Something That I Noticed, But Is Probably Super Obvious Or Overthinking, But In The Scene That Alastor

Reblog if you think asexuality is a legitimate sexuality.

I'm trying to prove something.

Can we have a show of just SQ going on random adventures? Like I NEED TO KNOW IF HES OK!!!!!!!!!!

They'll never be able to separate Jekyll from Hyde

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(Spoilers)

Pain Of Knowing

(This is based on the amazing show The Mysterious Benedict Society, the newest episode.)

Happiness. Unlimited pure joy. A flash of light and it was gone. Guilt, sadness, self-hatred, grief, betrayal, all emotions he greeted as though they were old friends. Wave after wave of crushing emotion enveloped his mind, turning it numb. He should tell the others. He should tell them that it worked and he was free. He should’ve, but he didn’t. It was too much, too much too soon. Despite himself, he missed the fake happiness. The way it calmed his mind even as he fought against it. He missed the way it erased the pain of knowing. Knowing what was happening was wrong, that his brother was the one who caused it all. Knowing he was being manipulated, put in place and moved around like a chess piece on a board, but not having the strength to stop it. Simply gone. Gone with a wave of a hand and a smile. He would tell them. He would tell them when every thought in his mind didn’t claw at him, when the near constant weight on his chest lessened. He would, soon. Just not now.

I hope you liked it! Sorry for any mistakes I made! I’m open to constructive criticism so feel free!

Spoilers

Alina keeps trying to make Baghra feel better while Baghra talks about her past is both sad and funny. Baghra nonchalantly saying she killed her sister and both of her parents were abusive in one way or another like she’s discussing the weather and Alina is genuinely concerned. Mal is just chilling in the background.

I don't think some of you should be coming down on Aziraphale so hard for his decision and I'm going to point out something not enough people take into consideration.

Just think of the circumstances he was in. He got offered a deal that could fix pretty much every single problem they have and that could consequently make both him and Crowley incredibly happy.

At least that's how he sees it. It all comes crashing down once he realises that that's not what Crowley wants. That it's not that easy for them to have that perfect life. Having that opportunity and then it being ripped right out of his hands. Just look at how giddy he was when he was telling Crowley, after which he straight up went into denial and refusing to listen to what Crowley has to say, because this. would. have. solved. everything.

But... it's not what Crowley wants. And it's not as if he can make him go with him to Heaven (thank god) because he's not that kind of person. He's not possessive or controlling. And more than anything he loves Crowley and up until that moment he had the perfect means to make him happy. And now it's gone.

So not only does he have this earth shattering realisation about Crowley and what he wants he also now has to deal with what he himself wants. Now if anyone knows how it feels to be in such a stressful and agonising dilemma over something, you will probably feel and emphasise with Aziraphale pretty hard in this scene. Because this is where old coping mechanisms start to hit. This is where he falls back on something reliable, something he can trust will make the right decision, and that is his old belief that Heaven is to be obeyed and that it can do no wrong, that is still so ingrained in his instincts and decision making. This is where his trauma comes into play.

And he fights it.

How fucking strong do you have to be to be able to fight your own gut feeling, that has been trained and created for millions of years. He actively tries to tell the Metatron "no" multiple times, shame that the Metatron is a master manipulator and doesn't let him the opportunity, but he still does it nonetheless.

(This is the part I wanted to point out) This boy had to make a life changing decision that would determine how he would spend the rest of eternity itself. And he didn't even have 10 minutes to make it.

He had only minutes to make this decision. Imagine the sheer soul-shattering heart-rending turmoil that has been going on inside him. The sheer panic and dread he was probably feeling.

And despite what millenia of training and what his thoughts and logic were telling him, he still followed his heart, he still chose Crowley... until the Metatron sensed exactly that and told him about the Second Coming.

Well, now that made things much simpler. His happiness or the universe. And he sacrificed himself. Again...

And to top it all off, he had to fucking smile. He has just lost everything he loves, earth, the bookshop, crepes... and Crowley. No. No, it's more than that. After Crowley's confession he realised he lost everything he never even had. Utterly and completely alone. And he cannot dare shed a tear. How. Fucking. Strong. Do you have to be to be able to do that.

I don’t know if anyone has thought of this yet, but what if Alastor was engaged when he was alive? Most likely not a sexual one because of his sexuality of course, but what if? Like Alastor deep in thought messing with a ring on his finger (over his gloves or even without his gloves on) and Angel or Charlie comes in a sees it but is either to scared or to hesitant to ask about it? (Husker knowing what happened or at least a part of it.)

(This is probably a stupid idea but I kept thinking about it.)

Goodluck Pikachu

Why is it always the less known shows that have the best characters? Like The Mysterious Benedict Society, literally a show/book that has amazing representation, characters, and plot, but isn’t nearly as popular as it should be?