the truth is, Thats literally not possible. Even if your pains are psychosomatic (a word I hesitate to even use because of the way its used so often) there is a reason you are having those pains whether its mental illness, abuse, etc. If your doctor consistently tells you that āwell some people just have pain for no reasonā get a new doctor. Thatās a doctor who is not going to give a shit what your actual symptoms or experiences are.
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Thereās a new boy, heās really nice and smart and I donāt like him at all. I call him when I need to talk to someone but youāre the one I think about when I canāt sleep. And itās your voice I hear in my head when I feel lost. I know youāre not good enough for me and I know you donāt deserve my time and I know you donāt think about me at all and I shouldnāt be thinking about you either. But I go out with him and I wonder what youād be saying if you were sitting across from me instead. And I hate that I let you still have that power.
We started out as friends
We remained friends for a while
And then something else
Something extra, something happy.
The whispers started then
Knowing looks thrown out way
Disapproving frowns shot from behind books
The strain set in.
You didn't care
You decided that the whole world could wag their tongues
You weren't going to leave your dear friend because of their ideas
You said, "it's not true so what's the use"
I did care
Because, you see, what they said was true
I stopped seeing you as just a friend a while ago.
I'm forced to realize that I felt that magic alone
I told you how I felt
And how I hated feeling that way
And how I wanted to disappear from your life
You assured me that all will be well
And now, when we've grown apart
And I can no longer meet your eyes across the hall
I wish you would hold me, draw me to your side, stop me from slowly and surely disappearing
I wish you would say the words I long to hear
And during the long lonely nights
I have a lot of regrets
I shouldn't have expressed my feelings, I shouldn't have had feelings
I shouldn't have destroyed what relationship was there between us.