God Grant Me The Serenity To Eroticize What I Cannot Change

You are fine. You are healthy. You are good. Relax and enjoy yourself.

“…Many people fear their fantasies signal immorality, perversion, or mental illness. Here it’s vital to distinguish between sexual thoughts and actions. Some sexual actions are illegal, but all sexual thoughts —even if they’re disturbing— are normal, healthy, and fine. Your fantasies are no reflection on your morality, mental health, or ability to maintain loving relationships. Sexual fantasies simply exercise the erotic imagination—with all constraints removed.

…In addition, no matter what their content, sexual fantasies are normal, i.e healthy and sex-enhancing. Solo or partnered, sexual pleasure depends on deep relaxation, which opens (dilates) the arteries in the central body, ushering extra blood into the genitals. This extra blood produces penile and clitoral erection, vaginal self-lubrication, sensitivity to erotic touch, and pleasure. But those who fear or revile sexual fantasies don’t relax. Instead of dilating, their arteries constrict, which reduces blood to the genitals and impairs sexual function and pleasure.

If you want to be all you can be sexually, fantasize more often and more vividly. Instead of feeling guilt, shame, and self-loathing, understand that everyone has sexual fantasies, that many are wild and beyond anything people would do in real life, and that whatever your fantasies, they’re normal, healthy, and fine.”

Psychology Today

The 7 Most Popular, and Powerful, Sexual Fantasies

Few fantasize about their regular partners. Many dream of unconventional sex.

you know you cant stop

Feels too good

Edge Addict

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Do you enjoy being mindlessly horny? Do you enjoy being close to the edge? Do you enjoy being denied orgasm without permission?

Of course you do! If you’re not already addicted to touching yourself, there is a good chance you will be after listening to this file on loop for awhile.

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Hi sir - I’ve been edging for the past few weeks and reading your posts but I have no one to use me… do I keep edging until the right man comes along?

Basically… I’m asking for permission to cum because I’ve been edging for weeks and it’s all I can think about, even now my clit is throbbing and pussy is clenching around nothing just thinking about cumming. I’ve had no release and it’s all I can think about.

Please let me know what I can do, I’m desperate for some sort of guidance or instruction :((

-R💕

Good toy for reaching out!

Isn’t it delicious maintaining this state of heightened sexual tension? Shaping your daydreams.. permeating your mind… making your life more fun… creating intrigue… being complicit in your own bliss.

Rub more, edge more, goon more until you have permission. Let the feelings driven by your desire wash over your brain and savor it.

The short answer is yes. Keep edging until you have permission from a man. Some enjoy making posts and having their orgasms somewhat controlled by followers, which can be fun. Or it could be a rl or an online partner. As long as it’s someone you enjoy interacting with and trust to maintain your boundaries and help guide you in just the right ways that drive your desire. If you would like me to give guidance and perhaps permission, feel free to reach out directly as opposed to anon and we can see if it is a good fit.

Enjoy yourself, have fun, be safe and good luck!

I love the precipice between order and obedience. That moment right after my brain registers a command and just before my body carries it out, especially when the command pushes me into new submissive territory. I step outside of myself for that moment and watch myself process it. Am I really going to do that? I could never. I would never. It’s too much. Too embarrassing. Too vulnerable. Too delicious to deny. My body has already made the choice. All I can do is watch as I hand over another piece of my dignity to please them, knowing I’ll do it again and again until nothing’s left but pleasure and obedience.

Edging is your self hypnosis. It keeps you grounded and level, reminding you what you are.

You can’t get enough of how it feels to tune the world out and rub. That aching feeling, the desperate need for friction, your clit is reacting now as you read this.

Squeezing your thighs any chance you get, mindlessly humping as you sit, desperate for that feeling. Your mind goes beautifully blank, your pussy starts to flood and then you drop…

Making her piss herself then bullying her for being so pathetic and pissing herself >>>

what's your edgeslut level?

