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Antony Gormley

Frederico VENDER - Mannequin de corde, vers 1930

need to bake this take in the oven a little but sensationalism of venomous or otherwise dangerous animals feels kind of colonizer. australia is uniquely uninhabitable because cassowaries will kill you if you chase one, idk. i feel like a dumb american every time i learn for the first time that a famously dangerous animal isn't literally bloodlusted.

400 hundred year old abandoned maze in Spain.

Seeing an upsetting post by an ex friend and watching a Disco Elysium skill check screen pop up on my HUD.

Ludwigia sedioides, commonly known as mosaic flower.

tme ppl be like hoooly fuck you’re so #gender ive always wanted to be a malecoded girltwink femboy shame of god you’re so #goals i wish femininity was as impossible for me as it is you

do you still see the woman I am? can you?

plaster, burlap, steel, cotton rope. 2024.

Made by taking alginate lifecasting molds of my body and pouring liquid plaster into the molds and suspending the casts from a welded frame.

This was originally an exploration of my dysphoria, the physical aspect i feel in seeing my own body, but also the social aspect of dysphoria and being put into boxes by those that perceive us. After finishing it feels more like a celebration of my transness, the beauty in trans femininity, and a celebration of my body despite the persistence of dysphoria and shame from society. Thanks for viewing.

🌵 Curtis’s botanical magazine. London ; New York [etc.]: Academic Press [etc.].

Have you been pooped on by a bird? NOT a pet bird or farm animals or game you were handling. Just like a bird on a telephone wire or flying through the sky and you just happened to be unlucky underneath it.

inside out

Happy to report that despite everything, it’s still bart world

oh! i’ve just the thing

girl not the jondage gear

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if you wanna understand why transmisogyny is so horrifying you have to understand the sorts of social and cultural patterns it takes to abuse someone until they will happily fulfill the role of the fetishized tokenized tranny bc any other option means isolation and death.

patriarchal society needs its sacrificial hypersexualized disgusting living sex-objects, and transmisogyny is how it tries to turn a human into that. i keep thinking abt this 4chan thread i read ~2013 shortly after i came out, in which a chaser talked about how he specifically liked dating trans women because “they have such low self-esteem that you can make them do anything”. he went on to talk about how he specifically looks for trans women with “dead, lifeless eyes” (aka dissociated from ptsd) because “they’re like a doll you can mold into whatever you want, then discard when you’re done, and there will always be more desperate for love”

that’s what transmisogyny is: a systematic pattern of abuse applied to a small sacrificial portion of the population to create a class of women with no claim to community or personhood, who will never be defended or avenged, who can be safely sunk into the attrition of patriarchy’s darker desires to protect the cis women, who after all could one day be mothers or some other kind of person. we are the class sacrificed to men’s violence and cis women’s violence. the socially unimportant. the weird and ugly. the punching bag. the blowup doll that talks. the mad artist that produces something great and then must burn out cause who could support that eccentric through life? the activist who makes huge steps for the better but stumbles on a community that would rather rape and abandon her than admit that it needs her. the queen of the dance who gets beaten with sticks as she’s leaving it and no one helps.

and its easy to do this, by painting the class as predatory, by making us hate and fear our own genitals, by indoctrinating us with an absurd amount of self-hatred, by giving us no out, no safe community, no one we can ever turn to. every cis person becomes a beartrap just waiting to swing shut and take out a chunk of flesh. and with fear and trauma we start to disappear from the world. we commit suicide, we overdose on heroin, we starve quitely in rooms playing videogames, or we become the tranny they want, deadeyed and always compliant and always ready to soak up blame. but whatever happens its the same: over time, we cease to exist. the person we are withdraws from the world until there is little to nothing left.

i don’t know how to stop it, but this has to stop. this is not something anyone ever should have to go through.

The three stages of cis allyship:

I understand that you are a girl*

I understand that you are a girl

I understand that you are a girl*

if it helps nothing is permitted. you arent allowed to do anything. everything you do will always be able to be interpreted as, and therefore is, wrong. youre going to hurt people. you are going to manipulate people. youre going to fuck up. so what rules do you want to break? how do you want to be wrong? what kind of harm are you okay with doing to a person? what kind of manipulation is true to you? what kind of fuck up do you want to be? how do you make peace with the violence implicit in living? start there.

stop telling trans girls that "it's okay to be a feminine man" and start saying it to "cis" girls with a little bit of a fujoshi vibe instead. would have saved me years.

Lara Violetta by Elizaveta Porodina for Violet Papers November 2024

Olivier Noraz (Hair Stylist), Valentina Li (Makeup Artist), Jabez Bartlett (Set Designer), Eri Narita (Manicurist)

Liu Hao, Huang Tingwei, Poppy by Elizaveta Porodina for Modern Weekly China December 2024

Audrey Hu (Fashion Editor/Stylist), MingHu Zhang (Hair Stylist), Valentina Li (Makeup Artist)

Robert Wun, Autumn/Winter 2024

can i come over and do this

if reclaiming slurs is simply a matter of having ever been called it, rather than being the actual intended target of it, then congratulations to every single middle schooler in a CoD lobby for being the vanguard of progressive reclamation

girls will get on here and make posts about how the alienating and isolating effects of transmisogyny make them timid and scared and hesitant to share any part of themselves no matter how small out of fear that they'll be immediately interpreted as predators and then the notes will be full of people saying shit like "i love this though??? it makes me feel so safe how scared they are to even receive hugs <3"

Transparent lamb skin shibari bag by Hannah Freeke. Tattooed by Thirty Nin.

kate bush fanzines

Crystal dagger uncovered in Spain, dating to around 3.000 BC

sue de beer