Every Time I Go To Sleep I Wake Up From A Nightmare

Listening to my mom tell me that i had a major personality change when i started going to a dance studio is unlocking a lot if memories of being as outspoken as she said i was how i would lip sync to songs, jumping was enough dancing to have fun, and i was whole lot less conditioned to make myself useful to others.

Also my family members gradually stopped going to therapy once i stopped because they thought they didnt need it anymore. THEY STILL NEED IT. I stopped going because i moved and honestly after visiting them for 3 days i need to go back to therapy.

Im suddenly remembering that i felt like my wellness was a burden. I think im gonna start taking care of myself as a privilege to contribute to my altar because the goddess that i am provides and protects every second of the day and i want to say thank you and convey my sincerity.

S/o to female reproductive system. I see it everywhere I go.

And God said “Love Your Enemy,” and I obeyed and loved myself

- Kahlil Gibran, The Broken Wings

there is always tomorrow

Whenever i cry out of nowhere i check my period tracker.

Stretch Marks

I felt my legs while laying in bed today and felt like they were smoother than usual. This hit me strangely because i remember always feeling the unique stretch marks that have permanently adorned my skin. After spending my preteen and teen years afraid to get in the pool or wear booty shorts, its weird that now that ive finally made peace with my body, my stretch marks are disappearing.

My mom, as a single parent, used to work at the front desk of my dance studio after her regular 9-5 just so i could have “free” unlimited classes and studio space to practice. And that sums up my mom as a parent.