Always Closer But Never Over...

i wanna be invited to a sex party, only to be tied up as soon as i arrive to serve as lube dispenser. someone positions a bowl underneath my already dripping pussy to catch any excess juices while another man shoves a vibrator against my clit, bringing me right to the edge before stopping, sliding his hand down over my pussy. i wince as he suddenly pushes three fingers in, nodding in approval as he uses my slick to lube up someone's ass.

for the rest of the night i am edged continuously, with people using my dripping pussy to lube up their dicks, toys, fists, or anything they find fun to insert in me. it's never fucking; the only stimulation i get is just slow, almost clinical insertion and exertion. sometimes not even that, only using the bowl under my legs as i beg them to fuck me, please. i try to clench around their dicks, to shake my hips, but they are not here to fuck me. i am just an object to them, an edgeslut so ruined this is the only way i can be useful.

Never give up

You never  give up resisting.  Don’t  let my words stay  deep in your mind.  Just because I find your struggle so cute should have no bearing on your desire to not  touch yourself.   You’re trying to be good and avoid the desire to  touch yourself now  even though it is tempting, but you  keep reading my notes  like you are addicted   and you know you won’t be able to resist no matter how hard you try to be a good girl.   

Such an amazing loop

More.

More edging.

More porn.

More audios.

You need more.

It's never enough.

It will never be enough.

The more you do it the more you break.

The more you break, the better it feels.

The better it feels, the more you do it.

You lost.

And you love it.

Reading your blog has me so horny. I just want to edge and drip while reading your posts and never ever cum

aww 💕 you should know, tho...

it'll make you worse. those kinks you already have? get ready for them to go up to 11. those kinks you don't think you have? get ready to get them.

it'll make you needy. other people's attention will be like a drug. you'll be dying for their approval.

it'll make you dumb. you will have the kind of empty mind a Buddhist initiate dreams of.

you will lose time. one edge turns into ten turns into twenty... hours go by with your hand between your legs and you won't even notice.

most of all... you'll give up. on what, exactly, is impossible to say. maybe you'll give up on ever getting permission. maybe you'll give up your rights to cum whenever you want. or you'll give up on anything ever feeling as good as denial. or you'll give up the idea of being human entirely and become a pet thing mostly made of need. regardless, you will give up. you will give in. in so many ways.

enjoy 💕

hii um. i like your blog. do you have any ideas for things to do to better corrupt oneself? any favorite mantras or videos?

Thank you I’m glad you enjoy! There are lots of good mantras and plenty of videos available online. I don’t have one go-to that I hand out to everyone who asks as it seems different individuals respond better to different stimuli. Rules are super helpful though. Set goals to make achievements on regular intervals. Unlocking new praise and titles as you corrupt yourself more and more is so fun.

Direct guidance with a trusty accountability partner can be so much more fulfilling and helpful though. Feel free to message directly or off anon for more of what I think.

Stay slutty, be safe, be good or be good at it

If you really want to indulge fantasy and don’t already do this, just record yourself as you rub/edge.   You may notice that you love knowing you're making yourself into porn, even if the recording is not for anyone else.

Even more excitement ripples through your body and mind as the humiliation loop fuels your fantasy.  It’s like the more you rub & make your own porn, the filthier of a slut toy you are.  Then the more of a dirty edge toy you are, the more you need to touch yourself.  

Finally you will then edge to how much more of a pathetic slut you made yourself, how desperate you now are, how filthy you are as you observe your recorded porn.  Don’t forget to use caution.  Congratulations now you are your own little pornstar.   

my daily mantras:

i am not a person. i am an object for use. i exist to be used, fucked, and degraded. i am a toy, a fleshlight, a brainless piece of fuckmeat. i need all of my holes filled with cock and cum. i exist to serve. i am nothing if i am not being fucked and/or preparing myself to be fucked. i edge to dumb myself down and i brainwash myself to serve my true purpose. i must take cock in every hole as often as possible, especially my ass

Filled

Yes, baby.

Yes, it’s possible to learn to like anal. To love the feeling of being stretched there, being filled. To crave it.

But I don’t want that, baby.

I want you to hate it every single time.

I want you to cry while I fuck your ass, I want you to beg me not to and promise anything and everything just so I won’t do it again.

I want it to be my favorite hole anyway.

Will you do that for me, baby?

Finger me fast and hard in exactly the way you know is going to make me squirt over and over again. Then tell me what a messy, disappointing little girl I am. You can’t believe that getting played with made me wet the bed again. Clearly you’re going to have to punish me really harshly this time because I’m such a pathetic mess who just won’t learn her lesson. You don’t like having to hurt me but there’s no other way to get through to such a stupid, helpless little thing. If I could just hold it like a good girl you wouldn’t have to make me cry

I’m scared of my daddy, but he won’t let me say no to things ‘I’m the one who is in charge’ what do I do?

No baby doll....YOU are the one who is in charge. Not him.

The only power that he has over you is the power that you give him. Call a timeout, say your safe word, and explain to him that these are your boundaries. It's okay to push the limits every now and then but if you are not comfortable doing something, say something. Consent is trusting your partner with knowing when to stop 🛑