Craving Covert Noncon And Brainwashing So Fucking Bad Right Now. Worm Into My Head. Violate Me. Use Me.

FYI my main @omgwoolybully has been terminated.

This is my new main.

There is something so remarkably delicious about consensually teasing a partner you care deeply for.    Sensing how they  become incredibly excited.  Savouring the paradoxical tension they feel.   Knowing their excitement rises  when they  feel powerful sensual submission  brought on when they offer hands to be bound.    

Feel the heart racing  as they are led to  feel increasingly vulnerable  when they are blindfolded.  The adrenaline courses through them as the sense of sight is restricted.   Inspiring deep tingling in places they know well as they  feel praise & humiliation desires  they weren’t fully aware of yet by telling them what a  beautiful little toy you are  as spit drips down their chin/body from wearing a cute ball gag.   All this while knowing they  faithfully touch & edge  themselves as instructed prior to seeing you.    

You  have incredibly deep feelings  of warm love and desire  when you realize how much  trust it  takes to  submit like this.   It’s like the more they  fantasize about it  the  deeper the connection  and love.  The deeper they connect the more they  fantasize about your submission.   Feel the rush.

Truly amazing.  

please don't just edge me until i beg. edge me until i beg and then tell me no. edge me until i'm spending more time on the edge then not in my waking hours. edge me until my begging turns to sobbing. edge me until i'm so certain you will never say yes and give into my begging that my sobbing turns into pathetic pleas for mercy that my heart truly will never be given. edge me until i'm devoid of hope that i'll ever cum again because my love and devotion for you is much stronger then any desire to cum. That's when i want you to finally say yes

finding an enabler is so much fun like woops hahaha you’re encouraging me to enjoy things i shouldn’t hahaha sure hope this doesn’t get out of control

use my cunt

Is that how you ask?

it is so rewarding to turn a very smart woman into a stupid, edge addicted girl. she truly is capable of amazing things and i have watched her achieve great heights but she readily throws that off to the side to be a mindless whore for me<3

you know it’s funny, i’ve done a lot of humiliating things. i’ve submitted to strangers online. i’ve tortured myself for the amusements of others. i’ve pissed myself. i’ve made myself dumber and more desperate on purpose.

but the most humiliating thing that i can do is what i’m doing right now — admit that as much as i wish i was more, that i was better than this, i’m not. i can’t keep away no matter how hard i try. i will always have this craving to be humiliated and degraded. the thought of being used and abused will always make me ache and drip, even if it disgusts my rational mind.

i’m a dumb desperate slut with a broken mind. and i love it.

ATTENTION ALL CUNTS!!

Today I discovered a totally amazing way to help me become a better edgeslut! This has probably been done before but I want to share it with everyone I possibly can because it’s amazing🥰

All you need is a pair of panties and some scissors! While you’re wearing the panties find where they sit over your little clitty, then take them off and cut the tiniest little slit in the panties—just enough for your clit to stick out of!

Make sure you spread your gross cunt lips out of the way when you put your new panties on, because the goal is for your clit to be isolated on the outside of your panties—to rub against the seam of your pants, your thighs when you’re walking around the house, or whatever furniture you’re desperate enough to hump!

The one downside is that the stimulation might make you cum at first if you’re not careful… but the benefits are:

-constant stimulation to make you wet and needy,

-you’ll constantly be able to reach an edge at a moment’s notice, but

-your clit gets swollen and sore to the point that it hurts to rub it long enough to cum

-you’ll look dumber and spacier to your peers all the time because of your brand new constant distraction,

-and more!

I’ve only had my clit panties on for a half hour and I’m already overstimulated—I can’t wait to see how I feel after tomorrow, my clit will probably be screaming💕 please rb if you’re a cunt who is gonna try this or a Man who’s making His toy try it! I’d love to hear how it goes!!

Numbing cream

This morning I had some time to be lazy in the bed before work. I was going to edge, then I remembered the numbing cream. I have Emla for using before laser epilation (to get rid of the hair) on my labia. 

I’ve been fantasizing about BeingFuckedWithNumbingCreamOn SlowlyLosingSensationAnd WastingTheRareChanceToCum for some time now. Wanted to try how it really feels.

I took the cream from the bed side drawer and put a large amount on my finger. 

Even the thought of this made my pussy drip. Without even touching my clit, I was on the edge. It’s all in the mind, after all ;) In my strange mind. 

I reached my clit and rubbed the whole amount in circles, until it was all soaked. Some on the surrounding area too. I made sure there was an excess amount of cream directly on the clit. 

I edged, just from this brief stimulation on my clit. With the thought of the numbing cream, it was so intense. I stopped touching, but I was going to go over the edge, I could feel it. So I opened my legs wide and opened my labia with hands wide, to stop the slightest contact on my clit. Like that, I waited for 10 minutes, and rubbed to test. The sense had decreased, but I could still feel the touch. Ahh it was soo sweet. I waited another 15 minutes and rubbed again. Oh my.. nothing. 

My clit stopped existing. I touched and rubbed and pressed. Nothing. Just a piece of nerveless meat. Like your mouth after the dentist gives you the anesthetic shot.

