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I'm Jake, and I'm an addict. I've spent over 40 years of my life using various mind altering substances. Everything from alcohol to crystal meth. I decided to make a change in my life about 6 months ago when I realized that all I was doing was running away from things in my life that I didn't want to deal with. Everything from anxiety to physical pain. By the time I was 15 years old I had tried ever drug available on the street at least once. At one point I began selling drugs to support my own habits, and this led to my first time in an institutional setting. I spent 6 months of my life in juvenile prison. I came out of said institution and avoided everything except alcohol for 7 years. At the end of that 7 year period, I found myself still not wanting to use, but in a position that I felt like I had no choice. I was on the tour bus with one of my favorite musicians, and he was offering to smoke a joint with me. It was like hitting the lottery in my mind. Especially since I am a huge music nerd. I gave up my 7 years without drugs at that point. I now understand that alcohol is also a drug, but at that time alcohol was the only thing I was doing. I grew up in a family of alcoholics only I didn't accept it at the time. It led me to be an alcoholic as well. Since I have become involved in 12 step programs, my views have changed. I was substituting other things for the drugs I had given up. I was having sex with anyone that gave me the opportunity. I was eating things when I wasn't even hungry. I spent way too much time playing video games. Over the years I would only use drugs if I was around a band that was using since I was involved in music. I finally got tired of who I am when I'm using and have given it all up. For the first time in my life I'm happy and drug free by choice. I may not have any money, but I have my sanity and my own mind back. If anyone has an addiction they need to talk about, I'm always willing to listen and try to help.
I'm too poor for anything.
I spent all day Saturday at a hog roast. It was a great day of sober fun. It was the first time I have ever been sober at a hog roast. There were games, food, live music and karaoke. The karaoke started with Walk by Pantera. I had to jump in on it since Pantera is one of my favorite bands. I ran into a lot of friends as well. Friends from other sober living programs and meetings at least. I made some new friends as well.
Hey , How are you doing
I'm doing good
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I don't know what that means, I only speak English
Daddy is off the market. I have found my queen, and I'm no longer looking to fill that position.
It seems like I will be working weekends and 1 day during the week for awhile.
An addict shares their journey to sobriety. 48/m/oh I'm engaged to my soulmate, and too poor to pay attention. So I'm not looking to hook up or buy anything. All I can offer anyone is friendship or possibly a short story if the muse comes out. I write on another page though.
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