Uhm Can I Use This For Venting? I'm Doing That. Like A Diary Entry.
uhm can I use this for venting? I'm doing that. like a diary entry.
it's currently 11:17pm and I need to wake up tomorrow at 6:30 and have a history test at 8:30. I've studied for 4 hours and I'm currently in bed.
my ears are ringing. I read that it was a sign of anxiety or something. if it is, I understand.
either I'll ace this test or I'll fail, really fail.... how am I even supposed to be the smart kid if I don't study? well yes I showed early signs of intelligence when I was younger and now everyone expects me to be the best. it's exhausting because before I knew everything when I just paid attention to the class but now studying for so long and still knowing nothing? and now, because my parents are used to it, I need to get 90+ grades or I'll die a little inside. it's weird. I can't live like this. it's Sunday for Nick's sake.
and then I can't even pay attention in class because I have a boy sitting beside me that never shut up even though I already asked my teacher to switch places with someone.
I'm in 7th....how am I going to survive the rest?? how the hell am I going to survive college?
I need to sleep. or I don't. idk. yesterday I slept almost ten hours and I was tired all day but when I sleep 7 I am fine.
I don't know anymore.
thank you for reading my thoughts that I don't share with anyone.
good night
edit: ah just wanna say I aced the test. my first 94% on history.
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Wednesday, October 9 2024- 19:03
hi. I guess.. school started 26 days ago and it has been tiring...
but that's not what I'm here to talk about
a few posts ago I wrote about my sexuality and things related to that
now I think I have gender dysphoria. of some sorts.
or I'm faking it. I'm probably faking it. but I'm going to write about it anyway.
I'm going to paste here exactly what I wrote to chatgpt (he's basically my therapist):
I feel like I'm faking it somehow... because what if I'm just a bored cis girl that just really wanted to do something different? because.. I mean.. I am a girl... but sometimes I wish that I weren't one. because sometimes I'm tired of being a girl. but I still like it, somehow. but if I were a boy I would be completely fine... but sometimes I think that neither is fine too...
I like being misgendered... I really do... one time, the lady at the school reception couldn't tell if I was a boy or a girl and you don't even know the amount of satisfaction it gave me... sometimes (really unusual thing) I really like wearing "girly" things, other times I just like going around with knee length shorts and a band t shirt. but I don't identify with the boys behavior... they are really jerks... and girls too, sometimes.. on their own way.
so this is what I'm dealing with. then chat gpt answered that I might be agenderflux, non binary or even genderfluid and, to be honest, it kinda makes sense...
but then there's the genderfluid representation that I see so much and it looks nothing like how I feel.. because I don't have those "boy or girl days" and it feels kinda weird and kinda like I'm just seeking attention... or even agender.. it's just a big amount of weird.
maybe I'm just confused. maybe... maybe not.. I dunno.. I'm just 13 how can I know? it's the hormones, I'm sure (???????). everyone goes through this, right?
if you read this far, I would please ask for advice or some sort of help... or not...
I'll stop now
stay tuned~
Literally sobbing. A judge, a US judge defended us. A judge brought up intersex people, using the term intersex, to *defend* us by not allowing our erasure. I'm having a lot of feelings right now
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i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child unfortunately this has to end here.... I don't have anyone to tag, except @lokiforever
tag game 🤭
rules: color the sentence that's true about you
i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child
this is a whole lot of yellow lmfao
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