it's funny how i actually ended up in a state where my mind craves cigarettes more than food
maybe i should just go back to drinking alcohol instead of eating
“i spent the last 4 years planning my death not my future.”
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It is difficult to look alive every day
past few years it’s like i don’t know how old i am or when anything has taken place
ah yes, the morning cigarette that makes me so fucking dizzy that i feel like i could just go back to sleep... if it wasn't for the fucking insomnia
killing myself is not enough, I wish I never existed in the first place