NO THIS IS SO SO SO SO SO RELATABLE

Neurodivergent culture is growing up believing you were lazy and never tried your best because your best wasn't good enough for the people around you.

NAHHHHHH NOT THE ASTHMAS NOT ME ALWAYS CRYING OR BEING STRESSED AND JUST *pulls Ventolin out of pocket *SWOOSH *BREATHS COUGHS

mfs be tryna help me when im overwhelmed cuz yknow the autism but gosh darnit the social anxiety kicks in and they say “hey you okay” but golly gee the depression fades into frame then they be saying smth like “take a breather” but oooohhh crud here comes the asthma

here’s a little comparison for people who say engagement hasn’t gotten that bad and anyone who complains is ungrateful.

these are two posts from my first go round on tumblr circa 2014-2017, my most popular gifset of all time

& a text post

notice how the ratio is about even on likes to reblogs?

here’s from this go around, my most popular gifset

and my most popular fic

do you see how that’s discouraging?

i love being on this site. i love the little community i’ve found and the people who follow me and the mutuals i’ve made friendships with and the mutuals that i’m still getting to know. i love it. but at a certain point it’s hard to justify spending so much time on works that get bad engagement.

reblog, comment, send asks. without them, this site doesn’t work.

Autistic pigeon, doesn't read the social coos

oh so when vampires have heightened sensory awareness it’s cool, but when I have it it’s ‘autism’

TikTok update where the app won't open unless the user is wearing earphones

Ever since I was a child people have asked me 'what's wrong?', 'why do you look so sad?', 'why are you moody?' even when I have been enjoying myself

My facial expressions do not necessarily match-up to my emotions or neurotypical expectations

I might look sad or down but I show and feel my excitement in different ways than you might expect

Just because I'm not smiling from ear to ear doesn't mean that I am being moody or not enjoying myself