✨ Level 1: drippy baby - you edge for awhile each time you want to cum~ you watch your usual porn. it feels so good! maybe it's getting a little longer each time? there's just no way you could go overnight! unless...

✨ Level 2: perverted prince/ss - you like how needy you're starting to get 💕 your taste in porn is getting a little more degrading...anytime you think about it during the day, your clit/dick starts throbbing. just one more day, and then you'll cum. probably...

✨ Level 3: depraved darling - you're starting to crave...permission 💗 you're edging to edging porn now, scrolling through denial tumblr. you've found yourself trying to look dumb and sexy when you edge, spreading your legs more, maybe sticking your tongue out. you've even submitted a few anon asks or texted your partner begging permission to cum. sometimes you cum anyway, other times you wait. it feels good to get permission, but it's scary: sometimes it feels better to be told no...

✨ Level 4: gooning goner - you don't know if you want permission anymore 💋 it's been weeks now. are you even still keeping count? you're edging to porn of other people cumming. your holes/dick are constantly leaking, and it's getting too easy to start with "just one edge" and wake up to find hours have gone by. when you cum or ruin without permission, you start begging to be punished. mantras are constantly running through your head, even when you're not edging: good toys don't cum. wetter is better.

✨ Level 5: needy numbskull - you've lost the ability to cum without permission~ you're edging to recordings of people being degraded and punished. you feel so vulnerable and impressionable all the time; it makes you scared even as it makes you feel aroused. it's hard to think even when you're not edging. the mantras in your head are starting to change: my orgasms don't belong to me. i'm more useful when i'm denied.

✨ Level 6: addicted doll - you stop thinking about cumming at all; you stop thinking about whether you should worry about how dumb you're starting to get. you strip naked and kneel every time you edge, tongue out and drooling, feeling only vague embarrassment. you edge to porn of yourself being punished for ruining without permission, or being forced to ruin. there are still certain things you won't do, even for the chance to cum, but you debase yourself almost voluntarily for your betters now🧡

✨ Level 7: useful idiot - you sneak away to edge at work/school 💖 you don't even need porn to edge now. you don't even need to think about it, or to be told to do it - you just do. you only beg to cum in order to humiliate yourself further for your betters, to give them pleasure in saying "no." you don't want it anymore, hell, you don't want to do anything but please them. you'll hump the air for their amusement, you'll lick their cum off the floor, you'll let them punish your cunt/dick for even thinking it deserves to cum. the mantra's changed again, your final form: pathetic sluts don't deserve to cum. pets like me are made to be needy. if the thought of cumming even crosses your mind, you run to your betters and beg to be punished until it goes away. who needs a chastity belt? you've broken yourself all on your own 💋💕💗💖💓💘

[captioning or tagging this post with my DNI/hard limits will get you blocked. i need to keep my notes safe for me 💕]

...can't fault that logic.

It is OK.

You are OK. If you’re unsure about how far you let your kinks go.. If you surprise yourself how far your kinks go.. If you are still discovering new levels to your kinks.. You have no need to worry when you just take a moment to realize.. You’re trapped. You’ll always want this. It will probably only get worse. The more you fight it, the more your need for it gets stronger. The more you feel it getting stronger the more you feel you need it. Your body isn’t lying to you. This is who you really are.   Have an amazing day.

Why denial is important:

A good girl knows that she needs to edge. She knows that she needs to edge as much as she possibly can, and stay as frustrated and horny as humanly possible. She knows this because she knows one very important thing:

sex isn’t for her. It’s for the people who use her.  And all of that edging, all of that work to bring herself to incredible levels of frustration and arousal are rendered moot the moment that she lets herself cum. Yes, an orgasm brings with it satisfaction and contentment, and it’s for those exact reasons that a good girl knows better. Because, after all, if she isn’t worked up… if she isn’t frustrated, and her cunt isn’t constantly yanking her attention back down to it, she runs the risk of forgetting one very important thing:

good girls exist to be used. And if she lets herself cum, she loses her edge. She loses all that pent up frustration and need. She loses her need to be used. But, she knows better.