My clit completely numbed, I reached for my dildo. It is very smooth, polished wood, curved, to press the right spots inside. I started fucking myself with it. There was a lot of pleasure from the dildo too. I thought I was getting close. If I went over the edge I decided to let it happen so that I prove myself that I can cum from penetration only. I would cum, and remove the dildo just when I start to throb, and ruin it. 

Idea of ruining a penetration-only orgasm sounded so evil. Made me hotter. 

I fucked myself so fast with the dildo. Without my clit feeling nothing, the pleasure was intense, but just not enough. Or maybe it would be enough if I could continue as long as necessary but my arm would get so tired after like 4-5 minutes I’d need to stop and rest. With each frenzied thrust, I edged. With each stop for rest, I calmed down. As I was fucking myself with the dildo like crazy I heard these inner voices of some strangers I imagined playing with me:

 “This is all you get for pleasure now. Your clit is gone. Kaputt. Nada. All you get is penetration only. Cum from this.” 

This was so hot and I was so close I was panting and moaning in the bedroom out loud and sweating… Yet I could not go over that edge.

More than an hour of furiously trying, my arms were very tired, and my body was very frustrated. I gave up. I dressed, and came to work.

My clit came back like half and hour later I left home. It started throbbing with need under my jeans.

I have been at work for 3 hours. I can not do real work. I can not concentrate on anything. The ache on my pussy has consumed me. The need is overwhelming.

When I talk to my colleagues, it’s like I’m faking the conversation. What I’m really thinking about is the ache.

Instead of doing proper work, I am typing this on my laptop, getting wetter and more needy as type it.

i get sooo many asks and DMs asking for tips on how to get better at edging so i wanted to make an actual post about how i turned myself into a total edgeslut — and how you can, too! there's really only one main 'rule' to follow while you're learning how to edge, so i promise you can do it! this info should still be applicable regardless of your particular genitalia, but i mostly reference cunts because that's what i've got.

the one rule!

my ultimate suggestion for people who are new to edging and finding it almost impossible is to STOP TRYING TO EDGE. some of you are going like that's crazy edging is all i want to do! but listen to me. listen to me. we are going to get you there.

if horniness is a scale of one to ten, with one being 'not horny at all' and ten being 'orgasming' the ideal edging situation is that you get to a nine and then stop. that's really hard to do, though! but you could probably get to a four and stop, right? pretty easily, even.

that's what you want to do. figure out that highest number on that scale you can go and still stop, and go to that number. do this a lot. i love, love, LOVE touching like this, even now that i am a pro at edging, because there's zero risk of going over and it's still a great tool to keep you horny / submissive / feeling hot as hell / whatever it is you want to get out of edging.

start at bringing yourself to a four and then stop. once you've mastered that, once that feels almost too easy, move up to a five. then a six. seven. i encourage you not to cum at all while you're doing this, but also, i'm not your dom! do what you want! the point is you're touching-without-cumming a lot (which is great practice all on it's own) and you're acclimating your body to getting horny, sometimes even REALLY horny, without actually cumming every time it happens.

doing this regularly also has the pleasant side-effect keeping you aroused more often than not. if you're constantly bringing yourself to level seven horniness and then stopping, you are almost never going to drop below level three. you are going to be turned on a LOT, which feels sooooo good. which leads to...

getting addicted*!

the thing about being always horny, about touching yourself all the time, about never cumming, is that it feels really, really good. people wouldn't do denial if it didn't! and once you've had a month or so of touching-but-not-edging and your body's adjusted to the sense of being constantly turned on and how good it feels, it gets to a point where cumming is a lot less appealing. you know it's going to take away the good, horny, happy feeling that you're getting addicted to! once you've come to really, really enjoy being constantly horny, and come to associate the idea of cumming with losing that good feeling, that makes it a lot easier to keep from going over as you creep up to higher levels like eight and nine. and even when you do go over, the fact that you'll lose the sensation that you've come to enjoy so much will just reinforce for you that it's better not to cum!

*i'm using addicted as a fun little hyperbole word here, but i do want to add the disclaimer that if your edging / horniness / etc. starts to interfere with your life like a real addiction then you gotta stop that before you hurt yourself. do not actually jeopardize your job/relationships/etc. for kink.

edging!

by this point, you'll have lots of practice at masturbating without going over and you'll be addicted to the feeling of being constantly turned on — and you'll dread the thought of losing that feeling. those things combined are the peak edging scenario. this is the point when you can start trying to edge seriously; bringing yourself to a nine on our horny scale and stopping.

you will probably still go over occasionally as you figure out your actual limits — don't be angry at yourself for this, but do refrain from trying to edge again on days you go over. the last thing you want is to reacclimate your body to coming regularly. if you try to edge in the morning but go over by mistake, just bring yourself to a level eight for the rest of the times you masturbate and try again tomorrow. eventually, you'll know your limits, be addicted to the feeling of being edged, and be really practiced at doing it!

if you're still having trouble or just want to play in new ways, then find out what turns you on but you can't orgasm from. your nipples are sensitive enough to break your brain but you can't orgasm just from that? well then get to playing with them, dummy! love penetration but can't come from it without clit stimulation? tape off your clit and get fucking! i can never cum just from humping a pillow or grinding on something, so grinding is a great way for me to edge! try to find stuff that makes you really, really horny but that you can't orgasm from and really lean into those things!