midnightcupiid
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part 2 to this... the mutual parasocial relationship thickens
And so it’s over. We do the final show, then right afterwards the frenzied rush of strike starts, running around trying to figure out what to do, pulling things apart, trying not to get smacked with huge moving set pieces. You do a million different tasks while many others, adults and kids, are running around doing the same. You get several scrapes and cuts on your hands from taking apart the set. And then it’s time to go, and your dad picks you up, and it’s over. Everything’s over. You’ll never see that show again, never be with that specific cast or crew again. And you’re just a techie, so you don’t get a cast party. There’s no huge group of people running to hug you and say goodbye, crying because they’ll miss you so much. You just wave your cut up hand, and leave, your heart still beating fast from all the work you’d been doing. It hurts less than other closing nights, you don’t cry, you’re just a little numb, and continue on your life.
ok my life has been so dramatic lately i need to start a diary or something bc wtf i need to rant!!!!
ok so there was this show at my hs that i was so excited to try out for bc i felt rlly connected to it!!! it was so interesting and made me think a lot. so i go try out i think i slay and I DONT GET CALLED BACK????? so now i’m pissed and me and some of my friends who also didn’t get called back are chatting and like… i alr knew this was gonna have a lot of favoritism involved bc it’s student directed, the guy has a lot of actor friends, etc. ik he’d alr promised one girl the MAIN role… like girl. callback list is like… ppl he likes, including two girls ik who he’s like…. their father at this point? idk. one girl i do have a crush on but UNIMPORTANT.
so i cry abt it big time and then sign up for auditions for another show for the next day, i do this w a couple of my friends who also didn’t get called back but were at the later slot so it’s basically just us and some seniors… eek. i honestly was 50/50 on my chance of a callback esp bc i told the director i couldn’t make callbacks(i have pickup rehersal for my current show that closes this weekend), but he was like ‘it’s fine i’ll just use today as your callback basically’ which… eek that makes me nervous but ok. and the email comes out and I GET CALLED BACK!!!!!!! i basically jump for joy lmao. it was iconic.
but the big thing is the cast list for the first show came out! the girl that was promised a role got it… wow such a surprise. one of the 2 girls i mentioned before got the main teen part(expected. she’s his freaking golden child ugh I LOVE HER, but ugh) but.. crush did not? which is UNHEARD OF for miss girl bc she is like so talented never been told no her entire life but not… spoiled? idk. and i realize when i was at auditions, i never saw her- the audition room for play 2 is right next to callbacks room for play 1 and they practice outside… so i don’t think she was even THERE???? there is tea to be had and trust i will sniff it out for you, like i need to know lol.
so yea. say your thoughts pls i need human interaction that isn’t from school. send an ask, reblog with thoughts, etc
love ya 💖
i need more naturals novels asap
me when i make eye contact with her while we’re laughing 😫😭🙏😔
our tour scorbus !!!!!
sorry i can't actually stop thinking or posting about auggy they just have that effect (and also some twitter memes!)
but for now i'm only people watching 🐻☕🧸🧋🍪
people watching — conan gray (2021)
the vast majority of fanworks are bad, and that's fine, actually. they are bad for the same reason that the average number of legs for a human person to have is less than two: statistics. like with all endeavours and especially creative ones, most people who write fanfiction or draw art of their favourite characters are bad at it. if you line up all the crochet projects in the world, most of them will be, well, bad. some are bad because they're the first thing a person ever made, or the second or third or tenth, and this kind of thing takes practice. others are bad because the person who made them is just not very good at it. maybe they just learned how to make granny squares and they're perfectly happy to never expand or improve on that. most people who dance or bake or garden or braid hair are not amazing at it! and you'd never go to your kid's dance recital or eat your friend's homemade carrot cake and expect the same experience as you'd have at a professional ballet performance or award-winning bakery. And that's if we assume there is an objective measure of Good Art, which there isn't! Some art is just "bad" because you don't like it!
I think though that specifically with fanfiction, we sometimes forget that when we read a book or watch a movie, dozens of people have looked at it and given feedback and made changes and done quality control before the final product reaches our shelves or screens, and that's not counting the original writer's learning process and past experience. A published book is not anyone's first crochet project, even if it is their debut novel. But with fanfiction, the barrier to entry is so low (on purpose! this is a good thing!) that we do get to see a lot of wonky granny squares, and on sites like AO3 they're sitting on the same shelf as the hand-made silk lace wedding dress and you can't always tell just by looking at it which is which. The consequence of this is that we encounter fic that we think is unpolished, has bad punctuation, is out of character, and we are tempted to think "well, this is awful! how dare this person put this wonky granny square on the same shelf as the lace wedding dress!" But that's not how fandom is supposed to work! That wonky granny square is somebody who is really excited about this TV show they just watched and they are reaching out into the void to share their excitement with you. To scoff at them for not making a lace wedding dress is really, really rude. Even if they did make a lace wedding dress, maybe it's just really not your style, or you think they should have used a different pattern, and it's still their wedding dress. You don't have to wear the dress and you don't have to read the fic.
We all know that there is some fanfic out there that is incredible. I think it's important to talk about that! But the vast majority of people who post their writing online are just sharing their little hobby projects that they make for fun and I also think it's important to remember that.
i NEED to start a youtube channel. or a podcast. deep dive videos are very inspiring
Promptober! (The Writer's Version)
Hello everybody! October is just round the corner, and isn't this just the busiest time of the year for artists?
Let's squeeze the most out of 2024 by hopping in on the Inktober and NaNoWriMo trends in October and November. Personally, I'm aiming at writing between 1,500 - 2,000 words long short story or flash fiction based on the given prompt for the day!
Here's the list of prompts & inspos I'll be using for my Inktober 2024 journey <3 Comment or tag me on YOUR personal Inktober prompt lists, I'd love to take a look! Feel free to use my list for yourselves, too!
“Every October, artists all over the world take on the Inktober drawing challenge by doing one ink drawing a day the entire month.” - Jake Parker
blake 'i like every version of you but i think the one where you want me is the version i like the most' winter
