I Feel A Strong Urge To Write A Chuuya/Reader Fanfiction Purely Based On This Drawing Of Chuuya.

i hate Dazai so much, I really hope he stays dead. i just don't want to see him in the manga ever again istg.

It hurts too much

Reki Kyan x GN!Reader

Warnings: Angst, swearing

Word count: 1.3k

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You could feel the warm wind pressing onto your face, as the sun was slowly setting down. Cars were running on the road near you. Kids laughing, the sounds of bicycles and inaudible mutters of people echoed down the street.

But none of these things mattered. You blocked out everything, you only saw the amazing picture your eyes could present to you.

Your eyes were locked on your best friend Reki, doing an ollie on his skateboard. Yes, this was quite normal thing, and you have seen him do it million times, but every time he jumps you can't help it but stare at him. He looks so peaceful and relaxed, like this is the only thing he lives for, that skateboarding is his life.

You never understood what was so charming about Reki's skating, it's not like he is some unseen talent. Not trying to be rude, but there are lot of people better then him. But even so, his skating was more interesting to you then skating done by a professional, even ADAM's skating bored you to death . All though, you didn't understand it, you never complained about it. You loved watching him skate so much. He was the one who got you into skateboarding, and now you are just good as him, maybe even better then him. You didn't care who was better, you just wanted to have fun with your friend. That's that mattered to you. You didn't want validation of some random people saying, “wow they are so cool!”. Yes, of course it's nice to feel like you have made an impact. But you didn't want to turn skateboarding into something you have constantly on your mind, because you should get better so you can at least stay in your position, so people would look at you and be amazed, so you would feel like you accomplished something even though you feel like you should do better. No, you wouldn't let this happen with skateboarding, that was only yours and Reki's. “Earth to Y/n!” Reki's sentence brought you back to reality. “Y/n, you have to stop dozing off, you look dumb.” Reki smirked and laughed. “Wow, thank you!” you said in highly sarcastic voice and punched his shoulder. You both started laughing. “Do you want to go and get some food? I'm starving!” Reki asked, standing up from his place. You looked up to him, “Of course!” You stood up and took your skateboard that was laying next to you. You and Reki got on your boards and started skating to a local small shop.

You never got lost in someone's eyes, as everyone says. You didn't quite even understand that phrase, you knew it was about falling in love but that was all you knew. Well, you didn't understand it till you didn't met Reki. You didn't quite got lost in his eyes, it was more of you getting lost in his skating. It was hypnotising. All though, no one shared that feeling with you. “Here you go!” Reki smiled at you passing you your favourite drink and snack. “Thanks!” you smiled at him, reaching for your wallet. He saw your motion and instantly said: “Oh, no! Don't pay me back!” You looked at him, staying in one spot, with your wallet already in your hand. “It's okay, really! Besides I own you from the last time.” Reki insured you. You shrugged and putted your wallet back. “Oh hey guys!” you heard from your right. You both knew who it was, Langa. You looked at him. “Hey!” Reki waved at him. “Hi!” you said, little nervous. You wasn't nervous it was more like you were annoyed.

Reki helped you more then he realised. He was lot of times the reason you kept going, it didn't matter if it was a hobby or something else, he was there for you even when he wasn't present. You didn't get it, and you thought it was quite stupid you felt that way. You met thousands upon thousands of people, so why did he had such effect on you? Of course, you were mad at yourself for letting that happen, all though you didn't know how it all happened. You watched as Langa was practically flying in the air. Reki was amazed, cheering his friend on. It was impressive it really was, but it felt boring watching Langa fly. All though, you felt bored to death, watching Langa skate had it's perks. If you were watching him, you were watching him closely, every move he made, so in the end you could get little better as well. “Woah, Langa! That was cool!” Reki patted his friend on the back. “Yeah, it was impressive!” you said smiling. Langa laughed and said, “Thanks, I didn't expect to jump that high.” “Damn, Langa, don't flex on us!” Reki sarcastically smirked. “Huh?” Langa let out a sound of pure confusion. Langa, a blue-haired boy that was talented athlete. He wasn't good with emotions and lot of times not picking up the tones of sentences and he, as well, didn't understand love. But in “S” he was a respected member, quickly going up in the ranks, and getting recognised by ADAM himself.

He had talent, but you were scared for him. You didn't think the fame was getting into his head, it was more, that the desperate push of wanting to go faster was crawling into his head.

And you know that Reki saw it too. You were both scared that Langa would end up just like Icarus. Flying high, but with a fall.

As you finally get to the grounds of “S”, you could see Miya and Shadow fighting. You, Reki and Langa went straight to them.

“SHUT U, OLD MAN!” Miya yelled in annoyance. “YOU- Oh hey guys!” Shadow greeted us.

“Hi Shadow.” you smiled at him. You practically zoned out after that, just remembering Joe and Cherry enter the arena with all their glory, fighting over something.

“Shut your mouth, you peanut-sized brain ape!” Cherry scuffed, as they were coming over to use. “Geez, why are you always fighting? At this point, you look like a married couple!” you smirked at them, knowing that you action would anger them.

