Sprry for the random vent. That just, was one of the worst panic attacks we’ve had in months, and we’ve been seizing lately. I get so scared we’re getting worse, I don’t want to fail. And.. what am I supposed to do in this economy, I’m getting so much worse , i can’t even handle a solid week of school without getting drained. Disability is kicking my ass. I can’t live as a disabled person in here. I don’t have a good cane, the one I have is too tall (unadjustable) and doesn’t have a rubber tip, so it slides. Not to mention that a day without my medication could literally send me into a psychotic break, and i’m going to be moving soon, possibly loose my medication. I know I say i’m working hard, but i’m really not. I’m trying, sure, but it’s not nearly enough. I can’t give my all without leaving myself worthless for the next few days, but i *need* to give my all or i’ll fail.
I’m just scared. Nobody needs to reply to this, I just needed to get it out there. Off my chest.
No typing quirk for this, Recovering from a panic attack and flashback, that was.. awful. I can’t wait to move out.
Oh dear, that’s quite unfortunate. Do you need comfort?
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“You don’t need a cane! Smartass.” We have been seizing. We were alone in our room with nobody to help us and couldn’t walk, we had to use the cane because we kept collapsing. She’s done this before. When we seized at school, we had to be wheelchaired out, she screamed at us for 30 minutes, saying we were faking, doing it for attention, all that stuff. She eventually told us that we were a burden, and that she meant it. She constantly reaffirms it.
Our brother tells us to stop being “too much” , We had not said anything offensive. All we asked is why she was mad at us, because we just got out of our room.
This is all in the span of the 3 minutes i left my room after being in it for about 2 hours.
No typing quirk for this, Recovering from a panic attack and flashback, that was.. awful. I can’t wait to move out.
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Oh dear. That must of been so irritating.
Does anybody remember the base of our horns being quite itchy? It would . flake? I suppose? Old horn fragments chipping off as the new permanent part grew in. I remember it was nice to get the base of your horns scratched or “preened” basically.
Haha! My apologies.
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Fur all the trolls who do not yet know us: i am a human nekomimi & trollkin (vriska fictionkin). I'm comforta8le 8eing physically human 8ut wish to 8e purrceived as a troll and identify as such. I'm also transcerulean8lood except fur my permanosebleed identity with which i prefur to have red 8lood fur some reason. Im also transgru8scarred and quadrantromantic and i fall in h8 with just a8out every vriska i see
My headm8 @in-the-fog-i-was-alone is part human nekomimi, part troll due to 8eing a fusion of a human nekomimi and a troll. Theyre cisgold8lood and transred8lood (their identity is fluid 8etween the two, generally comforta8le 8eing seen as 8oth), orange8loodhearted, and low8loodhearted. Theyre a signless/sufferer & kankri fictionkin and super duper sentimental a8out their signless/sufferer identity. Also theyre a seer of 8lood & super annoying a8out a religion from their gold8lood source called "hemognosticism" which is a polytheistic religion with p8tron deities for each caste and more. Theyre quadrantromantic as well, t8ken in all 8ut monoflexi8le, platonically pitch with me (im simult8neously too old and too young fur their t8stes), and super hyperashen
Collectively we're transtrollcultural, pancaste, & transhemognostic. How succinct!
9h dear, I ap9l9gize f9r all that was p9sted 9n my 6l9g while i was away.
IF SU DODNT DINGERACT WITSH ME ISM GOAN CULL MSYLEF
I do not know how.. scaray it is, because I do not have money.
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CERSP. CREEP.
Who are you slurring at 💀?
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