Can someone recommend goth music especially female lead singers or solo female singers
being satanic means sexual freedom no god telling me when or how to have intercourse to be a satanist is to live for yourself and not for gods
people think paranoia is tinfoil hats and conspiracy theories. but no. its an island. its being surrounded by loving people with genuine intentions and being so so so painfully lonely because you're TERRIFIED of the idea that everybody either secretly hates you or wants to hurt you. and you're convinced you deserve it anyways because you're the scum of the earth but you're still avoiding it because you're a coward who can't face the truth. it's begging people to just insult you or doxx you or hit you or whatever because you just wanna get it over with instead of sitting there anticipating 'the inevitable'. it's being attracted to people who abuse you because 'they're the only ones telling the truth'.
Sometimes I’m ashamed of having schizotypal personality disorder because when I do research, I see loads of serial killers and I think to myself will I become like them? 
i feel like an unlovable and unlucky person
I’ll make a list of songs I feel relate to schizotypal personality disorder
I might break up with my bf I just feel like he doesn’t love me he just doesn’t put in effort or he might submissive idk like I don’t think he ever liked me