“I would never marry this machine-obsessed idiot!” Joe said, looking at Cherry with annoyance.

“Yeah, yeah, sure.” you laughed.

Reki got ready for his race. As the last the green light glowed above them, they started skating. You didn't even know who he was racing against. You was so fixated on Reki and his skating, that you forgot everything about the world around you.

As Reki passed the finish line as first one, we started cheering. He started running towards you. Langa moved little towards him, and they hugged. It was no big deal, they were friends. In fact, they were a really close friends. It was no big deal, except it was. It broke you, seeing them hug each other.

You and Reki. It was always you and Reki, until Langa appeared in the class. From that point it was Langa and Reki. They were the duo. You despite Langa at first, you had burning hatred towards him but you learn to stop jugging him. Well, how could YOU judge HIM?

He only find out what it was to be with Reki, and how awesome Reki is.

Reki was your reason to breathe, to walk, to get up every morning, to keep on going on your path, to do everything in your life. He was the whole meaning of your life, hell, he WAS your life.

But you weren't his.

It wasn't a problem.

It just hurt you...it hurts too much.

Too much for it to be real. All though, it was the realest thing in your life.

Psychology seminar in high school got me weak, because why am I rewriting 10 word pages onto one A4 paper. And it's only two topics. 💔💔💔

Me when I have to learn for the subject I picked, because I was curious about it and it was only for my personal hobby/interest and not for my carrier:

Nightmares

Father!Diluc x Reader

Prompt: You get nightmares so you asks if you can sleep in Diluc's bed

Word Count: 629

Warning: Killer chasing you at the beginning

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You were running as fast you could. Your lungs slowly running out of oxygen. All you could see are trees and bushes.

Your eyes we jumping from one side to other, trying to find a place to hide in. But you couldn't find anything, not even a tree that was thick enough to hide you.

You could hear a load maniacal laugh, sounds of heavy boots running following the voice.

You could feel your heart going even faster. You need to run faster. You just wanted to be away from the person chasing you.

You could hear the footsteps getting near you. "No no no.." was all you could say, repeating it over and over.

Suddenly, hand grabbed your wrist, tugging you back. You were able to turn your head, seeing the person swinging their axe at you.

You shot up from your sleep. You weren't able to catch your breath for few seconds. Cold sweet dripping from your body.

You felt sick. Moving your hand onto your chest, you could feel your heart still beating fast.

Turning your head, you looked around your room. You could see pretty clearly, moonlight shining through your window, lighting up the room.

Still feeling uneasy, you got up from your bed. You decided that, maybe drinking some water would help.

You quietly walked downstairs, heading to the kitchen. On your trip to the kitchen, you didn't forget to look around you, observing even the smallest cracks in the floor of the Ragnvindr mansion.

You felt goosebumps appear on your skin. You didn't like that you were walking around in the dark throughout this big mansion.

Finally, arriving to the kitchen, you were able to get some cold water into you. You drank two glasses of cold water, discovering that you were actually really thirsty after one sip of water.

You put the glass into a sink, turning around on your heal and walking out of the kitchen.

You still didn't feel safe in the mansion, all alone. You felt like someone is going to attack you at any second.

You quickly, yet still silently, ran up the stairs. You looked at doors at the end of the hallway. Your dad's bedroom.

Maybe, you can ask him if you could sleep next to him? He surely wouldn't mind, right? Yeah..

Bitting into your cheek, you started walking towards the door. You didn't want to wake him up, but you were scared.

You slowly opened the door, walking in. You could see your dad, Diluc Ragnvindr, sleeping. The moonlight made his red hair look like a fire.

You closed the wooden doors. You moved next to the bed Diluc was sleeping on. You were staring at him before poking his shoulder.

"Dad?" you ask as an attempt to wake him up. The attempt was successful as Diluc moved before slowly opening his eyes.

"Y/n..?" he let out, his voice being raspy and sleepy. You felt little bad for waking him up.

"Um, I had a nightmare.. could I sleep in your bed?" you asked, shifting you gaze from him to your feet.

"Oh.. yeah, sure. Come here." he said, shifting back, lifting the duvet he was covered with. You quickly lay down.

You hugged him, putting your forehead against his chest. Diluc put the duvet on top of you two, his arms hugging you.

"It's okay, no need to be scared.." he whispered, moving his hand to your head and started playing with your hair.

You felt way more safer now. Your eyes getting heavier by the second. Letting yourself relax, you could feel like you were going to pass out any second.

Diluc kissed your forehead with words, "Goodnight, Y/n".

You let out weak, "Goodnight, dad.."

Soon enough dozing off to sleep.

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Damn, people really liked the "It hurts so much". Didn't expect that.

But thanks.

and what if i said i want these two so bad

Miyabi and Astra just keep surprising me.

Because why is my very badly build Miyabi doing 162k...

I am so happy I got them. Only problem that I'm pulling for Evelyn (MY LOOOOOVE) next week, so that's another character to build... 😞

(I actually love building characters but the farming takes years off my life like those fantasy dealmakers in fantasy media.)